we are the same

, I'm with my girlfriend, don't contact me anymore.

"But I, I don't want to leave you." Sheng Hao's voice began to tremble.

"It's too late." Li Shanjun said calmly, his attitude has become rusty.

"We were fine before, I... what did I do wrong, you make me very sad!"

"It's sad, right? If you're sad, then you go to die!"

One sentence seemed to cut off the meridians of his whole body. The man who loved him and treated him so well could say such cruel words, as if there was a great hatred between them that killed his father.

He never dared to dial the cell phone number he had memorized backwards.

Shenghao just needs time, he firmly believes that inexplicable tears are just a sign of not being strong enough.He is 27 years old, at the age of three, but he still has to go through such vulgar accidents.He thought he would be together forever and live an ordinary life, but it turned out that it was really just a dream of his, and it was time to wake up.

However, there is still his breath in the single room, and the coat he gave him in the closet, and there are objects related to him everywhere, and at night, I can’t sleep in his arms, and there is no familiar hug. All of a sudden, this person is literally pulled out of your habitual dependence, understand?It makes people feel that it is difficult to breathe, like a fish suddenly deprived of the right to survive in the water, exposed to the scorching sun, with nowhere to hide, without any warning, it just happened.

Seungho has no penchant for showing his vulnerability to anyone.

A few years younger, he may not care about this kind of separation, and it's not that he hasn't dumped others. That's right, his gentle smile is still lingering in his mind. Such a self has become so helpless , has already affected his daily life, there is a state called cowardice, which is used to describe An Shenghao.

There are still two batteries left on the phone, and he recently set it to silent, for no particular reason, just to make his world quieter.

There are two missed calls, one is my mother who is doing business in the south, and the other is Wen Xijun, a classmate in elementary school.

Shenghao didn't want to contact anyone immediately, he squatted down, stared at the phone screen, tilted his head, and exhaled into the air, it wasn't as cold as he imagined, the air here was quite fresh, and his brain would gradually return to normal operation , I won’t cry when I think of something, hey?Why did the nose start to feel uncomfortable again, and the vision in front of me was also a little confused?

"Damn!" Sheng Hao roared in dissatisfaction, and the skin at the corner of his eye leaked again. What is this, that man is alive and happy, and he is not dead. Does he have to be so sad? !

"Shenghao, what's the matter with you, are you crying?" Zhong Zai finally followed out, and at first he felt that something was wrong with him, and he was different from the usual talkative, so he was more or less worried about him.

"Leave it alone, leave me alone!" Sheng Hao shrank, leaned against the cold red brick wall, and hugged his knees.

"You are like this, it's really worrying." Zhongzai squatted down to accompany him, not knowing what to say next to comfort him.

You will not understand!He looked at the phone again, the phone book had long since lost that person's number. In fact, he might be looking forward to something, and in his anticipation, he felt fear. Could it be that the person who left first would live a chic life? And the self who realized it later was just unwilling to be abandoned innocently, because of the real love, or because of the strong self-esteem not to accept any unconscionable betrayal.

"Go back, Shenghao, my mother is still waiting for us." Zhongzai persuaded him in a low voice.

"You go back first." He stood up, his calf went numb after squatting for a long time, it was so confusing that he almost fell down.

"Be careful." Zhong Zai went to help him, but he was thrown away by him.

"You don't need to pity me!" Shenghao's temper came up, although he knew that Zhongzai was harmless.

To be continued

Wen Mantou Appears

"An Shenghao!" He seemed to be irritated by Sheng Hao's reckless behavior, he chased after a few steps, and propped up the wall with one hand, blocking his way.

"You, go away!" Are you tall?

"An Shenghao, are you looking down on me from the bottom of your heart?" Zhong Zai gradually increased his tone, and his patience was limited, "I tell you, I heard you gave my mother money, so you don't need to belittle me, I I'll live a good life for you to see! You don't need to meddle in our family's affairs!" He stared at Sheng Hao, as if he could go crazy at any time.

"Okay, then go out and find a job tomorrow, so that my aunt doesn't have to worry about you every day, so don't gnaw on me!" Sheng Hao looked at him expressionlessly, to see what he could do. .

"Then if I can really find a decent job and live a decent life, can you communicate with me calmly, like you would treat a friend?" Zhong Zai looked down into his eyes, the night wind blowing, Blowing away Shenghao's bangs, he couldn't help but raise his hand to push it away.

"Say, what are you talking about! Aren't you my cousin!" Feeling that he was a little strange, Shenghao hurried to the direction of his aunt's house.

