Confession

As dusk fell, the clouds in the sky were dyed into rich fire clouds, and the remnant clouds floated on the orange and red sky, as lonely as weeping blood.

The sunset glow fell into the living room, covering Lin Xu's body with a layer of fiery light, which was the last ray of warmth before night fell.

Lele, who had been lying quietly in Lin Xu's arms, moved, struggled to get up from the ground, swayed in the living room for a while, drank some water, went to the coffee table to grab a leash, and arched her head against Lin Xu's face.

The long hair rubbed against Lin Xu's face itching, he frowned slightly, and opened his eyes wearily, the afterglow was too dazzling, he shrank subconsciously to avoid the burst of light.

Lele licked Lin Xu's face and arms, then went to hug him again, making a "beep" sound, and wagging her tail vigorously.

Lin Xu knew that it wanted to go out, and usually when Jiang Yang was around, he walked it at this time, bought some food and cooked it, and he got used to it with Jiang Yang.

Lin Xu thought of Jiang Yang, opened his eyes, and sat up with difficulty, resting his forehead with one hand and the ground with the other, quietly waiting for the dizziness to pass.

Familiar palpitations, familiar dizziness, familiar depression.

Lin Xu was in a trance for a moment, thinking that he had returned to five years ago. The panic that could not be ignored made his body sweat. He was panting uncomfortably, his headache was about to split, and the anxiety grew out of the panic, accompanied by the urge to masochistic.

Physical pain can relieve psychological pressure. When the blood gushes out, the manic factor in the body will also be released, and the moment the flesh is broken, you will get a short-term pleasure.

Lin Xu's breathing was short, watching Lele wagging her tail obediently at him, licking his chin with her soft tongue.

His body was empty, so empty that he panicked.

Lin Xu hugged Lele tightly, hoping to gain a sense of security.

Now is not five years ago, Lele is not a puppy, but has grown into a big dog.

He is no longer alone, and there is Jiang Yang.

Lin Xu swallowed his saliva, looked up at the shattered mobile phone, and stiffly supported the sofa to stand up.

If the phone is cracked like this, it will definitely not work.

Lin Xu stared at the paralyzed scrap iron in a daze, his brain was like a rusty machine, every thought took a lot of time.

The room was empty and quiet, but there was an unstoppable buzzing in his ears.

Lin Xu covered his ears in pain, and groaned in pain. He stumbled to the room to find the Walkman.

That's something more effective than medicine.

Headphones... where are the headphones...

Lin Xu fumbled for the earphone on the bed in a panic, took out the coiled wire under the pillow, and plugged it in with trembling hands, until Jiang Yang's voice came out, barely calming his uncontrollable fear.

The world quieted down, and he fell on the bed panting violently. There were still Jiang Yang's clothes on the bed, and the breath left on them made Lin Xu's palpitations a lot better.

"Jiang Yang..." Lin Xu hugged Jiang Yang's clothes and shouted helplessly.

He misses him so much.

Jiang Yang will definitely believe him, definitely will.

Lin Xu broke down and cried, the tears flowed out and wet Jiang Yang's clothes, curled up on the bed in pain and vulnerability.

Lin Xu couldn't satisfy Lin Xu after listening to it thousands of times. He longed for something fresher, longed for Jiang Yang's comfort in his ear, longed for Jiang Yang's voice that cared about him.

Jiang Yang's reading was played on a loop in the earphones, but Guo Shule's face flashed repeatedly before Lin Xu's eyes.

The conversation in the morning is still fresh in his memory. Guo Shule said that he has nothing to dare to do, and he will do it if he wants to.

Lin Xu closed his eyes tightly, his eyelashes were trembling, and the veins on his forehead were bulging.

Don't think...don't think!

Guo Shule said that he couldn't see him well, and was jealous of his excellence.

Lin Xu gritted his teeth tightly, sweating coldly, feeling a surge of overwhelming nausea in his heart, trying to drive Guo Shule's face out of his mind, but to no avail.

Stop...don't even think about it!

When the screen changed, it was the reunion at the bar again. Guo Shule looked down at him and said word by word, "Lin Xu, you haven't changed anything after five years."

Nothing has changed.

The word of silence is him.

Xu Tian is him.

He is also the one who copied and copied.

It was still him who couldn't argue.

Lin Xu suddenly opened his eyes, rushed to the toilet and threw up crazily on the side of the toilet.

His stomach turned upside down, his esophagus twitched, and his face turned pale due to the intense spasms. His fingers were painfully pinched on the tiles, and acid water and gastric juices spewed out.

