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The more he talked, the more he comforted him, Song Yu sounded more and more self-blame, the injury on Cheng Yan's face was too serious, gauze couldn't cover it, his eyes could hardly be opened, and his hands, Song Yu Yu felt that he was exerting force, but the hand that held his fingertips was so loose that he seemed to be unable to use any strength.

This is when he sees it, but what about when he can't see it?Cheng Yan reported the good but not the bad, how many grievances has he swallowed this year?

This is not the emotion and future that Song Yu wants to give him. Cheng Yan can't be so selfish, can't be so selfish, can't tell him nothing, let others inform him of everything...

Song Yu's drooping eyelashes were wet with water mist. It was extremely cold in the ward, and his shoulders were shaking. Only he could know whether it was because of the cold or fear.

"It's not your fault... don't blame yourself, and I'm fine, right?" Cheng Yan tried his best to raise his hand, touched Song Yu's cheek, touched his cold skin, and wiped away the traces of tears, "I It's okay, Song Yu...don't be sad."

Song Yu has never cried in front of Cheng Yan, and he can't remember the last time he cried. He doesn't know what empathy is. He just wants to transfer those injuries when he sees him lying here with injuries all over his body. On himself, he thought he had a strong psychological quality, and he always felt that he was quite indifferent. Why did the corners of Cheng Yan's eyes get hotter the more he talked?

"Stop talking," Song Yu held his hand rubbing against his cheek, stuffed his hand into the quilt, didn't look into Cheng Yan's eyes, he didn't even have the courage to look at those fragile pupils, Song Yu just said :"have a good rest."

Cheng Yan grabbed his hand in a hurry, this action involved the injury on his body, he grimaced his facial features, had no time to care about the pain, and held Song Yu's hand with his greatest strength, "Don't go."

Is he afraid of him leaving, or afraid of what he will do if he is emotionally unstable?He knew that he was Song Yu's weakness, so he didn't want to share bad things with him, he didn't want to cause Song Yu's unsteady emotions, separation is already a torture for them, so don't make each other feel worse.

"I'm not going," Song Yu responded in a low voice, stuffed Cheng Yan's hand back into the quilt, and repeated, "I'm not going, I'll stay here with you, okay?"

The panic and tension in Cheng Yan's eyes were soothed a little, he opened his eyes and looked at Song Yu, with gauze wrapped around his forehead, the back of his head was hit, and he was in pain.

They stared at each other in the dim light.

"Put on clothes." Cheng Yan's eyes fell on his thin sweater: "It's cold."

Song Yu didn't move, and responded: "It's not cold, the one who ran over just now is hot."

He covered the quilt repeatedly so that no cold wind could hit Cheng Yan's body.

Cheng Yan grabbed his hand into the quilt and warmed Song Yu's cold palm.

"You are injured." Song Yu's face was not injured, and his hands were bandaged. Cheng Yan could probably guess what happened. He thought, let Song Yu sit here honestly and wait for him to wake up. Go do something, his emotions can't make him do nothing.

"It's not serious." Song Yu approached the hospital bed, leaned over slightly, and said in Cheng Yan's ear with an extremely gentle voice: "The hot water is hot, and it's cold. It won't take long."

Cheng Yan couldn't pronounce clearly, and said hoarsely, "Don't get hurt, it hurts."

"No, not in the future." What he said, what Song Yu promised, he pulled out a hand, gently covered the side of Cheng Yan's cheek, covered his cool ears, "Is it cold?" ?”

Cheng Yan wanted to shake his head, but he couldn't do it after trying, so he simply gave up and replied, "No, you stay closer to me."

Song Yu leaned over and warmed his exposed cheeks with his warm palms. He moved very lightly, because the bruises on Cheng Yan's face were too severe, and he was afraid of accidentally hurting him. "Is there anything that hurts?" ?”

"There's a little bit at the back of the head," Cheng Yan said softly, "But it's okay, I can bear it."

Song Yu rubbed his fingers against the gauze on his forehead and stroked it lightly. Cheng Yan closed his eyes because of his pressing down.

