Horse riding in the snow

04

Dai Xu's illness this time was different from any previous one that Luo Shengchao had experienced. Even though Luo Shengchao had learned intravenous injections and some massage techniques to deal with palpitations for him three years ago, Dai Xu had never been in such a situation before. It's just as urgent.In just a few breaths, when Luo Shengchao finally struggled out of his rage and felt the weight of his palms be disconcertingly empty, Dai Xu had already fainted on the cold floor with his hands full of blood and tiles.

Luo Shengchao only felt that his breathing was stagnant, as if his soul was constricted accordingly.

He really hated Dai Xu, hated Dai Xu's betrayal, and hated him for being ignorant and shameless, but he never thought of making Dai Xu pay the price with his life.

However, the situation in front of him was obviously impossible to deal with with his three-legged cat kung fu. Dai Xu had completely lost consciousness, his eyes were closed tightly, his whole face faded from the red color when he was suffocated, and turned pale and gray. Only a pair of The lips are severely cyanotic.It was only then that Luo Shengchao realized what he had done, and boundless remorse and fear suddenly hit him like a bolt from the blue, causing his hands to tremble violently, and it was difficult to squeeze out the name of the person in front of him in his throat.

All love entanglements are just casual injuries in the face of life and death. Luo Shengchao bit the soft flesh on his arm to force himself to calm down, and gave Dai Xu a burst of powerful heart-boosting injections. Xu's upper body made him lean on his shoulder, and he reached for the phone in his pocket.

After all the tossing just now, Luo Shengchao's hands were covered with Dai Xu's blood, and he couldn't even unlock the phone screen, so he could only use the emergency call to call the emergency number.The process of waiting for the ambulance seemed to be stretched out by the thick air. Luo Shengchao subconsciously touched Dai Xu's chest. It was so skinny that he felt a little pain, but the weak and chaotic heartbeat in the depths was indeed his only salvation at this moment. .

He is too embarrassed.Luo Shengchao has been paying attention to clean and tidy appearance since he was a child, but the scene before him is so messy, his body and hands are covered with Dai Xu's blood and body fluid, as well as tears... from his own tears.

He raised his hand to touch it, and he suddenly felt an overwhelming reluctance amidst the blood and tears——

It turned out that the reason he was able to safely ignore Dai Xu for the past three years was because he knew that Dai Xu was living well on the other side of the world.But now, every weak breath in his arms seems to herald a farewell that is close at hand, how can people...continue not to care?

Even if this person has betrayed their feelings so cruelly, even if this person is just a white-eyed wolf, even if he hates him so much that he wants to destroy all traces of the past...

But he still cared about Dai Xu.

Dai Xu's rescue went on for several hours. For tens of thousands of seconds, Luo Shengchao sat in the waiting area and stared at the opposite white wall in a daze. Only he knew that the figure on the white wall was clearly Dai Xu looking at him. last glance.

That look was too heavy and too light.Luo Shengchao was very familiar with those beautiful eyes, so he read all the metaphors hidden in them at that moment very smoothly.There was a smile in that look, a sense of relief, a strong reluctance... There was also a trace of cowardice, it was too clear, it was so clear-headed that it didn't match Dai Xu's incongruous expression ability, but it was only for a moment .

Lingering in a certain final scene is undoubtedly a chilling thing. Fortunately, several hours of rescue were successful. Although Dai Xu was still in a deep coma when he was pushed out, his life was not in danger for the time being. Nurses in the intensive care unit can be transferred to ordinary single wards for adjustment and rest after one day.However, the attending doctor was still a little worried that the lack of oxygen might damage the brain, and told Luo Shengchao and several Dai family subordinates to wait for Dai Xu to wake up before giving him a brain examination to avoid future troubles.

After saying this, the attending doctor couldn't help showing a gloomy expression on his face. He looked at the person who was pushed to the intensive care unit by the nurse, and shook his head: "The patient is still very young, but the physical condition makes us almost think he is an old man. He is an old man. His congenital heart disease was already serious, and his condition has worsened now, and he did not give us any positive feedback during the whole process...Family, we still need some refreshments."

After all, the doctor is an outsider, so he took off his mask and turned away after saying all that, leaving Luo Shengchao standing alone, his mind almost blank.

Just now the medical staff were methodical but hastily moved, and quickly pushed Dai Xu out of his reach. The short stagger was only enough for him to see Dai Xu lying on the raised gurney, with his thin and pale face buttoned up. The ventilator mask cut into the flesh, and his hands were already covered with layers of white gauze.It's not that Dai Xu never fell ill in front of Luo Shengchao, but never once did Luo Shengchao feel that he was so fragile... so fragile that it was unattainable.

