How far was it when I slept with him today

A farewell will divide two lives.

They don't know where the wrong step in life started, so that they are strangers after many years, and meeting and parting seems to happen in a dream.

And now, they did meet again.

Looking at Ding Wu's smiling face on the tombstone, Yi Ning didn't know what to say.When he thought back later, he always felt that God was very unfair and punished him for no reason.

Because when he and Ding Wu met, it was a secret farewell, and every time, they were sending him away.

The parting was silently prolonged, and the pain was accumulating silently, until the last time, he would not return as scheduled, leaving behind a silent flood of pain, which invaded Yi Ning day and night.

"elder brother?"

"Brother, can I call you that?"

"Brother, I miss you very much," Yi Ning said, "I have been regretting that I didn't explain everything to you back then."

"It's because I don't know how to be satisfied. I always think that I can still occupy an important position in your heart, but forget that we have grown up for a long time. It is because I am still trapped in that rainy day and cannot come out."

"There are no ifs in the world, but I can't help but imagine that if I can not care so much, if I can not be so clumsy, if I can understand, the most effective way to communicate is not to hide, even if it is just simply with you Let’s chat for a few words, maybe in the end our relationship will be each other’s passers-by, or playmates for a short period of time in childhood.”

"But at least, we won't look at each other coldly, like enemies."

"Brother," Yi Ning's eyes turned red, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have treated you that way."

After being taken back from Jiangxian City by Yi Yuan, his personality became more introverted. He cared about others and communicated normally, but he couldn't confide what was in his heart to the people around him. Even for Yi Yuan, he was more They just use plain communication to simply maintain the mother-child relationship with each other.

So later, the one who appeared in front of Ding Wu was the cold-tempered Yi Ning.

The indifferent Yi Ning is an indifferent boss who picks on the trainee lawyers of the cooperative law firm, and even makes Ding Wu unable to come to Taiwan in front of his partners...Yi Ning has done too much, and it is even more embarrassing Chilling, but at that time he only felt that he was cowardly, and he still couldn't find the correct way to communicate with Ding Wu.

Now it seems that it is really ridiculous.

"Brother, I actually heard what you said secretly under the tree back then."

"Tell me, it turns out that children can say thank you."

At that time, Yi Ning didn't dare to confirm, and didn't know how to answer the words, and Ding Wu at that time just said it in passing, so this matter passed in a vague way.After Ding Wu passed away, Yi Ning couldn't help thinking about the past, and came to such a conclusion unexpectedly, Ding Wu was waiting for Yi Ning to thank him.

He knew the purpose of Yining looking for him after recovering the next day, so he stood there arrogantly after pushing Uncle Lin away, waiting for the child to say thank you first, even if Yi Ning couldn't really say it in the end, Ding Wu He also doesn't want to ask curiously, even if he teases Yi Ning to guide Yi Ning, he doesn't want others to know what he is thinking about.

The boy with dimples at the corner of his mouth has never been as lively and straightforward as he appears.

"Brother, did you recognize me when we first met?"

"Maybe, you're still waiting for me to tell you about the old days."

"But I did that to you."

He wanted to call Brother Ding Wu, wanted to thank him personally, and wanted to tell him that he had gone to Jiang Xian to look for him in these years, and when he was leaving, Ding Wu gave Ah Wan to him to raise, and he was taking good care of that cute dog. The puppy, he did not disappoint.

But for nearly ten years, he hadn't seen Ding Wu again, so he couldn't bark, but when he went around and saw him again, his articulation couldn't be controlled, he could bark, but he didn't dare to bark.

"I am a person who lacks courage. I have never dared to speak out my thoughts. Since I was a child, my cowardice and nameless inferiority complex have always made me awkward. I am afraid of being left behind, but I don't want to really hold on to others. How can you blame others?"

Yi Ning raised his head, wanting to recall Ding Wu's appearance, the cemetery is in the suburbs, he saw that the sky in the distance is sometimes sunny and sometimes cloudy, with fast clouds chasing the sun.

He also recalled the first time he saw Ding Wu, the raindrops like soybeans were about to drown him, it was an out-and-out bad weather.

But in his heart, the sun was so bright and lively that day, and the whole world was like gold-plated. He was never so lucky to see such a bright world.

But fate is always merciful to him.Yi Ning sighed softly, then said with a smile, "I met someone like you."

"Brother, he really looks like you."

"His name is Ran Yijing."

Ran Yijing and Ding Wu have completely different looks. Ding Wu is handsome and tall, with a tall and thin figure. When he smiles, he has a pair of canine teeth, which is very lovable.

But Ran Yijing is quite different, although he looks handsome, but his facial features are profound, his face is sharp and angular, and there is often domineering over it.

These two people have nothing to do with each other, no one will see that they will be involved in any connection.

But Yi Ning felt inexplicably that Ran Yijing was very similar to Ding Wu.

"I didn't know anything about him before. I chose to marry him because we both got what we needed."

But during these days of contact, Yi Ning discovered that Ran Yijing also likes to grow flowers. Like Ding Wu, he loves to fill the balcony with roses of various colors, and would happily introduce the name of roses to Yi Ning.

A few times when Ran Yijing tilted his head and looked at him with a smile, Yi Ning always felt that he was very confused, obviously his body shape and face hadn't changed in any way, but his eyes were less sharp than before, round and smooth like those hidden in the deep sea. The black pearl inside the oyster is full of its own shadow.

Yi Ning remembered that after drinking with Cao Zhishun, it was Ran Yi who took him home, and after being bitten by himself on his Adam's apple, he didn't get angry. Instead, he made hangover soup and fed him like a child.

He wiped his cheeks and tidied his messy hair, like taking care of a kitten that was abandoned on a rainy night.

Later, after Yi Ning's drunkenness passed, when he recalled Ran Yijing that night, he would always feel a little dazed.

A long time ago, someone wrung out his sleeves, leaned over slightly, and carefully wiped the rain off the cheeks of the child who was left behind.

His tenderness is exactly the same as yours.

"Brother, I still wondered if it was just because he was too much like you that I would have some other feelings for him. I hate this, treat others as substitutes for others, and have no respect for anyone. .”

"But then I thought about it and realized that wasn't the case."

"Brother, when I like you, cicadas will always ring in my ears. My mood is smudged with the color of that summer. I am always eager to be saved by you, and I am always chasing you."

"But Ran Yijing is different. His love and I are equally sad. We will all be defeated by negative emotions. We are equally vulnerable. We will always subconsciously avoid exchanging our hearts. It is awkward, as if we have never loved anyone else. "

"But I don't hate him, or rather, I was attracted by his tenderness, but in the end I completely fell in love with this person."

"Everything about him is what I like."

"Brother, I like Ran Yijing."

When he said this, Yi Ning's eyes were full of emotions that couldn't be resolved.

"I don't know what's going to happen to us in the next second, but I like his mood and I want him to know that I don't want to make myself regret it.

He remembered a poem.

trapped inside,

Love is a captive beast,

Chew your own flesh and blood.

Love shall roam free,

Anchor at the coast of your choice,

to breathe.

(Reminder, Xiao Ran is always behind)