Song Yu pressed his lips against his cheek, and said in a low voice: "Don't think about anything, I'll wait for you here, you will still see me when you open your eyes tomorrow, promise me to sleep peacefully, okay?"

Cheng Yan scraped Song Yu's skin with his eyelashes, and responded obediently: "Okay."

I don't know what time it was until they just looked at each other silently and looked at each other before Cheng Yan fell asleep.

Song Yu hid his hands, rolled the quilt around again, stood up lightly, and turned off the last light in the room.

Snowflakes hit the mirror window, and it was not the sound of the wind and snow that made the people on the bed sleep soundly. Song Yu picked up the red cotton coat on one side, and the goose down inside was exposed from the torn hole in the hat, which showed that the fight ferocious.

Song Yu raised his eyes, and his deep gaze shot towards the dark night sky.

Walking out of the ward, Song Yu in thin clothes stood in front of the hospital gate, the cold wind hit his body, he was like a robot, without any reaction.

There was a number in his phone that he had never contacted since he grew up, Song Yu didn't hesitate to make this disturbing call at night.

The other side was silent for a long time before answering. The middle-aged man's voice was majestic, but when he called his name, he seemed a little bit of pretended gentleness: "Song Yu."

Song Yu hummed, and got straight to the point, not in the mood to talk nonsense at all, and ignored the greetings that he hadn't contacted for so long, and rashly output his purpose: "Dad, can I ask you a favor?"

The person over there paused, as if sitting up from the bed, "Say."

"Can you lend me Lawyer Zhou? I have something I want to consult."

"What happened?" The male voice on the opposite side was a little serious.

Song Yu didn't hide anything, and said in a cold voice, "I want to sue a few people."

-

Cheng Yan stayed in the hospital for three days. During this period, many friends came to see him. Everyone was worried that something might happen to him, so they came one after another. Later, seeing that he was gradually recovering, the doctor said that he could be discharged from the hospital and would not stay. No matter what the problem is, everyone can rest assured.

In the past three days, Cheng Yan didn't tell his parents. It's not easy to hide the past. Zhao Yibai lied together, so Cheng's father and Cheng's mother didn't become suspicious. Cheng Yan thought that at least he had to wait until he could get out of bed and walk. Dare to go back to see my parents, otherwise my mother will see how I am now, and I don't know how sad I will be.

On the day he was discharged from the hospital, he didn't go home. Although he was able to get out of bed and walk, the scars on his face were still obvious. He wanted to wait a little longer. Song Yu was also very considerate and asked him to go to his aunt's house to recuperate.

Although Cheng Yan was discharged from the hospital, he still couldn't move too much, and the gauze on his head was not removed. Fortunately, Aunt Song Yu was not at home, otherwise he would have been shocked.

"Aren't they at home?" Cheng Yan entered the door with bandages on his arms, medical patches on his face, and the swelling around his eyes has almost healed, at least it won't hurt.

"I'm on a business trip." Song Yu hasn't been back for a long time, but the room is still clean. My aunt is afraid that he will come back at any time, so she always cleans it. Song Yu is very grateful for this thoughtfulness.

"Sit down." Song Yu let him sit on the bed, Cheng Yan sat down obediently, packed a lot of things from the hospital, Song Yu took out the medicine patch after tidying up, and replaced it for Cheng Yan, "Close your eyes, just say it hurts."

Cheng Yan hummed, but didn't make a sound when changing the dressing.

Song Yu changed the medicine patch for the serious scar on his face, cleaned up the room briefly, turned on the air conditioner, played with the sofa chair, laid it on a soft cushion, poured warm water, and asked Cheng Yan to sit on the sofa chair.

"Don't be too busy," Cheng Yan grabbed his wrist to see what he was going to do, "I'm fine, it doesn't hurt anymore."

Song Yu was grabbed by him, unable to leave, squatting down in front of him, and clenched his hands.

"Tell me about your recent life." Cheng Yan looked down at him, "How is it there?"

Song Yu rubbed his hands and said succinctly: "It's all good." When he talked about himself, he always didn't have so many words and interest. This time, it was because Cheng Yan was injured and he had no interest at all. I just want to stay quietly by his side.

Cheng Yan continued to ask: "Have you made any new friends? How about basketball training? Is it going well?"

