letter to roommate

Xu Zixin also got on her bicycle and caught up with Yan Xiya who was walking back.

Yan Xiya was on the phone and didn't notice Xu Zixin approaching, but it was too late to hang up.

"Shall we talk?" Xu Zixin said.

Yan Xiya hurriedly hid her phone, not expecting that Xu Zixin would turn back, but she still nodded confusedly.

The two walked quietly along the embankment of the moat. Seeing that she was silent, Yan Xiya took the initiative to speak: "I'm sorry about Li Ji...I actually have nothing to do with him."

Of course Xu Zixin knew that they were fine. From the first time she caught two people holding hands, she knew that Yan Xiya didn't really like Li Ji with a woman's intuition.

But after all, that is an intuition that no one can tell for sure. Yan Xiya hides it very deeply, so she feels an unprecedented crisis. Xu Zixin has long wanted to ask: "Do you like Lin Chuan?"

"Huh?" Yan Xiya didn't expect Xu Zixin to ask Lin Chuan, shouldn't she care about her ex-boyfriend?Didn't you deny having an affair with Lin Chuan before?Why did you ask this in the first place?

Yan Xiya felt sour in her heart, but she didn't answer directly, "Why are you asking this?"

Xu Zixin didn't know where the courage came from, so she stopped, looked at Yan Xiya seriously, and said like a declaration of war: "I don't care if you like her or not, anyway, you don't like her in the future."

The nearest Lin Chuan did not give Xu Zixin a sense of security.

Although the two seem to have returned to their former intimacy, Xu Zixin's terrible intuition told herself that the two of them are different, and there is something very important that has been lost.

Although I can't say what it is, Xu Zixin is very afraid of losing Lin Chuan.

So, when she didn't even know what she was thinking, she had already caught up with Yan Xiya and warned her like this.

"Why?" Yan Xiya bit her lower lip, but asked uneasily. Subconsciously, she actually didn't want to know the answer, because her heart was actually so vulnerable, blinded and hypnotized by herself. Eyes, have been afraid to look directly at some obvious things.

For example...

"Because I like her." Xu Zixin calmed down, there seemed to be a strong force in her eyes, so strong that Yan Xiya dared not look at her.

"If you like her, I can't like her..." Yan Xiya's eyes were red, but she tried her best to look at her.

The corner of Xu Zixin's mouth twitched into a sad smile, she was so beautiful under the moonlight: "Lin Chuan also likes me. We are gay."

Yan Xiya heard the sound of her heart shattering like glass.

Although I have had such an idea for a long time.

Although I already knew that such a day would come.

But listening to her say it out, it still feels like being thrown in the desert to be exposed to the sun, with skin torn and flesh suffocating and embarrassing.

I feel so uncomfortable, is it because I have already loved to a degree that I didn't even expect.

"How... how is it possible... how..." Yan Xiya took a few steps back and bumped into someone's arms, "Uncle Qiu"

"Miss, didn't you ask me to pick you up? This is?" Uncle Qiu said in a low voice. Although he didn't know what the two said, it was the first time he saw Yan Xiya so panicked.

"I...I'm fine..." Yan Xiya was so shocked that she broke into a cold sweat and spoke incoherently.

Xu Zixin came over, seeing how they knew each other, she didn't say much, but just left a sentence to Yan Xiya: "This matter is our secret, I hope you don't tell anyone, and don't ask Lin Chuan. Yes, think carefully about the suggestion I gave you."

When Xu Zixin disappeared from sight, Yan Xiya's feet softened, and she stopped straight...

What the news brought her most was not shock, but heartache...

Xu Zixin's words deprived her of her only hope and extinguished the last spark in her heart.

Before Yan Xiya realized that she had joined the battle, she was already defeated.

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"Speaking of which..." One afternoon during the small winter vacation, Xu Zixin glanced at Lin Chuan who was curled up next to the stove and was writing a pen, and said seemingly unintentionally, "Yan Xiya seems to have a mobile phone too, you didn't save her number?"

The gray pencil fell from his skilled hand, and Lin Chuan picked it up calmly, without raising his head, and said, "I don't know...you don't need to tell me anyway..."

