Confession

Lin Xu was dreaming when he was woken up by Jiang Yang's kiss. His sleep quality has always been poor. Even if he can sleep for eight hours now, it is basically a bizarre dream.

What I dreamed about before was the past, but now I dream about Jiang Yang.

Jiang Yang in the dream was extremely indifferent, and the coldness in his eyes made Lin Xu shudder. He looked at the other party standing on a high place, and there was a long staircase between them, no matter how he walked, he couldn't reach it.

"Jiang Yang... don't go." He shouted in his dream, obviously trying to get closer, but getting farther and farther away.

Jiang Yang didn't speak, just looked at him quietly, and then a laughing Xing Xing appeared beside Jiang Yang.

Lin Xu paused and froze in place.

Not only Xing Xing, but also many people Lin Xu didn't know appeared around Jiang Yang. They all had smiling faces, holding Jiang Yang's hand, clasping his arms, deliberately looking at him with disdainful eyes, as if they were demonstrating Same.

Lin Xu felt uncomfortable in his heart. He watched more and more people appearing around Jiang Yang, watched Jiang Yang play with them intimately, and even lost the cold look in his eyes at the beginning. He completely forgot about him, and followed that The group of people went further and further away.

"Don't...Jiang Yang..." Tears welled up in Lin Xu's eyes, helpless and frightened.

The long-standing spiritual sustenance collapsed, and he experienced a death.

"Lin Xu, wake up, senior?"

A familiar voice rang in his ears, calling him anxiously and worriedly.

Lin Xu opened his eyes suddenly, his breathing was rapid, the horror in his eyes had not dissipated, cold sweat slid down his forehead, and his heart was gripped by unbearable palpitations.

Jiang Yang squatted beside the bed, with his upper body lying on Lin Xu's body, the weight and temperature of the young man dispelled the fear in the nightmare.

"Having a nightmare?" Jiang Yang kissed Lin Xu's cool cheek, and coaxed in a low voice, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

Lin Xu stared at Jiang Yang for a while, his heart ached, and his small self was reflected in the other's dark eyes.

"Jiang Yang." Lin Xu hugged the young man tightly with his arms, and said in a hoarse voice, "I was dreaming."

"What did you dream about?" Jiang Yang patted him on the back, hugged him tightly, and asked in a low voice.

Lin Xu didn't say anything, just buried in Jiang Yang's neck and shoulders short of breath.

He couldn't open his mouth, after all, he didn't feel safe.

It is a fact that Jiang Yang has many friends, he can't say anything to make Jiang Yang give up his friends and just stay with him.

Excessive possessiveness in a relationship will lead to cracks in the relationship. To give the other party appropriate space and freedom, it is enough to keep the kite string in your own hands.

Lin Xu understands this truth. He has written so many novels and pondered the psychology of different characters. These "love experiences" have long been engraved in his heart.

But he couldn't do it, he didn't know how to grasp this speed, he didn't know how to completely possess Jiang Yang, so as not to be disgusted by him.

Jiang Yang had tried his best to reject the dinner and drinking, and rejected all friend requests one by one, but Lin Xu was still uneasy.

Everything he saw was rejected, who knows if anyone agreed?

If you add friends, what will those people talk to Jiang Yang?

Knowing that Jiang Yang has a boyfriend and flocking to him, it is not surprising that he can do anything.

Lin Xu couldn't help thinking wildly, the dream just now was too real, and the feeling of fear lingered for a long time, making him afraid.

He has been looking forward to the man for five years, and he doesn't want to let go, let alone give it to anyone.

Lin Xu's strength was great, and his arms became tighter and tighter, making Jiang Yang a little suffocated.

Jiang Yang patted Lin Xu's shoulder, and said with difficulty and helplessness: "Honey, you loosen first, I'm about to be strangled to death by you."

Lin Xu still hugged Jiang Yang, but not as strongly as before, "Jiang Yang, can you come and accompany me? You move here and hug me to sleep."

He once again offered to live together.

