waste heat

Song Yu's breath was on his face, and his tone was strong enough. It was impossible for Cheng Yan to be naive and challenge his patience and bottom line. Once he learned his lesson, he would not say a word.

Song Yu looked at him like this, knew that he was afraid, so he didn't tease him anymore, rolled over to the side, and lay down.

Cheng Yan finally breathed a sigh of relief.

Song Yu put his arms behind his head again, but Cheng Yan couldn't sleep anymore. He turned over, sat up straight, and sat there in the dark night.

Song Yu turned on the light, and finally saw his face that looked like he had been taken lightly.

Extraordinarily interesting.

Song Yu leaned on his arms, looked at Cheng Yan's blushing ears and said, "Have you never thought about it?"

Cheng Yan rolled his eyes at him and dared to say that he picked up the blanket and threw it at Song Yu's face, then moved to the edge of the bed, found the shoes, fiddled with them for a while before leaving.

Song Yu took off the blanket, seeing him like this, let alone how happy he was, but he had to be coaxed, he also sat up immediately, got out of bed, and grabbed Cheng Yan's arm after he went out .

"Why are you going so late?" It's about one o'clock in the evening, the dogs are asleep, Song Yu grabs Cheng Yan.

Cheng Yan turned around and said angrily, "What's none of your business?"

After speaking, he shook off Song Yu's hand, and ran out with his shoes on.

In the middle of the night, it made people sleepless, Song Yu couldn't lie still, he followed out, and watched Cheng Yan walking forward, Song Yu was not familiar with this place, just followed, not for a while, He took a light on his mobile phone, as if he had come to the river.

There are many rivers in the village, one family after another, each family has a share, and the riverside is also very noisy, with frogs croaking loudly and loudly.

"I'm not going to jump into the river." Song Yu joked.

Cheng Yan didn't have time to joke with him, and his mental quality was not that low, because of this incident of jumping into the river, he felt that there was a breath of air here, and he could catch his breath.

He came to the river and squatted down, like a poor creature who got angry and ran to the side to digest alone. Song Yu came to his side and squatted down, reaching out to touch his head, but was slapped away by Cheng Yan.

"Did I treat you too well?" Cheng Yan said, "I didn't listen to anything."

Song Yuzhuang was confused: "What are you talking about?"

Cheng Yan was going to have a good talk with him now, he said angrily: "Break up, I told you that we broke up, and I also told you that in the future... we will go our separate ways, what's the matter now."

Kiss me too.

He didn't say this sentence, he felt that it meant acting like a baby, and it was really inappropriate, so he kept silent.

Song Yu pretended to be thinking, "I seem to remember, I also told you something, I didn't nod, it means we haven't broken up yet, I said I can't accept that we will go our separate ways without contact, now we have Shouldn't it be involved?"

"You are so unreasonable," Cheng Yan said, "Why are you so unreasonable? You were the one who broke up with me first, and you said that you wanted to suspend our relationship. Now I have done what you wish, and I agree to suspend with you. Why is it not considered a breakup if you don’t accept it? You were the one who said he liked me, and you were the one who pushed me away.”

It's not his fault that this happened, it was obviously Song Yu who forced him to this point, but now it's unreasonable, he Cheng Yan doesn't want to continue to like him, why not?Only he has the right to stop?What a world.

Song Yu was silent for a short time. They couldn't escape this topic. He didn't dare to mention it because Cheng Yan was too emotional before, but now he said it. It happened to be an opportunity. Song Yu said, "I'm sorry."

Cheng Yan said: "I don't want to hear sorry."

I am also narrow-minded, Cheng Yan only found out today that he would be so difficult to deal with.

He doesn't want Song Yu's sorry, it doesn't make any sense, he has to understand the problem, he doesn't know why he is mad at him.

Song Yu pursed his lips, turned off the light of the mobile phone, heard the frogs croaking in his ears, raised his tone, and said seriously: "Let me tell you I'm sorry first, I can't escape this sentence anyway."

Cheng Yan turned to look at him.

