dare to love

When the winter vacation finally came, Chen Wei lay dead in his apartment for a few days, and then started counting the days every day to calculate when Su Shikang would come back.

All the acquaintances' drinking games were postponed, and Chen Wei felt that no matter what, he had to wait for Su Shikang to come back, otherwise no one would pay attention to him if he drank too much or was allergic to alcohol.

Xie Hengdong has his arms around the beauty's waist now, because he is too lazy to care about her.

Chen Wei thought, how about he be thick-skinned this winter vacation?Live in Su Shikang's house?

If he wants to go, he can go ahead now, and then chat with Grandma Su and grow vegetables.When Su Shikang arrived at the station, he took his grandma to the station to pick him up in his SUV.

Well, it's fine.

Thinking of doing it, Chen Wei hurriedly got up from the bed. He opened the curtain of the floor-to-ceiling window, and the warm winter sun shone in. He stretched lazily, feeling that he had never been in such a good mood.

As for the family, every year during the Chinese New Year, various people would come to his house to pay New Year's greetings, including relatives and Chen Su's colleagues at work. Although it was lively every year, he didn't need to deal with it.

So he planned to talk to his family, and then drove to buy some new year's goods for Su Shikang's family to take there.

-

the other side.

Su Shikang held his mobile phone in his hand, looked at the train tickets on the major software, and fell into deep thought about the plane tickets.He was stunned for nearly half an hour before he suddenly understood this fact.

There are no tickets left.

When Su Shikang started to grab tickets for the Spring Festival travel festival, he hadn't confirmed their school's holiday time. After the confirmation, he found out that there were no tickets.Besides, their school holidays were too late, and they collided with those who went to work in other places, so it was difficult to get tickets.

"Hey……"

Su Shikang sighed, and he began to worry.

I still have to call my grandma and say, and Chen Wei, he also told him that he will come back, now tell him that he can't go back, will he be strangled to death?

Then there is Xie Hengdong! ! !He specified that he had been angry with himself for more than two years.

"Why is it so difficult—"

"Yo Kangkang, what are you worrying about?" Yu Wei, who is in the same dormitory, just came out of the bathroom after taking a shower. His right hand rested on Su Shikang's shoulder. .

"I didn't buy a ticket again."

"Hey!" Yu Wei got used to it, "It's normal, so this time I just asked my dad to drive to pick me up."

"Good."

"Why don't you go home with me? My room is big enough for two people to sleep."

"..." Su Shikang thought of Chen Wei, he quickly shook his head, "No, no, no."

Then he started to ask again: "How much is the house price in Changsha?"

Yu Wei: "?"

"Have you started buying a house now? Are you only 20 years old? Don't you have any girlfriends???"

"Does this have anything to do with girlfriends?"

Su Shikang just felt that he couldn't stay home forever, his grandma was still waiting for him in Pengcheng River?Anyway, the house over there will be demolished in a short time. If he doesn't take over his grandma first, it's really impossible to rent a house here.

He just felt he couldn't keep his grandma waiting any longer.

Su Shikang felt annoying, really annoying!

The control here is strict, and before handing in the phone, he had to hurry up and make a video call to his grandma, telling her that he didn't buy a ticket.

Hey……

Fortunately, Aunt Wang is here, and he will make video calls to Aunt Wang whenever he is free, so that he can often see his grandma.

-

Chen Wei had almost cleaned up before he received a call from Su Shikang.

It wasn't his number, but one could tell it was from the school's public phone.

"What's the matter, Kang Cub?"

"Chen Wei..." The phone hesitated for a moment, "I..."

"You what?" Chen Wei already had a vague feeling that something was wrong.

"You're not coming back, are you?"

"Ah."

"..."

"It's too late for school holidays, I didn't fight for tickets."

"Aren't there any tickets?"

"……right!"

"..."

The two became silent, and Su Shikang could only hear Chen Wei's breath in the receiver, as if trying to suppress something.

He didn't speak, just listened silently, and then he heard Chen Wei laugh, and then spoke to him in a tone he had never heard before.

Chen Wei's tone was a little helpless, a little tired, and a little sad.

More true feelings.

He said: "Su Shikang, what else can I say? You don't want to do this either."

"I just think, if I can do it all over again, then I want to be selfish for a while, and I will definitely not let you go to Changsha."

Or, if you insist on going, then I should go to this city with you.

There is no need to say goodbye to the outrageous three years.

From two and a half years to the end of the next semester, it will be three years.

What's next?

Hearing Chen Wei's tone, Su Shikang felt a little uncomfortable. Chen Wei almost never spoke to him in this tone. He was always smiling, naughty, gentle, and shameless before...

But this sentence had a different feeling, which made him feel a tingling sensation in his heart, and it made his heart soften when he heard it.