"It's all going well, don't worry." Song Yu raised his eyes, saw the thing on his face, and his eyes sank again. He reached out and touched Cheng Yan's chin. There was a bruise there, which has disappeared now Not a lot.

"What about you?" Song Yu asked instead.

Cheng Yan smiled slightly: "I'm fine, I forgot to tell you, I got more than 600 points in the simulated college entrance examination paper this time, although it's still a bit short, but I still have time and will improve."

"It's amazing." Song Yu said softly, "Such a big improvement, this year is very tiring, right?"

Cheng Yan shook his head: "It's okay, I don't feel tired when I think of coming to you in the future."

Song Yu held up an insincere smile, he couldn't smile now, no amount of sweet love words could make him happy, Cheng Yan looked at his forced smile, and his mood soon became depressed.

"Smile," Cheng Yan said, "Don't do this, I'm afraid."

Song Yuzhen couldn't pretend, a deceitful smile was already forced enough, it was impossible to perform any better.

Lowering his head, Song Yu's cell phone rang.

He withdrew his hand from Cheng Yan's, picked up the mobile phone on the cabinet, answered the call, then said I'll be right over, and went to the living room.

Cheng Yan stood up and followed out.

After opening the door, a man with a briefcase came in from the living room. The man was young, in his early 30s, smiled at Song Yu, turned his head to see Cheng Yan, and stopped smiling.

Song Yu invited that person to sit down, and then asked him to wait a while. He walked towards Cheng Yan who was standing in front of the door, and said, "You stay in the room for a while."

After finishing speaking, he closed the door and separated Cheng Yan with a wall.

Cheng Yan's heart was in a mess. After seeing the man in suit and leather shoes, he had an intuition that something was going to happen. Even though Song Yu closed the door, he didn't dare to leave. He leaned against the door and listened to the movement from the living room.

They seem to be discussing something, I can't hear clearly, but it seems to be related to him...

Song Yu stayed with that stranger for nearly half an hour, and Cheng Yan waited quietly in the room for half an hour. During this half hour, he had countless thoughts of going out, but they all stopped at the door. In fact, he couldn't count on Song Yu to joke around.

Half an hour later, the living room door rang, followed by footsteps, the bedroom door was pushed open, and Song Yu walked in.

Cheng Yan stood up and looked at him.

Song Yu glanced at him and didn't say much. He came to the computer, took some documents and photos in his hand, and sat down in front of the computer.

The computer starts up very quickly. Although no one has used it for a long time, the price is high and the computer with good performance is still very powerful, and it does not slow down the startup speed.

Song Yu covered the keyboard with both hands, searching for something in the website bar, Cheng Yan saw two eye-catching big characters, and finally couldn't bear the panic in his heart, "Who is that person..."

He knew that that person was not an ordinary person, and that it was related to the laws brought up by the computer interface, Cheng Yan felt uneasy.

"Lawyer." Song Yu didn't hide anything.

Cheng Yan suddenly realized that all the speculations in his heart had been confirmed. He raised his feet and stood behind Song Yu, his fists were slightly clenched, and his tone was a little flustered: "Are you going to sue them?"

"Well." Song Yuming answered his question clearly, without any intention of pretending to be deaf and dumb, "You don't need to worry about it, I will come forward when I need you, and I will take care of the rest."

"No," Cheng Yan clenched his fists. What was he worried about?It's understandable that Song Yu wanted to sue them, but even if he was uneasy, Cheng Yan couldn't tell. He asked in a panic, "What about you?"

Song Yu looked at him sideways: "What am I?"

Cheng Yan said: "If you beat them, will they bite you..."

"If they want to sue me," Song Yu said indifferently, "I will go to jail with them."

Cheng Yan seems to have misheard, but isn't that clear and indifferent tone from Song Yu?

He came to Song Yu's side, held Song Yu's wrist, stopped him from typing on the keyboard, and panicked, "Song Yu, don't do this, don't sue them."

He can sue them, but if he involves himself and goes to jail with them, Cheng Yan has no way to accept it. He would rather settle down, he doesn't want them to bite each other, and he doesn't want Song Yu to send himself in for him. He has a good one now. He has a very good future in the university, and if he continues to study it, it will ruin him!

