After wearing a paranoid bamboo horse of abusive male protagonists

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If your brother wasn't gay, he might never have liked you...

Before Song Qingshi had time to say anything, he heard an earth-shattering sound from Lu Yanchen's side, first there was a dull crash, then the sound of tables and chairs being pulled vigorously, and then the exclamation of the surrounding students: "Lu Yanchen, What are you doing?"

He suddenly turned his head to look, and saw Lu Yanchen grabbing the collar of Zhou Xinyu who was still hooked up with him just now, clenched his fists and punched him in the face.

His face was no longer peaceful as usual, but full of hostility, frighteningly cold.Song Qingshi had only seen this hostility on his face once before, and that was when he was bullied by Xiaopang and others in the second grade of elementary school.

However, his hostility at that time was still restrained, unlike this time, when he let it out without any cover, it shocked the surrounding students.

Lu Yanchen grabbed Zhou Xinyu's collar, and the two got very close. He gritted his teeth and whispered in his ear: "You dare to provoke my brother."

The moment he heard Zhou Xinyu say he liked Song Qingshi, his mind went blank, without thinking, his body spontaneously rushed forward to try to shut him up.

In fact, he is not jealous, he is not the kind of person who gets angry just because someone says "I like you brother", if a girl in front of him says "I like you brother", he will probably only treat She smiled and said in a joking tone: "Do you need me to convey it to you, or do you confess to him yourself?"

He is not homophobic because the Zhou Xinyu in front of him may be gay, he does not hate gays, he has read the original work, and knows that Song Qingshi will become gay sooner or later, but he doesn't think there is anything wrong with it, after all Sexuality is free.

But the problem is that sexual freedom is freedom, but in the current society it is still just a slogan on the lips.

In fact, how many people can really treat the homosexual group equally, most of them still look at them with strange, disgusting, discriminatory, and heterogeneous eyes.

What's more, the timeline he traveled through was much earlier than the timeline at the beginning of the novel. The atmosphere at this time was far less open than a few years later, and the city they were in was also a relatively remote third-tier small city, which was far from normal. When facing up to this group.

If Song Qingshi bears the label of being gay at this time, how people around him will think of him, it is not difficult to imagine, there will be a lot of gossip and gossip towards him, and the classmates who were able to get along normally will look at him strangely overnight , will point at him behind his back, make up his faults, spread his rumors, even Liu Mei, who had finally managed to ease the relationship with him, will deteriorate with him again, and maybe even drive him out .

He was only 14 years old in the Song and Qing Dynasties. Can he bear all this at the age of 14? Can his slender shoulders bear all the criticism and malice?

Although he may encounter these things sooner or later, Lu Yanchen does not hope it is now, at least until his wings are full enough and his heart is strong enough, so that when he encounters the torrent of reality, he will not be crushed .

That's why when he heard Zhou Xinyu say that, his reaction was so great.

Zhou Xinyu was knocked to the ground by him, his face was already swollen, and he tasted a faint fishy smell in his mouth, so he couldn't help wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.

Damn, Lu Yanchen beat him really hard.

He raised his eyes to look at him, and laughed twice, with some provocation in his eyes.

Lu Yanchen looked at him blankly, but he was reflecting on himself in his heart, wondering if he was a little too impulsive, but he didn't say anything.

But he didn't want to apologize, and when he was feeling embarrassed, the sleeves behind him were suddenly pulled down lightly. Lu Yanchen turned his head and saw Song Qingshi standing behind him, looking at him with some concern.

Obviously the person who was beaten was Zhou Xinyu, but he gave him the slightest bit of sympathy, and he only had Lu Yanchen in his eyes.

It must have been something Zhou Xinyu said or did that made Chenchen treat him like this. Otherwise, according to Chenchen's character, he wouldn't hit someone for no reason.

Lu Yanchen looked at him, feeling more guilty in his heart. He obviously didn't want him to get involved in these things, but it seemed that he was the one who made things big now.

Sure enough, their movement disturbed the head teacher. Seeing the two top students in their class fighting, he had a headache and shouted loudly: "Lu Yanchen, Zhou Xinyu, come out!"

Just when Song Qingshi wanted to go out with them, the class teacher said, "Song Qingshi, you stay in the classroom, the next class is about to start."

