Confession

Lin Xu slept until after two o'clock in the afternoon. He was woken up by the heat, his body was sweating profusely, his mouth was dry, and the curtains were drawn tightly by him. He couldn't tell the time from the weather. He only knew the time by looking at his phone.

Lin Xu's sleep quality was not good, it was difficult to fall into a deep sleep or sleep without dreams, he was always sleepy when he was not working, but he couldn't sleep soundly while lying on the bed, his mind flashed strange dreams like a movie.

He sat up and drank water, staring blankly in the dimly lit room.

He dreamed of Jiang Yang, who was just a freshman. At that time, he was younger than now, and his body was full of warmth. The boy laughed wantonly, sweating in the summer full of bubbles.

The cicadas chirped long and loudly, and the light and shadows were mottled. From then on, Jiang Yang's voice and face were engraved in Lin Xu's mind with indelible memories.

That was the last tail of Lin Xu's youth, he wanted to catch Jiang Yang, and wanted to leave a colorful stroke for himself when his youth ended.

Lin Xu pressed the center of his eyebrows, picked up the phone and glanced at the news, the red mark was 99+, he looked through it, and the director of the radio drama "Chess Pieces" and Xiaowen both gave him news.

The director asked him when he would go, and Xiaowen reminded him that the radio drama was officially launched today, reminding him to listen to it, and also sent a link to Tingyue FM.

Lin Xu quickly clicked in. Sure enough, as soon as he entered the homepage, he saw the recommended position of "Chess Pieces". On the headlines, the fan posters were very beautifully drawn. One hundred thousand.

Not only the first episode of the full version has been updated, but also the theme song and dubbing extras.

Although Lin Xu has listened to the first episode many times, but now that the original version is online, he plans to listen to it again and download all the online content to his local.

Lin Xu got out of bed, turned down the air conditioner, and listened to radio dramas while washing with headphones on.

He wasn't as excited as he was the first time he heard it, but the emotions and dubbing of the scene in the official version are more perfect, and some details have been adjusted.

Even though Lin Xu had heard it so many times, he couldn't help but blush.

The theme song is sung by Jiang Yang and Xing Xing. The tone of the song is grand, yet soft and desolate.

Lin Xu felt it wasn't enough after listening to it once, so he set it to loop.

He fed Lele, filled the water bowl with water, poured in the powder for tartar removal, and then took out a sandwich and milk from the refrigerator, warmed it up for a while, ate something casually, and went back to the room to choose what to wear what clothes.

Lin Xu has always been indifferent to these things. He has money, and some money that he can't spend, but he has never dressed himself up. Every time he goes out, he wears a whitewashed T-shirt and canvas shoes. It is 100 pieces of short sleeves bought online for 10 yuan.

——Before he had no energy, nor did he want to.

At this moment, Lin Xu looked at the messy wardrobe, and finally had a feeling that he couldn't do this.

At least not in front of Jiang Yang.

He glanced at the time and dialed Faxiao's phone.

"Lin Xu?" The person on the other side was obviously surprised, and he couldn't hide his surprise, "Oh my god, did I read that right? You actually took the initiative to call me? Has the sun come out from the west?"

"You don't want me to call you?" Lin Xu took out all the old clothes from the closet, as well as some worn-out trousers that he hadn't bothered to throw away before.

Yang Xiaoling quickly denied, "No, no, how is it possible, I'm too happy for you to call me!"

The background sound on his side was quite noisy, as if he had walked to a quiet place, his excited voice faded away, and he said with emotion, "Xu Xu, you haven't called me for a long time, I always Looking forward to this day, before we..."

Lin Xu didn't want to mention the past, so he interrupted his memory, "Xiao Ling, there is something I want to ask for your help."

"Do we need 'please' in our relationship?" Yang Xiaoling was not happy, and said boldly, "What can I do? As long as I can help, I will definitely help!"

"I'm sorting out my closet and I want to buy some new clothes." Lin Xu emphasized, "I need it soon, within half an hour."

Yang Xiaoling is a fashion designer. The brand he created is quite famous in the international fashion brand. The private server photos of the stars in the entertainment circle are basically his family's.He often attends some variety shows and has a lot of popularity in the entertainment circle.

"No problem," Yang Xiaoling said, "I happen to have some new products for this season, and I'll send them all to you. The address is still the same?"

"Yes, it doesn't need to be too fancy." Lin Xu said.