Luo Shengchao opened his mouth, his lips weakly put together a sound of "Dai Xu", and he didn't even know what kind of thoughts he should have in the face of all this.Should he feel sorry for Dai Xu?Or was it because of this kind of mutual harm that they were finally able to "get revenge" and get even with Dai Xu?

He still stood where he was, until another doctor who came out of the emergency room came up to him and stood still before his attention was called back.

This doctor is much younger than the attending doctor just now, and his appearance is more friendly. He took off his mask and hat, revealing his sunny-looking straight hair.

"Hi, may I ask, are you... Sheng Chao?"

Only then was Luo Shengchao's gaze slowly pulled back.He tried to use his chaotic brain to confirm that the doctor in front of him was indeed not an acquaintance, only to find that his voice was unimaginably hoarse: "...you are?"

The doctor smiled lightly, and said in a gentle voice with a hint of fatigue, "Ah, let me introduce myself. My name is Guan Chi, a cardiologist and Dai Shao's personal doctor."

"You may want to ask me why I know you... I think everyone who knows you a little bit knows you. He often talks about you." Guan Chi sighed, "Young Master Dai is wearing a That bracelet...actually has the function of measuring heart rate, which is convenient for me to monitor his condition in real time. I think the situation is wrong today. I just know that he came here in the morning. I guess he will go to this hospital. Fortunately, I caught up with him. .”

Luo Shengchao felt a heavy pain in his heart, and didn't know what to respond to him. Fortunately, Guan Chi was very considerate, and continued without waiting for his response: "When he was abroad, the situation was quite complicated, and he didn't know what to do. It’s good to contact you, it’s safe to go back to the country now, I think… maybe there are some things I should talk to you about.”

What he said was strange. Luo Shengchao didn't understand what complicated things could happen when he went abroad for further study, and even safety issues could be involved.But the doubts about Dai Xu's current changes that had been lingering in his heart for the past few days resurfaced at the right time, and a trace of uneasiness flashed in his heart, and he faintly felt that the doctor in front of him should say something he didn't know.

He clenched his fists, subconsciously wanting to escape.

If things were not the way he thought... what would he do?No matter how complicated the original situation was, for him, the shattering of that relationship was real, and the hurt would never be erased. Even if things were different from what he saw, he could no longer face it with a pure attitude. To Dai Xu.If that's the case...then what's the point of dwelling on the past?

Guan Chi seemed to have thought of this too, he shifted his focus so that his eyes could be as close as possible to Luo Shengchao, and his tone was gentle: "I want to tell you about the situation at that time, not to tell you that Dai Xu is innocent or What, I just think... You don’t want your relationship history to be stained, do you? If possible, you also hope that you have not been let down by others, right? You didn’t see everything back then, so let me tell you something Say, you can see it too."

The young doctor is very considerate, probably because he has full experience in dealing with patients' families: "Don't worry about Dai Xu, he is in a deep coma now, and he won't wake up before tonight, and you won't be able to enter the ICU Visiting, there are special medical staff watching him inside, and people from Dai's family are guarding outside, so you don't have to worry too much."

Luo Shengchao looked at him for a long while, struggling with his tired thoughts for a long time, but still had to admit that he actually had some expectations for the matter of "Dai Xu has difficulties", like this, his subconscious reluctance and regret for Dai Xu just With a reasonable reason for existence.He thought of the porcelain doll that he broke into pieces again, the way Dai Xu struggled to press the pieces to his chest regardless of the wounds in his hands, and the incomprehensible chaotic words in his mouth...

Luo Shengchao nodded.

Guan Chi took him to a small snack bar in the lobby on the first floor of the hospital.He took off his white coat, ordered a cup of warm lemonade for Luo Shengchao, sat with him in a booth for two in the corner, and then opened his mouth without wasting any time.

"It's really complicated to say, where to start... You know that Dai Shao is the son of the arms dealer Dai Jianwen, right? But in fact, he is not his own son."

Luo Shengchao suddenly raised his head, he didn't expect Guan Chi's first words to shock him so much.Dai Xu never mentioned this matter to him when the two of them were glued to each other three or four years ago. He recalled that every time Dai Xu mentioned Dai Jianwen, he always said "Father" meekly.

Luo Shengchao couldn't imagine Dai Xu's mood, so he could only ask: "Dai Xu...does he know about this?"

