Do you still feel sick?

For Xu Zheyuan, Lu Wei was indeed the first time he fell in love with, but when it comes to feelings, it may be similar to girls liking certain male stars at the beginning.

If the two hadn't gotten to know each other well, and there hadn't been any subsequent entanglements, she might smile knowingly now that she thought of Lu Wei, thinking that she had liked a good boy.

If the two had a normal relationship and then ended without a problem like every adolescent love, Lu Wei would be just a green memory in her youth to her.

Generally speaking, according to the normal development, her feelings for Lu Wei are not deep enough to hate him for a long time, even if she knows that he is gay, if Wei Shengji was with her at that time, Xu Zheyuan believes that she should be able to leave soon come out.

However, this incident caused her to lose her best and best friend, which caused her to make the worst choice in her life, and caused her to be separated from the person she really liked for a long time. Lu Wei and Cheng Wenxin hated it very much.

Of course, what she hates the most is herself, and this feeling of remorse has not dissipated so far.

It was because she had figured this out that she could admit without hesitation that even at that time, Wei Sheng Ji was more important to her than Lu Wei.

It may not be meaningful to say these now, but Wei Shengji is very satisfied with this answer.

"Well, I know."

"You know?" Xu Zheyuan looked up at Wei Shengji, and asked aggrievedly, "You know why you still have to leave?"

"I mean..." Wei Shengji patted her head with a smile, his movements and expression were so gentle, "I know now."

No, she never knew about it.

However, Zheyuan doesn't know.

She said that she wanted to thank Cheng Wenxin was not a polite word, because if it hadn't been for that incident at the beginning, if Zheyuan hadn't said disgusting to her face, if she hadn't been forced to that point, she might never have made up her mind.

friend?

What a joke.

How can friends be together for life.

Compared to Zhe Yuan, she who is clearly aware of her feelings but dare not take that step is truly weak.

"Zheyuan, I'm glad to hear you say that."

So, the one who needs to change is her.

She was going to be stronger, braver...and crueler.

"Well..." Xu Zheyuan sniffed, "Don't you blame me? When I said that to you...you must be very sad and sad. And after you came back, I also...why don't you hate me? Even I hate myself so much."

"It's all over, like you said, who hasn't made a mistake when they were young?"

Just like her, she once naively believed that friendship can last forever.He thought that only by not destroying the friendship between the two, could he become a member of Xu Zheyuan's family.

It's not like this, you should fight for what you want, even if you need to use any means, even if it will scar the person you like.

Because it is more in line with personal interests to take the broken and incomplete treasures than to hand over the complete treasures.

All excuses for the sake of the lover are extremely stupid, because the so-called "lover" can only be called that when it belongs to you, otherwise it is just someone else who has nothing to do with it.

When he heard the word "disgusting", Wei Shengji finally realized how fragile his relationship with Xu Zheyuan was.

Of course she knew it was a misunderstanding, and Cheng Wenxin notified her immediately after "helping" her come out.

She thought she was mentally prepared, that she could face Xu Zheyuan calmly, that she could whitewash the peace.

No, her mind went blank when she heard those two words.

At that moment, she realized that she was so vulnerable, and finally realized that she didn't dare to take that step because of cowardice and cowardice.

So what if it was a misunderstanding?

Even if Xu Zheyuan said that she was more important than Lu Wei, so what?

Both she at that time and now she understood that even if Xu Zheyuan knew that she liked her, she would not be able to accept her.

She knows Xu Zheyuan too well, her strengths and her shortcomings too well.

Xu Zheyuan may be secretly happy after knowing her feelings, may rely on her more unscrupulously, and may indulge his possessive desire to expand infinitely.

But to Xu Zheyuan, she is still just a friend, a girlfriend, and a safe object.

She was so close to Xu Zheyuan, so she could see clearly.

This beautiful and innocent ordinary girl has cruelty and vanity that she doesn't realize.

She really doesn't hate people who like herself, because she enjoys the feeling of being loved so much, but that's all.

Just loving her, just making her realize that being loved by herself will not change any results, because girls like Xu Zheyuan don't lack love in life.

She will eventually become one of those who love her, and she will only end up becoming the kind of "licking dog" that Zheyuan described before.

That's the real reason she left.

She doesn't want to be treated by Xu Zheyuan as a friend who can like the same sex after she comes out of the closet, she doesn't want to be a normal "heterogeneous" in her daily life, and she doesn't want her to get used to such a self.

Even if they broke up, she still needs to leave a strong mark on Xu Zheyuan's heart, so that Xu Zheyuan will remember her longer than Lu Wei, and she must become the thorn in Xu Zheyuan's heart.

Because she knows Xu Zheyuan so well, she knows all her shortcomings and all her advantages.

Those little vanities and cruelties can't cover up her kindness and innocence. She has a lot of love and therefore is full of emotions. Being able to like Lu Wei and her at the same time is the best proof.

