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After leaving the venue, the staff was busy cleaning up the venue, and Qin Zhou sat in Bai Zhiwang's seat and waited.Waiting again, this is what Qin Zhou has done the most over the past year, waiting alone under the sound of rain.

He wasn't too angry. After all, this wasn't the first time Bai Zhiwang failed to keep his promise. After so many failures, Qin Zhou had already become numb.I just thought of the way Bai Zhiwang swore he would come in the morning, and thought it was quite funny.

A quarter past seven, eight o'clock... the time passed by one minute and one second.

Qin Zhou actually started to let go, recalling that when he celebrated his birthday, Bai Zhiwang bought him a cheap ring with all his money, and now the silver is oxidized.

He turned the little ring, checking the time again and again.

At five past eight, the sound of hurried footsteps outside the door approached.The curtain was heavy and rattled.

Bai Zhiwang ran towards the center of the seat, and subconsciously quickened his pace after finding Qin Zhou.But when he thought of the chat records he had just seen, he suddenly lost the courage to go forward and hug her again.

Bai Zhiwang walked up to Qin Zhou slowly and said, "I'm sorry."

For many things, for the unspeakable quarrels, for the irreconcilable differences, and for the life that cannot be separated from trivial fund loans.

Qin Zhou only thought that he was apologizing for being late, and even thought, why is Bai Zhiwang not even willing to find a reason to excuse his apology now?

Qin Zhou had no choice but to guess the reason for himself—this situation happened today, either because of a temporary accident in the company that caused Bai Zhiwang to rush to fix some bugs, or because he was writing code at home and forgot the time?No matter what kind of cliché it is, a deep chat will inevitably lead to a quarrel.

They know each other too well, which is not necessarily a good thing.

Bai Zhiwang's hair was still dripping, he didn't bother to open an umbrella when he ran from the parking lot, and he was still panting when he sat down, "Why... isn't the lecture over at nine o'clock..."

Qin Zhou pointed to the neighbor next door expressionlessly, "There are not enough audiences, so many sessions have been canceled."

Bai Zhi looked at the bustling signing scene outside, and at Qin Zhou who was downcast, and he understood.

Although he still had Di Ge's words in his heart, when he saw Qin Zhou's drooping eyebrows, Bo Zhiwang's heart softened again. It didn't matter, as long as he could coax people to understand: "Let's go eat something first? The seat has already been reserved."

Qin Zhou doesn't want to eat at all now, he wants to understand, and wants Bai Zhiwang's sympathy.Obviously, the other party didn't understand, or in other words, the tacit understanding between them had long since been lost.

"Later, I'm a little messed up." Qin Zhou pushed him away coldly and patted the water on his body.

"Small boat..." Bai Zhiwang didn't know what to do, he touched his face and felt the coolness in his palm.When Qin Zhou had a stomachache, his whole body was usually cold. This physical sensation reminded Bai Zhiwang of the diagnosis and treatment sheet, "If you don't eat, your stomach will hurt."

"It's okay, it doesn't hurt."

"Go and have a drink first, and go to the movies with you tonight."

Qin Zhou shook his head.It's a bit late to mention these now.

Bai Zhiwang wanted to take out his heart and set it on fire for Qin Zhou to see, but the other side just didn't look at it.

"Qin Zhou," Bai Zhiwang really didn't know what to do, and lowered his voice, "Speak up when it hurts, and don't hold back your anger. I don't want to have anything to do with you. All the bad things are the latest in the world. Know."

Qin Zhou didn't know what Bai Zhiwang saw just now, he just felt that today was so frustrating, why Bai Zhiwang was still digging old scores.

Qin Zhou also suppressed his voice: "I said, I can solve those by myself."

Bai Zhiwang closed the corners of his mouth, his affectionate eyebrows made him look so helpless, and stabbed Qin Zhou hard in the heart.

"You are very powerful. You can solve it by seeing a doctor, you can solve the lack of money, and you can solve everything by yourself...What about me? If you don't even believe in me, then who can participate in these things?"

Qin Zhou got up in a hurry and couldn't choose his words: "It's not that I didn't let you participate, but can you care about it? We don't even have the chance to have a good meal together."

Time seemed to be frozen, and nothing could be heard in the auditorium except the sound of dripping rain.