Guan Chi smiled helplessly: "It's better to say that Dai Shao told me about this. My university was funded by Boss Dai. At that time, Dai Shao was less than eight years old, and his congenital heart disease was relatively serious. , but it didn’t show up when I was a child. My mentor is Dai Shao’s attending doctor for heart problems, so after a long time, Dai Shao and I have gotten to know each other better. Boss Dai... as Boss Dai, he was actually a very benevolent person. But as a father, I really can't compliment him. My director is old and won't be waiting at Dai's house all the time, so there are many small problems that I have to solve after I finish my master's degree."

"There were a few times when I went to deal with the injuries that Young Master Dai was beaten by Boss Dai. It was at these times that Young Master Dai told me about it."

"Later... for some things that will be mentioned later, the Dai family hired a psychiatrist, because the two of us have some overlap in the treatment of Dai Shao, and we have communicated with each other. In summary, Dai Shao is For the children born to his mother and others, Boss Dai found out about it through some channels. He divorced the original Mrs. Dai, but also suffered from severe bipolar disorder because of being betrayed. Unfortunately, that At that time, there was no psychiatrist in the Dai family. No one could see that Boss Dai was sick. They all thought that he would go crazy from time to time, and his personality became weird and surly. Boss Dai did not remarry after that, so Young Master Dai became his only inheritance tool ...and a testament to the shame in his heart."

"So Boss Dai beat him and scolded him when he was sick. Every time I went to deal with young master Dai's injuries, I could hear Boss Dai still calling him a 'bastard' through the door. Now I want to come... ...Young Master Dai will become what he is now, and there are traces to follow."

Luo Shengchao's fingers gradually clenched into the fabric of his trousers. These stories that sounded like a fairy tale wrapped around his chest like thorns, making him numb with pain.The amount of information was too great, and it was all content that Dai Xu had never mentioned to him. He dared not imagine that the 16-year-old boy who sat quietly by the window that year was boundless and suffocatingly thick. In the dark, I dare not think about how painful it would be for the young man to be hurt by relatives—or the relatives I once thought were hurt. I dare not think about how Dai Xu, who had such a serious heart disease, endured all this. I dare not think about what is meant by "now appearance", dare not think why Dai Xu needs a psychiatrist.

But he has gradually realized that what happened three years ago may have something to do with the gloom of this family.

Guan Chi paused, and finally moved the timeline to three years ago: "I graduated with a Ph. The boss suddenly contacted me to let me go abroad, I temporarily handed over the clinic to the teacher, and came abroad, but I didn't expect to see Dai Shao who was imprisoned in a villa."

Luo Shengchao's pupils shrank, and it was difficult to understand the words that came out of his mouth: "... imprisoned?"

"Yes, imprisoned, after leaving you... Young Master Dai was imprisoned abroad by Boss Dai." Guan Chi's throat was dry, and he didn't know how to say such cruel words, "Boss Dai is very ruthless, When I gave Shao Dai a physical examination, I found a bruise on the outside of his neck. He should have been knocked out and taken away. I don’t know what happened, and I blamed me for not asking more questions. Boss Dai’s face was very gloomy that day , I was kicked out by Dai Shao before I could finish the routine inspection."

Guan Chi looked at Luo Shengchao with apology in his eyes, and his words became slower and slower, as if he was slowly unfolding the palpitating scene for Luo Shengchao: "I was afraid of accidents, so I stood in the corridor and didn't dare to leave. There was the sound of two people arguing in the house. I heard... Boss Dai said that he would send someone to destroy the house that Young Master Dai rented in China, but Young Master Dai refused to die, and for the first time, he and Boss Dai quarreled head-on."

Luo Shengchao's heart felt sour, and his eyes turned red instantly.Hearing this, he almost guessed what happened back then, the details are still not complete, but this content is enough to show that Dai Xu must have no choice but to break up with him——

He knew Dai Xu's house.After entering university, they rented two houses outside the campus for convenience. Dai Xu didn't explain the reason to him, but said that the house he rented was for the purpose of deception, and the two of them usually lived together. In this house rented in the name of Luo Shengchao.Luo Shengchao felt sorry for Dai Xu's financial pressure, and wanted to pay the rent for himself, but Dai Xu firmly refused.

The 17-year-old Dai Xu has a youthful spirit. Although he is quiet and gentle, he is not willing to let his lover bear more burdens. In the end, he alone bears the rent of a house and a half.

Luo Shengchao had only been to the suite that Dai Xu rented himself once. Dai Xu probably regarded that place as a warehouse. There was no trace of life in the house, but the storage room was very delicately designed, where two people had been together for a year. Various bits and pieces of souvenirs.

It was the secret base that Dai Xu shared with him. If Dai Xu still wanted to protect that house after breaking up with him, it could only mean that Dai Xu still had him in his heart.

