After the apprenticeship, I became a hater

I thought I was used to it long ago, used to being alone, used to having no branches to rely on, used to walking alone among the thorns...

But suddenly, someone told me, I am not alone, I can rely on him.

I just found.It turned out not to be, not that I was used to it, but that I deceived myself that I had to get used to it.

If you tell too many lies, you can even lie to yourself.

Gu Lin also said that to me back then.

He said, "With the senior brother around, the senior brother will protect you and love you."

I believed it, only to be disappointed again and again.

With him...

what.

there is him.

Every time I need him, he is always by Su Lianyi's side.

every time.

I wanted to tell myself that it’s fine to just listen to these words. If you don’t take it seriously, others just coax you. If you foolishly take it seriously, you will cry a lot in the future...

I really warned myself.

But when I heard Master say, "Master is here." My heart jumped for joy and beat endlessly.

"Master..."

My eye sockets were very hot, my heart was beating so loudly that it almost jumped out of my throat, and even my body trembled with excitement.

At that time, I was really easy to coax.

I really, really want... I really want someone to be able to love me and love me.

Being constantly suppressed into the dust, being denied and belittled countless times, being treated maliciously for so long, just getting a little bit of tenderness and kindness, even a little bit of tenderness, is enough to make me overjoyed, to do it again A moth flies to a fire.

I really don't want to be alone anymore.

So, even though I have stumbled once on the same thing, and have suffered from trusting other people's promises, but the master said it, I am still willing to believe him without a trace of doubt.

I'm just that easy to cheat.

You don't need any sweet words, just a small ray of kindness to me, and I can be coaxed to death.

Luo Wuchen hugged my slightly trembling body, and with the top of his head down, he slowly ran down my hair, as gently and affectionately as if he was stroking a baby.

I was in Master's arms, and I felt that my heart had never been so secure as it is now.

But I've never been so scared as I am now.

I always have an unreal feeling in my heart. The master accepted me as a disciple for only three months, and then left the young and ignorant me in retreat for seven years. Thinking about it, he didn't pay much attention to me as a disciple. Why did the master come out? How could Guan be so kind to me?

He drove away Su Lianyi for me, punished Gu Lin for me, and taught me how to use a sword...

Could it be that I am hysterical, or am I daydreaming?

My fingers tightened silently, the fingertips pierced the palm, and the pain brought clarity.

Not a dream.

It is true.

But my heart always seems to be hung by an invisible thin thread, unable to fall into reality.

He treats me so well, yet I can't help feeling a little apprehensive and apprehensive. How can I make Luo Wuchen treat me like this.

I was just a blank sheet of paper, and I didn't have any defensive thoughts, but after suffering so much, I was no longer innocent, became suspicious, and had a thousand thoughts.

My mind was complicated, and doubts floated uncontrollably in my mind.

Su Lianyi has also been "kind" to me. He has been kind to me in all kinds of ways in order to trample me, a disciple of Master Sword, in the dust and mud, unable to turn over.

Luo Wuchen is nice to me, and why?

What he wants from me, can I... afford it?

I instinctively feel fear, fear of the unknown, fear of the way forward that I can't see clearly.

At that time, I just thought that I was worrying about gains and losses and thinking too much.

What kind of status is Luo Wuchen, how could he lower his status to deceive a lowly me.

Is there anything in me worthy of the majestic sword master's scheme?

It's too much to look down on yourself.

Master is kind enough to help me, but I am thinking wildly and maliciously speculating about his good intentions. It really shouldn't be.

Thinking about it, my heart was filled with shame, and I forcibly stopped my thoughts that got deeper and deeper, and the more absurd I thought about it, and scattered those messy speculations, I settled down, raised my head, and said seriously:

"Thank you, Master."

Luo Wuchen looked down at me.

My eyes met Luo Wuchen's, and I felt a heat on my face.

... I am already this old, and I still have to be hugged and coaxed by the master like a child. This, how decent is this.

It's also thanks to Master that he was willing to give me patience and let me act like a baby.

I lowered my eyelashes shyly, and slowly backed away from Luo Wuchen's arms.

No matter how many times my thoughts turned, Luo Wuchen's expression was still indifferent, and he only said "Looking good."

A sharp sword slipped out of the scabbard, and the clanging sound of the sword seemed to resound in the depths of a person's soul, making people's hearts tremble.

Since I joined Luo Wuchen's sect, this is the first time that I observed Luo Wuchen's sword so closely.

The Zetian School is not the Sword School. Luo Wuchen is respected as the Sword Master. His sword skills are naturally unparalleled in the world.

The sharpness of the sword can cut mountains and rocks, flatten the sea, and the softness can cut leaves and pick flowers, like waves and tides.

Holding my own spirit sword in my hand, I stared at Luo Wuchen's figure without blinking.

My heart, which hadn't calmed down, was beating so fast that it almost broke my breastbone and ran out.

I could clearly hear the sound of my heart beating in my chest, and a tingling heat spread from my fingertips all the way to the top of my head, and my body was trembling slightly.

That comes from the instinctive desire and yearning for the strong.

If I can be as strong as Luo Wuchen, then can I...

Is it possible to get rid of the fate of being slaughtered and bullied?

I was so excited for a moment that I couldn't restrain myself.

Luo Wuchen retracted his sword and looked down at me.

His eyes are light in color, but his eyelashes are thick and long, and he looks very affectionate when he looks down at people intently.

The cheeks on both sides of me were warm, and the hand holding the sword couldn't help tightening.

There are few people in the world who are as fortunate as I am to have the opportunity to be personally taught by Sword Master.

I knew that the opportunity was rare, so I took a long breath to calm down my beating heart, and with 12 points of energy, I wrote down Luo Wuchen's advice.

When he got excited, he still gestured with his spirit sword, and for a moment he forgot that his leg was lame.

I made a decent sword move, but my body couldn't stabilize my center of gravity because of my lame legs, and I staggered to the side. If Luo Wuchen hadn't supported my waist, I'm afraid I would have fallen to the ground in embarrassment. went to the ground.

Why did I forget, I'm just a cripple who might fall down even walking...

My eye sockets slowly moistened.

Luo Wuchen held my shoulders to stabilize my figure: "Don't worry."

"It's not too late to practice again after your leg injury heals."

I was like a soup that had been infused with fascination, and I raised hope: "Will I get better?"

"Yes." Luo Wuchen said.

He said, I will believe it.