It's like this again, never getting to the point. In fact, Qin Zhou's focus is not on this at all.Wasn't it talking about that fucking lecture and life in the first place?Why can't you start to get angry before you can say a few words, why can't you wait a little longer and save some dignity where you just humiliated?

They have been in love for 13 years, and they never gave up on being in love even when they were most confused.But now they have parted ways, becoming a look that even they hate, and the "for your own good" of the two has become a "gift from Maggie".

"I don't want to quarrel anymore, Bai Zhiwang, I can't even remember the state of our talking. What were we like before, and what is left now? I really don't want to discuss who is right and who is wrong and blame each other. It's very noisy. It’s ugly and you have to pretend to be a fucking good couple.” Qin Zhou seldom exploded in public, realized that he was too excited, took a deep breath trembling, calmed down, and whispered tremblingly, “I don’t want us to become like that. "

When he said this, he thought inexplicably of Qin Jian and Lin Nianying, the couple who were facing each other with knives in the terrible rainy day.At that time, they were losing their minds, accusing each other viciously, and next to them was the crying Qin Zhou who was accidentally injured and bleeding.

"Then..." Bai Zhiwang stared into his eyes, and inexplicably started to cry, a fine dull pain in his heart.

The sound of the rain was still loud, drenching the air in the room.

Bai Zhiwang lowered his head, clenched his fists so tightly that his nails dug into his flesh and it hurt, "Do you still want to continue?"

In fact, both of them knew the answer, but Qin Zhou was really reluctant to let go of the person he had loved for more than ten years.It's not like Qin Zhou didn't think about spending time like this, as long as they are together, anyway, most couples will eventually enter the stage of mutual compromise and pulling, and almost all relationships will become trivial.Since everyone can make do with it, why can't they.

In the end, he was still not reconciled. They were so happy once, so why should they settle for second best, dragging away their love for each other, not even the last bit of decency left.

Someone has to be the villain, and Qin Zhou is here to be.He didn't cry, but the veins on his forehead were a little scary, his lips and the back of his hands turned white from the force, "Let's separate."

"Yeah." Bai Zhiwang's heart was so cold from the rain, "Then let's separate."

These few words can't be mentioned at all, just mentioning Qin Zhou's nerve center is numb.

Bai Zhiwang drove Qin Zhou home. It was raining heavily on the road, and the wipers were working diligently on the glass, but Qin Zhou's eyes were still blurred.

Qin Zhou sat in the passenger seat, weeping silently.

The journey is only four to ten minutes, why do some people take so long, but still can't get there?

The house is still clean and tidy, and there is no popularity at all, except for a few more decorative candles on the dining table, which were originally prepared for the festival.

Some rose petals were sprinkled on the floor, Qin Zhou stepped on them to the bathroom with a straight face, and changed out of his soaked suit.

Bai Zhiwang sat on the carpet, not caring about the water dripping from his hair.After Qin Zhou changed into his pajamas, he glanced at him when he came out, threw him a towel, then turned and went into the bedroom, dug out the couple's suitcase, and started to pack things.

Bai Zhiwang stopped him from a distance: "You don't need to clean up, I'll go."

Qin Zhou didn't speak, but knelt in front of the suitcase, with his back turned to the outside, biting his lips tightly, refusing to make a sound.

Bai Zhiwang pretended not to care and twisted his fingers, but the crying voice betrayed himself: "You pay more for this house, and I'll just move back to the old one. That's...fair."

Qin Zhou said in a low voice, "Then I'll pay you back the money with interest, and the card we shared—"

"The boat," Bai Zhiwang interrupted him, "those are all yours."

People who used to be so close, settle accounts here, who has more and who has less, how to divide the family.How ironic.

Qin Zhou wiped his face, his hands were wet.Unexpectedly, the pain of breaking up would be so severe, overwhelming, making it difficult for him to breathe: "It's still necessary to distinguish, you should drive the car away first, and pass the house when you are free."

Bai Zhi hoped that he wouldn't want it, and after a long struggle, he couldn't resist in the end, so he had to leave the spare key of the car at the entrance.

It shouldn't be so cold in May, the cool air penetrated into the nostrils like ice blades.

Qin Zhou bowed his body, buried his face in the box, and dared not let out the sound of crying, but his hearing was surprisingly good.