He only ate a little breakfast. Now that the day has passed, there is nothing in his stomach. This kind of vomiting is the most uncomfortable. The stomach twitches repeatedly, and he can clearly feel the state of stirring inside, but there is no way to control the physiological reaction. Repeated vomiting and convulsions, a vicious circle.

After vomiting, Lin Xu sat on the edge of the toilet panting, the light hitting his face was shockingly white.

Lele has been sitting by the side with him, seeing the master looking over, wagging his tail slightly and staring at him.

Lin Xu swallowed his saliva, even if he rinsed his mouth, he couldn't get rid of the sour taste in his mouth.

He raised his hand to touch Lele, and suddenly smiled.

Guo Shule is wrong, he is different from before.

In the past, he had nothing, and all his relatives and friends left him and let him go.

But not now, he has Lele and Jiang Yang, this is the biggest difference.

Thinking of this, Lin Xu stood up tremblingly and flushed his face with cold water, which cleared up his chaotic thoughts.

Lin Xu looked at himself in the mirror, no different from Jiang Yang when he left, with hickey marks and tooth marks on his neck, these are the marks of being possessed and doted on by Jiang Yang.

Lin Xu took a breath, looked at Lele who had been guarding him, knelt down and rubbed its face, his throat was bloodshot and hoarse, "Do you want to go out?"

Lele obviously understood the word "go out", her eyes lit up, and she stuck out her tongue excitedly.

The corner of Lin Xu's mouth curled up, "Let's go."

Before Jiang Yang left, he asked Lele to take a walk. Since Lele wanted to go out, he wanted this master to do his best.

And he has to go out to buy a mobile phone to contact Jiang Yang. He hasn't sent Jiang Yang a message for a whole day, and Jiang Yang will be worried.

He couldn't make Jiang Yang worry.

Life is not chaotic, and neither is he.

This time is different from last time, he has armor and family.

As long as Lele and Jiang Yang are there, he will not make the same mistakes again.

Lin Xu went to get the dog leash and put it on Lele's body, took a bank card from his bag and put it in his pocket, took out the phone card from the broken phone, and went out in an orderly manner.

The setting sun is about to fall into the night, the magnificent clouds gradually lose their luster, the air is solidified and humid, without any sense of wind, making you feel flustered.

Now it is off-duty time, the bustling crowd constitutes the fireworks in the world, and the hurried and brisk footsteps are enough to see the joy and relaxation of social animals after get off work, and the sweltering temperature has become bearable.

All this has nothing to do with Lin Xu, he seems to be disconnected from this world, and a transparent wall has been erected invisibly, and he stays in it, enjoying the loneliness of self-torture.

There is no mobile phone store near home, so Lin Xu has to walk along the road to a shopping mall one kilometer away from home to buy a mobile phone.

He wore a mask to cover his face tightly, looking sleepy.

After Lele came out, she was obviously very excited, wagging her long tail, and followed Lin Xu's ears all the way.

After walking for more than ten minutes, there is a shopping mall across the street, the lights have been turned on, and the advertisements endorsed by celebrities are flashing on the LED screen.

Stopping at the red light, Lin Xu stood by the zebra crossing and waited, the weather was too hot, the moisture in his body had already evaporated after walking all this way, plus he had vomited before, his throat was very dry, and it hurt to swallow saliva.

Not far away was a milk tea shop. Lin Xu rummaged through his trouser pockets and walked in with the only 20 yuan in cash left in his bag.

Pets are not allowed in the store, so Lin Xu tied Lele to a post at the door.

The cool air rushed over, immediately relieving the sticky feeling on the body.

At this time, there was a lot of traffic, and Lin Xu had to wait 5 minutes for the simplest lemonade to get it.

He didn't have a mobile phone to play with, so he sat in a chair in a daze, looking at the time on the clock on the wall, thinking about Jiang Yang.

"Hey, do you know what happened today? Xu Tian is the silent words that he plagiarized back then." The voice from the table next to him reached Lin Xu's ears.

Lin Xu froze suddenly.

"I know, I went to his autograph today!" Another girl said angrily, "My best friend likes him very much, but it's not convenient to go to the scene because she's pregnant, so she asked me to sign for her. As a result Before I gave her the book, this shit happened."

Lin Xu clenched his hands tightly, and looked at the two girls at the next table, and one of them, a girl in a red dress, came into his eyes.

