Horse riding in the snow

09

It was not until the evening of the next day that Luo Shengchao was able to speak to Dai Xu again.

Just as the doctor expected, Dai Xu was awake for a period of time the night before, and everything was fine. Taking advantage of Luo Shengchao's absence, Xie Zihui took Dai Xu to make another assessment.Dai Xu has always been serious about people and things. Even if his physical condition is not as good as before, he still has the energy to fill out the questionnaire for Xie Zi seriously. Fortunately, Guan Chi is more careful than Dr. Xie. Xu Xu couldn't hold on at all, so he asked Xie Zi to cut back a few assessment items.

The results of the evaluation were not ideal.

Even though several people had made psychological preparations in advance, their hearts still trembled when faced with the words "severe depression", "anorexia", and "mild stress disorder".These short terms mean that Dai Xu is gradually approaching death both actively and passively, psychogenic pain and exhaustion are tormenting him all the time, his self-world is almost closed, and what's worse is Guan Chi's physical health report and thick cases based on his syncope are not optimistic.

Xie Zihui comforted Luo Shengchao joyously in bitterness: "Mr. Luo, freezing three feet is not a one-day cold, Mr. Dai's current situation shows that he has had problems in his heart for a long time, at least it shows that the conflict between you is not as bad as you imagined." so serious.”

Luo Shengchao probably understood that Xie Zihui was saying that Dai Xu's inability to eat, panic and nervousness often happened. Although it might be more serious when he was around, it was not caused by him alone.

Luo Shengchao was not comforted at all.

What he wants is not to reduce his sense of guilt, he wants Dai Xu to be healthy and happy, and he wants Dai Xu to live comfortably.

When Luo Shengchao arrived outside the ward, Dai Xu was holding the computer and processing company documents.He looked in through the small window and saw Dai Xu frowned slightly, because he had lost too much weight, his facial features looked deeper and sharper than before, exuding a mature charm.

Only then did Luo Shengchao realize that Dai Xu was no longer the student he was three years ago. Xie Zi called him "Mr. Dai" back, and he seemed to be indeed Dai's helmsman. At the age of 21, other people's children are still busy with their university graduation project, but Dai Xu has long been used to handling company affairs, and is used to carrying tens of thousands of net worth on his thin shoulders.

The father who went crazy and beat his son until he was bleeding profusely was sick and spent his last years in the hospital, while the son just woke up from illness, but he still had to deal with official duties here.

Luo Shengchao felt nervous, turned his head and asked Guan Chi softly, "Is he always like this?"

Guan Chi had a clear mind and understood the question: "There is no way. The Dai family's business has grown too big, and it has reached this size...One negligence is a loss of hundreds of millions."

Dai Xu lived a simple life when he was in school, and he didn't have the arrogance and lust of a rich man. Luo Shengchao knew that he was not greedy for money.Mr. Dai just wanted to let all his subordinates live, but no one thought about whether Mr. Dai was doing well or not.

Luo Shengchao pursed the corners of his lips, and gently pushed the door open to enter.

The person on the hospital bed has lost the sharpness of years ago, his eyes are still staring at the computer screen, his eyes are a little empty, as if he didn't hear Luo Shengchao's movement.The long sleep before was more like fainting than resting. Dai Xu only felt dizzy and stuffy in his head, and his stomach also had a familiar discomfort because he couldn't eat normally for a long time.He has long been used to the various difficulties of this tattered body, but he still feels extremely tired... and he seems to be even more tired than before, so tired that even the strength to move his hands and feet seems to have disappeared.

He didn't notice Luo Shengchao's approach, so he raised two pale and thin fingers and rubbed them against his forehead.

Seeing this, Luo Shengchao walked to the bed in two steps, but when he really spoke, he tried his best to suppress the anxiety in his tone: "Are you dizzy?"