"Really..." When Lin Chuan raised his head to look at Xu Zixin again, that person had already lowered his head to write his homework again, as if nothing had happened just now.

"We..." Lin Chuan was about to say something else, when there was a "bang bang" knock on the door, and the girls who had been very close to Xu Zixin rushed in and sat around the stove: "Oh, hello , It’s so cold, it’s snowing outside!”

Lin Chuan rubbed against Xu Zixin's place to make room, and the whole room warmed up the air instead.

"Happy New Year!" A few girls chirped a few words, and the chat started.

Lin Chuan listened to their conversation without interrupting, unexpectedly finding it quite interesting.

"Did you know that the 1.9-meter Du Zihao in the third class was arrested for his puppy love? Then his parents came to the office and saw his girlfriend. His mother actually said directly, if you want to find someone who is taller, Are you two playing with the height difference?"

"Haha, that girl is indeed quite short, it must be hard work for the two of them to kiss normally."

"Hey, I also feel unworthy. Du Zihao should be with his twin brother Du Zijun!"

"You are so rotten!"

"..."

"By the way, this is what my brother asked me to give you!" A female classmate nicknamed "Mop" took out a box of chocolates from her bag and put it on the table for Xu Zixin.

Xu Zixin subconsciously went to look at Lin Chuan, but saw that she was still smiling, and there was no big disturbance, so she couldn't help but feel a little disappointed: "No...I said I don't want to fall in love anymore."

Now Lin Chuan also looked over, Xu Zixin has been changing boyfriends faster than changing clothes since junior high school, and has almost never been free.

Now it suddenly looks like "tired and not in love".

Lin Chuan thought of Li Ji, and thought that he was the one who caused them to break up, so he couldn't help but feel a little guilty, maybe he really did something wrong.

The mop unwrapped the chocolate, and took the lead in eating it: "Well, I told him not to get hopeful, but he still refused to give up, come on, let's eat!"

Lin Chuan reached out and took one into his mouth. It tasted like white milk.

Several girls also forgot about the unhappiness and continued the previous topic.

Lin Chuan heard a lot of gossip, and he didn't feel any disgust towards these girls before.

Coupled with Lin Chuan's "dark horse" halo, several girls often come to play with Xu Zixin, and between asking homework, they also get a little closer, and they are no longer unfamiliar.

Xu Zixin felt a little angry after being left alone..

At the same time, looking at Lin Chuan, who is being admired by everyone, time seems to have flowed backwards a long time ago. When I went home with them, Lin Chuan also stood aside, looking at me with the same disappointed eyes... exactly the same.

Xu Zixin's heart moved, and Lin Chuan looked over with a tacit understanding.

The two looked at each other, Lin Chuan smiled slightly, and Xu Zixin's heart also rippled.

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The start of the new year is a busy one.

Lin Chuan hid at Xu Zixin's house for a few days, and went to the countryside with his parents to meet his grandparents and grandparents.

He didn't sleep well for several days in a row, and was pressed for time, so he didn't stay overnight with his parents. He drove back to City H by himself overnight.

The Education Bureau is very strict in checking remedial classes, so the remedial class of City No. [-] Middle School is jointly opened with several other high schools in the city in the name of summer camp in a hidden suburban school. The conditions of the school are not very good, but there is a hotel nearby for home use. Students who are far away live for free.

Lin Chuan had just applied for a stay-at-home, and when he saw the list of roommates, he felt black lines popping out.

Who is that Li Xiying who is not the Li Xiying I know...

Didn't this guy never take part in such activities...

"Yan Xiya, aren't you staying overnight?"

Xu Wei on the side pulled Lin Chuan back from his thoughts, only to see Yan Xiya smiled reluctantly and said, "Someone will come to pick me up at home."

Zeng Xuan curled her lips: "It's so troublesome... Anyway, I don't need money, and I can't live for nothing. We've all stayed overnight, why don't we have fun together?"

Yan Xiya smiled apologetically: "I think so too, but my family doesn't allow it."

"Family education is really strict!" Xu Wei sang along, "Well...forget it, remember to bring us more supper~"

Zeng Xuan burst into tears: "Insatiable greed!"

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