Confession

Jiang Yang took Lin Xu out after tidying up the house. After eight o'clock in the evening, the afterglow faded, and the autumn evening breeze was chilly. Lin Xu was stared at wearing an extra coat.

There are many dog ​​walkers in the community, every time Jiang Yang is a little afraid of such a situation, he will quickly take Lin Xu out of the community and go for a walk by the river.

When Lin Xu sees a dog, he will look twice more. His eyes are not as out of control as before, and his eyes are calm, but there will be a touch of bitterness in his eyes.

His depression is getting better, he can control his emotions, and he is willing to go out to meet people, but occasionally he will be depressed for a while, and it is not difficult to be with Jiang Yang.

Perhaps the weather is getting cooler, and there are a lot of people walking their dogs at night. You can see all kinds of dogs along the way. On several occasions, you have met a border collie like Lele.

"Xu Xu," Jiang Yang chatted with him to divert his attention, "There is one thing I want to tell you."

Lin Xu stared at the border animal, "What?"

"The dubbing of film and television works is about to start, I may be on a business trip for a while, their studio is in Xuncheng." Jiang Yang said, "It will take about half a month, if it is soon, ten days, can you do it at home alone? "

Lin Xu's attention was drawn back by this matter, "When are you leaving?"

"About half a month later."

"Go," Lin Xu said, "I'm fine."

Jiang Yang didn't say anything, he was a little afraid to go, he still had lingering fears about what happened last time, everything changed when he came back from a business trip, he finally got everything back on track, and had to leave again.

But this is work, I have to go, the contract has been signed.

He missed a lot of opportunities before, and if he doesn't seize them firmly this time, his career may really have no hope.

"Jiang Yang, don't worry about me," Lin Xu looked at him, "Although we are in a relationship, we are independent individuals. I have my plans for the future, and you have your goals. What's more, we are different. I don’t need to work hard anymore. I have money and works. Even if I don’t write later, it will not affect the publication of the previous books or the sale of copyright. But you are different. You are only 25 years old. You should not be restricted by me. I I hope you can do what you want without hesitation."

The river was rolling, and the breeze messed up Lin Xu's hair, and the messy strands of hair fluttered on his face.

He leaned against the fence, with his arms on it, with a lazy and casual look, and a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, "I want to see you shining in your own field."

Jiang Yang smiled and helped him fix his hair, pinning it behind his ears.

Lin Xu was wearing an ordinary white T. He was thin and thin, with a big neckline. When he was facing forward, the neckline dropped slightly. From Jiang Yang's top-down perspective, he could just see the tattoo just below his collarbone.

The bright orange color is inlaid on the skin, warming the heart at a glance.

Jiang Yang stood by Lin Xu's side, looking at the cloud layer with a lingering light, the fading glow pierced through the sky, like a brush of bright ink, about to melt away.

Lin Xu turned his head and looked at him again, "And you can't keep watching me and do nothing, can you? I'm an adult and know how to take care of myself, have you forgotten? Before I met you, I took care of myself My own, and take care of Lele."

"So you take care of yourself so much that you smoke and drink, and you only weigh a hundred?" Jiang Yang pinched his face and asked back.

During this period of time, Lin Xu was raised very well by Jiang Yang. He stared at three meals a day, had a regular schedule, bought fruit and kept it at home, and could eat whenever he wanted.

Lin Xu gained a lot of weight, his original melon-seeded face became an oval face, his arms and legs were rounded, and he felt sensual when hugged, and he was no longer as tight as before.

Now Jiang Yang especially likes to pinch Lin Xu's face, it is soft and tender, feels good to the touch, and has the meaning of bullying and pampering in it.

"It won't happen now," Lin Xu knew he was wrong, and said flatteringly with a raised face, "I won't smoke or drink anymore, and I'll eat well, so I won't let you worry about it."

"I'm going to go for ten and a half months this time," Jiang Yang asked, "What do you want me to do?"

"If I miss you, I will find you."

Jiang Yang was startled, and then laughed.

How could he have forgotten that this is not the ancient times, where it was difficult to meet each other, but now the transportation is so convenient, trains, high-speed rails, planes, even if the two places are separated, they can meet quickly.

And they are all in the country, where can they go?

Lin Xu hugged Jiang Yang's waist, raised his head and said, "So don't worry about me, I want to be your help, not your hindrance."

Jiang Yang couldn't help but pinch Lin Xu's face and pouted, "A good wife?"

Lin Xu was pinched and couldn't speak, "Um...how can I say..."

If it weren't for the scruples outside, Jiang Yang would have kissed him a long time ago, so he could only bear it now, "Then have you ever thought about going with me?"

"I thought about it, but I don't want to go." Lin Xu said, "I didn't know the place in the past, so you can only stay in the hotel after you go to work. It's better to be at home."

Jiang Yang still kissed him, "Xu Xu has become independent again, not relying on me, it's a good thing, but why can't I be happy?"

"Well... still..." Lin Xu frowned, "You let go..."

Jiang Yang was amused, and let go of Lin Xu's face. His skin was fair, and there were some red marks on his face after holding it for a while. Jiang Yang rubbed his face.

"I'm still very dependent on you," Lin Xu laughed, "I'm waiting for my husband to support me."

"But what if I want to be a badass?" Jiang Yang asked.

"Yes," Lin Xu answered straightforwardly, "But the benefactor ordered you to still work, otherwise your pocket money will be gone."

Jiang Yang lowered his head, and asked in Lin Xu's ear, "Then how much pocket money does the patron father plan to give me?"

The young man's voice was soft and then deep and magnetic. He knew that Lin Xu liked to talk to his ears like this. Whenever the bed was approaching a critical point, Jiang Yang used this voice and tone to call his wife or say I love you in Lin Xu's ear. Lin Xu had no resistance and could only tremble and erupt.