He heard Bai Zhiwang give a lot of instructions incoherently, about remembering to take medicine on time after separation, and about the newly bought cooking pot on the third floor of the cabinet.How could this person be so irritating before the breakup, and then start to please others after the breakup.

Bai Zhiwang said whatever came to his mind, incoherently speaking: "Melatonin... I have a lot of it, but don't rely too much on it when you have insomnia.

"If you really can't sleep, you can call me, if you want, you can call me about anything.

"I bought a cooking pot, which can be set on a regular basis. When you have an upset stomach, you can use it to cook some millet porridge or milk skin. It won't be too much trouble.

"I'm sorry." Bai Zhiwang suddenly couldn't continue, and withdrew his hand and pressed it on his forehead to hide his red eyes. "I can't think of anything at the moment. Anyway, I'm sorry."

He is very sorry, it seems that he will never be able to become the kind of person Qin Zhou wants, in fact, he has worked hard for this, but the result is still so unsatisfactory.

Qin Zhou listened, as if he had just swallowed a whole gall, his stomach, lungs, and throat were all acidic, and his tears soaked the clothes in the suitcase.

He shook his head vigorously.What apologies, there is no need to apologize between them.

"Also," Bai Zhiwang's voice was unbelievably hoarse, "If you meet someone better in the future... remember..."

A burst of sadness came up, and Bai Zhiwang was interrupted by emotions again, lowered his eyes, and covered his face bitterly: "Forget it, don't tell me."

Qin Zhou couldn't bear it anymore, reached out and took out some papers from the bedside table, wiped them on his face randomly, and threw the papers into the trash can from a distance, his teeth creaking.

"Brother..." He cried so hard that he couldn't speak, and paused every word, "But I can't meet anyone better."

The two elders are so snarky, the scene is quite funny, but no one can laugh.

"No need, it's completely broken at this point. You will meet many good people in the future, and when it really comes, don't be afraid, and don't look back." Bo Zhiwang choked up and shook his head.At this moment, he was very sure that he really loved him.

Qin Zhou was already in a daze from the pain, and his temples were throbbing.

He only remembered that Bai Zhiwang kept apologizing afterwards, saying that he didn't expect to ignore his feelings because of being busy, and he didn't expect to have so many bad memories for him, but he still wanted to give the last gift before leaving.

Qin Zhou almost finished half a pack of tissues, dried his eyes, and tried his best to calmly wait for Bai Zhiwang to take the holiday surprise he said.

Bai Zhiwang charged the computer, pulled out the box delivered by Ding Gu's city courier from under the coffee table, took out the special glasses inside, and walked up to Qin Zhou.

He put the box on the suitcase and said, "I've been working on this this afternoon, but it was late. The time is too tight, and it may be a bit rough in many places... But it should be visible."

Qin Zhou's nose was red. After putting on the glasses in the box, he paused for five seconds, and then immediately covered his mouth, but intermittent whimpers still leaked from his fingers.

There was a starry sky in front of me, and there were two teenagers sitting under the vast astrolabe. They pointed to the stars in the south and ran, laughing, kicking the sand high up, and everything was shining brightly under the moonlight.

Qin Zhou turned left with his glasses on, and saw the scene along the west bank of the river.There is a huge piece of work in the pure white pavilion, with the label "QinZhou" on the lower right.The white wall with black lines reflects two dark shadows cuddling each other.

Further down is a certain stage scene, actors in cat-shaped coats dance in the spotlight, and a couple kisses in the middle of the auditorium.

Later, the sea of ​​people became a sea of ​​flowers, and it was the cherry blossom forest in Gucun. The pink and white floated in the air, and the petals were so real that they seemed to be touched. In the rain of flowers, there were interlocking hands with plain rings on both hands.

At the end of the screen, there is a lecture scene full of seats. A man in a white shirt is standing in the background, smiling and showing encouraging love to the people on the stage.

Bai Zhiwang wrote everything they missed into the code.

The red and blue lights of the screen were still flashing. Qin Zhou had only seen this interface at noon, and he was unhappy about it for a while, thinking that it was a product that some company was eager to launch.

Only now did he know that this was a late, regretful love poem.

The author says:

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The memory killing is over, and only Tian Tiantian is left! !