Luo Shengchao couldn't help being so nervous that his throat became dry and his head became dizzy.He was so afraid to hear the truth. He had relied on his shamelessness towards Dai Xu's white-eyed wolf to sustain his anger and hatred. If in fact it was just his own unreasonable trouble, then everything he did before...

He was terrified, but Guan Chi didn't stop and said: "The two people were arguing, and suddenly there was the sound of something breaking in the room, followed by the sound of a heavy object falling to the ground."

"I have healed Shao Dai's injuries so many times, but that time three years ago, even I was frightened. It was Boss Dai who opened the door to let me in. He also seemed panicked. I didn't realize until I entered The ground was full of fragments of vases, Dai Shao fell to the ground, his head... was covered in blood."

Luo Shengchao couldn't hold it back, a sob escaped from his throat, and he grabbed his thigh fiercely with his hand.

"They must have fought violently. Boss Dai hit Young Master Dai on the head with a vase. The vase was very heavy and the porcelain was very thick. Young Master Dai passed out on the spot, but it may be because of the emotional bullying and the pain. I was so excited, I still had severe heart palpitations in a light coma, and the situation was very urgent... Dai Shao didn't wake up for a few days after the rescue."

As soon as Guan Chi stopped talking, seeing Luo Shengchao's shoulders curled up in pain, he couldn't help but sighed and took out a piece of paper and handed it over.Anyone with a discerning eye can see that these two people love each other. As an outsider, he is not easy to intervene. He doesn't understand why Dai Xu entered the emergency room again this time, but he can try to help the two of them resolve their misunderstanding.

"Ms. Dai is a little different after waking up. His expression is often in a trance, and he is very repulsive to other people approaching, especially his head. No one is allowed to touch it, even me, a doctor. Boss Dai must regret it and worry about it." There was something wrong with the inheritance, so I hired a psychiatrist for Young Master Dai." Guan Chidao, "The psychiatrist's preliminary judgment is very complicated, and I, a layman, can't remember everything. I only remember what he said about Young Master Dai's depression. It's already very serious, and if the stimulation continues, it may affect the language function and cause physical symptoms, saying that Young Master Dai can't bear the stimulation anymore, let Boss Dai also pay attention to controlling his emotions."

"Then the psychiatrist told me that in situations like Dai Shao, it is best to intervene when he is a minor, and it will be effective to bring Boss Dai along for treatment, but it is too late to say these things now."

It's too late.

Luo Shengchao thought anxiously, it was indeed too late.It turned out that Dai Xu couldn't even speak because of severe depression. It was the 20 years of heavy darkness and oppression that deprived him of his right to life. He rejected him and broke the porcelain doll.

It's too late.Why couldn't he see the deep pain behind Dai Xu's flattering eyes two days ago? Why did he choose...to put Dai Xu so cruelly when Dai Xu was struggling on the edge of the cliff and asking him for help silently? Kick down the abyss?

He actually thought it was reasonable for him to do so. In fact, Dai Xu probably hadn't betrayed him.After breaking up, he was still thinking about the past of the two of them, and he was even willing to disobey his crazy father for him...

Luo Shengchao thought of the way Dai Xu held out the porcelain doll in the morning, he was so careful, as if he had devoted his whole life to it.What was Dai Xu thinking at that time?

Was that the last time he stretched out his soft belly, trying to beg for a little mercy from his former lover?

Guan Chi saw that he was just clutching the paper towel and was motionless, so he reluctantly took out another paper and stuffed it to him.He also has a boyfriend himself, even if he could understand Luo Shengchao's pain, he couldn't comfort him too much, so he had to finish his sentence.

"Since then, his long-haired hair has continued. Because the head cannot be touched, it has to be as long as the back every time before asking someone to hold the hair tail far away to trim it. You should also ……noticed?"

Luo Shengchao just bit his lip and couldn't stop crying, and didn't respond.

Guan Chi had no choice but to sort out his thoughts. Now it seems that Luo Shengchao obviously has not given up on his relationship with Dai Xu. What he can do is to explain the original situation of the matter more clearly.

So he took out his phone, found a person's contact information, and pushed the phone to Luo Shengchao.

"I don't know much about your relationship with him, but I think this person should be able to help you." On the screen of the phone, the contact's note is "Zheng Wangxing", "As far as I know, in Dai After the boss discovered the 'relationship' between Dai Shao and this person, this person disappeared and never appeared again, he did not go abroad with him, nor did he contact us."

"But later, Boss Dai resigned due to health reasons, and Dai's family changed hands. This person contacted me again, and asked me to bring a porcelain doll to Young Master Dai."

"I think... he should know more than me?"