dare to love

In a blink of an eye, it has entered winter.

Chen Wei's hand was already healthy, and he was in a good mood the day the bandages were removed, and it was Friday, so he planned to take Xie Hengdong out for dinner.

But he is having a hard time now, Su Shikang stared at him very closely, he really didn't dare to do anything outrageous to Xie Hengdong under his nose.So he became more and more manic, eager to have something happen with Xie Hengdong.

Thinking that ever since he met Su Shikang, he didn't even have a chance to send a confession letter, Xie Hengdong still doesn't know his intentions.

The last class on Friday afternoon, the self-study class, the class was very restless when the class was about to end.

Chen Wei was also restless, especially when he had a classical Chinese reading comprehension question, so Xie Hengdong approached him and gave him a lecture.

Xie Hengdong's breath sprayed on Chen Wei's cheeks, warming him in this cold winter, making his cold face gradually burn, Chen Wei unconsciously moved closer, wanting to get closer to him.

When it got closer, his right hand wanted to reach out and wrap around Xie Hengdong's waist.

Unexpectedly...

With a "boom", the chair behind him was kicked hard, and Chen Wei threw his stomach on the desk without defense.

"Fuck—"

His eyes were instantly red with anger, and he wanted to know who this idiot who was spoiling his good deeds behind him was.

Su Shikang was holding a black pen in his hand, and was looking at him arrogantly with his head tilted.

"So hungry? Someone is giving you a lecture!"

"..."

Just as Chen Wei wanted to scold him, Xie Hengdong turned around and said to him: "Don't go too far, he didn't do anything else."

"...That's it." The anger on Chen Wei's face dropped instantly, and he said to Xie Hengdong as if he had found the password to deal with Su Shikang: "I don't know why, I just wanted to get closer to you because I didn't hear what you said clearly Listen, who knew he was so upset to see me, that kick made me hit my stomach, it hurts so much..."

Su Shikang: "...?"

Seeing Su Shikang's face turning blue and then pale, Xie Hengdong couldn't help laughing, he couldn't see what Chen Wei was thinking, "It's all right, you two, don't stop, you are both my good buddies, and we will inevitably get along well in the future."

Su Shikang glared at Chen Wei, and complained in a low voice: "Who wants to get along well with him."

At this time, the bell for the end of get out of class also rang, and Su Shikang waited for Xie Hengdong to finish explaining the question to Chen Wei, and then asked him to go out for dinner.

This reading comprehension course is long and difficult to understand, but Xie Hengdong has always been very patient. When he was lecturing the topic to Chen Wei, Su Shikang looked out the window at the gradually darkening sky with his chin resting on his hands.

He actually didn't understand Xie Hengdong, he didn't understand if Chen Wei really confessed to Xie Hengdong, would he really be with him.

He didn't call Xie Hengdong outside to ask him the answer until they finished speaking and went back to the dormitory.

Xie Hengdong said: "He feels very good to me. If he really has that kind of thought about me, I can't think about it."

"Why?" Su Shikang was puzzled: "Even if he is a man, you don't care?"

Xie Hengdong smiled: "Shi Kang, actually no one understands me better than you, you know how hard it is to find someone who treats you well."

"..." Of course he understands what Xie Hengdong said. What he doesn't understand is that you can consider falling in love with him if you can't just say that someone of the same sex treats you well.

If he also has that kind of thought about Xie Hengdong, can Xie Hengdong also consider him?

Of course he would not ask this kind of question, he and Xie Hengdong grew up in a very similar environment, and he understood exactly what kind of love Xie Hengdong wanted.Since Xie Hengdong said so, he wouldn't meddle too much, he cared about him but he couldn't control him, too much meddling in other people's affairs would only make him appear to be nosy.

Su Shikang said: "Then it's up to you! Just don't affect yourself." As a buddy, he can only support him.

"Haha! Then don't keep making trouble for others in the future, do you hear me?"

"As long as he doesn't mess with me, I won't trouble him." Su Shikang said irritably, "But I don't trouble him for your sake, but it doesn't mean that I won't be upset when I see him. I still want to punch his face."

"Hahahahaha!" Xie Hengdong couldn't help laughing, just as he was about to hurt Su Shikang a few more words, Chen Wei got dressed and came out. The three of them wanted to go out for dinner together.

"What are you talking about?"

Xie Heng said: "I'm talking about what to eat later."

"..." Su Shikang looked at Chen Wei from beginning to end, and found that he had already taken off his school uniform and put on his own black padded jacket, and even combed his hair angrily.

"Look at what?"

"Isn't it okay to look coquettish in clothes like this?"

"Who the fuck are you talking about?"

"That's enough, that's enough..." Xie Hengdong's head grew bigger, and he quickly squeezed into the middle to separate the two, "What's for dinner tonight?"

The three went to a noodle shop outside the campus.

