Confession

"Boom——" a deafening thunder resounded through the sky, and Lei Gong was roaring, shaking the earth and the sky.

Lin Xu flinched in shock, Jiang Yang hugged him tightly, patted his back to comfort him: "It's nothing, it's just thunder."

Lin Xu's breathing was a little messy, telling about the past was undoubtedly digging open his own wound, exposing the pus and poisonous blood inside to Jiang Yang.

His heart was uncomfortable, he curled up in Jiang Yang's arms and took a deep breath, clinging to the young man's fiery body, eagerly absorbing the other's body temperature.

Jiang Yang kissed Lin Xu's hair, and asked in a low voice, "So you dropped out of school because of this?"

Lin Xu pursed his lips, his eyelashes trembled, and his Adam's apple moved: "Yes."

No.

"I was under too much pressure and faced with the death of my parents... I didn't know how to deal with other people."

It was because he attempted suicide at that time, and his state was no longer enough to support his studies.

At that time, I resisted contact with others, was afraid of getting along with others, and just wanted to shrink in my shell and avoid everything outside.

"And I don't want to face Guo Shule."

It is impossible to face.

"Reminds me of... what he did to me."

It will lose control, and there will be the urge to kill with a knife.

"The death of my parents, Guo Shule's betrayal, Yang Xiaoling's incomprehension...all these things are piled up, and I can't handle it."

He can hear the voice of the outside world swearing at him all the time, day and night, and the words "death to plagiarists" and "gay eyeballs" fill his mind.

No one believed him, no one understood him, and the Weibo posts that abused him were forwarded tens of thousands. He became a shame in the literary circle, failed to live up to the love of readers, and became a mouse that everyone shouted and beat.

He couldn't bear the fall of all the social software.

Jiang Yang listened quietly, felt Lin Xu's trembling, and lowered his head to kiss his cold face.

They hugged each other tightly, but still couldn't cover Lin Xu's ice-like body.

Jiang Yang's kiss fell on Lin Xu's cheeks, nose tip, and eyelids, and he kissed tirelessly. The cherished feeling was conveyed through the intimate kiss.

"It's okay, it's all over." Jiang Yang coaxed softly, "It's all over, everything will get better later."

Lin Xu hummed, his nasal voice was heavy, and his eyelashes were moist.

"Then why did you pick up the pen and start writing again?" Jiang Yang kissed Lin Xu's eyes, which were wet, salty, and tasted bitter.

"I need a channel to vent." Lin Xu said hoarsely, "I found many ways, but they were useless. In the end, I found that only words can express my heart, and I can only get short-term relaxation when I am immersed in the story. "

So even though human words left indelible scars on Lin Xu's soul, he still chose to continue writing.

He tried to fall into the darkness forever, but Yang Xiaoling accidentally broke through and stopped him. What really moved Lin Xu was what Yang Xiaoling once said——

【"Xu Xu, I beg you, even if you don't do it for me. Think about the person you like, don't you like him? Let him be the motivation for you to live, okay? Don't you like his voice? I Brought your mp3, you listen... these are the audios you said you recorded on the campus radio. Did you say you liked his voice, his smile? Don't give up, please... try to live, You are going to die, what should I do... Treat him as a reason to live, okay? Please... Xu Xu, don't die... Be brave..."]

At that time, he was lying on the bed with thick gauze wrapped around his wrists, his eyes were numb and empty, his beautiful eyes were lifeless, he was staring at the ceiling dimly, even though Yang Xiaoling was crying beside him, he didn't respond.

Until Jiang Yang's voice appeared in the ward.

Ever since Jiang Yang entered the university and joined the campus radio, Lin Xu never missed any of his midday recitations.

The sunny, cheerful voice of a young man appeared in Lin Xu's ears, reciting prose or poetry in a melodious and melodious manner.

At the beginning, he was not very good at controlling his breathing, and there would be a shallow breathing sound between his openings. If he was reciting aloud, he would definitely be imperfect, but at this moment, he felt a sense of reality, as if he was talking next to his ear, as if Jiang Yang was really speaking. Talk here.

Yang Xiaoling's eyes were red from crying, and he could only act like a living horse doctor, holding up the recording and playing it over and over again.

After a long time, Lin Xu's eyes moved slightly, a line of tears slid down from the corner of his eyes, and quickly disappeared between his temples, leaving a circle of faint tear stains on the pillow.

Lin Xu sniffed, raised his head to look at Jiang Yang, affectionately sketched the handsome and handsome outline of the young man, and brushed his eyebrows and roots with his fingertips.

Jiang Yang obeyed his movements and closed his eyes.

Lin Xu's fingers slowly slid down, touched his lips gently, and whispered softly, "Jiang Yang, sometimes I'm really scared."

