meet on slag road

Mu Qing's face was turned to one side by Tao Shuang, and clear red marks spread from the cheeks to the pinnae.But when he looked up at Tao Shuang, he smiled as if he didn't know the pain: "You asked this question, didn't you just want to hear my answer? A man walked out of my place early in the morning, What other explanation can there be?"

Tao Shuang looked at the almost frivolous expression on his face, her lips trembling violently.She raised her hand again, and Mu Qing subconsciously turned his head to the side, but the expected pain did not fall on his face, but sounded on the opposite side of him.

"Snapped!"

He looked over in astonishment, half of Tao Shuang's face was unnaturally red and swollen, but she still stood upright, only the tears slipped from her eyes like a broken thread, wet her skirt, and then blew in silently. into a light-colored carpet.

Mu Qing was dumbfounded.

He stood up bewildered like a child who has done something wrong, but he didn't know how to comfort Tao Shuang, and he didn't dare to get close to her, so he had to go around the table and bowed his head to her at a distance of two steps. She admitted her mistake: "Mom, don't cry, I... I was wrong, I'm sorry."

Tao Shuang took a deep breath, managed to stop her tears, and ignored the mess on her face, but looked up at her son who kept a cautious distance from her: "What are you doing standing so far away? Am I a scourge, can I scare you into a monster?" so?"

Mu Qing looked at Tao Shuang's tearful and angry face, hesitated for a moment, and said, "Don't you not like me?"

Tao Shuang heard his words, but the anger on her face suddenly stagnated for a moment: "What?"

Mu Qing thought she didn't hear clearly, so she said again: "I know you don't like me, you haven't liked me since you were a child, and you don't want me to be close to you. So if I keep a distance from you now, you should feel a little better. "

Mu Qing knew that her family was different from others since she was a child.

But when he was a child, he always couldn't understand why children in the community and school could hold their mother's hand and even get their mother's hug, but as long as he had the intention of getting close to Tao Shuang, his busy mother would immediately take him away. He picked up his bag and found all sorts of weird excuses to leave the house.

He had also tried to quietly hold Tao Shuang's hand when she was leaning on the sofa with her eyes closed, but Tao Shuang's subconscious refusal, as well as the horror and disgust when she opened her eyes to look at him, made him overwhelmed. Early to understand what is sad.

Taking advantage of the gap between piano practice, he leaned on the window sill and whispered to Gong Shichen who came over, that my mother doesn't like me.Obviously it was just a sentence to state the facts, but for some reason Gong Shichen's eyes suddenly turned red, and his face was wrinkled and wept ugly, like a bun stuffed with stuffing.

That night, Gong Shichen's mother brought the little crying bag and a big bag of toys to visit.Gong Shichen earnestly taught Mu Qing how to turn the switch of the little train. The moment the little train started running, Gong Shichen's mother touched Mu Qing's hair and gave him a warm hug.

——Halal is really cute, Auntie likes you very much.

This was the first time he had received such straightforward kindness from an adult, it was strange, but he didn't hate it.

——Thank you, auntie, but I think you should be mistaken, because I'm not cute.

Gong Shichen's mother was slightly taken aback, but still smiling, she patiently asked him why he was so sure.

The little Mu Qing looked at the humming train and sighed sadly:

——If I was cute, my mother wouldn't dislike me.

Gong Shichen's mother suddenly turned her head, and when she looked over again, the smile on her face was still warm:

——What mother would not like her child? Your mother is just too busy.But it doesn't matter, Auntie will come to play with you when she is free...

At that time, Mu Qing naively believed her words, until the year he graduated from elementary school, he accidentally discovered a dozen of psychological counseling medical records that Tao Shuang kept in the deepest part of the cabinet.

——Physical aversion to children, desire to vomit when approached...

- A strong discomfort reaction that cannot be reconciled...

In the bright summer sun, he alone in the attic read through the thick stack of diagnostic notes, carefully sealed them, and returned them to their original positions.

After that, he never got close to Tao Shuang again.

Even today.

The 28-year-old Mu Qing stood in front of her tear-stained mother, and said the matter lightly: "I accidentally saw your medical records before, and I know you didn't do it on purpose. So I—"

His words were lost in the sudden embrace.

The rich fragrance filled Mu Qing's side, Tao Shuang raised his arm strangely, and patted him on the back clumsily.

Mu Qing was silent for a moment, then gently pushed Tao Shuang away, and finished speaking with a smile, "I won't blame you."

It's just that in the summer when I was 12 years old, I was a little sad.

He looked at the pale Tao Shuang, and thoughtfully helped her refill the tea: "Drink some and press it down."

Tao Shuang looked at Mu Qing who sat back across from her again, and drank the tea in silence.

She gracefully put down the glass, looked at the opposite son who had grown much taller than herself at some time, and was also unfamiliar with him, straightened her back, and wanted to continue the topic just now, but the moment she opened her mouth, she could no longer Control your emotions, break down and cry.

The husband who originally said he didn't want a child tricked her into getting pregnant under the urging of her family, but under the persuasion of her family in turn, she was forced to restrain her fear, listened to the strange movement from her belly, and endured the pain from the high-rise building. The desire to jump up and down finally gave birth to this child.

Time has polished him into an excellent adult. He is gentle and polite, quiet and modest, but because of lack of sufficient family affection, he has always carried indifference and paranoia in his bones that cannot be integrated into normal people.

She used to think that Mu Qing was against her when she said that she liked men, and that it was absurd, ridiculous, and naive to change people around her every now and then, but today, she realized a fact very clearly: this indifference and paranoia originated from Her former husband also originated from herself.

How can a child who has never received normal affection and attention know how to love normally.

Suddenly there was a fluffy little thing in her arms, it was Mu Qing who pushed Yunsi into her arms.The cat is wearing a cute big pink hat, and a pack of unopened wet wipes is fixed on the hat with stickers. The color scheme of blue and white clouds is as beautiful as a sunny summer day after the rain.

With trembling fingers, she took off the pack of wet wipes and wiped the traces on her face indiscriminately.

Seeing that she had finally calmed down a little, Mu Qing breathed a sigh of relief, got up and walked towards the kitchen, intending to make a cup of hot chocolate to relieve her emotions and serve her, but he had only taken two steps when a voice suddenly came from behind him. Tao Shuang's voice was heard.

"Qingqing."

Mu Qing was stunned for a while, then turned around hesitantly: "You, are you calling me?"

Tao Shuang nodded slightly, and the broken hair on her forehead fell loose, covering her face.

She whispered: "Qingqing, mother is sorry for you."

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It's a bit embarrassing, but I'll try to update it.So, can I have a starfish?