Light Yu · I have a little sun

Unlike the relaxed and cheerful atmosphere of Jiang Can and Yin Yao, the chat between Gu Yu and Gu Chao was a bit heavy.

"Ayu, after arriving at grandma's house, try not to go out for the first month. Even if you go out, you have to use a wheelchair. You can't force yourself to stand and walk, you know? Gu Chao. Thinking of the doctor's explanation, he told Gu Yu while driving.

"Okay, I know, avoid actively bending the knee."

"Also, in the second month, you can slowly move the knee joint, but once you feel pain, you can't continue training. After a good recovery, you can walk slowly in the second month. No accidents. In the third month, you can basically trot..."

Gu Yu suddenly interrupted Gu Chao's words: "Father, let's talk about it later, don't you have to go to the hospital for follow-up visits every month?"

"Yes, yes, step by step, when the time comes, Dad will pick you up." Gu Chao realized that he had thought too far and talked too much, although he just wanted to tell Gu Yu that it's okay, and he will recover well in the future , There is nothing in daily life, but for Gu Yu now, too much imagination is like adding salt to the wound.

"Father, I'm a little tired, let's sleep for a while." After Gu Yu finished speaking, she closed her eyes and leaned her head against the car window.

"Okay then, you can go to sleep, Dad drive steadily."

Gu Yu tilted his head against the car window and thought in a daze that he was only temporarily unable to walk. Compared with those who could not walk for the rest of their lives, he was already very lucky.

Sure enough, happiness is a comparative level, and it is easy to feel something at the bottom.

Thinking about it this way, love should also be comparative.

Obviously, Shen Yun loves Gu Yu, and of course he loves the excellent Gu Yu who can dance even more. As a result, Gu Yu, who can't dance, is at the bottom of the list.

I feel sad because everyone thinks that it is not me who is at the bottom. After all, how can people easily admit the fact that no one loves them at all.

When did I reject dancing and no longer expect anything from my mother?

When I was four years old.

"Mom, can I take a break? I've been pressing my leg for a long time."

"No, how long has it been? Didn't I accompany you to press it? Mom didn't cry tired. Ayu is already four years old. Be obedient. Mom likes obedient Ayu."

"Well, I will work hard, and my mother will always like me."

When I was five years old.

"Mom, the deskmate in the preschool asked me to go to her house tomorrow, and we will do handwork together."

"No, I have to practice dancing on Sunday. Mom will accompany you to do the handicrafts later. Ayu is five years old. It's time to be sensible. Mom likes a sensible Ayu."

"Okay then, Ayu listen to mom."

at the age of six.

"Mom, if I win a prize in this competition, can I go to grandma's house on Sunday?"

"Okay, as long as you can win the championship this time, I will take you there."

"Mom, I won the championship, when can we go to grandma's house?"

"It's just a small competition organized by the school. Didn't you hear your dance teacher say that you don't have any emotion when you dance? You know how to play every day. Why, now that you're older, you don't listen to your mother anymore?"

"No, I listen to my mother. Let's go again when we have time during summer vacation."

At the age of seven.

"Mom, Dad is going to take my sister to the playground this afternoon, can I go together?"

"No, you still have classes in the afternoon. How old are you and you still have to go to the playground? Your sister is still young, are you too? Do you know how expensive a dance class is? You are such an old child, Can you understand something?"

But I never went to the playground when I was as old as my sister, and I am only 7 years old now.

at the age of eight.

"Mom, I feel a little uncomfortable today, can I take a day off?"

"No, it's just a little cough. You can't pretend to be sick and be lazy. Mom sent you to class without eating a few bites. Can you be considerate and considerate?"

But the throat is really uncomfortable, and the chest is also here. Although it is not injured, it hurts badly.

When I was nine years old.

"Mom, I want to stay at grandma's house for a few more days. I just became friends with Jiang Can. Can we play for a few more days?"

"Didn't I say it's impossible? I'm going to participate in an important competition in a few years. At the beginning, my mother missed it because of you. You have to help my mother win it back. By then, you will be famous and many people want to make friends with you." The point is, so only when you become excellent, you can freely choose your friends instead of being chosen, you know?"

But can you really be free if you are excellent?

ten years old.

"Ayu, how did you do in the exam?"

"Chinese 99, Mathematics 100, English 100."

"Why is there no difference of 1 point in Chinese, where is the point deducted?"

"I chose the wrong pinyin. It should be beng. I chose ben. I won't make a mistake next time."

"Don't tell me that next time, you will be punished for the mistake you made this time. Stretch out your hand." Shen Yun took the ruler and hit Gu Yu's palm a few times. Don't eat until you finish."

But I got No.1 in the exam, why was I still not recognized? Gu Yu pressed his red palm.

At the age of 11.

"The diary cannot be locked in the future." Shen Yun said while flipping through Gu Yu's diary.

"Mom, this is my privacy."

"What kind of privacy can a child have? Mom is concerned about you."

"Okay, have you finished reading? I want to sleep, you go out."

