waste heat

It has been a week since Tan Tingting's death. It is only a matter of time before the heat of the news changes from fierce to indifferent, and finally no one cares about it. Those passionate emotions will never change, only Tan Tingting's parents.

The two elders were haggard visible to the naked eye.

Cheng Yan was welcomed into the door, the house was dead silent, there was a plate of rotten oranges on the living room that hadn't been tidied up for a long time, there were girls' clothes on the sofa, schoolbags were neatly placed there, and a The seagull pendant shows the preference and personality of the backpack owner.

In Cheng Yan's impression, although it was only a brief exchange, although it was only a two-sided relationship, he could feel Tan Tingting's vitality. She should be a girl who loves life and is full of vigorous energy.

There were strands of hair falling off at the corner of the table, which hadn't been cleaned up yet, and no one cared about the mess. The young parents were silent, and they didn't say a word after inviting Cheng Yan into the room.

There is a photo on the table, with white flowers next to it, the girl smiles brightly, with a high ponytail, showing her white teeth to the camera.

When he saw Tan Tingting for the first time, she also had this bright feeling.

"What's the matter with you?" Tan Tingting's mother lifted her eyes weakly with lines on her eyes, and looked at Cheng Yan who was looking around.

Cheng Yan stepped forward and said, "I want...to ask about Tan Tingting's situation."

Tan's father and Tan's mother looked at each other, and Tan's father asked vigilantly, "What do you want to know?"

Cheng Yan got straight to the point: "Does she... have a psychological problem? Why did the police contact Song Yu after she had an accident? Is there... anything between them?"

"who are you?"

"I have no other purpose, auntie. I'm Song Yu's friend. Tan Tingting had an accident, and Song Yu was also affected. He hasn't come to class recently, so I'm worried."

Tan's father and Tan's mother were silent for a while, as if there was something hard to say, then Tan's mother covered her mouth, sat on the sofa, and turned her head, but Tan's father didn't, he just sat down and sighed heavily.

"We didn't want to cause trouble to others, but this girl..." Father Tan sighed heavily again, "I won't listen to persuasion."

Cheng Yan knew that there must be something hidden in it, he couldn't be anxious, this was the time when his parents were sad, Cheng Yan knew how to measure, he waited for the answer from the two elders, and was not too anxious.

Mother Tan shed tears again, and said in a low voice, "You take him there."

Father Tan stood up and told Cheng Yan, "Come with me."

Cheng Yan followed, and Father Tan came to the door of a room. The door was locked, as if there was some secret inside. Father Tan took the key to open it, and pushed the door in. There was no one in the empty room.

"This is Tingting's room." Father Tan said.

Cheng Yan looked around, the tables and chairs pushed away, the notebooks spread out on the desk, the computer with a black screen, and the paintings on the wall, all of them were animation posters, Cheng Yan didn't notice any difference, he didn't know what Father Tan wanted What to show him, he entered this room, only think that the owner is a girl obsessed with Two-dimensional.

It wasn't until Father Tan came over, stretched out his hand, and tore off the animation poster on the wall, that Cheng Yan finally saw what was hanging on the wall.

The animation poster is just a cover, and the ones who really want to be exposed are the real people, the people he will never be unfamiliar with, the people Tan Tingting has been obsessed with for two years, and the Song Yu who hasn't appeared in a week.

Cheng Yan opened his mouth slightly.

Father Tan tore off another poster, "This is the same."

One after another, around the computer desk, around the head of the bed, all are posters, and the person hidden under the posters is all the same person.

"It's all of these." Father Tan tore off three posters, and he didn't reveal the rest, but told Cheng Yan in words.

The photos hanging on the wall are the angles of being secretly photographed, the enlarged photos, and the printed out pictures that are not clear enough. Every Cheng Yan is familiar with it, but it is also very strange. The picture of him and Song Yu squatting on the street corner was also from Tan Tingting's hand.

There is also a video camera on the cabinet, and these masterpieces are all from there.

Cheng Yan remembered that he once teased Song Yu about whether he had an illegitimate fan. He was joking at that time, but now he knows how big his joke is.

"These..." Cheng Yan was so surprised that he couldn't speak. He couldn't describe the shock in front of him. It was too weird and not good at all. He could smell the fanaticism.

"There's her diary on the table, open it and you'll understand." Father Tan sat on the bed, the poster in his hand fell to the floor, the pain of losing a loved one was unbearable, but he had to swallow the pain.

Cheng Yan opened the diary at hand.

Like treating precious objects, his eyes were gentle, his fingers were light, and he read line by line, leaf by page, and saw the sincere heart of a young girl.

number 6.7:

I have never been a fan of real people, only paper people will never collapse their houses!Until today when he appeared...he is like the male lead in anime, I had a wonderful story about a hero saving the beauty with him, he didn't talk much, he looked so cold, but the words that he saved me I never heard from my life will forget.