Yang Xiaoling: "Don't worry, we've known each other for so many years, I still don't know your dressing style? I said, are you finally willing to tidy up your closet? When I went last time, I said to help you tidy up, and now I'm finally willing Throw it away? No... You suddenly changed your gender, could it be that you are in a relationship?"

He rambled on a lot, and as an experienced person, he grasped the key points at once.

Lin Xu changed the subject calmly, "I'll transfer the money to you."

"What kind of money do you want to transfer?" Yang Xiaoling exploded immediately, forgetting what he wanted to ask, and yelled following Lin Xu's words, "What's the relationship between us? We've known each other for so many years, and I want to give gifts to the stars I work with for the season , I can’t send you clothes yet?”

Lin Xu's hands moved quickly. He threw all the "pickles" from the bottom of the box into the garbage bag, found some coats and shirts, hung them on hangers, and said flatly: "I want more than one or two. , if you don't accept it, I won't look for you in the future."

"Hey...don't!" Yang Xiaoling said anxiously, "That's fine, I'll take it."

Lin Xu hummed, "Send me the amount later."

Yang Xiaoling was quiet for a moment, and said in a low voice, "Xuxu, I'm so happy that you took the initiative to contact me."

Lin Xu paused, staring at a certain point in the closet with calm eyes.

"Do you remember the last time you took the initiative to call me?" Yang Xiaoling asked hoarsely.

Lin Xu didn't answer.

Yang Xiaoling's voice sounded quite sad, "Xu Xu, I've wanted to ask this question for a long time, can we really never go back to the past?"

"..." Lin Xu sat down by the bed, arched his back slightly, his head began to ache, like being pricked by a needle, those dark, broken and chaotic memories from the past emerged, which he deliberately ignored, and the pain was unbearable The pictures emerged one by one in front of my eyes.

"Xu Xu?" Yang Xiaoling didn't hear his voice, and asked uneasily, "Are you listening?"

Lin Xu took a deep breath and said in a low voice, "Xiao Ling, I don't want to mention the past."

"Okay, okay, don't mention it, we won't mention it." Yang Xiaoling said in a panic, "Xuxu, you are my only friend, really."

Lin Xu lowered his head, lit a cigarette, and hummed, "If I didn't regard you as a friend, I wouldn't ask you for help."

Yang Xiaoling suddenly became happy, "Don't worry, I will handle it for you. I have sent your address to the assistant just now, and he will be there in a while."

Lin Xu said thank you, and after listening to Yang Xiaoling flattering, excited and saying something else, he listened to the time of a cigarette, and found an excuse to hang up the phone.

When Yang Xiaoling talked about the past, Lin Xu's happy mood fell to the bottom. Gray and white memories followed one after another, and the familiar feeling of depression hit him like dense snowflakes.

Lin Xu's breathing was short, with his elbows resting on his thighs, his hands covering his face, breathing heavily, trying to control his dizziness by adjusting his breathing.

He hasn't been in this state for a long time, and he doesn't understand why the phone call with Yang Xiaoling turned into this.

Yang Xiaoling didn't mention anything, just said the word "before", which made him lose control like this.

Lin Xu bit his lip, the intense heart palpitations made him speechless, the sweat on his back wet his clothes, he couldn't feel the heat, but kept sweating.

Lele sensed what was wrong with him, and kept wandering around, sitting obediently, licking Lin Xu's arm.

After a while, when Lin Xu came back to his senses, he had already sat on the floor from the bed.

He looked at the half-arranged closet in front of him and the disorganized things around him, and suddenly felt a sense of fatigue. He leaned his head back against the bed, not wanting to move, recalling all the things he had with Yang Xiaoling.

As the name suggests, Yang Xiaoling is gay. He often dated different boyfriends when he was in college. He was very flirtatious, dressed gay in a gay way, and behaved a bit motherly.

Lin Xu and him used to be neighbors, and they knew each other since the kindergarten. When Yang Xiaoling was bullied by other children in the kindergarten and called him sissy, Lin Xu stood up to help him and even gave him candy. The friendship between the two began like this. .

Later, they went to elementary school, junior high school, and high school together, and they didn't go to the same school until they majored in different universities.

Before the sophomore year, they had always been very close friends and talked about everything.Every time Yang Xiaoling finds a new boyfriend, he will show it to Lin Xu and ask him to check it out.

Lin Xu would seriously put forward his opinions at the beginning, but as time passed, he realized that his opinions were not important, because Yang Xiaoling would find another man with a good job after a while.