The winter in Pengcheng River is very cold, still kind of damp and cold. The weather forecast says that there will be a snowfall tonight. There are many people in the noodle restaurant. The white mist fills the cold air, and every table is full of people.The guests who have just got off work and the students who have just finished school in No. [-] Middle School will order a bowl of spicy beef noodles, and then open a few bottles of hot milk to drink, talking and laughing at every table.

This noodle shop is very humane. The proprietress is smiling and looks very approachable. They will put a few cans of freshly warmed milk on the table, which is convenient for customers to buy, and can also be used to warm hands in winter.

Su Shikang squeezed into the table near the TV with ease, and Chen Wei and Xie Hengdong sat opposite him.

There was boring news on the TV, and the customers were only interested in eating, drinking, talking and laughing. Few people looked up at the TV, so Su Shikang picked up the remote control and tuned the channel to CCTV5's football match.

After putting the remote control away, he rubbed his hands together, breathed out a few breaths of hot air, and then picked up the hot soy milk on the table.

Mr. Chen didn't expect them to come to this kind of place for dinner.

The greasy smoke made him frown. In his plan before school, he planned to take Xie Hengdong to a high-end restaurant in the city for dinner, not this kind of noodles, egg fried rice and a few cups of soy milk Chaos noodle shop.

Xie Hengdong poured him a cup of hot water, and he took it. When he touched Xie Hengdong's hand, he found that his hand was cold.

"wait for me a while."

As he spoke, he went to a small supermarket next door, and when he came back, he thoughtfully took a hot water bottle.

Xie Hengdong was quite surprised: "You really remember it."

Chen Wei smiled: "There is a sale next door, it feels like your hands are cold."

"..." Xie Hengdong didn't say anything, he could easily see a smile in his lowered eyes.

"Oh dear~" Su Shikang saw that Chen Wei was careful, so he no longer wanted to fight with him. The soy milk had already been covered by him, and he started to cover his face again, "It's good if someone covers it. There is a hot water bottle to cover it, unlike me..."

His words sounded like a joke, so Chen Wei rolled his eyes at him, and shamelessly said: "It's not impossible if you want my brother to cover you up, just call me brother."

"roll!"

The three of them were talking, when the proprietress shouted from the steaming boiler, "Do the three handsome boys eat spicy food?"

Chen Wei said: "Stop spicy, thank you, auntie."

Su Shikang and Xie Hengdong eat abnormally spicy food every time, and feel that spicy food in winter warms their stomachs, so they don't quite understand Chen Wei's behavior of not eating spicy food.

"Don't like spicy?"

Chen Wei raised his eyes and glanced at Su Shikang: "I can't eat it too much, my stomach hurts if I eat too much spicy food."

The noodles are served, and the three of them eat the noodles.

During the meal, Chen Wei asked where to go after eating. After all, it was finally Friday, and he felt that he had to go somewhere to relax.

Xie Hengdong shook his head: "No, the final exam is coming, and there are still a few sets of math papers that I haven't done yet."

"..."

Hearing what he said, Chen Wei was a bit disappointed. Xie Hengdong studied very hard, and he enrolled in a music class and planned to pass the entrance examination to a music university. There is really no need to ask himself so much. It is okay to relax properly.

Su Shikang ate the noodles on the opposite side. He took two bites, wiped his mouth with a piece of paper, and said, "Then you guys go back, I'll be late."

Xie Hengdong asked him, "Where do you want to go?"

"Go to the Internet cafe to get a score, and I will be back at night."

"The phone doesn't give you points?"

"Mobile phones impact play."

"..."

Chen Wei: "Forget it, let him go, just come back on time."

He wished that Su Shikang would be away and give him and Xie Hengdong time to be alone.

Then Chen Wei suddenly remembered something, took out his mobile phone from his pocket and said to Su Shikang, "By the way, let's add Q｜Q, you can contact me if you need anything."

"It's so hot..." Su Shikang was eating the noodles. The noodles were so spicy that he felt uncomfortable all over. He took out his phone and scanned Chen Wei's business card, then took a sip of hot water.

It's a pity that the water was still hot, and he couldn't bear it even more if it was hot, so he casually opened the soy milk he had just used to warm his hands.

The number has already been added, Chen Wei looked at the familiar sand sculpture screen name and signature, and noted Su Shikang.

Su Shikang originally wanted to note his full name, but he typed "chen" and found that he couldn't find Chen Wei's Chen, so he complained: "Your surname is too difficult to write, forget it... "

He stared at the freshly opened soy milk on the table, and then thought of a note.

【VV Soybean Milk】

Chen Wei stretched his head over to see if he had typed his name, and suddenly saw this strange note. What he hates the most is Wei Zi in his name. He thinks it is very rustic and does not match his temperament. So when his family called him Weiwei, he also refused. Who would have thought that Su Shikang would remark Weiwei soybean milk for him?

I can't bear it, I really can't bear this note.

"deleted."

"Huh?" Chen Wei was standing bent over at this time, and Su Shikang was sitting opposite him, so he would get very close when looking at other people's mobile phones in this posture. Su Shikang looked up, with a smile in his eyes : "Don't you like it?"