"Why do you close the door to sleep, and how did you change your password? It's logged on the computer, let me see." After speaking, Shen Yun sat in front of the computer and checked Gu Yu's password, "You Access to this space is denied every time, mom wants to know you so much, who is this person? Boy? Mom will delete it for you."

"Ok."

"That's right, I'm doing it for your own good, otherwise it will hinder the communication between our mother and daughter."

From the need to control the road to go in the future, do you also need to control your daily life now?

At the age of 12.

"Ayu, who is Wang Hao?" Shen Yun leaned against the door frame and looked at Gu Yu who was practicing dancing.

"The monitor of the next class, what's the matter?"

"How is your relationship with him?"

"It's not that good, I just know there is such a person." Gu Yu looked at Shen Yun curiously, why did her mother suddenly ask about this person.

"Then why did he write you a love letter? Did he lie? I'll go to school tomorrow to find your head teacher." Shen Yun threw the love letter behind her back onto Gu Yu's face.

"I don't even know where this is, mom, trust me."

"You lied at a young age, you just started dating when you were in the sixth grade, right? How old are you, who loves you, why did I give birth to such a shameless daughter like you?" Shen Yun turned to Gu Yu He scolded his head and covered his face.

"I really didn't lie." Not shameless either.Although Gu Yu didn't know where the love letters came from, he had indeed confiscated any love letters, and he and Wang Hao were not even close friends.

"It's not the same. I'm sorry you don't dare. It's stuffed in the outermost pocket of your schoolbag. It really doesn't look like what you've seen. Let's not take this as an example." Under his severe scolding, Gu Yu really didn't lie possible.

Should I be grateful for myself?After all, it didn't make trouble at school.

At the age of 13.

"She was born by me, and I gave her life. She must like what I like. My dream is her dream. This is what she owes me."

Mom, you see, my life is yours, my likes are yours, my dreams are yours too, how can I have freedom.

In Gu Yu's impression, although his mother is strict, she is also a reasonable person. I don't know when, I can't see my mother clearly.Maybe it was never my mother who changed, what changed was my state of mind.

Perhaps according to Shen Yun's expectations, in the eyes of outsiders, Gu Yu's life is also a very good and enviable life; it's just that it is not the life Gu Yu expected.

"Ayu, why are you crying? Is your leg hurting? Dad find a place to park." Gu Chao inadvertently looked up and saw Gu Yu in the rearview mirror. His fair face was covered with tears and his body was still trembling slightly. Must be in town, the road is bumpy and my leg hurts.

"I'm not crying." Gu Yu touched his face, "Why am I crying?"

"Is it because my leg hurts badly, my eyes are red, and I haven't cried yet, silly boy."

"No, maybe I just had a nightmare. My legs don't hurt. Dad doesn't need to stop. Let's go. Grandma is still waiting for us." The little puppet on the music box has been dancing obediently.

"Then dad, drive slowly. We'll be there in another 20 minutes. What kind of nightmare did you have? Tell dad about it, and you won't be afraid if you tell it." Steady and calm, but still a child after all, it is normal to be scared to cry by dreams.

"I dreamed that I had a music box that everyone liked, and there was a ballerina doll that kept spinning in circles. Although there was only a short piece of music tossing and turning, I liked it very much, but unfortunately it broke." Gu Yu looked out of the window, as if for real. It's like a nightmare I'm remembering.

"If it's broken, it's broken. Why cry? If it's broken, throw it away. Next time, Dad will buy you a new one. It's not just a music box that plays a short piece of music, but a music box that can play a lot of music."

"Okay, thanks Dad." Yeah, the end of something broken is to be abandoned.

"Why are you being polite to Dad, just squint for a while, and Dad will call you when you arrive."

"it is good."

The car suddenly fell into silence. After hesitating for a while, Gu Yu still asked, "Dad, how long has it been since you divorced Mom?"

Gu Chao didn't expect that Gu Yu would know about this, and he was silent for a while, thinking that he must have argued with Shen Yun in the car, and Gu Yu overheard him: "Did I wake you up then? It's been years. "

"Is it because of my dancing?"

"Not all, ever since you danced, especially after you signed up for class, your grandma and your mother have always had conflicts. In fact, it's because I didn't adjust well. You are still young and don't understand." Gu Chao thought for a while, and Shen Yun When it came to the divorce, it was indeed Gu Yu who was most of the reason, and I was also very responsible. Every time I wanted to compromise between the two sides, but never solved the problem, this caused the conflict between my mother and Shen Yun to become more and more acute.

Adults never feel that they are at fault, even if they do, they are only responsible.

"Sorry, if only I couldn't dance in the first place."

"What nonsense are you talking about? In fact, your mother remarried me two days ago, and your mother promised me that I would not force your sister to dance. Now Xixi dances because she likes it."

"Remarry? That's good."

"Don't think about it, your first priority now is to recover from your injuries. When you're done, we'll pick you up together. We're still a happy family."

"Okay." A family.

Gu Yu squinted her eyes and leaned on the seat, there were still some wet tears in the corners of her eyes, breathing shallowly, as if she really fell asleep.