Although Song Qingshi was somewhat reluctant, he could only stop. Lu Yanchen looked at him reassuringly, opened his mouth, and mouthed: "I'm fine." Then he and Zhou Xinyu went out with the head teacher.

Song Qingshi could only stand where he was, watching him leave helplessly.

In the office, Zhou Lei was sitting at the desk, looking at the two classmates standing straight in front of her like a mallet with some headaches.

She looked at Lu Yanchen, then at Zhou Xinyu, obviously these two children are usually quite sensible, and they seem to have a good relationship, why did they fight?

She bent her fingers, tapped on the table, and said in a deep voice, "Tell me, why are you two fighting?"

Lu Yanchen lowered his eyebrows and lowered his eyes, with a good attitude of admitting his mistakes: "Mr. Zhou, it was my fault. I shouldn't hit my classmates."

Zhou Lei had a headache and said: "Then tell me why you beat him?"

As soon as this question was asked, Lu Yanchen avoided talking about it, and only said: "It's my fault, and I am willing to accept the punishment."

Zhou Lei took a deep breath, knocked on the table, and turned to Zhou Xinyu: "Zhou Xinyu, tell me what happened to you two."

Zhou Xinyu smiled and said, "It's nothing, it's just a joke with Lu Yanchen, maybe it's too much."

Zhou Lei asked: "What kind of joke did you make to make him beat you?"

Hearing this, Lu Yanchen stared at him deeply, as if he could silence him if he dared to say a single word.

Zhou Xinyu looked at him, and suddenly hooked the corners of his lips.

Lu Yanchen's heart tightened.

But unexpectedly, Zhou Xinyu shrugged his shoulders, and said casually: "Lu Yanchen is probably homophobic. I said I like him, and he got angry."

"Huh?" What kind of joke is this, Zhou Lei stared at him with wide eyes, "You, you are the same, the same..." Gay?

Zhou Xinyu put on his usual casual smile again: "Hey, don't talk nonsense, I'm not, I'm just joking."

Zhou Lei didn't understand: "Can this kind of joke be played casually? No wonder he hit you."

Zhou Xinyu admitted his mistake with a smile: "I was wrong."

Lu Yanchen looked at him with a complicated expression, wondering what kind of medicine he sold in the gourd, why he suddenly said that before, and why he helped him now?

Zhou Lei criticized the two of them a few words, and seeing that they had a good attitude of admitting their mistakes, she let them go: "This time, you are the first offender, so I won't hold you accountable. If you do it again next time, let your parents take you back."

The two nodded in agreement.

"Okay, you can go back."

The two were about to turn around and leave.

"Wait..." Zhou Lei turned her eyes around them, thinking that the relationship between the two of them would definitely not be the same as before, so she considered whether to change seats for them, so she said, "Do you want to change seats? "

Unexpectedly, Zhou Xinyu put his arm on Lu Yanchen's shoulder without fear of death, and said, "No need, we have a good relationship."

Lu Yanchen frowned and threw his arm away.

Zhou Lei: "..."

...

Because of Lu Yanchen's fight these two days, Song Qingshi didn't bother to ask Ye Xiaonan what the note meant to him last time.

Although Lu Yanchen was not punished, and Zhou Xinyu didn't seem to mind that he hit him, but something felt wrong.

Afterwards, he asked Lu Yanchen why he wanted to fight, and Lu Yanchen said vaguely: "He was kidding me, and I was out of breath for a while, so I hit him."

Song Qingshi asked again: "What joke did he play on you?"

It must be a serious joke to make Chenchen beat him up just by making a joke.

But every time this question was asked, Lu Yanchen would talk about him from left to right, and said: "It's over, it's not a big deal..."

He repeatedly promised that he would never fight again, so Song Qingshi had no choice but to let it go, lowered his eyes, took out Ye Xiaonan's piece of paper from the desk, and asked him: "You gave me this last time?" What means?"

Ye Xiaonan is somewhat similar to him, with a fair and handsome appearance, an introverted and shy personality, and a pair of round eyes. Although he has good grades, he doesn't have a strong sense of presence in the class.

