Fenghua Zhengmao

In the early morning, Fenglei finally returned home, the door opened from the outside, what greeted him was not Linhua's waiting figure, but the darkness of the room.

Fenglei put down his things, the unpopular environment made him a little flustered, he looked around, and suddenly rushed to Linhua's room with big strides, the door was ajar, but there was no light inside.

Fenglei was suddenly frightened, and he didn't even have the strength to push the door open. After standing there for a while, he slowly raised his hand, holding the cold doorknob, and opened it inch by inch.

empty, dark...

Letting go of the handle, the door moved away little by little along the opening track, and a little bit of moonlight projected in, until he could see everything inside, the cold bed, the empty table, and the empty cabinet. Only then did she dare to confirm that Lin Hua left, away from his side, without saying goodbye.

Sitting on the chair in front of the table, the door closed again little by little due to inertia, until only a gleam of light came in, and Feng Lei was hidden in the darkness, looking at the light.

At this moment, it was as if lives overlapped. Two people, on the same chair, had different movements, but they were equally icy. Fate is always like this, tormenting people, but they can’t bear to let this run-in end as soon as possible. How does it know? This kind of torture, using the emotions in the soul as a bet, is cruel after all.

Feng Lei touched the table in front of him, and suddenly felt that the day was very long.

Great start, crazy process, poor end.

Ah!

I couldn't help but sneer, this is life!But what if you know?He had no choice, and he couldn't escape.

Two days later, Fenglei blocked Linhua who was about to enter the school at the gate of Linhua School.

"Why did you leave?" Feng Lei was extremely exhausted looking for him, and seeing his indifferent expression when he saw him, the uneasiness in the past few days became more and more obvious.

"I still have things to do, you get out of the way first." Linhua's tone was alienated and indifferent, and only in this way can he cover up the pain of rolling when he saw the wind and thunder.

After Fenglei heard this, he walked towards Linhua from the side of the car, and after seeing his obviously restless face, he frowned deeply, "Since I want to leave and I got my wish, why is my complexion still so bad?"

Lin Hua suddenly looked at him, in addition to being surprised, there was more disbelief in his eyes, but when he thought about his previous performance, he suddenly understood the real meaning behind this sentence, the original indifference shell was also because of this subtlety. A crack appeared in the familiar concern.

"I just want to talk to you." Feng Lei finally sighed helplessly seeing his appearance.

After hearing this, Lin Hua raised her hand to check the time, said "I have something to do now," and walked around him to the school.

Fenglei understood that this was not an excuse, and quickly shouted at his back: "I'll wait for you." After hearing this, Lin Hua just paused, and then strode away.

Feng Lei walked back to the car, didn't go in, just leaned there, looking sideways at the place where Lin Hua left.

Two hours later, Lin Hua walked out.

"Where?"

Feng Lei looked at the time, "Let's go eat."

Lin Hua stood three steps away and looked at him, the headmaster's signature had just been written on the recently approved study abroad document in his hand.

"I have other things, just talk in the car."

Fenglei paused when he opened the door, turned his back to Linhua and smiled helplessly, "Can't you even have a meal?"

Lin Hua looked at him, but her back, which was still straight and straight, seemed to be bent as if it was overwhelmed.

Walk over and get in the car before him, "Let's go."

Fenglei's fingertips trembled slightly, he got into the car with his head down, turned around and left.

The car stopped at Fenghua gate.

Lin Hua looked out the window for a while at those two words, then opened the car door, got out of the car and followed Feng Lei in front of her.

The gloomy weather for two days became even darker, the wind began to blow, and the branches on the road began to sway messily. In a stable environment, Lin Hua looked at the figures of pedestrians hurrying outside, and felt that the present time was a stealth. Come on, this is not home, there will always be times when he has to go out and face weather that may be worse than it is now.

"The food will be here in a while, you have something to drink first." Feng Lei came in from outside the private room, holding the chicken soup that had been simmering in the kitchen, Lin Hua walked over from the window, pulled out a chair and sat down.

