Horse riding in the snow

11

Dai Xu didn't wake up until the car stopped, and Luo Shengchao still hugged him in an awkward position, and he didn't let go until half of his body was so numb that he couldn't move.The pale young man leaned on the back of the chair, even though he was asleep, he didn't get into the arms of the people around him, but leaned his head slightly towards Luo Shengchao, as if he was a little greedy for his smell.He was breathing a bit heavily, but he seemed to be sleeping soundly. Luo Shengchao couldn't bear to wake him up, so he just rubbed Dai Xu's shoulder bones with his fingertips, trying to protect him from a peaceful sleep.

Luo Shengchao hugged him for a while, raised his head and whispered to Guan Chi who was in the driver's seat: "Doctor Guan, do you have any plans for the future? If possible..."

Guan Chi understood: "Hey, I'm fine, I understand what you mean, just stop here and let Young Master Dai sleep for a while."

He looked at the two people in the back seat from the central rearview mirror, his eyes flickered, and then he lowered his head and looked at his phone.

Luo Shengchao just hugged Dai Xu and curled up quietly on the back seat for another ten minutes, until the thin young man finally regained some strength from his lethargy, and slowly opened his eyes with a soft "hum".

It was pitch black as far as he could see, Dai Xu endured the dull pain in his head and slowly regained his sanity, and finally caught a trace of breathing in his ears.The sound of breathing was long and slow, and he was so cautious that he seemed to restrain the hot air that rushed to his ears, but it was still too close to his head——

Dai Xu trembled suddenly, then quickly shrank his body and dodged aside.His mind went blank, he just subconsciously wanted to protect his head.

Luo Shengchao was also taken aback by him, and immediately realized that the atmosphere just now was too warm, and he accidentally forgot Dai Xu's current minefield.He was a little annoyed, and only after Guan Chi heard the sound and turned on the roof lights did he see Dai Xu's face was a little paler than usual, and his pupils shrank slightly like a cat.

"Xu Xu, I'm sorry, I didn't do it on purpose, and I got a little confused by accident." Dai Xu's breath always made him feel a little sleepy. The two of them were too close for too long just now, and he has been thinking about something these days. I couldn't take a good rest, I couldn't help but dozed off for a while, and I didn't pay attention to the distance between sleep and waking.

Dai Xu shook his head, indicating that it was his own problem.After a few breaths, he tried his best to adjust his state, sat up with Luo Shengchao's careful support, and said to Guan Chidao in the front row, "Brother Guan Chi, I'm sorry."

Guan Chi shook his head: "It's okay, Young Master Dai, are you feeling better?"

Dai Xu swallowed his saliva, trying to make his voice less hoarse, and slightly raised the corners of his mouth to spell out a smile: "I'm fine, I don't need to take medicine... I'll trouble you today."

He said "Excuse me" again, Luo Shengchao frowned slightly, but Guan Chi was used to it, and smiled back through the rearview mirror: "Have a good rest at night, brother Guan Chi will come to see you tomorrow."

The deception in the words was very obvious, Dai Xu and Luo Shengchao were both amused and relaxed, and they chatted with Guan Chi for a few more words before getting out of the car.

Before getting out of the car, Luo Shengchao wrapped Dai Xu in the blanket prepared in the car, but when the two of them entered the house, Dai Xu's face was still a little pale from the cold.Luo Shengchao saw the slight trembling of his body, and felt extremely distressed for a moment, but there was nothing he could do - it was true that freezing three feet was not a one-day cold, his body suffered a little loss in the past three years, and it is not the same now. It may be restored overnight.

Luo Shengchao was very patient, he just didn't want Dai Xu to suffer like this.

But Dai Xu himself seemed to have gotten used to this fragile body, so he quickly took off the obstructing blanket and hung it aside.He walked into the room in two or three steps and turned on the electric heater and humidifier familiarly, but when he turned his head and saw Luo Shengchao still standing there, he was stunned, looked around, and realized that Luo Shengchao was now in his sinful den inside.

He kept this house for himself as a thought. Before, he never expected that one day Luo Shengchao would be able to walk through this door...and even accept this filthy place.

But Luo Shengchao is standing here now, taking all his dirty greed into his eyes.

Dai Xu shrank his fingers, avoiding Luo Shengchao's gaze: "I'm sorry."

He didn't know how to explain it, and couldn't explain it.It's true to miss Luo Shengchao, it's true to miss their former love nest, it's true to secretly choose a house according to the layout of the old house, after ignoring Luo Shengchao's right to know, destroying their relationship with their own hands, they still deceive themselves and restore the past... It's also true.

But Luo Shengchao was only silent for a moment, and then unexpectedly gathered his eyes: "The layout on your side is pretty good, I like it very much." He concealed the sourness in his heart and said, "The layout is also simple, It’s easy to get familiar with, and you should be able to get used to it quickly.”