Bright colors are easy to impress people, and this is the only red in the whole signing meeting.

The red skirt and best friend are pregnant.

——Yes, it was her.

He only signed one "Xi De Dian Jin", so he has a deep memory.

Lin Xu never expected to meet a reader in this situation. He squeezed his heart so hard that his blood vessels were about to explode, making his fingertips tremble, and the pain flowed from his heart to his limbs.

"I liked Xu Tian very much before. His writing is so good, with plot and depth. I bought every book he published, and went to every signing event. Oh, how could he plagiarize? !"

"Who knows, this house collapsed unexpectedly." The girl in the red dress sighed, "And I ate melons today and dug out everything about Mo Zhiyan. He refused to admit it five years ago. This is even more serious. It's disgusting, it's been done, and everyone knows it's copying, what's wrong with admitting it and apologizing? Hey... In the end, he changed his pseudonym and continued to collect money. Mo An has been tepid these past few years, As a result, plagiarists are still popular in the literary circle. How can there be such a reason? Disgusting!"

"Isn't it? This incident is really irritating, and my liver hurts. Is it easy for the creator? These words were typed out bit by bit, and he copied and pasted them in a few minutes. Other people's hard work! It's too much, it's really too much!" Another girl became more and more angry as she spoke, and her voice became louder, causing the people next to her to look sideways.

The girl in the red skirt asked her to keep her voice down, and took a sip of milk tea in a smug manner, "That incident was also a riot in the city, but the netizens were also quite vicious, and even revealed the privacy of Mo Zhiyan, phone numbers and the like."

"Ah? That's a relief!" Another girl said angrily, "This kind of person should be scolded! I also found that Weibo, and the phone has been logged out. Humph, a coward. Is his surname Lin? "

"Mr. Lin, your lemonade is ready." The waiter said to Lin Xu.

The sound is not loud enough to be heard by everyone in the store.

The conversation between the two girls stopped, probably because their surnames collided, and they subconsciously turned their heads to look at Lin Xu.

Lin Xu bit his lip, trying his best to control his emotions so as not to lose his composure, those gazes turned into sharp knives cutting his skin, blood seeped from the wound without knife marks, and the fishy smell lingered on his body.

He walked into the front desk step by step, the lemonade was ice cold, the glass was steaming, his fingertips touched the wall of the glass, and the bone-piercing chill penetrated into his body, his arms trembled, he didn't hold the glass firmly, and it "slapped" heavily All of a sudden, the lemonade fell on the ground and scattered all over the place.

The waiter was stunned, "Hi, would you like to order another glass?"

Lin Xu came back to his senses, and faintly heard others discussing him. The scene in front of him was distorted, the picture was shattered into pieces, countless saliva sprayed on his back, and his skinny hand stretched out from the screen of the phone, trying to He was pulled into the abyss of corpses.

The two-dimensional fear spread to the three-dimensional, at this moment he seemed to be engraved on the real pillar of shame, and the words of abuse were like rivets pierced into the blood.

"Mr. Lin..." The waiter called him again, "You need to..."

"Kang Dang" a sound of door opening.

Lin Xu rushed out the door before he could even say a word, his steps were illusory, he stumbled across the zebra crossing at the last second of the green light, and he was only able to breathe when he was completely separated from the milk tea shop by the rush of traffic.

The voice in his ear gradually receded, and Lin Xu squatted on the ground panting violently. The short distance of tens of meters was as tiring as running for thousands of meters.Breathing hot, sweat flowing out of the pores, steaming like a spring and losing moisture, rapidly consuming vitality.

In front of Lin Xu's eyes was a fragmented light and shadow, and a surprised exclamation sounded from beside him, "Whose dog is that?"

"..."

dog?

Lin Xu looked at his empty hands, as if struck by lightning, he suddenly turned his head——

Lele saw the owner abandoning it and crossing the road, and anxiously broke free from the leash. He was still very sensible holding the part of the leash, and ran forward with only Lin Xu in his eyes.

At this time, the sidewalk is at a red light, and beside it is a group of vehicles, which are very fast, and passing by in front of them can arouse a hot wind.

"...Don't!" Lin Xu's pupils were tightly shrunk, screams came and went from around, his tearing voice pierced the night sky, with strong fear and trembling.

"Lele——!"

"boom---"

A sound of hitting a heavy object and the sound of tires rubbing against the ground at high speed sounded at the same time, piercing Lin Xu's heart like a sharp sword.

it's dark.

Lin Xu's eyes were filled with scarlet.