hypocritically

Before going to Province M, Xu Keqin had to go back to Province A to deal with some matters. He had to go back to school and meet Gu Yixin again. As for Guo Xiao...

When Duan was constantly disturbed by it, and he was still hesitating whether to meet Guo Xiao at this time, it meant that he had already greatly influenced his decision, once meeting meant continuing to entangle in a muddle, Xu Keqin thought about it, Forget it anyway.

On the day of arriving in Province A, Xu Keqin first had a meal with Gu Yixin back home, and then left from Gu's house after meeting Gu Yongfeng.

Gu Yixin also wanted to accompany Xu Keqin back to school. She knew that Xu Keqin would not be able to come back when he went to Province M this time.

"You go about your business." Xu Keqin has known Gu Yixin for so long, and Gu Yixin has never entered the door of his small house. He has never been there before, and it is even more unnecessary now.

I had nothing to do, knowing that Xu Keqin was coming today, Gu Yixin asked for a day off, but if she said it, she would be too reserved.

"Now that the traffic is so developed, it's only a few hours' flight to M province. You can come anytime, and I can come back anytime."

Seeing what Xu Keqin said, although Gu Yixin was reluctant, she couldn't insist, "Then drive slowly, bye."

During this period of time, Xu Keqin has never been home. Even when he came to province A, he would go directly to the company after class. He booked a room in a hotel near the company. First, it was convenient, and second, he was afraid. Met Guo Xiao at home.

He was in a trance, and he was afraid sometimes. When did he start to be afraid of seeing Guo Xiao? No matter how much he did to Guo Xiao in the past, he would not feel guilty. When did this change come from? started?

After the fingerprint lock was recognized, Xu Keqin slowly opened the door with a "beep". On some days when the doors and windows of the house were closed, the air that was not very circulated was filled with a trace of depression.

Xu Keqin held his breath, lowered his pace, and walked around the house. He seemed to be looking for something. He was looking for traces of Guo Xiao's presence. The house was dead, and Guo Xiao didn't seem to have been here before. , and feel a little disappointed.

There is Guo Xiao's shadow in every corner of the house, Guo Xiao's clothes are hanging in the closet, there are pairs of toiletries in the bathroom, and even the refrigerator has ingredients bought by Guo Xiao.

Xu Keqin forced himself not to think about Guo Xiao, took out a suitcase from the storage room, packed it for a while, and then sat silently by the bed.

He had never felt this way before, his heart was empty, as if no matter what he took from this room, it would not be able to fill the emptiness in his heart.

He opened the bedside table casually, and there were some useless chargers and his previous mobile phone in it. He brought this mobile phone from the province of C, which he brought from his hometown, and later brought it to this small room.

Leaving aside the person himself, this mobile phone can be regarded as the only contact with Guo Xiao. Even if this mobile phone is no longer used, it has witnessed the past between him and Guo Xiao.

Xu Keqin thought for a while, and put the phone into the suitcase. He was about to check if there was anything left behind, when the sound of the door opening and closing came from the living room.

No matter what happened, Guo Xiao was used to sharing it with Xu Keqin immediately, so when he applied for an internship through Mingda, Xu Keqin was also the first thing he thought of.

He wanted to share that joy with Xu Keqin, took out his cell phone, and only when he saw the news exchange with Xu Keqin did he come back to his senses.

Not to mention a meeting, he hadn't heard of Xu Keqin for a few days, and he hadn't sent a message to Xu Keqin, and even after learning the news that Xu Keqin and Gu Yixin had gone abroad, he didn't have the courage to question him.

He felt that he had no position. What kind of relationship did he have with Xu Keqin?

friend?They have long since crossed the line of friends.

lover?Xu Keqin never admitted it.

But he would not be reconciled, he and Xu Keqin were so close before, he couldn't figure out why, what did he do wrong, Xu Keqin suddenly looked like two different people.

He didn't want to believe that Xu Keqin drew a clear line with himself because Gu Yixin was together.

There are some things that I have to ask Xu Keqin face to face. If I send a message to ask for his permission, he will definitely find an excuse not to meet.

Guo Xiao resolutely decided to go to University B to have a look. Even if he couldn't meet Xu Keqin, he didn't want to wait blindly.

From C University to B University, Guo Xiao walked countless times. Looking at the scenery outside the window, he felt a little strange. He hadn’t seen Xu Keqin for a long time. He didn’t like this feeling, as if he was back in his hometown On that day, I went to Jingshan by bicycle to look for him, and I didn't know he had left until I got to the guard room.

Seeing the familiar gate of the community, Guo Xiao almost ran. During the tens of seconds in the elevator, his heart also rose as the elevator went up.

As soon as the elevator door opened, Guo Xiao couldn't wait to run to the door of the house. After opening the door, the house was dead silent. In fact, he could have expected that Xu Keqin was so busy, why would he live here? If he didn't come, Xu Keqin wouldn't come either.

No matter what, Guo Xiao regards this place as his home, and the home is always clean, so he wants to clean it up before leaving.

