absurd life

My life may have started to deteriorate from that summer 2 years ago.

I knew I was gay since I was very young, and I liked boys. With my handsome appearance, I have been the target of many girls confessing to me since I was a child, but there are no boys...

When I grow up, I attract more people of the opposite sex. Basically, since college, I can receive several love letters every day.Girls see me as their type of handsome guy, so I'm not surprised that I'm popular.

I met my first boyfriend in high school. At that time, I was still young, and everything seemed very green.Holding hands, hugging, and even kissing all make me feel beautiful, maybe the innocence at that time is the most beautiful...

The reason why we broke up was because of the persecution of the school. I thought that my relationship with him was well hidden and would not be discovered by parents and teachers, but there are always those who like to report our relationship to the teacher. So under pressure from parents and teachers we broke up...

That is to say, since then, my parents have not cared much about me, because they feel that my sexual orientation has lost them, so they are very indifferent to me.

However, I did not give up on myself at that time, I still studied very hard, so I was admitted to a university, the tuition fees of the university were paid by myself, and my parents did not care about my studies, yes... who would care about a "monster"…

My second boyfriend: Wu Yao, who is nominally the last one so far. He met me when I was a freshman. He was also the one who brought me into the circle, and he was the one who "sold" me...

He belongs to the kind of boy who is particularly sunny and cheerful, and he is also the target of young girls who commit nympho.

At first I didn't think he would be gay, but later, I found out that he is so familiar in the circle, he can chat with everyone very high.

He also mentioned our relationship first, and I accepted it without thinking too much. He took me to try a lot of new things, including my first time...

I gave it to him the first time, and he seemed to be a "good guy in bed", which fully verified the fact that he must be a playboy.

That night seemed to be the beginning of my downfall...

Both Wu Yao and I drank a lot. After coming out of the bar, he took me to the hotel to open a room, but he didn't touch me. Instead, he went into the bathroom and made a phone call. Not long after, another man came, that man I've never seen one before, and it looks like 25, so it shouldn't be Wu Yao's friend.

He walked towards me with a sinister smile on his face, and I was so frightened that I sobered up.

"Yao? Who is he?" I asked Wu Yao by the arm.

With a look of disdain on his face, he pushed my hand away, "Oh, it's okay, Ruirui, just stay with him for one night."

"What do you mean? You asked me...to accompany him?" I was frightened by him and my whole body was cold, and I didn't know what expression to show on my face...

I thought that a person like me who doesn't love my grandma and uncle will meet a right person, a true love, and I thought my true love was Wu Yao, but his treatment of me made my heart completely dead …

"Why..." My tone was cold and I didn't touch him.

"Oh, everyone will be short of money sometimes, so...you understand, but it's okay, I will share with you~" Wu Yao smiled frivolously like that man.

"Did you love me?" I looked into his eyes, waiting for his answer.

"Of course, of course I love you." Wu Yao still smiled happily.

I didn't want to say anything more to Wu Yao, so I turned around and walked out of the bathroom.That man really didn't regard himself as an outsider, he was already lying naked on the bed covered with a quilt.

"How much is it once? Have you reached an agreement?" I looked at the man's ugly face with contempt.

"500"

"Give me the 500 directly, after all, I'm here. Him? Huh, if he takes the money, I'll leave." I sat on the edge of the bed and stroked the man's chest muscles. I didn't know where I got the courage at that time It is possible to do so.

"Whatever, anyway, you can give the money to any of you." The man had that disgusting smirk on his face again.

"Okay, you can go, I don't want to see you again in the future." I got up and pointed to the door for Wu Yao to signal him to leave. This time I still looked indifferent, because I didn't think he was worth what I could give him. any expression.

Wu Yao was surprised at first, but after a while, seeing my indifference, he didn't say anything more, just turned around, opened the door and left.

The alcohol has not passed, and I still feel dizzy. With the alcohol, I backed up dizzily, and then fell on the bed. It didn’t take long before I felt that the clothes on my body were being taken off one by one, and I also felt There is a burning pain in the back, this is the first man I allowed to enter my body except Wu Yao, and also the first "customer" I started to fall...

Since then, although Wu Yao still came to me every day to beg for my forgiveness, but I have completely given up on this man, so every time I show him face.It was he who pushed me into this abyss!So, I will never forgive him!no way!