The delicious aroma of chicken soup can't stimulate the appetite of the two of them at this time. In the weather of August, Linhua is holding the bowl of hot chicken soup tightly, her fingers are red hot, and she doesn't move. The movement is more like the cold winter. The season absorbs even a trace of warmth.

"Just say what you want." Lin Hua gripped the porcelain bowl tightly, her voice was completely opposite to the temperature of the chicken soup.

Feng Lei leaned on the sofa beside him with his eyes closed, his eyelids twitched when he heard what he said, "Let's talk after dinner."

The quietness of the private room made the wind outside a bit frightening. Outside the window on the sixth floor, occasionally a few broken leaves flew by, and the sky in the distance had already begun to darken, weighing on people's hearts, making it hard to breathe.

"Feng Lei, you know in your heart that neither you nor I will take a bite of this meal."

"So?" Feng Lei opened his eyes.

Lin Hua let go of the porcelain bowl, "So, if you want to say something, just say it."

After finishing speaking, Lin Hua's heart suddenly rose. Thinking of what he was going to ask and what she was going to say next, Lin Hua suddenly felt that explaining is also a very painful thing. The man who wants to love but can't love again hurts deeper.

"Why didn't you say goodbye." Slow, stated, without emotion.

Lin Hua's heart was inexplicably stymied, he lowered his eyes, and said in a gentle and long voice, "Because I saw your father the day I left your company."

"Boom!"

Thunder!

Fenglei sits opposite Linhua from the sofa, and the two can see each other clearly, but the distance is beyond reach.

Feng Lei really wanted to ask him, so what if he saw it, it was just my father, but he also knew how ridiculous it was for him to think like this, just because it was his father, that's why Lin Hua left, and now this attitude towards him.

"Linhua..."

"Listen to my explanation," Lin Hua interrupted him and continued, "Do you mean to say this?"

Feng Lei choked there, full of Lin Hua's indifferent and mocking eyes.

Yes, he wanted to say that, but he wasn't making excuses, he wasn't trying to excuse himself, he just wanted to make things clear, at least let him know that the two of them were not enemies, and his desire to be with him was true!

But now, nothing can be said.

"Lin Hua..." Feng Lei frowned and rubbed his forehead and sighed, "We can't talk about anything like this."

Lin Hua also knew it, but as long as she thought that Feng Lei's father was the owner of the car that killed her father, her grievances and sarcasms would not stop coming.

"What are you talking about? What do you want to talk to me about? Did your dad's car kill my dad, or did you come to me knowing the truth?!"

"I do not have……"

"You didn't? Ha!" Lin Hua couldn't help but sneered, staring at Feng Lei with a cold light in his eyes, "Are you trying to say that you came to me without knowing the truth, or that you don't have such a father?!"

Feng Lei has never seen Lin Hua like this before. He is as sharp as a poisoned sword. He has thought that this matter will be difficult for him to accept, but it is not like this, even if he does not face it with him. Get over it, and don't be in this state now.

"Lin Hua, that's my father." Feng Lei suddenly felt very tired, confirming the restlessness of the past few days, and his heart lost the power to beat.

Lin Hua looked sideways at the distant sky, groggy and dark.

He said empty-handedly: "I know it's your father, as a junior, I should respect it, but," Lin Hua's throat suddenly trembled after the words, "My father, where is it?"

The rain still started, falling with a bang, blurring the world instantly, and the sound came in through the glass and walls, except for the dense sound of raindrops hitting the eardrum, there was also a dripping feeling of being washed.

"Fenglei, do you know? Before I saw his face, I couldn't remember anything about the police station. But when I saw that side face across the street, everything became clear in an instant. , with a tired and impatient look on his face, and a perfunctory and eager to get rid of it when he spoke.