Song Yu lowered his eyes and said: "Cheng Yan, I hid you before because I thought you would be afraid. No one is not afraid. The me you see now is normal and I can still be controlled. If someone One day I really reached...the point where I can't control it? I go crazy, I beat people, and when I deny my six relatives, I will definitely scare you."

Cheng Yan knew his scruples, that day he was too persistent, too disappointed, and too angry, that's why he didn't listen to anything, and that's why he took the edge of his sword and forced Song Yu to choose.

"You can accept me because you have the courage. I am very grateful for your intention, but this is not a reason I can convince myself. You don't know how serious my condition will be if it gets worse. To be honest, I don't even know how it will be. It won't be good, what if, what if I get so serious that I don't know anyone and hurt you uncontrollably, I can't bear the consequences." Song Yu paused: "You know that every time I see you playing pool When you look high-spirited, when you beg me to look pitiful, I really want to hurt you, time and time again, I am frightened by this kind of thought, will I be the next Tan Tingting? Will I become a Crazy? The future I gave you has no guarantee at all, how dare I ask you to be with me unscrupulously?"

Cheng Yan didn't make a sound. He listened to Song Yu's explanation and understood it in his heart, but he didn't know that he would have such an idea. No wonder, no wonder in the billiard room, his eyes were bloodshot red when he kissed him several times, no wonder he She would tremble when she kissed him, at that time... he must be having a seizure.

Cheng Yan lowered his head and said in a deep voice, "I told you, I'm not afraid..."

"But I'm afraid," Song Yu said, "You're not afraid because you won't hurt me, but I'm different. I'm a time bomb. If I hurt you, one time, one time is enough to destroy you."

He can still control his emotions these years, but these years do not mean that in the future, his illness will become more and more serious, and his violent complex will only become more serious. He shouldn't have dragged Cheng Yan into the water, but he couldn't control it. Wanting to get close to him, this instinct is more difficult to control than the disease.

"What about now?" Cheng Yan blinked, "You are close to me again, what is it?"

Song Yu clenched his fists, with worry and helplessness on his face, "I don't want to do this, I don't want to hurt you Cheng Yan, but at least for now, I can't convince myself to stay away from you, I'm sorry, I'm really selfish, I shouldn't be with you Entanglement, but..."

Song Yu held his forehead, feeling helpless when he thought of such contradictory things.

Cheng Yan watched his movements through the moonlight, he was also very entangled, wasn't he?In fact, this matter is very simple, Song Yu magnified it, if he really didn't want to have anything to do with Song Yu, Song Yu's entanglement would be wrong, but the fact is not, he is willing, he didn't say he was afraid, Why would he make things so complicated?

In the past, Cheng Yan thought that Song Yu was very smart and thoughtful, but he was not clear about this matter, how could he not be angry?If you say that, you want to push him away and break up with him. Can Cheng Yan not be angry at this kind of unconvincing reason for breaking up?

"Song Yu, do you know why I'm mad at you?" Cheng Yan finally talked, what he said in the past was indeed angry, and he also knew that Song Yu didn't believe the reason he gave for breaking up. Avoiding it again, he said: "I'm angry at you for not being firm, and I'm angry at you for being easily shaken. I never think that the best relationship is smooth sailing. I think the best relationship is that we are congenial, and we meet each other in life. All kinds of problems, overcoming difficulties all the way, after overcoming all difficulties, we still want to be together in the end."

Song Yu stared at Cheng Yan's facial features.

Cheng Yan lowered his head and said: "It's like before they said that I have nothing to be worthy of you, that you and Susu are so talented and beautiful, a match made in heaven, I was also shaken at that time, it can be said that before that, I have always been not firm enough. My hypocrisy and madness on the surface will be defeated when I encounter some real things, but then I figured out that there will always be someone who matches you. They may be better than me, and they may be taller than me. Well, they are more capable than me and can compete with you, but if they are not chosen by you, so what? Why did you choose me, because you like me, I should respect your heart for me, and I should Think more highly of yourself, be more confident, because if others are good enough, why do you insist on falling in love with me?"