Sure enough, Lin Xu's body trembled slightly, his neck shrank, his earlobes were hot, and he pretended to be calm and said, "I'll give you the card, just swipe it as you like."

Jiang Yang teased: "So generous?"

"What's mine is yours," Lin Xu said, "but there's one thing, this money can only be spent on me."

Jiang Yang raised his eyebrows: "It's so domineering."

Lin Xu nodded: "That's how I am."

Jiang Yang lowered his head and kissed him, his vague voice drifted away with the wind: "I prefer to be overbearing."

The moonlight poked out a corner, the air was filled with the fragrance of sweet-scented osmanthus, and the golden stamens hung heavily on the branches, and they kissed in the intoxicating fragrance.

Lin Xu was surrounded by warmth and love, the moonlight was just right, and the wind was gentle.

After returning home, Lin Xu went to take a shower first, and Jiang Yang washed the sheets and quilt before going out in the morning, and now he took out the sheets from the cabinet to make the bed.

Sometimes Lin Xu would watch dramas or look up information on the bed, and would put the ipad next to the pillow, together with his walkman and headphone cable.

After Jiang Yang spread the sheets, he put the iPad and MP3 in Lin Xu's most convenient place. The small one, the Walkman, slipped from his hands and fell to the ground without paying attention when he put it on.

Jiang Yang was startled, Lin Xu knew how precious this little thing was, and if it broke, he might not know how to coax it.

He quickly picked it up to check, there was no scratches on the paint, and he pressed a button casually to make sure the screen was fine.

The Walkman's screen lit up, the progress bar started to move, and there was a faint sound coming from the earphones.

Jiang Yang pressed the play button casually.

He had long been curious about what Lin Xu was listening to. When we first got together, he often saw him wearing earphones and a Walkman, and he had to listen to this to write when typing.

Later, Lin Xu spent less time listening to it, but he still couldn't do without it, and would listen to it from time to time.

Jiang Yang always thought it was a song, until now, when he put on the earphones, what came out was his own voice.

Jiang Yang was stunned, he hadn't expected it at all.

Back in college, he studied broadcasting and media. Every Wednesday, members of his department would take turns going to the broadcasting room to recite poems. When they encountered school celebration performances, the hosts were also from their department.

Inside this Walkman is a collection of his entire freshman year search, as well as late-night radio programs from his later internship at the radio station.

At that time, his skills were still very immature, he had some problems with resonance, and his breath was not stable, but his tone was very clean and pure.

Jiang Yang turned over one by one, just listening to the beginning of each one can awaken the long-faded memory, holding the small Walkman, the pain in his heart made it difficult for him to breathe.

【"Jiang Yang, if Lin Xu doesn't respond to what you say later, don't be discouraged, and you must keep talking to him. Last time he survived by relying on you, this time with you, I believe He will be braver than he was five years ago.”]

——He finally understood why Yang Xiaoling said that.

Five years ago, Lin Xu resolutely went to die, only to be beaten by Yang Xiaoling to save his life. Severe depression made his situation worse.

Under such circumstances, Lin Xu is willing to see a psychiatrist and work hard to live a strong life. It is not that Jiang Yang has not thought about why.

---why?

Because of this audio.

Because of his voice.

From the past until now, he has always been the sunshine in Lin Xu's life.

Lin Xu loves Jiang Yang with the cleanest and hottest heart. His love is timid and sincere. Even if he is in prison, he still wants to offer him a flower that he carefully protects, and give him the little warmth he has left.

Jiang Yang understood that Lin Xu had never come out from five years ago, Lin Xu fell into a disease of lovesickness, and he was the only antidote.

Lin Xu opened the bathroom door to ventilate after taking a shower, and stood in front of the sink to wash his underwear.

Although Jiang Yang was washing most of the time, it was when he was drowsy or weak.

Jiang Yang is willing to spoil him, but he can't be too presumptuous, and the easy things can be washed in a few minutes.

Lin Xu was hugged from behind, Jiang Yang silently put his chin on his shoulder.

"You go take a shower." Lin Xu misunderstood his meaning, his eyelashes trembled slightly, "I'm doing it after washing."

Normally at such times, Jiang Yang would kiss him while saying something like "Anyway, I have to wash after finishing, so I can do it while washing", but Jiang Yang didn't, his hands obediently wrapped around Lin Xu's waist, and his breathing was a bit heavy.

Lin Xu looked up at the mirror and found that Jiang Yang was not in a good mood, "What's wrong?"

Jiang Yang shook his head, "It's okay, I just want to hug you."

Lin Xu laughed, "I hug you every day, haven't you hugged enough?"

"Not enough, never enough."

Lin Xu felt that something was wrong with Jiang Yang, so he flushed the foam off his hands, turned and looked at the young man, "What's the matter? Did something happen?"

"No, nothing happened." Jiang Yang's eyes were deep and heavy, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "Xu Xu, I love you."

Lin Xu laughed, "I know, I love you too."

Jiang Yang hugged him again, and sprayed all his breath on the back of Lin Xu's neck, hot and trembling, his breath was the freshness of Lin Xu's bath, "I will always love you, always love you, and only love you."

Lin Xu didn't know why Jiang Yang was acting like this all of a sudden, so he didn't want to say anything, so he didn't ask any further questions. He patted the young man on the back, and said soothingly and gently, "I am the same."

"Not the same, I want more than you."

"...Is this going to be a fight?" Lin Xu thought it was funny.

"Much more than you." Jiang Yang hugged him tighter and said stubbornly.

Lin Xu followed him: "Okay, you have more than me."

"Be more than you all the time."

"Always more than me, Jiang Yang loves Lin Xu the most, I know it."

"Well, I only love Lin Xu."