"I hope to see you at the convention next Monday," he said.

They bullied me, he saved me, like a ray of light, shone into my swamp.

number 6.9:

It turned out that he was Song Yu. I had heard his name before, but I never knew which one it was. No wonder so many people like him!He is really good!Yesterday's game was also very handsome!sky!That dunk made me fall in love with him right there!I hope to have some contact with him. Today I want to go to deliver water, but he didn't pick up other people's water, and he probably won't pick up mine...

Come on, Tan Tingting!You can!

number 6.10:

Haven't seen him all day, bored. 【Pattern of a bunch of stars and hearts】

number 6.11:

Witnessing the scene where he confessed his love, I was scared to death. Fortunately, I didn’t go. Why is he so cold, but fortunately he was cold enough, otherwise I would have no chance. I don’t want to be a mistress, a new socialist youth!Three views are correct!

number 6.12:

I met him in the cafeteria, and it was the first time I saw him so close, so handsome, so handsome... I don't know what to say except this word.

number 6.15:

Why did he come to the mental hospital?No way?He also has mental problems?I'm really scared, I hope he will always be the favored son of heaven, and don't be tortured, this kind of suffering is enough for me alone.

number 6.16:

I want to go to say hello, he is with his friends, I saw him at a glance, he is really tall, when can I talk to him openly, I don’t know if he still remembers me, but I can’t forget him up.

His name is Song Yu, the name engraved into my DNA.

The contents of these diaries are all related to Song Yu. Every page, every section, and every sentence has never left Song Yu. A girl's mind is opened, and she records deeper and deeper emotions in words. When she told him, she said that she was not the kind of liking of the public. The liking she had been obsessed with for two years was this obsession-like madness.

This is the content of the diary from the past two years. Cheng Yan was shocked after reading the front, but Tan's father didn't stop him, saying: "Turn to the back and have a look."

Cheng Yan didn't know what was going on behind him. He picked up his notebook and didn't read the heartfelt words of the deceased one by one. When he turned to the last few pages, his pupils shrank and he was shocked by the following intense words.

January 2:

It would be nice if he died, so that I can repay my pain, he doesn't know that I love him so much, he doesn't even accept my love letter, it's damned.

Cheng Yan frowned, looked up at Father Tan, Father Tan didn't speak, Cheng Yan lowered his head and continued to turn the page.

number 2.5:

He is so handsome today!I want to stand beside him and talk to him too!

number 2.9:

I'm really worthless, I don't even dare to go up and say a word, look at these diaries, it's sad, what's the point of being alive?

Cheng Yan was at a loss, it didn't look like a person's handwriting, and the words didn't seem to come from a person's mouth, so he flipped back in confusion.

January 7:

I took a photo of him today, I am satisfied, I hope he will be happy for the rest of his life, and besides, it would be nice if the person squatting next to him is me.

January 7:

Today is another day of no harvest, I really want to die quickly, life is meaningless at all, but dying alone is so boring, it would be great if he could die too.

Cheng Yan covered the diary, slowly raised his eyes, and looked at the person sitting by the bed, his fingers pressed tightly on the note, his lips trembled slightly, he wanted to say something, but stopped.

Tan's father folded his hands, a father's tone was sad and sighing, in the dead silent room, Tan's father's voice became clearer, "Tingting, it's a schizophrenia."

Cheng Yan had heard of it, but there was no such person around him, he didn't know what it should be like, now a diary makes his back feel cold, let alone anything else.

Tan's father said in a low voice: "I don't know why it happened. Her mother and I have been taking her to psychotherapy these years. We thought her condition had improved, but she was lying in front of me talking last week." , suddenly..."

Tan's father covered his face with his hands: "Her other personality is very extreme. She is always begging for death. Before, she touched a power strip and dipped her hand into boiling water. Once she got sick, she changed into a different person. Our family has had a hard time these years. .”

Cheng Yan never imagined that the cute girl, the girl who brought him sunshine and vitality at first, would have such an extreme situation.

The deceased was gone, Cheng Yan didn't know how to comfort Father Tan, he was still immersed in Father Tan's words.

"We don't want to influence anyone," Tan's father said. "We talked to her a few times and learned about the boy in her diary, but she is obsessed with it. Whenever he is mentioned, she will turn her face. I said no." It's nice... Tingting's illness has something to do with him, if this boy didn't show up, she should be almost cured, obsession... is harmful."

Cheng Yan suddenly remembered that the day before Tan Tingting's accident, what Song Yu said in his ear suddenly became heavy, and he said those deep words, he would only regard them as love words, but now, he had to put those words It is connected with Tan Tingting's matter.

Did Song Yu already know... that something would happen to Tan Tingting?

If so, why would you know?How do you know?It is impossible for Song Yu to negotiate and talk with Tan Tingting, just like in the diary, he even forgot the name, so there is only one reason, Tan Tingting took the initiative to tell him.