Song Yu twisted his hand away, and continued to work on the materials on the keyboard, with an obvious attitude, and there was no room for negotiation.

Cheng Yan said anxiously: "Song Yu, don't be like this, okay... You've already beaten them, you've taught them a lesson, and you'll pay for it..."

"Going to jail with me is tit for tat. It's worth it for four. If they have the guts, just accept the fact that they are in a good situation. I don't care. If two or three years of squatting can make them remember I'm very happy." happy to accompany them."

"Song Yu..." Cheng Yan's throat was itchy anxiously, he swallowed, and begged again and again, "I beg you Song Yu, don't get to the bottom of it, I don't want this result, you stay by my side, we I'm fine, I'm really fine..."

"Cheng Yan," Song Yu interrupted him, not listening at all, and said in a cold voice, "Go and rest."

Cheng Yan lowered his hands, looked at his determined appearance, suddenly he didn't know where the joy came from, he was very happy to see him, if he came back this time in exchange for such a result, he would not accept it, and he didn't need it.

He hated them very much, but Song Yu beat them, and he intervened. If there was no such factor, it would be fine for Song Yu to make this matter a big deal. Go in with them, enter the game with them, what if the result of the trial really makes him squat for two or three years?What about his university?Their future, the direction of his current efforts are all gone...

With panic, Cheng Yan couldn't calm down. At night, he couldn't close his eyes. The computer emitted a faint light. Song Yu sat at the computer desk for a long time. Later, he was afraid of disturbing Cheng Yan's rest, so he moved to the In the living room, an occasional conversation came to Cheng Yan's ears, making him extremely clear-headed.

"Well, is that the photo of the injury? I'm prepared, and the doctor has an appraisal report..."

Cheng Yan was alone on the bed, and the heat from the air conditioner in the room couldn't warm his heart. His feet were so cold that he couldn't even cover them, and his mind was so clear, how could he be able to sleep?

Cheng Yan clutched the quilt tightly, the quilt was obviously warm, but his body was as cold as ice, listening to the small voice outside, Cheng Yan was overwhelmed by the tension and sat up.

He put on his slippers, and opened the door that was not tightly closed. Song Yu was sitting in the living room, talking on the phone. Seeing the light in the room, he looked up at Cheng Yan.

Cheng Yan didn't wear a coat, stood in front of the door and stared at Song Yu, then stepped out in two or three steps, came to Song Yu, and snatched his mobile phone.

"Cheng Yan?" Song Yu frowned.

Cheng Yan said to the person on the other end of the phone: "We won't call the police, sorry, don't prepare..."

"Cheng Yan," Song Yu stood up and was about to take the phone back, but Cheng Yan didn't give it to him, which quickly angered Song Yu who was busy, Song Yu went to grab the phone, Cheng Yan hid it behind him, Song Yu was anxious Said: "Give it to me."

His voice was cold and it sounded scary.

Cheng Yan squeezed the phone tightly and stared at him.

Song Yu didn't have much patience, he went to snatch it, and the two of them got entangled, Cheng Yan backed away and refused to give, until Song Yu grabbed his wrist and broke it from his hand, his attitude of not letting go completely angered Song Yu Yu, there was a roar in the living room: "Cheng Yan!"

Song Yu roared, and at the same time, the phone flew out due to the different forces of the two people, and fell to the ground with a "pata".

The room was quiet for a few seconds, Song Yu turned his head, violent emotions rushed to the nerve area, and his eyes immediately turned red.

But he didn't have time to lose his temper and couldn't talk much, so he was at a loss by the scene in front of him. He saw Cheng Yan standing there with his head bowed, a few drops of hot tears streaming from the corners of his red eyes.

Song Yu's heart tightened, and he stepped forward, but stopped again. He squeezed his hands fiercely, confronting grief and anger, trying to infect the other party until one of them was defeated.

What about after patience?Still can't control the instinctive concern, there is nothing good about Cheng Yan in front of him, his face is even worse, full of wounds and he will continue to shed tears, his pale face will disappear in the next second, the last time he walked He was still alive and kicking, not like this, not so brittle than paper.