After hanging up the phone, Chen Wei lay back on the bed again, staring blankly at the ceiling and the bright chandelier.

Once again, he fell into loneliness and waiting, boundless and far away.

Not long after, Rui Qiang called again, asking him to go out for a drink.

Chen Wei sat up irritably, his messy hair was scattered on his forehead, he lit a cigarette, and connected the phone while smoking.

"Hey?"

"Hey Chengou, come out and drink!"

"Don't go."

"Hey, what's going on with you? The tone is wrong..."

"..."

"Let me tell you, Lin Yufan is back this time, so don't wait for Shi Kang, let's get together again when he comes back! Hurry up and come here!"

After Rui Qiang finished speaking, he hung up the phone.

Chen Wei sat on the bed for half an hour, and when he finished smoking, he dug out a coat and a white scarf from the closet.

He is tall and good-looking, and he can look handsome in a sack, so this outfit makes him look very stylish, like an international supermodel.

Rui Qiang and the others went to a small tavern. In the dead of night, there were always many handsome men and women shaking the dice while drinking. Those beauties wore ultra-short pleated skirts and bare-legged artifacts as if they didn't mind the cold.

The lights are feasting, the singing and dancing are peaceful.

Chen Wei pushed open the door of the tavern, and Rui Qiang sat at the innermost side and waved to him.

"Here is Chen Wei."

Chen Wei glanced at him and walked over.

The tavern itself was a place full of fish and dragons, so when he passed by various tables, he attracted the attention of many people because of his outstanding appearance.

Xie Hengdong and Lu Xiaoting were also there, as well as Lin Yufan, whom he hadn't seen for more than two years.

As soon as Chen Wei sat down, a girl with twin ponytails and a pleated skirt came to him, her cheeks were red and she was very shy.

"I'm sorry, handsome guy, I lost a game of truth or dare with my friends just now, can I toast you a glass of wine?"

"..."

Chen Wei looked in the direction of her friend behind her, and found that there were four or five people sitting at that table, and they all looked in this direction, encouraging the girls to be bold while watching the good show.

"I'm allergic to alcohol."

"Ah..." The girl was a little embarrassed. She didn't know if this was a lie told by the handsome guy in front of her to reject her. After all, if he was really allergic to alcohol, would he still come to this tavern?

"Then... I'm sorry, but can I add a WeChat?"

"..." Chen Wei's face darkened.

"Oh, Chengou..." Rui Qiang coaxed aside, "The girls are so enthusiastic, it won't matter if you add it, I think..."

Rui Qiang leaned close to Chen Wei's ear, and said in a flirtatious tone, "You are so old, it's time for you to taste the...sensation of an adult..."

"..."

The two characters of love|desire are connected with the heart and bone, and the taste can only be known by eating the marrow.

It has something to do with love, with sweat, with the body, with the whispers of entanglement with the lover in the dark night...

Although Chen Wei has never tasted this taste, he also knows that the girl in front of him can't give him the feeling he wants.

He didn't speak, and the girl in front of him didn't leave either.

Many people were watching at the scene. Chen Wei was afraid of embarrassing the girl, so he clicked on WeChat and scanned her QR code.

"add."

The girl rejoiced: "Thank you brother!"

"..."

Chen Wei felt a little awkward when he was called brother, he didn't like her calling him that.

Xie Hengdong looked at Chen Weijia and put his phone in his pocket, then saw the girl bouncing back to the original table, while the other onlookers cast jealous glances at the girl, they thought the girl would be rejected, Then they can have a good show.

Such a good-looking handsome guy can casually send WeChat messages to others?

Chen Wei didn't care about the gazes of those people, he looked up and saw that the people in front of him were all looking at him, and said, "Go ahead."

Rui Qiang: "You don't drink?"

"Tell me I'm allergic to alcohol."

"No, Chengou, isn't that what you just said when you rejected the little girl?"

"hiss--"

Chen Wei stared at him and was about to talk about him, when Xie Hengdong said, "Okay Rui Qiang, he is indeed a bit allergic to alcohol, don't let him drink."

"..."

Lin Yufan stared at Xie Hengdong and Chen Wei in front of him, feeling a little delicate.

He hasn't met these two since the third year of high school. He only remembers Chen Wei's difference and care for Xie Hengdong in those three years. Now he is not used to seeing the two sitting away.

He is a novelist now, and he can come up with an epic love story for any emotional change.

What about falling in love and killing each other, reunion after a broken mirror, abuse of body and mind...

"Is Fanfan not annoying?"

"..."

Sitting across from him, Chen Wei said, "What are you staring at me and Hengdong with your small eyes? What material are you thinking about?"

"Chen, Brother Chen..."

"Ah."

Chen Wei just said him, but Lin Yufan looked at him and refused to roll his eyes.

"... What are you looking at me for?"