Seeing him questioning, Ye Xiaonan raised his head from the thick pile of books, he looked around, his face was a little flustered, as if he was afraid that someone would overhear them talking, seeing that no one was paying attention to them, he Only then did he look up at him, and whispered: "It's not convenient to talk here, can we find a quiet place to chat after the next class."

Song Qingshi looked at his somewhat transparent eyes under the glasses, and nodded.

So at the break of the next class, Lu Yanchen, who was waiting for Song Qingshi to come to ask questions, failed to wait for him, but watched helplessly as he went out with his deskmate Ye Xiaonan.

Lu Yanchen: "..."

Is this going to the toilet? Lu Yanchen comforted himself.

In the small woods of the school, Song Qingshi and Ye Xiaonan stood against the tree, staring at the creek passing through the school in front of them, because neither of them had familiar personalities, so neither of them spoke for a while.

After a while, it was Song Qingshi who took the initiative and said, "How do you know that I like... like Chenchen?"

Now that he has seen through, he doesn't intend to hide it.

Ye Xiaonan pushed up his glasses, smiled shyly, and said, "You can see this kind of thing at a glance. The way you look at your brother is different from how you look at other people."

Song Qingshi paused, and then said in surprise: "Is it so obvious, you can see it at a glance?" He didn't really want others to know about it, although he didn't know why, but subconsciously felt that it was not good .

"Ah, ah..." Ye Xiaonan shook his hand, and said apologetically, "No, it's not that obvious, most people don't think so, it's just me..."

He glanced at him and said slightly: "I'm also gay, so I can tell."

"Gay"

"Ah, it means gay."

"Gay?"

14-year-old Song Qingshi encountered this word for the first time. The knowledge of ordinary people comes from teachers and textbooks, or from people around him, or from TV... But because Song Qingshi doesn’t like to socialize with people, he has only Lu Yanchen by his side all year round. He and Lu Yanchen doesn't usually watch TV very much, and the source of the latter two items is basically broken. Currently, the books he reads don't contain knowledge about homosexuality, and Lu Yanchen usually doesn't talk to him about it, so his knowledge in this area is basically zero.

Although he realized that he liked Shang Chenchen a while ago, he felt that he might be a little different from others.

But he didn't think about homosexuality. It wasn't until Ye Xiaonan told him this time that he realized that he was not the only one who fell in love with boys in this world, but such a group existed.

Ye Xiaonan slowly explained to him: "Homosexuals are people who only like the same sex. People like us only like boys, not girls..."

"Really, I've never liked anyone else, I only liked Chen Chen, so I'm not sure if I'm gay." Song Qingshi let out a sigh of relief and said softly.

"It shouldn't be wrong, my sixth sense is quite accurate." Ye Xiaonan looked at him through his glasses.

"Really, but why did you tell me this, it should have nothing to do with you."

Ye Xiaonan smiled softly, and said: "I just want to chat with you, because the homosexual group is still quite small, so when I meet someone of the same kind, I can't help but want to chat with you."

"Is that so..."

"Ah."

Song Qingshi glanced at him again and couldn't help being curious: "How did you find out that you are gay?"

Ye Xiaonan's face turned red instantly, he lowered his head and stammered, "I just found out that I'm only interested in boys..."

"Oh, so you have a boy you like?"

The blush on Ye Xiaonan's face deepened even more. Although he was extremely shy, he still admitted: "Well, there is one, you may not know it well, it's not from our class."

"That's it..." As long as it's not Lu Yanchen, it's easy to say anything.

The two chatted one after another, Ye Xiaonan said: "Does your brother know that you like him?"

Song Qingshi shook his head slowly. Although Lu Yanchen said that he liked him, he also knew that the liking he said was different from the liking he had for him.

"Then you have worked hard, if your brother is different from you..."

"Ok?"

Seeing that he didn't understand what he meant, Ye Xiaonan explained: "If your brother is different from you, if he is not gay, you may have to work harder because..."

He spoke slowly, so he could hear clearly: "Sexual orientation is hard to change. If your brother is not gay but heterosexual, then he might..." Seeing Song Qingshi's expression at the moment, Ye Xiaonan's words behind him I can't say it.

But even if he didn't say it, Song Qingshi knew what he meant. If Chenchen was different from him, if he was heterosexual, then he might never like him.

The author says:

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