To be honest, Wei Shengji is very envious of people with this ability, maybe this is one of the reasons why she fell in love with Xu Zheyuan.

But she doesn't want to be one of Xu Zheyuan's favorites... She wants Xu Zheyuan's complete love, even if it will make Xu Zheyuan suffer from years of spiritual training.

She wanted the thorn to penetrate deeply into Xu Zheyuan's heart, grow over a long period of time, and integrate with Xu Zheyuan.Only in this way, when the time is right to pull it out, the wound will be dripping with blood and become a brand, making Zheyuan painful enough to forget.

Only when Zheyuan has experienced pain and loss, can she realize what happiness and possession are.

Ah, from this point of view, she is indeed "revenge" Zheyuan.

But don't worry, she never let go...or let go of the idea of ​​folding the kite, no hunter would release the bird after catching it.

It took her 12 points of energy not to break Xu Zheyuan's wings and keep Xu Zheyuan locked in a small cage, but she is not rational enough to let Xu Zheyuan go.

"Wei Shengji, you... are so good that it makes people feel ashamed." Xu Zheyuan was moved and uneasy at the same time, "Do you really think... that I can do this? I, I actually don't have the courage to be like you The same...my parents' side, and other people..."

Wei Shengji smiled slightly and stared at her affectionately: "It's okay, let's take our time. Especially uncles and aunts, we must be considerate of their feelings. They are not only your parents, but also my respect and love. I don’t want our elders to make them sad. As for the unrelated people, I don’t care if they know about our relationship, isn’t it enough for me to be happy?”

Her words seemed to reassure the restless Xu Zheyuan, and her bleak future became less uncertain because of having a reliable partner.

With Wei Shengji, what Xu Zheyuan is most afraid of is the opposition of his parents.

She grew up under the care of her parents and has a very deep relationship with them.Not to mention that they were so kind to Wei Shengji, she really couldn't imagine how they would react after knowing her relationship with Wei Shengji.

To be honest, she didn't have the courage to fall out with her parents for Wei Sheng Ji.

"Um……"

Wei Shengji's words now are equivalent to telling her not to make such a difficult choice, even though she hasn't thought of a way to get the best of both worlds, Xu Zheyuan doesn't want to think about anything anymore.

Weishengji has always been more thoughtful than she thought, and she believed that with Weishengji, these problems would be solved easily.

"You are so hesitant, is this what you have been worrying about?"

Xu Zheyuan had tears in her eyes: "I know I'm weak, but..."

"I understand your concerns. Uncles and aunts are so kind to me. I don't want them to be sad, let alone you. I didn't choose to confess at the beginning because I didn't want to destroy the relationship with you."

She likes Xu Zheyuan, and also likes the family that gave birth to the girl Xu Zheyuan. That is the life she yearned for and never had, so of course she will not destroy it.

She wants to be a part of this family, to integrate into this ordinary and simple life, and to be a "normal person".

She used to think that it was enough to be Xu Zheyuan's friend, Xu Zheyuan's love or such a family, it was her luck to get one.

Instead, she realized at some point that there was a better way to have the best of both worlds.If they become Xu Zheyuan's partner, then Xu Xincheng and Zhang Wenjuan will truly become her parents.

"Zheyuan, you have promised to be my girlfriend, so you can stop thinking about it." Wei Shengji held her cheeks as if holding some precious treasure, "If you shrink back again this time, I might not Will catch up again."

"I know."

The moment Xu Zheyuan came out of the house, she didn't intend to back down. Even if she didn't think clearly at that time, she had already made a choice instinctively, just like the countless choices she had made before.

"Zheyuan..."

Wei Shengji's gaze was lingering, and he hardly moved away from Xu Zheyuan's face.Her arms wrapped around Xu Zheyuan's body, interlocking her fingers, as if to lock her tightly.

Xu Zheyuan's heart tightened, and he swallowed unconsciously.

"Ok?"

Wei Shengji's eyes, tone, and expression are so gentle, it seems that countless silk threads spread out from them, slowly entwining Xu Zheyuan's body and mind.

She had a feeling that she was almost suffocating, and the indescribable soreness and numbness in her heart made her tremble all over.

"Are you going to stay tonight?"

Xu Zheyuan didn't have time to distinguish whether those feelings were pleasure or pain, Wei Shengji's soft and delicate kisses fell like raindrops.

Shyness and joy entangled with sourness, bitterness and countless pleasures made Xu Zheyuan completely lose the ability to think.

Of course she wants to stay, after all Wei Shengji is her girlfriend now.

The author says:

People have been asking Weishengji why she still likes Xu Zheyuan after she has such an experience and hasn't turned black. Everyone is so naive. If she is said to be black-bellied, she has always been dark. This is why I have always been black. The reason for not writing about her mental activities.

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