"It's nothing." Lin Yufan looked away, a little embarrassed, "I just think you are so handsome, you look like the protagonist in my book..."

"..." Chen Wei's expression was not very good.

"Hahahahaha I said Lin Yufan..." Rui Qiang was amused by him, "Why are you still so funny? Writing a book made me crooked? Let me tell you that your brother Chen is single now, and you can crook yourself in time. How about you try... Whoops—”

Before Rui Qiang finished speaking, Chen Wei kicked him.

"Look at you, a thief who is afraid of chaos in the world."

There are songs playing in the tavern, almost all of them are old songs, from the moon represents my heart to love like a tide, and now I miss you so much.

The singing echoed in the tavern, probably because the people in the tavern had drunk too much, some were crying and some were laughing.

Chen Wei felt that this song was very suitable for the occasion, and it was very suitable to describe his mood at the moment.

This is a good place to go, reminisce about old times, come here when you are happy, come here for pleasure, and come here when you are broken in love.

There are thousands of emotions here.

"I am most afraid of memories suddenly rolling and colic, and I am most afraid of hearing about you suddenly."

"Why you, take me through the most memorable trip, and then leave the most painful souvenir."

"..."

Chen Wei sat quietly on the sofa and listened to the song, then took out a pack of Marlboro from his pocket.

"I'm going out for a cigarette."

He thought of Su Shikang again.

"Oh, don't!" Rui Qiang reminded: "It's cold outside, you can also smoke here."

"No."

Chen Wei got up and walked out.

He stood under the night light, leaning against the pillar outside the tavern, lowered his head and lit the cigarette.

This scene also attracted the attention of many passers-by.

In two years, his facial features have been completely stretched out, and he is no longer as green as he was when he was a teenager.Chen Wei lowered his head slightly and concentrated on smoking, because he was not in a good mood, so he looked poignant at the moment.

If there is a heavy snowfall at this moment, it will be impossible.

After smoking most of the cigarette, Xie Hengdong also opened the door and came out.

He stood beside Chen Wei and watched him smoke for a long time before saying, "Aren't you in a good mood?"

"Ah."

"About Shikang?"

"..." Chen Wei didn't speak, as if tacitly acquiescing.

"Actually, when I sent him to the station, I already vaguely guessed that although he said that the relationship between us would not change and he would come back to find us, but you see, it has been almost three years since he left, and in the end it was not the same. Don't be too wide..."

"It's not that serious."

Xie Hengdong just said: "I told my worries, but Shikang felt that I was too dependent on him, I did depend on him, and I also have my own family, but Su Shikang will never change with me, he It's always my buddy, my family, why doesn't he understand?"

"..."

The Chinese New Year is early this year, red lanterns have already been hung on the street, and there are many people on the road, busy buying new clothes and buying new year's goods.

A mother and son walked in front of them. The daughter walked ahead happily holding small fireworks, while the mother gently told her to slow down and not fall.

As the Spring Festival approaches, every family should be very happy on the day of reunion.

But Su Shikang stayed in Changsha alone, he couldn't come home, how could he blame him.

Chen Wei knew that Su Shikang was also feeling bad, he couldn't come back to Pengchenghe, he couldn't see him and Xie Hengdong, and he couldn't see his grandma either.

Xie Hengdong was looking at him, while Chen Wei was looking ahead.

Xie Hengdong suddenly discovered that Chen Wei had changed a lot. These days, he always had a melancholy temperament, as if there was a knot in his heart, and no one helped him untie it.

He listened silently to Xie Hengdong, without saying a word.

In the end, Xie Hengdong found that something was wrong with him, he had been thinking about something, so he called him: "Chen Wei?"

"..."

Xie Hengdong shouted again.

"...Huh?" Chen Wei regained consciousness belatedly.

"The smoke burns your hands, doesn't it hurt?"

"...Hiss!" Chen Wei shook the cigarette away.

His fingertips were burned red, but Chen Wei didn't care, he stuffed it into the pocket of his coat, and said to Xie Hengdong: "Hengdong, I have to go first, because I'm going to Changsha."

"...Are you going to find Shi Kang?"

"Correct!"

Xie Hengdong said in disbelief: "What are you kidding? The Spring Festival will be in two days, won't you go home? And now, can you buy a ticket?"

"As long as I want to go, nothing is a problem."

Chen Wei wrapped the collar of his coat tightly, and the night wind ruffled his hair.

"Remember to tell Rui Qiang and me, thank you buddy."

Then he walked against the wind on the cold street.

Pengcheng River and Changsha are nearly 900 kilometers apart.

Chen Wei thought, Su Shikang has been tormenting him silently for almost three years, as long as he wants to see him, no matter how far away he is.

He can drive without a ticket, and he can walk over bad roads. As long as he wants, he will always see him.