"Delete it!" He snapped his hands to snatch it away.

Su Shikang didn't give him a chance, he finished the meeting, he stuffed his phone into his pocket, and said to Xie Hengdong while walking out: "I'm leaving first, I'll be back later."

"Su Shikang!"

"..."

It was snowing outside, and Chen Wei watched Su Shikang put on his hat and walked into the snow curtain. The white snow in the sky merged with his tall figure, and he went out smiling, but his back looked thin and lonely.

"Hold!"

Chen Wei turned back and sat opposite Xie Hengdong, Xie Hengdong asked him: "Have you finished eating?"

"already ate."

"After eating, go back and do your papers."

"..."

-

Su Shikang went to an Internet cafe near the school.

He booked for two hours, and the brisk smile on his face disappeared immediately when he sat down. He took out his mobile phone and made a call.

"Hey?"

It was a middle-aged man who answered the phone: "Shi Kang, what's the matter, why did you remember to call."

"Are you back for Chinese New Year?"

"What?" The man hesitated, "Didn't you just send money to you and your grandma?"

"..." Su Shikang felt agitated hearing his voice, took out a cigarette he just bought from the bar, lit it, and took two puffs.

"I won't go back during the Chinese New Year. I'll take your Aunt Xiaofeng back to my hometown, and bring your sister with me, so I won't go over for dinner. Tell your grandma..."

Su Shikang's face was sullen, and he tapped the keyboard hard, making a "cracking" sound.

He has hands and feet. In fact, he can fully support himself. If it weren't for her grandma, he would never want to have any contact with his biological father. His mother died when she gave birth to him. When he was three years old, his father brought a woman home, and the woman was still holding a newborn baby in her arms.

It's understandable for his mother to leave and his father to marry him again, but his father doesn't come back a few times a year, and his life has been better these years, so he only sends some money every month to send them off.

Su Shikang endured his anger, and planned to struggle for grandma again: "But grandma misses you."

"You at least, you at least come back and take a look."

Don't dislike her just because she is old, wrinkled and hunched over, and can't even see or hear clearly.

But the tone of the person on the phone was warm, but the words he said were extremely indifferent.

"Wait for me to come back, wait for me to come back."

Su Shikang got angry, he felt aggrieved, he really didn't know when his father's next time would be.

"Grandma's health is getting worse and worse recently. If you give me more money, I will take her to see a doctor during the winter vacation." Su Shikang's tone changed from struggling with anger to becoming calm, "Since you don't want to come back so much, then never come back. and everything is going well.”

"How are you doing at school? Has there been any trouble recently?"

"This has nothing to do with you." Su Shikang sneered: "You don't even look at me, what do you care about this? To put it bluntly, I killed someone outside, and no one knows that I am your son of Su Wenjun."

"Bye."

Su Wenjun wanted to say something more, but Su Shikang had already hung up the phone.

Even though he was used to this, he still couldn't help being angry, wronged, and feeling sorry for grandma.

His grandma is now 70 years old, and she stays alone in the house of her hometown. He used to go home with him every night when he went to school. Now that he lives in school, grandma raises some small animals by herself and grows vegetables in the yard. It’s okay. Sometimes it takes a whole day to sit outside in the yard.

Until now, grandma guards an empty house alone from morning to night, from night to day.

The grandparents and grandsons have been working hard since they were young, and most of the money Su Wenjun gave went to the hospital. In fact, he didn't dare to think carefully that his grandma could accompany him for a few years.

Su Shikang pinched the cigarette, and Su Wenjun's cold blood was like ice scum, colder than the first snow, and mercilessly attacked his heart. He was still a teenager at that time, and his endurance was not so hard. Thinking about it, he wanted to cry, but he took a bite of the sweet lollipop and swallowed all the bitterness that surged up into his stomach with a "cracking" sound.

Forget it.

forget it.

It's useless to ask, it's all life.

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The author has something to say:

Notes to each other before falling in love:

Su Shikang: VV Soybean Milk

Chen Wei: Su Shikang

Babies, do you want to guess the notes after falling in love?

Xie Hengdong and Su Shikang both went through hardships when they were young. The two met in junior high school and they relied on each other, and then their relationship was so strong. It’s just that Xie Hengdong saw the light before Su Shikang. Fortunately, Xie Hengdong has a mother’s love than Su Shikang. The mother's second marriage is also very reliable, and she met Chen Wei when she was a teenager.

Chen Wei is a very caring person. When he touched Xie Hengdong's hand and knew that he was cold, he kindly went out and bought him a hot water bottle. Even so, his feelings for Su Shikang were not abrupt. I don't think it will give people the feeling of "how could Chen Wei like Su Shikang", so they fell in love very much in the end, Su Shikang had never seen the light, but Chen Wei became his only one in the end, all of them Light.

Sorry for being so long-winded again, because this article is too deserted, so I wrote all my thoughts in Zuohua, I believe someone will read it and listen to my long-winded.