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Niagara, one o'clock in the morning.

Goose feather snow drifted in the night sky, and the scenery along the way was frozen into static.

Lu Yuxing had never been here before, yet he felt very familiar with it.Maybe it's because I used to yearn for the scene here when I was in middle school, or maybe it's other reasons, from the airport to the resort hotel that Tang Tang booked, there were no detours along the way.

The freezing of Niagara Falls in winter is very spectacular, and this time is also the peak tourist season.The hotel Tang Tang booked was an independent villa on the hill half a kilometer away from Queen Victoria's Niagara Falls Park.There are a total of [-] holiday villas around here, and they are far away from each other. Looking out from the balcony, you can see the waterfall and the young people having dinner and parties at the foot of the mountain.

The night wind blew, and the hour hand passed a little, but Lu Yuxing didn't feel sleepy.

At the foot of the mountain, the lights were brightly lit, and a group of young people from South America spoke Spanish and fought arm in arm in the night market.The small stalls are connected to the shopping mall, and the crowds of people come and go become a bright light in the dark night.The snow decreased and had stopped by night.

The lights were not turned on in the villa, and Lu Yuxing stood on the balcony on the second floor, with an empty bedroom and connected living room behind him.This feeling of isolation suddenly reminded him of Jinning Road, that house that was as quiet as death.

Thinking about it this way, it was indeed a correct decision for Tang Xingguo to choose a small house to support his life.At this moment, he stood alone in the dark, thinking of Tang Tang very much.

"—Don't you want to know the truth?"

Biting cold wind poured in, and Tang Tang's words before leaving were still ringing in his ears.

What is the truth he said?Is it why they met, or why did the time return to 20 years ago?

Lu Yuxing thought of all kinds of unreasonable actions of Tang Tang, and felt that the thoughts in his head were like a mess.

He made countless conjectures, but in the end he didn't take any action, so he could only wait here for Tang Tang.

Now that an agreement has been made, Tang Tang will definitely attend the appointment.

At the foot of the mountain, the laughter of the market is endless.Lu Yuxing hesitated for a while, then pulled out from the darkness.

He changed into a warm black down jacket and hurried out the door.

Without Tang Tang talking endlessly by his side, excessive purity would only make people uneasy.Lu Yuxing wore a black baseball cap, put his hands in his pockets, and sneaked into the lively market like this.Snow fell on his shoulders, but the sub-zero temperature was quickly dispelled by the crowd.Most of the tourists in the market are couples who speak different languages ​​and shuttle among the stalls selling trinkets and late-night snacks.

The crowded crowd made him a little breathless, so Lu Yuxing walked around the night market and went to the small shopping mall on the other side of the road.

When he was an artist before, he had never been as comfortable as he is now.You don't have to worry about being photographed by paparazzi, or being recognized by fans.

If Tang Tang was by their side, they could still hold hands and go shopping in a foreign country without caring about anyone's eyes.

Thinking of this, he walked through the snow-covered streets and entered the mall.

This mall is like a large department store, with small commodities lined up on both sides of the crowded aisles.There are those who sell bruises, those who sell gold and silver jewelry, and even some low-quality leather shoe stores.Lu Yuxing walked aimlessly among the crowd, from the first floor to the third floor, and then to the first floor.The dim lights in the shopping mall make people completely immersed in this crowded and narrow space, with a sense of exotic mystery.

Walking to the corner of the first floor, I saw vines growing at the door of a shop. Looking carefully, there were actually countless spider plants growing from the ceiling.Their growth is so luxuriant and rapid that at first glance, it is impossible to see what these lush things are.

Lu Yuxing thought it was a flower shop, thinking that he could buy some beautiful flowers for Tang Tang.However, when he got closer, he realized that there were a few crooked Chinese characters written on the wooden door of the store:

——Fortune-telling and divination.

Underneath the Chinese characters, translations have been made in different languages. It can be seen that the business of the store comes from all over the world, and it can be counted anywhere.

Lu Yuxing stood at the door, stared at the words on the door and thought for a moment, then opened the door and entered the store.

The store door was pushed open, and the long-leaf roots of Chlorophytum rushed towards him, falling on him like a bead curtain.Lu Yuxing tried his best to sweep these things away, and finally saw the whole store.

A thin, yellow-skinned old woman was sitting on the tatami. She was wearing a European-style retro dark-colored skirt and a gauze hat.This attire is clearly the appearance of a Western witch, but the furnishings in her shop are full of Tai Chi gossip, all of which are Chinese Taoist things.

Lu Yuxing frowned, turned around and wanted to leave.

As soon as he turned around, the old woman behind him immediately stood up in front of him and stopped him with open arms.

"Hey! Welcome! Don't go away!" Her face was full of wrinkles, and her prominent cheekbones were particularly bright when she smiled. "Career, study, marriage!" She spoke Hong Kong dialect, "We are from the same town, and the first order will be free for you!"

Lu Yuxing took a step back, "I see a lot of things hanging in your room. What do you give me?"

