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"Teacher Bai? I thought you would come back next week." Qin Zhou rushed to the person and nodded, "It's just right, the materials for tomorrow's group meeting will be passed on to you later."

Bai Zhi smiled, "You have worked hard these few days."

Qin Zhou was wondering why he was so polite today, when he saw him turn sideways slightly, giving way to the thin figure behind him.Qin Zhou understood now. It turned out that there were other people present, and Mr. Bai was pretending.

Bai Zhiwang said, "I happened to meet Xiao Meng on the road, so I drove her back."

Qin Zhou was surprised: "Why did Xiao Meng come back so early?"

The called person raised his head upon hearing the sound, but after a while his head drooped again.Qin Zhou obviously saw that her expression was not right, so he turned his head and asked Bai Zhiwang with his eyes.

Bai Zhiwang didn't know Meng Xuan very well, so he didn't say much, he just asked Qin Zhou if he wanted to have dinner together.Qin Zhou ate very early and didn't have any appetite for the time being, so Bai Zhiwang didn't stay any longer, leaving the two of them to talk.

Qin Zhou went straight to Meng Xuan, and asked concerned: "Didn't you go out to play with your boyfriend? Why did you come back so early and didn't play for a few more days?" Seeing that Meng Xuan's clothes were thin, he hurriedly asked the front desk for a thin blanket to put on her On the shoulders, "Wear so much..."

Meng Xuan shook his head and remained silent.At such a close distance, Qin Zhou could clearly see the tears on her face.

Meng Xuan usually doesn't put on much makeup, unless there is a meeting.The color of the eyeshadow today is very gentle, but it is a pity that it is mottled due to water stains.

"Teacher Qin," Meng Xuan sniffled, "I broke up."

Qin Zhou sat in front of her at a loss, he really couldn't talk about this matter, whether he tried to persuade her to move on in a teacher's tone or scolded the scumbag like a friend, it was futile.

Meng Xuan was crying so hard, Qin Zhou didn't know how to coax her, so he quickly recalled what Bai Zhiwang did, then patted her on the shoulder like a gourd, and clumsily took out a piece of chocolate: "Would sweets be okay?" make you feel better?"

Meng Xuan unpacked the package slowly, stuffed it into his mouth, and said while crying: "Although I knew this day would come, but it was so sudden... He was still eating cake with me last second, and the next In a second, their expressions changed and they started arguing."

Qin Zhou sighed: "What are you talking about?"

Meng Xuan shook his head and cried tremblingly: "I don't know, there are many. Work, marriage, and settlement in the city, nothing seems to be agreed. In the end he said... he doesn't love me anymore.

"I don't know what's going on recently. It's such a failure. The project is not good, and the relationship is not good... I have spent so much thought, why is there no good result?"

"I want to go home." Meng Xuan hugged his legs, buried half of his face in his arms, "I'm so tired."

Once the tear valve was opened, it was very difficult to close it. Meng Xuan was really suffocated, and he found an outlet to confide in it.

She said that she didn't want to live in two places at first, and her boyfriend wanted her to stay at home with him, but she changed her mind on the last day of filling out the application, and wanted to go out and have a look.

On her first day in Shanghai, she went to Lujiazui first.There is a strong wind among the tall buildings, and all living beings are in a hurry like ants.She was suddenly very scared, afraid that she would never belong here, and even more afraid that these would become her entire vision.

In the first class of the university, she introduced herself as coming from a beautiful village on the border, and gained many friends.But in the face of these new faces who are proficient in piano painting and foreign languages, she seems smaller than the ants on the viaduct.

The family couldn't understand her inferiority complex. She was the "best reader" in the family, and later she went to other countries to exchange studies. In the eyes of the older generation, this already meant a leap in destiny, but only when she was deep in the steel jungle did she know have no choice.

The Institute of American Studies has long since canceled the resettlement fee. She first pays more than 3000 yuan a month to the old and poor landlord, and keeps two or three thousand for herself to work hard. The remaining money may take more than ten years to save. Get enough down payment on the house.Of course, none of this can be said at the family dinner table, and she can only joke, "I'm fine outside."

Even if she shared a house without a single guard, did not dare to have dinner with the exquisite and glamorous seniors from the same school, or quarreled with her boyfriend because she could not meet and where to settle down, she would only say "very good".

Now what she is afraid of is not belonging or vision, but jumping out from the bottom of the well, having seen the world, and being kicked back into the well suddenly.

Qin Zhou waited for Meng Xuan to finish crying before asking, "Do you really want to go home, or..."