Dai Xu was taken aback when he heard the sound, and quickly lowered his hands guiltily.He didn't seem to have thought that Luo Shengchao would come over on a working day. He sat there visibly flustered for two seconds, then raised his head and raised the corners of his lips to Luo Shengchao: "No, it's okay, I'm not dizzy." He saw the person in front of him Frowning faintly, he quickly changed the topic, "Why are you here?"

Luo Sheng twitched his fingertips, his face stiffened for a moment, and then a smile soon appeared on his face.He looked at the emptiness around Dai Xu, raised his legs and sat on the edge of the hospital bed, and leaned over as if he hadn't caught a glimpse of Dai Xu's careful dodging.

"I miss you and want to see you, so I came here." He wrapped Dai Xufu's cold hands on the keyboard with his warm palms a little forcefully, and murmured to himself, "Why is it warm when it's still cold?" , Spring is the easiest to freeze, is the quilt too thin, and the hands are so cold."

He caught Dai Xu's eyelashes trembling, paused and said, "Are you afraid of me, Xu Xu."

The cold and thin hands in the palms trembled slightly, and Luo Shengchao saw Dai Xu lower his eyes, and the arc of the long black eyelashes fell on the bridge of his handsome nose.

Dai Xu shrank back to the side again, his shoulders were very broad, and he almost touched the cold wall with such a movement: "Sheng Chao, how could I be afraid of you...you are too kind to me."

Nowadays, Mr. Dai's words need to be carefully pondered to be understood clearly, but Luo Shengchao's mind was pondering day and night, similar to him, and he immediately understood what he meant——

Dai Xu felt that he was too kind to him, so he was a little timid to bear it.

He felt that he was unworthy and didn't deserve this. He was afraid that Luo Shengchao would take away the tenderness, but he was even more afraid that the tenderness was true.

Dai Xu's white and purple lips trembled, and the words he said were light but fatal: "Sheng Chao, you are still the same as before, you are too kind...I can't give you anything."

If he couldn't believe in love, he would attribute Luo Shengchao's approach to pity and charity.

Luo Shengchao lowered his eyes, covering up a thin layer of red around his eyes.A question suddenly arose in his heart, and he asked, "Dai Xu, since you feel that you can't give me anything, why did you come back to me?"

He secretly prayed in his heart that Dai Xu would not give the answer he expected, but things often don't go his way, Dai Xu really misinterpreted Luo Shengchao's meaning as before, just because he was blaming himself, his whole body suddenly shrank a little The shoulder bones stretched out sharp lines on the hospital gown.

"I'm sorry Sheng Chao, I didn't want to disturb you... I just wanted to see you." He said, the frequency of breathing suddenly became chaotic, and then there was a choking sound from his throat, "I just wanted to see you You...I miss you so much, I'm sorry, I'm not qualified, but I miss you so much."

Luo Shengchao's heart trembled, leaving only two words "Sure enough" in his mind.

He suddenly remembered Dai Xu's precious act of putting the doll in the lining of his coat, and it was not difficult to see that this man really survived the hellish years in a foreign country because of this longing.

"...I miss you too, and I miss you very much." Luo Shengchao's throat seemed to be blocked, and he struggled to utter every word, "Just like you miss me, Xu Xu, do you still love me?"

Dai Xu didn't answer.

This topic seems too heavy.

Luo Shengchao didn't force him either, he knew that his big cat was bullied a lot when he was a wanderer, even now that he was brought back home, he was still terrified and didn't have the courage to talk about love and being loved.He sat beside Dai Xu, gathered the clothes for the young man whose eyes were slowly and a little scattered, and put Dai Xu's slender fingers into his own one by one.

After a long while, Luo Shengchao shifted his gaze to the laptop that had been shut down, and changed the subject: "Are you still working? You have a serious illness this time, can you rest for a few days?"

Only then was Dai Xu brought back to his sanity, he hesitated for a while, then changed the subject after a short response: "I'm afraid I still have to go to the company. Sheng Chao, if you are busy, go to work and take care of yourself."