"I'll take whatever you believe in!" Probably because she hadn't done business for a long time, the old woman had an earnest smile on her face, "Young man, what do you want to count? It's free anyway, why don't you come and try it?"

"I don't believe in gods and Buddhas." Lu Yuxing looked around the store, his eyes fell on a crystal ball placed beside the tatami, "Do you know how to hypnotize?"

The crystal ball was only the size of a palm, with a silver chain attached to one end, and the body of the ball showed a slight tranquil blue color.

Lu Yuxing glanced at it, but the old lady didn't say anything, so he didn't ask any more questions.He sat on the tatami, changed the subject, and asked again: "It's a marriage."

The old woman was stunned for a moment, then slowly said: "Uh... I see that your complexion is clear, your partner must be smart and skilled, she should be a virtuous and good girl!"

When she finished speaking, she heard Lu Yuxing chuckle and turned around to leave. "Sorry, he's a man."

"Hey!" The old woman became anxious immediately, and hurried to catch up, "I'm a half-baked fortune teller, but hypnosis is a professional! Do you want to try it? It doesn't work, no money!"

Her short and thin body stood in front of Lu Yuxing, and she seemed to refuse to let go without trying.

Lu Yuxing sighed and had no choice but to turn around and sit back on the tatami.

A dimly lit lamp was lit in the store, and Tai Chi Bagua diagrams and Western beliefs hung haphazardly from the ceiling.Lu Yuxing lay flat on the tatami, and slowly closed his eyes under the guidance of the old woman.

The crystal ball swayed in front of his blurred vision, gradually turning into a phantom.

"Now, you're going to get lighter and lighter..."

She leaned over and whispered in Lu Yuxing's ear, leading his thoughts to gradually enter the preconsciousness.

"You feel like you're floating in chaos... what are you trying to hold on to?"

Sinking into this soft whisper, Lu Yuxing felt his consciousness was in darkness, his body became lighter and lighter, and finally his consciousness seemed to leave his body and enter the revolving lantern of memories.

What does he want to remember?

Lu Yuxing stood in the darkness, trying to find Tang Tang's figure, but found nothing in the torrent.

Countless memories flashed in the air, from when he entered the crew of "Chasing the Murderer" to when his script died, Tang Tang never appeared.

Finally, he returned to the villa on Jinning Road.

In the chaos, he saw a man curled up on the sofa in pain, with bulging veins on his naked upper body, and sleeping pills scattered all over the floor.

Lu Yuxing was taken aback for a moment, and instantly realized what time it was.

It was the most serious episode after he was diagnosed with severe anxiety and severe depression.The pointer on the wall pointed to five o'clock in the morning. At this time, even the paparazzi who squatted at the door all year round had gone home to sleep, and his soul was being torn apart silently, like a torture.

Lu Yuxing stood at the door, watching his 40-year-old self struggle with pain.

He has a deep memory of this incident.At that time, he swallowed most of the bottle of sleeping pills in a daze, and when he woke up the next day, he found that he hadn't died at all, and the bottle of sleeping pills was also full.Looking back afterwards, Lu Yuxing only thought that he had hallucinations, so he didn't think about it any more.

But affected by this incident, he never touched the bottle of sleeping pills again.

Now, as a bystander, he witnessed all this soberly.The vague fantasies in his subconscious took shape in his mind. The 40-year-old Lu Yuxing grabbed the small medicine bottle in pain. He lay on his back on the narrow sofa, his undulating muscles were covered with sweat.

His hands were trembling, and when he raised his head to feed the pills into his mouth, several pills spilled out, rolled on the floor for several meters, and finally stopped at Lu Yuxing's feet.

Lu Yuxing looked down at the white thing under his feet, and then turned to himself on the sofa.The man prayed for relief from the endless torment and pain, and swallowed the lethal dose of pills in one gulp with tea.

His hands dropped limply, and the empty medicine bottle rolled to the floor.In the darkness, his handsome face was thin and sickly, but with a sense of relief and satisfaction.

A ray of morning light came in from outside, separating the two Lu Yuxing.

The man lay on his back, falling into a deep sleep amidst nightmares and pain.Lu Yuxing stared at the white pill at his feet, squatted down, and picked it up.

He took this white ball the size of a fingernail into his mouth, and a sweet and greasy fragrance spread in his mouth immediately, like some kind of virus, it only took a moment to cover up all the bitterness in his mouth.

In the depths of the memory, some kind of memory exploded.

He stood in the house on Jinning Road, the sun came in from the window and sprinkled on the man's pale face.

The sweetness on the tip of the tongue was lingering, Lu Yuxing remembered everything in an instant.

That day he poured half a bottle of sleeping pills with a cup of cold tea, but it tasted sweet.

He couldn't be more familiar with this sweet taste.

——That was the smell in Tang Tang's mouth, the smell of their kissing, and the smell from him when they were lingering in the damp and cold small hotel.

The author says:

Sorry for delaying the update... There are too many things in the last three times, and I just wrote an important plot, so I am very sorry for not being able to update normally! !