Lin Xu yearns for Jiang Yang, longs for his warmth and embrace, and really wants to have the day when he wakes up from Jiang Yang's arms. If he can, he wants to be Jiang Yang's humanoid pendant and never leave him for even a moment.

Jiang Yang smiled, and kissed Lin Xu, the kiss was tender and soft, he hooked the tip of the other's tongue and rubbed against each other, entangled more or less deeply.

Lin Xu's heart was still beating fast, but it wasn't because of palpitations, but because of the palpitations of kissing someone he liked.

Jiang Yang kissed very gently, tenderly, to appease Lin Xu's restless fear. After about a minute, he let go of Lin Xu's lips. There is a mist of water in the middle.

"Okay." Jiang Yang agreed, "I can't ask for more."

Lin Xu's breathing became disordered, he rubbed Jiang Yang's collar with his fingertips, and said sullenly, "You obviously refused before."

"That was the first day of dating, I think it's too soon."

"Then we haven't been dating for long now."

Jiang Yang sighed, pretending to regret, "I can't help it, the senior's charm is too great, he hangs around in front of me all day, making me full of you."

Speaking of this, he smiled wickedly and bit Lin Xu's earlobe, "After I passed by last night, I masturbated by thinking of you for a long time."

Lin Xu's eyes widened, and he said in astonishment, "Why? Didn't you...don't want to do it last night?"

"You are lying on the bed so temptingly, and you still have my things on you, how could you not want to?" Jiang Yang appealed for himself, "Your boyfriend is in good health, don't you know this very well?"

Jiang Yang spoke close to Lin Xu's ear, again so ambiguously, Lin Xu's cheeks were hot, the palpitations in the nightmare were dispelled, his mind was full of what happened last night, and the magnetic tone made him feel numb all over. , there was some blood on his face.

Lin Xu was a little shy, and didn't dare to look at Jiang Yang's playful gaze, "Then why didn't you come in, I let you in."

"You were in a bad state at that time, and you stuffed it in randomly, how can I get in?" Jiang Yang was a little helpless about this, hugged Lin Xu and rubbed against his neck, "Xu Xu, I really like it You, I want to respect you and cherish you, you didn’t see yourself like that last night, if that’s the case, I can still do it with you regardless of my emotions, am I still human?”

Lin Xu was stuffed with candied fruit, and lay sweetly in Jiang Yang's arms, with a smile in his eyes.

Seeing that Lin Xu's expression recovered, Jiang Yang didn't hug her so tightly, "I bought you pancakes, soy milk, and a tea egg for breakfast. It's in the microwave, so you can go to bed for a while. It's only 09:30 now. Wake up and eat."

Lin Xu hummed perfunctorily, and paid more attention to another matter, "When will you move here? Your clothes and daily necessities."

"Tomorrow, my closet is a bit messy, so I just use this to tidy it up," Jiang Yang said with a smile, "But you can go over and help me pack some clothes and my toiletries."

"Me? Is it okay?" Lin Xu felt it was wrong, he himself didn't like others intruding into his private space, even if it was Jiang Yang, he was afraid that the secrets he had hidden would be discovered.

"Why not?" Jiang Yang said logically, "You have seen my house before. It was originally rented, and there is nothing complicated."

Lin Xu thought about another question, "What about your house? Do you want to cancel the rent?"

"I paid for half a year, and I can't refund it for a while," Jiang Yang said, "Let's just leave it empty, and it won't affect anything."

Lin Xu nodded, and took the initiative to kiss Jiang Yang's lips.

As long as Jiang Yang is willing to be with him, everything is fine.

Holding Jiang Yang's face in his hands, he kissed Jiang Yang's forehead, eyes, and nose cherishingly, and finally dawdled on his lips.

Jiang Yang's eyes dimmed, he couldn't hold it back for a while, pressed him on the bed and kissed him hard, "Lin Xu, don't you want me to go to work?"

Seeing him being teased unbearably, Lin Xu was in a happy mood, with a clear smile, and said frankly, "If possible."