"But that's it, I still don't believe it, until here," Lin Hua pointed to his feet, "I saw the photo of the manager in Fenghua's lobby, and I had to believe it, but then, I didn't think of me Dad's death, but you betrayed me."

The temperature difference between indoor and outdoor gradually became prominent, because Linhua didn't like to blow on the air conditioner, and it was turned off when the wind and thunder came in. At this time, the temperature of the box was obviously higher, and the huge floor-to-ceiling windows gradually formed mist, giving a warm feeling.

"It's a betrayal," Lin Hua walked to the window and printed the handprint of his right hand on it. He looked at the water droplets flowing along the edge of the handprint, and everything he said was as cold as water droplets. Listen to me talking about my father calmly, now think about it, you were not laughing at that time."

The last bit of heat in his heart also dissipated. After Fenglei heard this sentence, he didn't even have the strength to explain, and he didn't want to move his whole body.

"Dong dong—Boss Feng, here comes the food."

Feng Lei didn't speak when he heard it, and Lin Hua stood there without moving. After a while, the waiter opened the door and came in, put the dishes on and left quietly.

"I'm leaving." Lin Hua turned around, picked up her things and was about to leave, but when she walked past Feng Lei, he grabbed her hand.

Lin Hua stopped obediently, and waited sideways for his next words.

"I did know it from the beginning, but I..."

"Boom-boom-boom-boom-"

The phone vibrated crazily, interrupting Fenglei's words and everything that had been going on.

"I'll answer the phone." The word "father" above made him pay attention.

Lin Hua looked at the flickering screen for a long time, and the corners of her lips curled up coldly.

At the moment when the wind and thunder picked up, Lin Hua raised her hand to shake off his hand, and left without looking back, disregarding the tight entanglement of her ten fingers, she also threw away the pain caused by the tearing and separation.

"Brother, come quickly, uncle suddenly fainted..."

Feng Lei didn't hear a word of the screaming on the other end of the phone, but he saw Lin Hua's smile before leaving very clearly. It was Lin Hua's usual smile when facing strangers. It was cold, alienated, and never let go. on heart.

Bean-sized raindrops hit her body, and her whole body was soaked in the blink of an eye. Lin Hua looked at the file bag in her hand, the kraft paper was not so waterproof.

Lin Hua gave a bleak smile, and walked step by step on the street where there were few pedestrians. The wind and rain accompanied by thunder came from time to time. It was difficult for him not to laugh at himself in this kind of weather.

Be honest.

Relatively cold.

The beginning and the end are all on such a rainy day, and the whole process took only two months.

Thinking of the days before, Lin Hua suddenly felt cold all over, thinking of the entanglement of those limbs, and recalling the appearance of his father in the morgue in the dream, the uncontrollable nausea in his stomach finally made him vomit, and the bitter stomach acid overflowed his tongue His mouth and mouth flowed away with the torrential rain, leaving him holding on to the corner of the wall, retching until his face turned pale and he couldn't breathe.

Cold, and returned to the feeling when my father left, fear, fear, and suffocating hesitation.

Lin Hua suddenly looked around at a loss, seeing the complete silence of no one made his flustered worse, the urge to scream began to be uncontrollable, his heart was trembling, he clearly felt his heart trembling, the tears were already gone It was flowing, mixed with the rain, and the cold liquid drowned him.

Finally he had no more strength, Lin Hua knelt down on the ground, the thin cloth clings to his body, outlining his thin and lonely figure, the gravel on the ground pierced his skin through the cloth, such a faint pain At this time, it was so unbearable.

If the pain is extreme, how can a person bear the pain again?

——The subconscious ignores the heavy ones, and makes oneself unable to bear them, and instead starts to care about the trivial things.

Now, Lin Hua has lost all those mixed feelings just now, only feels that the ground on which he is kneeling is so uncomfortable, it makes him even want to die.

Pain, panic, cold, unbearable.

It turned out that now, no matter what it is, it will make him feel this way, this feeling that after leaving Fenghua, he will never see Fenglei again.