Song Yu chuckled lightly.

"When my mother married my father at the age of 17, my father had nothing. My grandma didn't agree with this marriage. My mother was too persistent. She said that she would have taken a fancy to my father's character and felt that she would follow him in the future. He won't suffer. Facts have proved that she made the right bet. Although my father is not rich, he has been to my mother for ten years. He will pick her up when it rains. I will buy her a gift..." Cheng Yan raised his hand and touched Song Yu's face: "I don't know if I can bet right, but I hope we end up because one of us doesn't like it anymore, not because Any other reason, because of that, we will definitely regret it, right? When we grow up, you get married, or I get married, will we think, if I didn’t give up back then, it would be fine, if we insist on going to It will be fine in the end, I will be more firm, can you guarantee that we will give up easily, because of such inferior reasons, will we not regret it in the future?"

The moonlight was sparse, hitting the clear eyebrows, Cheng Yan's face seemed to be shining, and there were small pieces of moonlight falling on the face, leading Song Yu to touch his warm face.

"Song Yu, I don't want to care about whether I'm right or not, and I don't want to put pressure on you not to let me down. I just want you to know one thing. If you like me now, you have to like me well. You don't have to." As reckless as I am, so brave, but you can't retreat easily, you can't say goodbye easily, if it's just me running towards you, if it's just me holding your hand tightly, and you give up lightly, I will doubt it, You don't really like me, at least not that much, you understand?"

This is the reason for his anger, this is the reason for his fuss, and the reason why he didn't want to face Song Yu those days. If it is known that he doesn't like you that much, and he doesn't want to have a future with you, why would Cheng Yan want to face you? To this person?Everyone has a temper and emotions.

Song Yu finally understood that he really wasn't careful enough, and then felt even more guilty. He looked into Cheng Yan's eyes and asked cautiously: "Then now...do you still think so?"

Cheng Yan shook his head frankly.

"Because you came to me, isn't it ridiculous? Because of this, I won't be so foolish as to think that the person who has traveled thousands of miles to have this jealousy has no purpose, and he is so anxious that he sees my intentions in his eyes." Cheng Yan Rubbing the corners of Song Yu's eyes with his fingers, those loving eyes were emitting a smile.

"You have learned how to talk about love." Song Yu chuckled.

"Don't you want to hear it?"

"No," Song Yu corrected: "I feel that I don't deserve to listen."

Cheng Yan also laughed. After so many days, he finally cleared the blood clogged in his heart, and finally kept the clouds open to see the moon. Tomorrow will be a sunny day, because his mood today has already changed. Feel the scenery of tomorrow.

"I understand your intentions, so let us be firm with each other, you must hold me tightly, and I will not let go easily," Song Yurou said, "Because I really... like you very much."

Cheng Yan said: "I promise you, Song Yu, don't be afraid of those emotions, you will definitely get better, even if you don't get better, I won't think you are scary, I will only worry about you, I hope you will remember that from the first time you see you, I love you uncontrollably."

Song Yu frowned and smiled softly.

"Well, I remember," Song Yu said, "Let's go, go back to sleep, it's getting late." He stood up, took Cheng Yan's arm, and pulled him up. Turn back on the narrow road on the shore.

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At night, Cheng Yan finally lay down on the bed, but instead of relaxing, his head was dizzy from nervousness, and he was clutching the blanket in his hands tightly.

"Can you?" Song Yu looked up from him.

Cheng Yan's brows were tense: "I'm afraid..."

Song Yu laughed in a low voice: "Don't be afraid, I won't do anything too much, the future will be long, I will definitely be at the right time, in a sufficiently romantic atmosphere, and when everything is in place, I will make you hurt again."

Cheng Yan grabbed the blanket tightly, his face flushed red.

The strawberries on the cabinet next to him were not finished, and bright red marks were planted on his neck. He gently stroked Song Yu's hair, and gradually relaxed.

Waking up tomorrow is a brand new landscape, this is a hot and tempting summer.

Hot people itch.

Hot people tremble.