My reunion with you is a belated confession

Hearing Xing Heng's words, He Mingsheng subconsciously shook his head, but couldn't speak.Xingheng’s questioning tonight started with “Brother”, which made his heart feel heavy, as if something heavy weighed on his heart, his breathing was out of rhythm, he was like a cripple, unable to control himself body.

At this moment, Xingheng is rational, just like the person who lost his mind in the middle of the night last night is not him at all, as if it was just a dream, but he still has no way to ask what he wants to know about Xingheng's past , It was Xingheng's injury, Xingheng's pain, it was the pain that this person didn't want others to know.

Stellar is proud, this has been known for many years.

"Or, bro, did you get scared when you saw me going crazy tonight? That's right, anyone who sees me will think I'm a psychopath, but who can I blame? I'm a psychopath! Nian, Zuo Zuo is just you, now that I see you, it seems that I have no regrets."

The casual, nonchalant tone made He Mingsheng's heart instantly lifted. He didn't like to hear Xingheng say that about himself. Even though he could see that Xingheng's mental state had obvious problems, he still didn't want to hear such words.

The boredom and indifference to this world revealed in Xingheng's tone made his heart sink again.

"Xingzi." He Mingsheng tried to interrupt Xingheng's harsh words towards him, his voice was still slightly hoarse, unlike the one in the bathroom before, with some pain and unbearable: "I know, I, I ..." There was no well-organized language in the first place, and I didn't know how to say it, and it rolled back and forth on the lips.

"Are you going to say that you are sorry for me again?" Xingheng interrupted He Mingsheng, a little aggressive, and no longer started every sentence with "brother": "He Mingsheng, if you like it, you like it, if you don't like it, you don't like it, I, Xingheng, like you very much. I have loved you openly and secretly for three years, and I have never forgotten it for four years. If you really don’t like it, I won’t put a knife on your neck, so you don’t have to be so embarrassing!”

The air was quiet for a moment, only the breathing of the two of them was very clear in the silence.

"It was my fault four years ago. I was greedy. I thought that if I could send He Guoping in, there would be no such person between us."

In He Mingsheng's life from childhood to adulthood, apart from Grandpa Feng, he was a group of classmates who didn't communicate much at school. When he was young, many children were ignorant, but when they grew up, others were willing to be friends with him, but he would treat his friends as friends. This kind of longing is hidden, and it is just a nodding acquaintance to whom.

So when Xingheng appeared and broke his originally peaceful and unchanging life, he was excited, happy, wanted to grasp, wanted to get rid of all external resistance, and wanted to even have a little possibility of things changing. None exist.

But in the end, he still underestimated Xingheng's position in his heart. When He Guoping threw the information about Xingheng in front of him, he panicked and felt that it was right and safe for this person to stay away from him. of.

"Brother, you didn't even ask me if I was willing or not, so you made the decision for me. I like you, but I also blame you. If I didn't know that you liked me so early, I would never resent you You have half points, but now I know that when I have not been obsessed with me alone for so many years, I suddenly feel resentful."

If I never knew that you had promised me sincerity, then no matter what the ending between us is, I have nothing to say except to accept my fate.But now, I suddenly feel resentful, because you never planned me in your future, even though you think it's for my own good, you have to ask me first if I want to.

You feel reluctant to give up, but to me, it is torture in every possible way.

"He Mingsheng, it's been four years, haven't you figured it out yet? This world is not as simple and easy as you think, and there is not only one He Guoping in this world, so the one who should come is unstoppable."

"I'm sorry, four years ago I was too selfish and too whimsical, thinking that I could bring down He Guoping on my own." The cigarette in his hand had already been reduced to ashes, and only one cigarette butt was left in his hand, but He Mingsheng He raised the remaining cigarette butt in front of his eyes for self-study, and after a long time, he continued: "But, Xingzi, you are not in my position, how do you know what you would do if it were you?"

There is remorse in the words, but there are also helplessness and unwillingness.

If you know that when I am by your side, there will be danger, even life-threatening, what perfect solution can you come up with?You who were four years ago, lived your entire life and left me alone.So you will never put me in any danger, this is my trust in you.But in the same way, the me four years ago only has you left.

Xingheng was silent, just like He Mingsheng didn't know how to answer his question, he also didn't know this question.

There are many people who understand the principles of this world, but when they endow themselves with their own thoughts and put them into their own actions, those magnanimous preaching becomes limited and always makes people feel intimidated.

Just like now, he also didn't want to list everything for He Mingsheng in detail. His regress did not bring happiness and smooth sailing to his life, but this person was for himself after all. If he knew that his departure back then led to what happened later All the worse and worse things in his opinion, will collapse.

But even so, he still wanted him to know that there are many unfortunate things in this world, not because you leave, it doesn't exist.

So, what I resent is that you left without me, what I resent is that you were not there when I needed you.

The conversation ended without any conclusion, Xingheng did not agree to He Mingsheng's pursuit, and of course did not talk about things about a year later.Xingheng didn't answer He Mingsheng's last question, and He Mingsheng didn't ask again. The two of them seem to have a tacit unity and turned this matter into an area to avoid talking about.

Xing Heng got up and went to the bedroom, while He Mingsheng sat on the sofa and was lost in thought.

"Just make do with it. It's uncomfortable to sleep on the sofa, you can go to the study." Xingheng put a set of pajamas on the sofa, arranged for He Mingsheng's sleeping problem, and went straight into the bedroom and closed the door without saying anything else.

He Mingsheng laughed a little when he heard the sound of the lock clicking.

In Xingheng's impression, the two of them haven't seen each other for four years, but only he knows that when Xingheng didn't move to the new campus, he used to hide in the dense leaves of banyan trees on the street of their school, far away. I've seen this man many times.

It's just... It's just that He Guoping found out about it later, and he never went there again.