Tears were still hanging on Meng Xuan's eyelashes, she blinked and shook her head uncertainly.

She has a straightforward personality, making trouble when she is tired, and shouting when she is unhappy. Qin Zhou likes to get along with this kind of person, but this time he is not sure what Meng Xuan means.

"If you just want to vent, then you can cry wherever you want, it's not shameful. But if you want to listen to my opinion," Qin Zhou was rarely serious, spreading the consequences in front of her, " I’ve got to be honest, it probably won’t get much better in the future.”

Meng Xuan raised her head in surprise, she thought Qin Zhou would say something nice to persuade her to stay.There is a popular saying on the Internet called "escape from Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou", but in fact she doesn't really want to escape. How can she escape easily before her bizarre ideas come true? She just needs a shot in the arm to help her make up her mind.

However, Qin Zhou not only did not encourage her, but also told him the worst result: "Let's just say that Bai Zhiwang will be able to get promoted in about two years, but there will still be projects that cannot be applied for the fund and cannot pass. There is a technical gap, and as for the salary...it is still far behind those of your powerful friends. In other words, your current living situation will last for a long time, if you can accept it, then decide to continue."

Qin Zhou didn't comfort her a word in the end, he couldn't say anything about it, he could only ponder it by himself, he knew Meng Xuan was a smart girl, he only hoped that she could touch the mountain she wanted.

Although they were not all good words, Meng Xuan felt inexplicably calm when he heard them. This was spreading the pros and cons in front of her, and asked her to weigh whether the future could be afforded. Several SCIs and impact factors.

"Go up and rest?" Qin Zhou thought that she would need water after crying, so he ordered a cup of hot water for her and put a few slices of lemon in it.

Meng Xuan nodded.

Qin Zhou said: "Why don't you finish your vacation and go back to your hometown for two days, after all, you haven't been home for a long time."

Meng Xuan evaluated the current state and agreed.

She asked Qin Zhou why he was always so firm before entering the elevator.

Qin Zhou thought for a long time and said, probably just because he was lucky enough.

Before others were worried about turning back into a frog in the well, Qin Zhou had already gone to a small island for vacation and learned to swim breaststroke, so he just went into the sea freely without any worries.

Admitting that you are born lucky is much more difficult than admitting that God rewards hard work. Qin Zhou only recently understood this truth and paid a heavy price for it.

He didn't question Meng Xuan today why she didn't stay firmly on the front line of art restoration. After all, she can still trade with her ability, she has books and jobs, and she doesn't lack food and clothing. Compared with more and more miserable people, she is already very stable. ——If he was in his twenties and faced Meng Xuan, out of pity and encouragement, he would definitely say these words.

It's not that he has never experienced the world of fireworks, but no matter how people like Qin Zhou try to escape from the family, it is still their backing.So subconsciously, he just chased his dreams, and he didn't need to experience the embarrassing mediocrity and utilitarianism, so he didn't have the qualifications to question ordinary people in the torrent of competition.

After sending Meng Xuan back to the hotel, Qin Zhou logically said that he should wash up and go to bed, but he was lying on the bed, unable to close his eyes no matter what.

The autumn wind blows the dead leaves, whirring and slapping on the glass.Qin Zhou glanced at the time, it was 12:30.He clicked on the address book as if possessed by someone.

A mobile phone rang in Room 1304 not far away. It was specially set for Qin Zhou at the beginning, so Bai Zhiwang answered it quickly.

Bai Zhiwang went to bed early today, was awakened in a daze, and spoke hoarsely and lazily: "Small boat?"

"Brother," Qin Zhou's nasal voice was heavy, "I'm not in a good mood right now, can you come out for a while?"

Bai Zhiwang sat up abruptly: "Right away."

It was not easy for his boat to open up his heart on his own initiative.Bai Zhiwang hurriedly put on his coat, tore off the scarf on the hanger at the door, didn't have time to change his shoes, white disposable slippers clattered behind his feet, and just went out like this, trotting all the way to find someone.

Qin Zhou sat in the corridor, hugged his knees, raised his head pitifully, his bangs were scattered on his forehead.

Bai Zhiwang couldn't stand his innocent appearance, it was so pure that no high school student would look at him that way.

"Wouldn't it be cold to sit on the ground?" Bai Zhiwang hung his scarf around his neck, stretched out his hand, bent down and said softly, "Get up, I'll take you out to relax."

Qin Zhou looked at the slender and clean hands in front of him, and the silver ring between his fingers that had not been taken off, and finally smiled for the first time tonight.