Didn't he see it?

Dai Xu froze for a moment, and looked into Luo Shengchao's eyes probing, but was dazzled by the joy in them.When he entered the room, he just turned on the corridor light. At this time, the room was a little dark, and Luo Shengchao's eyes were flickering, like some ambiguous moments many years ago.

Dai Xu hadn't felt real emotional fluctuations for a long time except when he was sick, but at this moment, he suddenly felt a piece of his heart soften and collapse.

Luo Shengchao blinked at Dai Xu's gaze, even though he was very worried that Dai Xu would see his uneasiness, he didn't dare to show the slightest bit on his face.The two of them stood facing each other in the living room for a long time. Dai Xu's sense of time is now disturbed by depression. It's not a problem to just stand there for 10 minutes, but Luo Shengchao can't do it after all. , I always felt that if I stayed like this, I would definitely reveal my secrets, so I changed the subject with two dry coughs.

"I'll make some porridge to cushion your stomach, and you can't eat too much at night...I'll re-bandage you after eating and taking a bath."

Dai Xu blinked very slowly when he heard the words, and then stood up straight as if suddenly awake: "Sheng Chao, I'll do it, I'll cook."

Luo Shengchao couldn't bear to "enslave" him, and hurriedly groped to find the refrigerator: "I'll do it, just take a rest, and it will be ready in a while."

After all, Dai Xu was more familiar with this house than Luo Shengchao, so he walked to the door of the refrigerator faster and took out a cabbage from it.He laughed in Luo Shengchao's direction: "I'll cook for you."

Luo Shengchao couldn't stop him, or maybe he didn't dare to stop him because he knew that Dai Xu was sensitive and fragile now, so he had to take a step back and try to follow Dai Xu's wishes: "Want to fry shredded cabbage? Well, I'll help you." You wash and cut all the vegetables, and then you fry them for me, okay?"

Dai Xu looked down at the bandage on his wrist, seemed to weigh his own situation, and finally reluctantly agreed to Luo Shengchao's proposal.Luo Shengchao seemed to be pardoned, so he dared to relax a little and not worry about Dai Xu forcing himself because of his lack of security. He held the cabbage in his hands and tore off the leaves layer by layer, and quietly raised his eyes to look at the glass of the cabinet. Door.

Dai Xu's reflection on the glass still had his head down and he didn't know what he was thinking. His long hair hung down to his chest, and his whole body was quiet and beautiful like a painting.

Luo Shengchao sighed inwardly.

If it was placed a few years ago, Luo Shengchao probably would not have had the opportunity to intervene in the frying of this dish——

Because this dish is the only dish Mr. Dai is good at.

It's kind of cute to think about it, Dai Xu's only young master's temper is probably reflected in his inability to cook.After all, because he was born with a weak body, the housework was basically done by the aunt at home when he was a child, and it was not his turn to do the laborious technical work of cooking.

However, Dai Xu is not a delicate person after all. After living with Luo Shengchao, he also took the initiative to learn to do housework in order to share Luo Shengchao's pressure.

Dai Xu is very smart, he can learn everything quickly, and he can naturally do ordinary housework well, but he probably has no talent in cooking. The only dish he can do well is shredded cabbage.

Luo Shengchao was gentle and gentle, and when he tasted it for the first time, he actively praised him for its delicious cooking. Dai Xu believed it, so he often fried this dish for Luo Shengchao.In fact, Luo Shengchao did not lie, the taste of the dish was really good, but no matter how delicious the dish was, he couldn’t help eating it every time. It didn’t take long for Luo Shengchao to feel physically sick whenever he saw cabbage, but he wore it on the table every night. Xu's expectant eyes are like a faint light in the night wind, which makes people reluctant to blow it out.

Luo Shengchao hadn't eaten this dish of shredded cabbage that he was tired of eating for three years, and he even vaguely missed it—missed the heavy feelings embedded in this dish.

Luo Shengchao scoured the rice and cooked the porridge, processed the cabbage and prepared the garlic slices and seasonings that Dai Xu would use before making room for Dai Xu.

Dai Xu walked to the chopping board and looked down at the materials that Luo Shengchao had cut out that were much finer and more uniform than his own. After a moment of silence, he rolled up his sleeves: "I... have learned a lot of dishes abroad, new ones, it won't be the same as before .”

At this moment, Dai Xu, who turned his back to Luo Shengchao, seemed to have regained his former sensitivity, but it was a pity that this sensitivity was used in the wrong direction: "I know you were just coaxing me... Thank you Sheng Chao, thank you very much. Before You are always wronged to eat the same dish, and the cooking is...very average, and I won’t do it in the future.”

Looking at his thin back, Luo Shengchao's eyes turned red: "No, Xu Xu, your cooking is delicious, I didn't lie to you."