"Hey, you said it, Shenghao, do you know what I mean?" Zhongzai followed closely behind, rambling on without a point.

"Be quiet for me!" Shenghao felt that the countryside was quite noisy, and when he went to bed, he must lock the room and plug cotton in his ears to avoid Zhongzai asking questions in the middle of the night when he couldn't figure it out.

"Come on, eat more. I remember that roasted kidney beans were your favorite food when you were young." Auntie picked up the vegetables and put them in his bowl.

"Thank you, I'll do it myself." It's always a good thing to be cared about, and who can always want to reject others.

"Mom, you are always facing Shenghao, and you won't pinch me." Zhong Zai pretended to be a child, puffing out his mouth.

Shenghao rolled his eyes, and dared to come all the way to watch him act, well, that can be regarded as helping him forget the sad things, and thank him for constantly thinking of moths to interfere with his train of thought.

"Come on, you eat too much and are lazy all day, and you still have to fight with your younger brother as an older brother?" Auntie also gave him a blank look.

Unexpectedly, Zhong Zai didn't know what was wrong, and after eating, he took the initiative to contract the task of washing the dishes. Isn't it because Sheng Hao came to visit, afraid that others would not see him working.

In the evening, Shenghao lay on the kang in the back room, and called his mother to report his safety. His parents had been divorced for many years, and his mother had lived in the south for these few years, while his father was farther away across the ocean in the USA.

Later, he went to contact Xijun.

"Hey, what have you been up to all day but don't answer my calls, do you want me to die?" Xi Jun shouted on the other end of the phone.

"I'm not busy, I'm just in a bad mood."

"I guess what's going on with you, come out tomorrow, I'll take you for a ride, brother will introduce you to someone reliable!"

"Hehe, don't introduce it, I need some time to relax." Xijun knew his sexual orientation a few years ago, there is no way, the best classmate, if he doesn't tell the truth, he will find out sooner or later.

"Don't be stupid, the best way to forget the past is to meet a new lover, you should understand."

"Mantou, let's talk when we meet tomorrow."

"Hey, let me tell you why you call me that. I'll pick you up at your aunt's door tomorrow morning. Don't change your mind!"

In fact, Sheng Hao really hoped that Wen Mantou could chat with him for a while longer, so that he would be completely sleepless after hanging up the phone.

Insomnia, this disease haunted him like a terminal illness.

When he closed his eyes, he saw that man swaying back and forth in front of him, and all kinds of things that happened in the past year gradually came to mind, a lingering nightmare.It is precisely because there are too many shadows of him in that city that Sheng Hao wants to escape.It would be too childish to go to the countryside without doing a good job in the Cultural Bureau, but what else can I do?Continuing to think of him at work makes you lose your composure and feel cowardly? !

Turning over, he simply turned off the phone, not wanting to expect him to think of him anymore, and began to hate such an incompetent self. It has been almost a month, and he still has stomach pains and feels uncomfortable because of thinking about their past.

I had a mess of dreams all night, and early in the morning, I heard someone honking outside.

"Shenghao, your classmate is here." Aunt called him from outside the door.

"Hmm..." He got off the kang, stretching his waist habitually.

Opening the door and looking, Zhong Zai is not sleeping late, he went out so early? "My lazy son went out early in the morning. Look, he left me a note saying that he wants to start a new life and go looking for a job." The aunt handed the note to him as she spoke.

"Hehe." Shenghao felt that things would develop a little interestingly, that cousin might have taken some powerful pills, and instantly understood the truth.

"Are you up, slow slow monkey?" Before he could put on his shoes, Xijun called him from the yard.

He lifted the other shoe while opening the door, without even looking up, he said: "Hee Jun, I want to drink." Seungho has long wanted to find someone to drink with him. Before, he drank alone at home and was very bored. of.

"Oh my God, it's only past 9 o'clock, monkey, can you drink it at night?" He exaggeratedly stared at his round eyes, and with his already fair face, he looked really cute, no wonder he was called Wen Mantou, True to its name.

"But I don't want to wait that long." Looking eagerly at Xijun's round eyes, those childish dragon and phoenix eyes and helpless expression really made people reluctant to refuse.

"Okay then, get in the car, it's so cold." Xi Jun patted his head like an elder, a child who is broken in love can't afford to hurt, not to mention that the boss is not young, he is only three months younger than him.

Xijun's father opened a mine in Tianshifu, so it is reasonable for him to be able to drive a red Grand Cherokee.

It can be said that Xijun is a rich second generation, but he has always been easy-going, and has always supported children in remote mountainous areas to go to school.