"I think you've turned bad," Jiang Yang's breathing was a little messy, "You've become a vixen."

Lin Xu blinked, and was inspired by his words. Blessed in his heart, he leaned into Jiang Yang's ear without a teacher and exhaled, "Then I'll wait for you to come back."

"..." Jiang Yang swallowed hard, he knew that if he didn't leave, he couldn't leave.

Seeing that Jiang Yang didn't respond, Lin Xu thought that he didn't learn well, and wanted to add another sentence, but Jiang Yang bit his mouth hard, "Hiss...it hurts."

"It's good if it hurts, it just makes you hurt." Jiang Yang said angrily, covered Lin Xu's face with the quilt, gritted his teeth and said, "I know why 'the king doesn't go to court early', I left first, and came back to catch the monster .”

After speaking, before Lin Xu could react, he left in a panic and haste.

Lin Xu pulled down the quilt, licked the corner of his mouth that was sore with the tip of his tongue, and there was a joyful smile in his eyes.

Jiang Yang walked in a hurry and didn't close the bedroom door. Lele jumped up and licked Lin Xu's face, panting.

He just took a shower two days ago, Lele's body is fragrant, Lin Xu was in a good mood, hugged it and rolled on the bed, his spirit was a little excited, he simply didn't sleep, busy with moving things for Jiang Yang.

Lin Xu obeyed Jiang Yang's order and ate breakfast, then opened Jiang Yang's room door with his fingerprints, Lele followed behind him, and he walked into Jiang Yang's bedroom with ease.

Even if Jiang Yang lived alone, he kept the bedroom clean, which Lin Xu felt ashamed of.

He brought a cardboard box and took away all Jiang Yang's supplies, including the photo with his parents on the table.

Lin Xu noticed that there was a light layer of dust on the table, but the photo frames were very clean, they should be wiped frequently or held for reading.

Looking at the happy smiles of Jiang Yang's parents in the photo, Lin Xu thought of the wound on the corner of Jiang Yang's mouth and how lonely he looked before, his heart throbbed for a moment.

No one wants to have a deadlock with their parents, and if they can have a harmonious family, who would like to run wild.

But in terms of parental relationship, Lin Xu has no way to help. In terms of their current relationship, he is a stumbling block on the way for Jiang Yang and his parents to reconcile.

Although Jiang Yang's temperament should not compromise with his parents no matter whether there is a boyfriend or not, but now that there is such a relationship, Jiang Yang will not.

Lin Xu looked at the smiling faces of Jiang Yang's parents for a while, and carefully put the photo frame in the box.

After tidying up all morning, traces of Jiang Yang gradually appeared in Lin Xu's room.

There was a group photo of Jiang Yang and his parents on the table. Lin Xu cleaned out half of the closet and hung some of Jiang Yang's usual clothes in it, and packed the rest when he came back.

Jiang Yang's toiletries also appeared in the bathroom in the bedroom. Lin Xu deliberately put the two of them's toothbrushes and cups together, and the face towels were also next to each other.

If they lived together, Jiang Yang must have gotten up earlier than him. Lin Xu imagined that Jiang Yang would stand here brushing his teeth in the future, and he would hug each other from behind, and the corners of his mouth never let go.

The things were almost packed, Lin Xu was in a good mood, and cleaned up by the way, thinking of the hidden medicine, he struggled to find it out.

Zhao Xiwen said before that he didn't need to take any more medicine, but Lin Xu was aware of his situation, so he didn't throw away these things for emergencies.

Now that he wants to live with Jiang Yang, these things can't be kept, he doesn't want Jiang Yang to know his broken and dilapidated side.

Now that he is with Jiang Yang, Jiang Yang will be his medicine. As long as Jiang Yang is always by his side and loves him, he will never go back to the abyss.

Lin Xu cleaned up a pile of trash and threw it into the trash can together with these medicines.

What was thrown was not only medicine, but also Lin Xu's gloomy and hopeless past.

He will be happy, and he will welcome the new life with Jiang Yang.