Dai Xu chuckled, sounding a little helpless, not as heavy as the cold and gentle young man in the past: "I will do something else for you."

Luo Shengchao could almost see the bony spine from under the layers of clothing. Dai Xu lit the fire, and inadvertently revealed circles of white on his wrists during his movements.

Luo Shengchao was hoarse from the pain in his heart: "I won't do it today, you are very tired, and I am worried about you."

Dai Xu put some sliced ​​garlic into the pot to cook, and the small kitchen suddenly filled with smoke.He whispered, "I can."

Luo Shengchao said: "I know you can do it, Xu Xu, I just want to cook it for me some other day."

Dai Xu himself may not want to compromise with his weakness, but he will always be obedient to Luo Shengchao.When he heard Luo Shengchao say he was worried about him, he felt a faint taste of sweetness when his heart ached.

He caused Luo Shengchao trouble again, so how could Luo Shengchao be willing to stay, but Luo Shengchao said he was worried about him...he said he was worried about him.

Dai Xu briefly abandoned his guilt, and a long-lost smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

He walked out of the negative emotions of the depression attack, pushed away his hatred for Luo Shengchao, and tasted the sweetness of being cared for as he wished.

Luo Shengchao was indeed very worried about Dai Xu. The latter was cooking by the stove, while the former stood two steps behind him and watched.Dai Xu just had an episode, and Luo Shengchao was always afraid that his emotional and physical condition would be unstable now, and he didn't dare to be stubborn with him, so he could only guard him so cautiously.

Dai Xu's suppressed crying seemed to be still echoing in his ears, Luo Shengchao blinked his red and swollen eyes, and suddenly interrupted the silence that was only left by the sound of frying pans.

"Dai Xu, I'm not sure if you heard it before... But no matter what, I think it's necessary for me to tell you again."

"sorry."

The clinking of spatulas stopped abruptly.

Luo Shengchao choked, and continued: "I have to apologize to you. Even if there are many reasons, I have hurt our feelings and you. I only care about venting myself and ignore your feelings. I want to say that you don't It's right and normal to be happy, don't suppress yourself, and give me some time to comfort you... okay?"

Maybe it's because the backlog of emotions during the onset of depression got a little vent, maybe it's because he's standing with his lover in a house that looks like their love nest in the past, or maybe it's because Luo Shengchao's gesture of wanting to hug him is too firm, Dai Xu miraculously calmed down at this moment.

The familiar smell of shredded cabbage comforted his nerves that had been tense for three years. At this moment, he finally tried to see the discord in his heart...

He was finally forced to admit that even if he wanted to be a person who would not trouble Luo Shengchao in the slightest, he was just a person, a person who was not outstanding, who was as fragile and greedy as all living beings, and could not control himself.

The corners of Dai Xu's lips twitched twice, his eyes were so sore that he could hardly close them, he moved his gaze several times frequently, and finally opened his mouth.

"It's okay." His voice was hoarse but gentle, "I forgive you."

Ten minutes of lethargy allowed him to recover some strength, and Dai Xu quickly finished cooking.A simple shredded cabbage was a bit old because of the delay in frying for a while, and the color of the edge of the vegetable leaf was a little browned, but fortunately, it didn't affect the overall appearance.

It's a pity that what is acceptable now is only for appearance.

Depression and heart disease have seriously affected Dai Xu's sense of taste. To be continued, I don't feel deeply about this. I tasted the soup before serving it and found it too bland. , in order to cater to Luo Shengchao's taste, he added some salt.

He didn't know that his sense of taste was the problem, but Luo Shengchao knew—Guan Chi had already quietly told him about it.

Luo Shengchao was reluctant to ask Dai Xu to do more, so he hurriedly filled the dishes and put them on the table, and served them porridge separately.He knew that Dai Xu couldn't eat by his side now, but his family's Xu Xu's attitude in taking care of him was too firm, so he temporarily kept Dai Xu's porridge to keep warm, and sat opposite him, wanting to make a quick decision. Let Dai Xu eat as soon as possible.

But when he met Dai Xu's expectant eyes, he picked up a chopsticks of cabbage and put it into his mouth, he still felt his throat tighten and he almost spit out the cabbage.

too salty.

It was too salty, bitterly salty.

Luo Shengchao chewed hard, trying hard to control the expression on his face, but the second thought that popped up was——

Dai Xu, who used to be able to make a fairly tasty dish, now let alone barely eat because of anorexia, even if he could, he couldn't taste the delicious food.

Luo Shengchao swallowed the food, feeling the bitter salt burning all the way down the esophagus to the stomach.He knew that he might not be able to support a seemingly genuine smile, so he picked up the porridge bowl and pretended to take a few sips of porridge.

Then his voice came slowly through the thick bowl wall: "It's delicious."

As in the past, as long as it is made by Dai Xu, everything is delicious.