Luo Shengchao patiently said: "I've already got off work, and I'll come to see you after I get off work." Seeing that Dai Xu's face seemed a bit puzzled, he explained, "Don't worry, I'm not late for work when I get off work early today. I will leave the hospital after you have eaten, and we will live together and see each other every day, okay?"

Dai Xu said he wanted to see him, so he went to live in Dai Xu's apartment so that he could see him every day.He knew that this kind of lovesickness had become morbid at this point, but Dai Xu would feel better if he was around.It doesn't matter if you take a long way to work, and it doesn't matter if you leave the familiar environment. He just hopes that Dai Xu will feel better.

Dai Xu froze for a moment, and found a sliver of clear reason that was rare and unexpected: "But it's far away, you don't need... Doctor Guan and the others can take care of me, you don't need to..."

Luo Shengchao interrupted him: "I want to live with you."

Dai Xu stopped being stubborn, and obediently lowered his eyes and said "Yes", "Sheng Chao, I'm sorry."

Luo Shengchao was about to apologize to Dai Xu for his PTSD. He choked for a few seconds and was unable to speak. He held his breath for a while and pretended to be strong: "Since you are sorry for me, then listen to me. I Take you home to our house, you want to go home, don't you?"

The usually quiet and dazed person shuddered suddenly when he heard the word "go home", and couldn't hold back any longer and let out a sob.Luo Shengchao felt sorry for him so much, he leaned towards him and raised his arms to hug his thin body, hearing the person in his arms crying and panting "I think".

He wants to go home, and everyone who feels wronged wants to go home.This "home" is not necessarily the cage where he was born and raised, or the blood relatives who injured him and imprisoned him. In this vast and vast world, he may not be able to find a place to live, but when he is wronged, people will think about it. House's.

The more than a year with Luo Shengchao was not a golden day. Luo Shengchao's arms were not generous, and he hadn't even had time to fully spread out his soft belly to face his lover honestly, but those ordinary, warm feelings In an instant, it was enough to call it "home".

So Luo Shengchao returned home with the lost Maine Coon cat.

Dai Xu's situation had stabilized last night. Mr. Dai didn't have a good impression of the hospital. Staying in the hospital for a long time is definitely not a good thing for him. Fortunately, Dai's family has deep financial resources, and Guan Chi, as a private doctor, can completely Bringing the whole clinic around Dai Xu, Xie Zihui also said that the hospitalization needed by patients with severe depression can be completed in Dai Xu's apartment, Luo Shengchao heaved a sigh of relief, and helped Dai Xu to the car as previously discussed Guan Chi drove them back to Dai Xu's apartment.

The spring in the capital is as cold as ever. Dai Xu's palms, which were finally warmed up, immediately became icy cold after being blown by the night wind for less than 2 minutes. Luo Shengchao got into the car and asked Guan Chi to turn on the warm air. The clothes held Dai Xu in his arms, trying to isolate the remaining cold from Dai Xu's world.Dai Xu still lowered his eyes quietly, didn't struggle but didn't dare to lean on Luo Shengchao's body, and let others hug him with a stiff body.

The car drove smoothly, and the central control screen automatically played soothing light music. Luo Shengchao's hands stroked Dai Xu's back up and down in accordance with the rhythm of the music. The two of them seem to have fallen into cotton wool, creating a long-lost gentle atmosphere.

Taking advantage of the relaxed atmosphere, Luo Shengchao proposed to let Dai Xu work at home.Times have changed, and now online office is quite popular, and major companies have begun to combine this office method in their daily work, and the effect is not satisfactory.Dai Xu couldn't bear this burst of dreamlike tenderness, let alone say "no" firmly to Luo Shengchao's request, so he had to agree.

"Someone may come to deliver documents and disturb you..."

Luo Shengchao didn't expect Dai Xu to let go of the company completely in order to recuperate his body. That would be irresponsible and unrealistic. It is very rare for Dai Xu to give in like this. He was very satisfied with this, but felt his body in his arms froze suddenly. Xu's voice stopped abruptly.