Song Yu's eyes were slightly red, and he walked forward, hugged Cheng Yan into his arms, pressed against his chest, pressed the top of his head, closed his eyes and said, "I'm sorry."

Cheng Yan was sobbing in his arms, tears rubbing against Song Yu's clothes, he grabbed Song Yu's sweater, and said in a voice that was not clear enough: "I beg you, I don't want this result, Song Yu I I don't want...can you understand me once, I don't want you to die with them, I don't need..."

Cheng Yan shook his head in his arms: "It hurts, it really hurts, but I'm already healed, you've beaten them, you've avenged me, that's enough, it's really enough, they don't dare to fight anymore Me, I will protect myself next time, I will not be reckless again, I will not fight with others, okay, forget it, okay..."

Song Yu's eyes were red, this was a hurdle he couldn't get over for a while, he didn't know what to do to dispel the guilt towards Cheng Yan, even though he didn't cause the situation, but he didn't protect him well and let him suffer so much His injury was something Song Yu couldn't let go of.

"Cheng Yan..." He wanted to say something, but it was useless to be sorry, Song Yu didn't want to say any more, it didn't make any sense, but how could he make up for his infinite guilt?He had only one solution, one bad idea.

"Song Yu, you understand me, you understand me once, I am working hard now, and I will work harder in the future, I will work hard to get into Fudan University, you believe me, I have worked hard for so long, don't let my wish come to nothing , I want to see you next year, I don't care if they go to jail or not, you can't, you can't have any risks, I don't want to wait for you for several years, I'm tired of enduring this year, don't let me be so cruel Wait longer, I have coaxed you so many times, you coax me once, love me once..."

His voice was full of grievances and panic. When they met for the first time this winter, the two of them were emotionally unstable. They were not at all like the reunion they expected after a long absence.

-

I don't know how long I have been tossing over and over again. Cheng Yan's feet were too cold. Song Yu poured hot water to let him soak his feet before going to sleep. When Cheng Yan lay down again, the bed was finally warm.

"Come up and accompany me." Cheng Yan said when Song Yu covered him with the quilt.

"No, I'll clean up and you go to bed first."

Cheng Yan anxiously grabbed Song Yu's wrist, which was about to be pulled away, his thoughts were written all over his face.

Song Yu smiled at him and comforted him: "Don't worry, I promise you, I won't break my promise."

Cheng Yan slowly let go of his hand.

Song Yudao: "I'll come to accompany you after I pack up, sleep first, there will be no snow tomorrow, I'll take you out for a walk, okay?"

Cheng Yan nodded and said, "Then hurry up."

Song Yu hummed, took out the basin, and cleaned up the documents and documents in the living room, as well as the phone with the broken screen.

Song Yu stood alone in the living room silently.

After a while, he didn't just go back to the room, but gently pushed open the door of the living room, lit a cigarette in the corridor outside, and the wind hit his face head-on, messing up his hair.

The mobile phone is still usable. Although the crack on the screen is an eyesore, it is not worth worrying about. Song Yu made a call, and the people who had talked about half of the unfinished business just now are waiting.

"I'm sorry, Lawyer Zhou, let's suspend this matter first." Song Yu said to the person on the other end of the phone. The lawyer who heard a little dispute didn't ask any more questions, but just said hello.

Song Yu hung up the phone.

The shredded tobacco was swept behind by the cold wind, and Song Yu's body was filled with a deep and serious atmosphere, forming an inaccessible and dangerous magnetic field. People's emotions can determine too many things. He Song Yu is not generous enough. This matter He has to worry about things, but if this matter ruins his relationship with Cheng Yan and ruins Cheng Yan's expectations, the loss outweighs the gain.

If this is not a good method, then it is not impossible to change it. Although it is not as expensive as going to jail, at least you must have a sense of fear.

The sound of the color ring came from the mobile phone, echoing in the empty corridor, like the groaning of a wild ghost.

After a while, a hearty male voice said, "Hello."