"Uncle, I want to see Tan Tingting's cell phone." Cheng Yan suddenly made this request. Sorry, he couldn't be like Tan's father, and fell into great sadness. He knew Tan Tingting, but he was just a passer-by in his life. Cheng Yan will not suffer so much pain that his voice trembles like his biological parents did.

Tan's father did not refuse Cheng Yan's request. He knew that this was someone related to his daughter, because they all knew the protagonist in the diary.

Father Tan found out the phone and unlocked the password.

Cheng Yan took the mobile phone, held the mobile phone and said carefully: "I need to check her information."

This is a private thing, and it would not be shown to outsiders, but people have been invited into the house, the diary has been read, and the cause of death has been mentioned, Father Tan no longer wants to hide anything.

Cheng Yan turned on the phone, WeChat and Penguin are full of daily chats, Cheng Yan searched for Song Yu's name, but couldn't find it, Tan Tingting doesn't have Song Yu's contact information?

Cheng Yan backed out and arrived at the information interface.

Sure enough, a string of unremarked numbers caught his attention. Others didn't know who it was, but he knew the number, and he knew who it was at a glance.

Tan Tingting got Song Yu's mobile phone number, but she didn't get any response to the text message she sent, because her message... There is no way for anyone to respond.

[Song Yu, do you want to see blooming flowers? 】

[I know you like blood, I got your information, I'm sorry, because I care about you so much, I always want to help you, we are people all the way, the only one who can understand you is me. 】

[It's painful, so pitiful, you look glamorous, how could such a tragic thing happen to you?Do you usually get sick?Do you want to drink human blood?Do you know car crack?It's the kind of punishment where people are divided into five horses, limbs will be pulled away, and the blood is dripping. It must be what you want to see. Are you excited?I can do it too. 】

【Song Yu, why don't you like me?Do you know how long I have liked you, but I am too lazy to wait for you, I suddenly thought, waiting for you might as well let you remember me, I will definitely bring you the most shocking performance, at ten o'clock tomorrow morning, Stand in the hallway and look at me. 】

[I bought your favorite red dress and a pair of embroidered shoes. I don’t usually like these, but I heard that people wearing red clothes will turn into ghosts when they die. I am not for death, I am for you to remember.I know you like red, you must not forget me, thank me. 】

[Hey, I won’t say good things to you, I just want to turn into a ghost, be careful, I will become an evil spirit, haunt you forever, stay by your side forever, you can’t get rid of me, that’s great , I am so looking forward to it, it would be even better if you could accompany me, die quickly, you are also suffering while alive, isn’t it? 】

[When you see red in the future, you will think of me, because the red you love is made of me. 】

【My perverted lover, there will be a flower that will bloom forever in your life. After harvesting it, it is something that only I, Tan Tingting, can give you in this world. 】

Cheng Yan lowered his hand, and the phone dropped on the table. Cheng Yan felt dizzy for a while, and his throat seemed to be blocked, making him unable to make a sound.

Which personality is this?It must not be the main character, that girl who dared not even send a love letter, would not be so cruel, that Tan Tingting, who is braided and smiles kindly, is not willing to hurt the person she has silently loved for two years like this.

Buzzing and screaming in pain, Song Yu's voice interspersed in his mind, no wonder he was so indifferent, no wonder he had such a big reaction, this information...how hard to digest and hard to forget for him ?

This is no grand satisfaction, this is a cruel curse.

The posters on the wall, the diary on the table, the camera on the counter, the information in the mobile phone, these images are reflected in Cheng Yan's mind, echoing repeatedly, the mixed objects and images oppressed his painful nerves, a string Tensioned, it's about to break.

Cheng Yan felt a huge, breathless oppression, a string in his mind bent and bent, and was on the verge of breaking.

There is a ghost in this room.

She was looking at them, she was staring at Song Yu, she was wearing a bright red dress, showing a bloody mouth, she wanted to drag him into hell, she already had a partner in that hell.

Cheng Yan stumbled out of Tan Tingting's house, the gloomy sky rendered a heavy atmosphere, he took out his mobile phone, swiped the interface, and panted heavily.

The number is really messed up, why can't I find it?

Yes, he doesn't, he doesn't, where does he have his friend's phone number?

Cheng Yan wandered the streets like a dead body.

-

After closing the bedroom door, looking at the gloomy weather, it seemed that it was going to rain, Jiang Heng took an umbrella and was about to go out.

But as soon as the door was pushed open, there was a person standing in front of his door who raised his hand and was about to knock.

"Cheng Yan?" Jiang Heng wondered how he found him, but Cheng Yan's expression was very strange, Jiang Heng asked cautiously: "What's wrong with you?"

Cheng Yan raised his head, he was standing under the cloudy night sky, the thunder was rolling, Cheng Yan's voice was deep and powerful, he went straight to the point, expressing his intention: "Brother Jiang, tell me, Song Yu has some psychological problems."