He went straight to the balcony, wanting to open the window for ventilation, but within two steps, footsteps came from behind him, he was startled, and turned his head abruptly, Xu Keqin was standing at the entrance.

"Xu..." Guo Xiao couldn't believe it, and wanted to call Xu Keqin's name, but found that his voice was actually hoarse.

Hearing the commotion in the living room, Xu Keqin immediately guessed that Guo Xiao had come. He didn't have time to guess how Guo Xiao knew he was back. Seeing Guo Xiao at this time, he was very confused.

"What are you doing here? Didn't I tell you not to come?"

Xu Keqin's tone was cold, and Guo Xiao was very upset when he heard it. What is he doing here?Does Xu Keqin still remember admitting that he owns half of this house?

Guo Xiao didn't have the confidence to ask, and stared at the floor with lowered eyes, "Come and clean..."

Every time Guo Xiao leaves for school, he always sends Xu Keqin some nagging text messages in the car. When it rains at night, remember to collect the bed sheets hanging on the balcony. Remember to eat the food in the refrigerator or it will go bad. This month’s electricity bill It seems that I forgot to pay.

It was because of Guo Xiao's concern that this house felt a little bit like home.

Home, has always been something Xu Keqin wanted but couldn't get.

The two hadn't seen each other for a long time. The moment he saw Xu Keqin, Guo Xiao didn't want to argue about unpleasant things, he just wanted to tell Xu Keqin something happy.

"Actually, I came here to tell you...my Mingda's internship application was passed..."

Xu Keqin suddenly felt that even if he left, he didn't have to let go of Guo Xiao. Guo Xiao was quite capable, and he was very pleased that he could still enter Mingda for an internship without relying on his help.

"pretty good."

Every time I make progress, it is not so easy, but Xu Keqin has never been stingy with praise. From the initial tutoring, to the university entrance examination, to the study during the university, to the current internship, what I pursue is Xu Keqin's. Sentence "very good".

"You..." Guo Xiao had a stick in his throat, if he was fine, why would Xu Keqin change?

Xu Keqin looked at Guo Xiao indifferently, "Guo Xiao, since you can apply for an internship, you should study hard and work hard to stay."

"What about you?" Why only talk about himself, Guo Xiao also wanted to hear Xu Keqin's plan.

Xu Keqin seemed to have made up his mind, "I'm going to Province M, and I won't be coming back for a while."

"I can go with you...I..."

Xu Keqin interrupted Guo Xiao sharply, "Guo Xiao, it's not easy to get into Mingda with your ability, what you should think about is how to stay, how to keep your iron rice bowl, acting impulsively once is enough, you now As an adult, when making a decision, think about your own future, no one or anything is worth giving up your future."

In the future, Xu Keqin has always existed in the future he planned. Now that Xu Keqin is going to leave and leave him again, what is the future for him to talk about.

"Why isn't it worth it? I think it's worth it. If you're not worth it for me, why can't you stay? What did I do wrong!"

"You didn't do anything wrong, but I still have things to do." Xu Ke was heartbroken, "You don't even know what I'm going to do in Province M, so you're going to give up your hard-won opportunity to go to a strange city with me , you don’t have the ability to think independently, it’s a burden for me to bring you along.”

Xu Keqin will never understand that since his parents passed away, there are not many people who belong to him and stay by his side. Xu Keqin is just the most special one. If the money is gone, he can earn again, and if the job is gone, he can find another. There is only one Xu Keqin, he is willing to give up other hard-won things for this "only".

"Aren't we good before? Why do you have to fight? We..." Guo Xiao's nose sore, Xu Keqin has not changed, he is the same as before, the things he decides will not change easily, Guo Xiao knows, no matter how much he begs him , all to no avail.

Xu Keqin's heart was heavy, he closed his eyes and turned his head to look to the other side, "What's the point of living if you don't pursue fame and fortune? It's the mediocrity who really deceives fools like you. If you sail against the current, if you don't advance, you will retreat. Guo Xiao , it is better to be more rational in dealing with people, and less emotional."

Speaking of this, Xu Keqin felt that he should cut off Guo Xiao's thoughts and his own. He glanced at the living room, "I plan to sell this house."

Guo Xiao gritted his teeth, his eyes were moist.

Xu Keqin lowered his head and took out Guo Xiao's bank card from his wallet, "Take the money in this card."

The success or failure of this trip to Province M is uncertain. The money in this card was originally reserved for him by Xu Keqin, but now he left it for Guo Xiao.

Guo Xiao stood there stiffly and didn't pick it up. Xu Keqin didn't want to entangle Guo Xiao anymore, so he stuffed the card into Guo Xiao's pocket, then turned around and entered the room, dragging the suitcase and resolutely left.

The author says:

Some readers came to private chat and asked me, did Xu Keqin kiss and sleep with Gu Yixin, emm, although I don't care about this question, but I still answer it after chatting with me privately.

No.

It's not because of how upright Xu Keqin is, if he can go to bed early, he is somewhat mentally handicapped after being imprisoned, he can't accept close contact with people other than Guo Xiao, bad people