Song Yu rested his elbows on his knees, stretched his arms straight and stretched out, the cigarette butt was facing the sky, and the white mist floated upwards. He held the mobile phone in the other hand, pressed it to his ear, and called out thoughtfully: "Ah Can. "

The other party was startled, and then there was a gratifying laugh: "Yo, Master Song, I haven't heard your call for a long time..."

"Don't talk nonsense, listen to me," Song Yu interrupted him, and the person opposite became quiet, "Bring brother Shun and Wang Gai to come tomorrow, around nine o'clock, and wait for me at the bar last time."

"what's up?"

"Have a meal."

The voice on the other side became obviously serious: "Who messed with you?"

"It's nothing, don't ask so detailed," Song Yu said, "Let's talk about it when the time comes."

The other party didn't ask in detail: "Success, I got it."

After hanging up the phone, Song Yu threw the cigarette butt and crushed it under his feet. He went back to the room and closed the door to keep the cold wind out. A series of movements were watched by the shadow in front of the bedroom.

Song Yu buckled the door, locked it, pulled out the key and threw it on the table: "Why aren't you sleeping?"

Cheng Yanming was worried, but he didn't say it out, it would appear that he didn't believe him, and it would make people unhappy, Cheng Yan changed the subject and said: "You are so slow..."

Song Yu walked straight towards Cheng Yan, grabbed his leg and hugged him horizontally, Cheng Yan was startled, hugged his neck tightly, was sent back to the room by Song Yu, and put him gently on the warm bed .

"I went out to smoke a cigarette," Song Yu's tone stabilized, and his serious look softened a lot, and then he asked with concern: "Did I scare you tonight?"

Can the kung fu of a cigarette make him feel better?I don't know, anyway, Song Yu's expression improved a lot, Cheng Yan felt relieved a lot, hearing his joking tone, his hanging heart also settled down, holding Song Yu's cheeks in both hands, and said aggrievedly :"Um."

Song Yu grabbed his hand and kissed, looked into his injured eyes and said, "I'm sorry."

Cheng Yan finally showed a little smile: "It's okay." He didn't blame him, he understood Song Yu, although he acted extreme, but it was because he was worried, because he made him flustered, Cheng Yan would not blame him.

Song Yu rubbed his hand and said: "You will tell me it doesn't matter, can you change it next time, say something sincere, say that they hurt you very much, you can't forgive, let me beat them, let me I'm going to take revenge, will you say this?"

The light above his head illuminated the tranquility in Cheng Yan's eyes clearly. His slightly smiling eyes were still bright even when he was injured, "You finally come back once, can you hug me more? Don't keep thinking about it." Avenge me, I miss your arms, your kisses more than that."

Song Yu caressed Cheng Yan's ears, pushed his hair back, and placed a soft kiss on Cheng Yan's lips. He raised his head and remembered the question from the previous day, "Did you ask me a few days ago? , what does hug mean in Japanese?"

Cheng Yan's eyes moved on Song Yu's sharp-edged face.

"I think it's too reserved. It's not as simple and rude as our Chinese expressions." Song Yu's eyes shone greedily. "Although this sentence is really inappropriate now, please bear with me for once."

The back of Song Yu's hand slid Cheng Yan's cheek, "The way you are hurt is really very tempting to a person with violent tendencies. This is the first time and I solemnly warn you. Don't get hurt and don't bleed."

Violence is aesthetics in Song Yu's place. He really loves Cheng Yan, and it doesn't delay the irritable factor in his body because Cheng Yan is full of scars. Abuse of a person will make Song Yu feel pleasure. He knows this It was wrong, so he gave him a warning.

Cheng Yan realized later that he seemed to have aroused some special emotional cravings of Song Yu. Looking at his deeper and deeper eyes, Cheng Yan slightly grasped the quilt in his hand, saying that he was not afraid of being fake, Song Yu's eyes seemed to want to Swallowing him alive, Cheng Yan slid his Adam's apple, nodded in pleasure and responded: "Got it."

Lips pressed against his ear, stirring up thousands of waves, Song Yu squeezed his thumb tightly, feeling the slight tremor of the body under his hand, he said stubbornly: "Cheng Yan, I really want to fuck you, Right now."

The author says:

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Today is quite a long time to write, I hope everyone enjoys eating.