"Huh?" Jiang Yang opened his mouth to enclose Lin Xu's fingers, and the tip of his tongue rolled over his fingertips.

"I'm afraid you're fake," Lin Xu said bitterly, "I really can't believe... I really have you."

With delusions and fantasies, Lin Xu's empty body was filled with Jiang Yang, and every time his lips and tongues touched and his body entangled was a silent orgasm.

For Lin Xu, Jiang Yang is not only the object of his unrequited love, but also his nourishment, the driving force for his survival.

Lin Xu didn't know if this was considered love, or maybe it was just a kind of perverted dependence, he didn't even dare to tell the whole truth, he was afraid that his pathological dependence would scare Jiang Yang.

Illness, suicide, and recording are secrets that cannot be told to Jiang Yang.

The tulle covered the bloody scars, and he wanted to preserve his last decency in front of Jiang Yang.

Jiang Yang chuckled, and kissed Lin Xu's lips again, lingering together, and the sound of water was moist.

"Mmm... um..." Lin Xu raised his head obediently, his slender neck was fragile and graceful, and his Adam's apple rolled up and down as he swallowed hastily, attracting abuse.

Jiang Yang's hands moved up and down Lin Xu's thin waist. He could not put it down because of the soft waist. He moved his arms down and hooked Lin Xu's thighs, letting him cross his waist. The two of them lay on their sides. stick more tightly.

Lin Xu hooked Jiang Yang's neck, inserted his fingers into the young man's hair, and rubbed his scalp emotionally.

Jiang Yang held Lin Xu's hand, squeezed the palm carefully, felt the small scar on the palm, and rubbed his palm charmingly.

"Hmm..." Lin Xu let out an unbearable nasal sound.

He longed for Jiang Yang's lips and tongue, but it was the first time that he was rubbed so tenderly, as if the kitten's pads were rubbed open, revealing a more sensitive inner flesh, which made him emotional every time he touched it.

Lin Xu's hand was pulled against Jiang Yang's chest, under the hard texture was a burning heart.

Puff--puff--

This is the place where the blood of the whole body gathers here.

Lin Xu's eyes widened, inexplicably irritated, his fingers curled up, his breathing became more disordered, and the end of his eyes turned red from the irritation.

Jiang Yang asked in a low voice, "Did you feel it?"

"..." Lin Xu couldn't answer, bit his lip, his eyes were moist.

"Lin Xu, I will stay with you from now on, no matter what happens." Jiang Yang looked into Lin Xu's eyes and said word by word, "From now on, I will only be moved by you."

Lin Xu's nose was sore, and he endured the tears that flowed out all night.

He should have been satisfied, happy, and joyful, but this time he only had endless sourness, as if all the grievances he had experienced in the past had been understood.

A person walked in the barren land for too long, the thorns pierced the flesh, the scarlet blood bloomed thick roses on the road, the redness of the road could not be washed away by the heavy rain, it was the flower of love that bloomed from the cracked ground .

The torrential rain washes over the ground, the sun shines after the rain, the grass grows and warblers fly, and the golden light of dawn breaks through the thick clouds, dispelling the darkness and the gloomy tide, ushering in the long-lost spring.

———The long-awaited sunshine only shines for him from now on.

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"...Well, I know. Oh, it's really cheap for him."

Lin Xu woke up leisurely, and heard Jiang Yang speak in a low voice, his earlobe was itchy, being pinched by someone.

"Hmm..." Lin Xu buried his face in the quilt, trying to avoid the itching, but instead his snow-white neck was exposed, deepening the young man's sight.

"Okay, I'll leave this matter to you, hang up first, I have something to do."

Jiang Yang half leaned against the bed, his indifferent expression on the phone was replaced by softness, he touched Lin Xu's side face, his indifferent tone became soft, "Are you awake? Are you hungry? I bought breakfast."

Lin Xu was already full of sleep, the drowsiness left in his body made him not want to move, he raised his head, put his cheek against Jiang Yang's abdomen, raised his arms around the young man's tight and strong waist, and asked lazily: "What time is it?" gone?"

"It's eleven o'clock." Jiang Yang replied, looked down at Lin Xu with thick fan-shaped eyelashes, and scratched his upturned nose.

"When did you buy breakfast?" Lin Xu said in a low voice, lazily, "I don't know."

Jiang Yang replied: "After eight o'clock in the morning, I took Lele for a stroll and bought breakfast by the way. You slept too deeply, so I don't know."

Lin Xu yawned, and opened his eyes, which were filled with water vapor, looking like a simple deer that was ignorant of the world.

This appearance is completely a college student, like a magnolia flower that is not stained with dust, not like a 27-year-old mature man who has experienced life and death.