It's just that Lin Xu didn't expect that there would be a dispute between them without emotional entanglement, but they would also break up because of a man.

When he needed friends the most and longed for care, Yang Xiaoling chose love.

"Buzz-buzz--" The mobile phone slumped on the floor made a vibrating sound.

Lin Xu looked over stiffly, and the word "Yang" on the screen brought back his emotions.

He picked up his cell phone and connected the WeChat call.

"Senior, are you awake?" Jiang Yang's low and gentle voice blew like a spring breeze, soothing Lin Xu's strange palpitations.

Lin Xu replied in a low voice, "I'm awake."

Jiang Yang asked, "Why is your voice so weird?"

"It's okay." Lin Xu cleared his throat, sounding less hoarse.

"The director and Xiaowen sent you messages, but you didn't reply." Jiang Yang smiled, "They asked me to ask when you will come? They have something to do in a while, and they have to go out, probably after five o'clock."

Lin Xu reacted for a while, then remembered the business, and stood up from the ground with difficulty, "I'll be there in an hour."

"Okay, I'll tell them." Jiang Yang asked again, "The radio drama "Chess Pieces" is online, have you listened to it? Is it better than the trial version?"

A Liang's voice came from over there: "Can you be humble?"

"I know I'm excellent, so why be humble?" Jiang Yang said proudly.

Listening to their conversation, Lin Xu calmed down, the corners of his mouth curled up slightly, and he said slowly, "I heard that, it's very good."

Jiang Yang said happily, "Senior, hurry up, we have recorded the eighth episode, let me listen to the scene."

There was some light in Lin Xu's dim eyes, "Okay."

After hanging up the phone, Lin Xu went to take a shower, emptied the cabinet completely, and the clothes delivery person came to the door not long after.

Yang Xiaoling sent over a hundred pieces of clothes, all of which were new in the season. Apart from short sleeves, there were coats and trousers, most of which were well-matched. There were also two large boxes of new jewelry, tie clips, sleeves Buckles, earrings and necklaces.

Lin Xu looked at the prices on several sets of hang tags, made a rough calculation, and transferred a sum of money to Yang Xiaoling's bank card.

Before going out, Lin Xu carefully selected and tidied his clothes. In the jewelry box, he chose a necklace that matched the clothes, and sprayed on some perfume.

I have to say that Yang Xiaoling understands Lin Xu very well, and the perfume he chooses fits his temperament, it is light and cold, with a hint of sweetness in the aftertaste.

Lin Xu hadn't dressed up so carefully for a long time. He stood in front of the mirror, looked at the handsome and refreshing person inside, smiled with his lips pursed, and went out the door with his computer bag.

Lin Xu and A Liang had worked together before, but this was the first time he set foot in the studio. When he came to the door according to the information sent by Jiang Yang, he bumped into Xiao Wen who was about to take the elevator out.

Xiaowen was taken aback when she saw Lin Xu, then widened her eyes in surprise, unable to move her eyes away from Lin Xu's face.

People rely on clothes, horses rely on saddles, this sentence is really true.

When we met before, Lin Xu was dressed very ordinary, even shabby, with a whitewashed T-shirt, ripped jeans and canvas shoes...

But this time it's completely different. The silk black T-shirt is printed with light pink flowers. The high-grade silky texture enhances his temperament and complements his fair skin. The white pants are attached to his thin and long legs , and paired with a pair of light-colored sneakers, it looks extraordinarily refreshing in this scorching afternoon.

Lin Xu's eyes were also brighter than the last time they met, the feeling of alienation and coldness faded, more like a piece of jade that had been moistened by the sun.

"Ms. Lin...you are here." Xiaowen said in a daze, licking the corners of her mouth with the tip of her tongue to prevent her from drooling.

Lin Xu nodded, "You want to go out?"

"I'm going downstairs to buy water, what do you want to drink?" Xiaowen smiled, lowering her voice, "Go to the lounge and sit for a while, let's chat about the script while drinking."

Lin Xu: "Fruit tea is fine."

Xiaowen led him in, and when passing the dubbing room, the door suddenly opened, and Jiang Yang and A Liang came out from inside, holding manuscripts in their hands, talking about something.

"Lin Xu is here." A Liang greeted, "Let's go to the lounge first."

Lin Xu nodded, looked at the man next to him, and frowned.

Jiang Yang smiled when he saw him, and praised him unhurriedly: "Senior, you are so handsome today."