absurd life

My heart really needs such a hard pain, maybe I was still avoiding it, but now when I see Wu Yao's injury and Li Man's distressed appearance, that injection is really He stabbed down fiercely, his feelings for Ouyang Ze are really like that smashed red wine bottle, even though there are fragments of feelings, they cannot be collaged completely...

"Ouyang Ze, I want to have a good talk with you."

When I went back to the ward, I found that Ouyang Ze was still waiting for me at the door. When he saw me, a gratified smile appeared on his face.

But now it seems to me that his expression is no longer important, and any expression can no longer arouse my love for him. This time I have to deal with this matter rationally, and deal with our relationship that is already facing collapse. borderline relationship.

It was dusk, and the red sky outside the window was like a painting by Monet, and the flying birds were given life by Monet's pen.

Such a pleasant scenery must be a suitable place for a young couple to talk sweetly by the sea, or for an elderly couple to relax in a rocking chair, but it would be a kind of situation to cut off the former love in such a scenery. different feeling...

"Since you still loved Qing back then, why did you look for me again?"

For him, Qing is a pain in his heart. Except for the last Christmas when he confided his heart, he will avoid it every time Qing is mentioned, and this time is also an exception.

He still had the idea of ​​reconciliation, and thought that we could quarrel casually like before and this matter could be overturned, so that when he spoke, there were still lingering words of love and useless apologies.

"You know, I love you, and because I love you, I'm looking for you."

If these words were uttered from the mouths of ordinary young people, they would definitely deceive many ignorant girls, but how could I, who have already experienced so many things, believe his nonsense?Do you think he really loves me?

"Forget it, Ouyang Ze, you and I both know very well. You can tell me why you came to me at that time. It's really meaningless to lie like this. When I know the truth someday in the future, maybe I will be even more serious. Hate you."

I sat on the bed and slowly covered my lap with the quilt, waiting for Ouyang Ze's explanation.

He also seemed to be enlightened, he didn't look at me with that seductive girl's eyes, and he didn't say any more nasty love words, but closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"Do you really want to know? Even if the truth disgusts you so much, I... I am not what you once thought?"

His tone suddenly became formal, and the series of movements when he pulled up a chair and sat down seemed bohemian.

"Yes, I want to know, I want to know what you are hiding from me."

Hearing what I said, Ouyang Ze was still a little helpless.He said to me as he took off his dirty coat.

"Can we really not go back? Can we really not start over?"

Judging from his tone, this seems to be his last effort, the last time to ask me what I think, it seems that no matter what result I give him this time, he will gladly accept it.

"Ouyang Ze, you should understand that you did that to my father, you used such indecent means to me and Li Man, how do you want me to start over with you again? How can I love you again? ?”

Every sentence seemed to hurt his heart, so that his trembling lips didn't know what to say to keep me...

"Okay, then I'll tell you the truth..."