Xiao Lu raised his head, looked at Jiang Yang with wet eyes, pressed his chin against his abdominal muscles, and asked, "Who did you call just now?"

Jiang Yang raised his eyebrows, "Is this an investigation?"

"Well," Lin Xu said, "Is it not possible?"

"Yes," Jiang Yang suddenly smiled, pinching Lin Xu's pierced earlobe, and said flirtatiously, "You can do whatever you want."

Lin Xu also laughed, the sorrow and pain of last night were gone, it was like a newborn lightness.

"It's Jin Congyun." Jiang Yang confessed, "Tell me about Guo Shule."

The smile on the corner of Lin Xu's mouth froze.

Jiang Yang patted him on the back, "If you don't listen, stop talking, let's talk about other things."

Lin Xu was silent for a moment, then shook his head, "I can't just avoid him every time I mention him, I figured it out last night. I can't let him be my shadow and trouble anymore, he is unworthy and too worthless."

He propped himself up, leaned up, listened to Jiang Yang's heartbeat, and said calmly: "With you here, I don't have to be afraid of anything, I will come out."

Jiang Yang's heart constricted, his blood froze, and it took a few seconds for it to warm up again.

Lin Xu's reaction was not so happy, but more distressed.

He thought of the past five years when Lin Xu lived alone, with no one around him, no one to express the anguish in his heart, no one to understand the grievances, and how much perseverance and strength he must have put in to survive such hopeless days.

Every time Jiang Yang thought of this, he hated Guo Shule a little more.

Jiang Yang took a deep breath, hugged Lin Xu to stabilize his emotions, and said, "Yesterday, Jin Congyun checked and found out that the company Guo Shule works for is a subsidiary of his family."

Lin Xu was taken aback, and raised his head.

"His private life is indiscreet. Jin Congyun only got the news after a long time of investigation. Before he played with men and women, he probably ate something unclean and got a little zero into the hospital."

"...?" Lin Xu stared blankly at Jiang Yang, not knowing how to react.

Jiang Yang's heart softened by his ignorant appearance, he kissed Lin Xu's eyes, "Are you surprised to see you like this?"

"No, I know he's gay." Lin Xu said, "I noticed it when I was in college, and I also felt that he deliberately hid it, thinking that he didn't want to be known, so I just pretended not to know. It's just... How does he play with women?"

"I'm not sure about that. It's probably because he took drugs, and he settled the matter with money." Jiang Yang's eyes flashed obvious disgust, "I used to hang out in bars and mess with others, but turned around and went to have a project with them The group leader's daughter is in a relationship."

Lin Xu's eyes widened, and Guo Shule's unrestricted operation refreshed his outlook again.

"Dating?" Lin Xu finally had some other emotions when he heard Guo Shule's name, "How could he be like this?"

He knew with his toes that Guo Shule fell in love with girls to help him at work, how could he be so shameless?

Is there really no bottom line to not hesitate to harm others in order to achieve the goal?

Jiang Yang took the phone and showed Lin Xu the photo that Jin Congyun had sent him.

On the phone, there are photos of Guo Shule dressed well, the gentleman gently helping the girl open the door, and the photo of the girl having dinner together. Guo Shule is gentle and polite, showing a perfect boyfriend.

Lin Xu frowned, feeling sick in his heart, pushed the phone away, buried his face in Jiang Yang's neck, and rubbed it sticky, smelling his boyfriend's breath, he felt better, "When did these pictures be taken? of?"

This photo doesn't look like a recent one, and it was only last night that Jiang Yang beat him until his face was covered in blood.

"He does a good job of saving face, but he offended many people in his private life that has nothing to do with work." Jiang Yang said, "It was taken by someone else, and Jin Congyun just found out. He bullies you so much, of course let him try it." Taste the taste of ruin."

Lin Xu raised his head, "What are you going to do?"

"Jin Congyun will send out the photos, and he will also let the injured boy go to him to make trouble." A chill flashed in Jiang Yang's eyes, "Since he can do it, don't blame others for revealing his privacy."

Lin Xu didn't respond, just said: "Remember to code that girl's face, she doesn't know, don't let her get involved because of Guo Shule's matter, just let her recognize Guo Shule's real face."

"Of course." Jiang Yang rubbed his hands on Lin Xu's waist, "Jin Congyun has a sense of proportion."

Lin Xu asked: "You beat him like that yesterday, did he have any accidents?"

It wasn't that he cared about Guo Shule, it was Jiang Yang who beat him up, if something happened, he would drag Jiang Yang into it, Lin Xu was very nervous.

"No, skin trauma, just stay in the hospital for a few days." Jiang Yang lost his appetite when he mentioned Guo Shule, and changed the subject, "Xu Xu, have you ever thought about rectifying your name?"