Xiu Erdai's daily essays

1700_What exactly is hope

Eldest brother: "Not necessarily. If you come out, you can go around and get in touch with many people. From them, you may be able to learn information that Yunxiazong does not provide you. Strangers will not consider your cultivation. As long as your conversation skills are good or you have an opportunity, you may know the information of the Jindan stage, Nascent Soul stage, or even higher levels."

Me: "Can you believe the information from uncertain sources? Maybe those people are telling me to lie to me?"

Big brother: "You need to distinguish it yourself. Just like the information that the mission department gives you in batches is not all true, you also need to distinguish and filter."

Me: "Although the information given by the mission office is very messy and contains both true and false information, it is very comprehensive, and the information can be verified with each other, so it is easy to distinguish the true from the false."

Eldest brother: "Here, Xiao Liner, you have two choices now: to wait for the comprehensive information from the mission office, you have to enter the golden core stage; to know the information higher than your cultivation level in advance, you have to endure incomplete, Information of questionable authenticity. Pick one."

Me: "But there must be some information that I can know with my current cultivation, but because it's me, I keep it from me."

The elder brother smiled and said, "Yes, and there are a lot of them. Do you want to protest? You have to go back to Yunxia Sect to protest. Long-distance complaints are not accepted for this matter."

Me: "...Why can't I tell whether you want me to stay in the Gu pool, or you want me to leave?"

Eldest brother: "Guess."

I hung up the communication: I don't want to guess your nine turns and eighteen turns, and maybe you have added a deceptive mind-because as long as you don't want me to guess, I will definitely miss it.

Not being chased so tightly, that is to say, there is room for buffering. I went back and retraced all the places I had to miss because of fleeing, and then continued to follow the spiral map.

I feel that my obsessive-compulsive disorder has reached a new level...

With the fake shell of the fruit core, although other creatures will not target me in particular, they will not hesitate to do something to me when they meet me, just like they will do it to any other creature.Fighting, fighting to the death, this is the normal state in the Gu pool.

However, as long as there are no large-scale gang fights, I can try to practice swords.Find the opponent's weak point, dodge, attack, attack while dodging, repeat constantly.

1701_How to define the same kind

Since most of the creatures here are higher than me in cultivation, and in order to avoid being surrounded and ensure that they can withdraw from the combat state at any time, the duration of a single battle will not be too long, so even if I go to the opponent's Attacking at the vital point, I can't cause fatal damage to them.

I can't say how I feel about it.On the one hand, I was mentally preparing to kill someone, but at the same time, I felt a little relieved that I couldn't kill someone.And after playing with the same crazy people and non-people for a long time, I have a feeling that there is no difference between people and non-humans.If I mind killing people, I should also mind killing other creatures; conversely, if I don't feel guilty about killing other creatures, then I don't need to make killing too much a hurdle.

Even if people are my kind.

But how to define the same kind?Is it only classified biologically?But this classification is made by human beings. What is the difference between demon cultivators, spirit beasts, spirit plants and other creatures with intelligence that are also different from humans?And can the whole group of human beings really be regarded as the same kind?Do demons count?

Compared with the classification in the biological sense, I still prefer pettyness, from the perspective of closeness: family, friends, strangers who are pleasing to the eye, strangers who are indifferent, strangers who are not pleasing to the eye, and those who have substantial contradictions The enemy, the enemy with irreconcilable contradictions, the endless enemy--so far, I have not encountered the latter two, and I do not want to encounter them in the future.

Considering that indifferent strangers may become friends because of some things in the future, strangers who dislike may become strangers who are pleasing to the eye in the future, and enemies with substantial conflicts may also solve the conflicting factors in the future, Then you can live in harmony... In short, killing intelligent creatures is still bad, right?

Considering that everything in the realm of comprehension can become a spirit or a demon, from non-intelligent creatures or even non-living creatures to intelligent creatures...

"Even breathing is wrong." Pei Bing complained, "Every time you breathe, you will kill many microorganisms."

I don't breathe them and don't live long.

Alas, it's too troublesome. Let's wait until we encounter a situation where we must personally interfere with life and death. Anyway, it has not yet reached the necessary level.

Yes, although I now fight against a large number of creatures intermittently, but because I have planned the retreat in advance, as long as the consumption of spiritual power exceeds the expected speed, I will retreat immediately, so it is still far away from the matter of life and death.As for the situation where some guy's battle rhythm is out of order due to my interference, as soon as I retreat, a new opponent fills in and kills that guy...

1702_ no big deal

I carefully evaluated the feeling in my heart and thought that I was not guilty, because in every fight here, I was not the one who attacked first.They beat me to death, I managed to dodge and counter briefly, then I ran away, and after that, I wasn't responsible for what happened.

But after returning to Yunxiazong, I'd better find someone to help me with psychological counseling, just in case, although there is no professional psychiatrist in the cultivation world.Because the monks believe that psychological problems are what the monks need to overcome, and it is a part of strengthening their own Tao. If there is something that they can’t figure out, they can ask their master, and the master will guide the disciples to look at what they encounter from the perspective of their own Tao. problem until it is figured out.

...Ah, I still can't figure out what to do?Continue to think about it. Regular psychologists have not said that they will definitely solve the patient's psychological problems.

And I want to ask my teacher about my psychological problems... of course I will ask my father.Thinking about my father, I feel even less burdened, because all the time after I told my father about my entanglements, the feedback I got was similar: all the problems were not problems to him.

His old man often said:

"It's normal."

"You'll know if you keep doing it."

"It wasn't a big deal."

"If you have free time, go practice sword again."

……

So, it's no big deal, just walk in a way that makes me feel comfortable, and my feelings will naturally guide me to follow my own path.

On the way, I saw Aonuo who had been rescued. The boy was crying miserably in the arms of the Nascent Soul monk who should be his master.I also saw the two monks who went to Shuixi City together with Senior Xin Chuanlan, one was eaten to the point where only his head was left, and the other was still alive, but he had been killed to the point of madness, and he had probably completely forgotten that he was here. It was here to bring back his friend's body.

I also met senior Zhuhong whose whole body was severely corroded by abnormal aura. His degree of erosion seemed to be more serious than that of senior Wen Chengconi who attacked towards the detection trap circle, but senior Zhuhong didn't show any intention of attacking.He maintained a weird calmness, tried to avoid places with people when he acted, and went towards the center of the Gu pool, which is the core of the spiritual vein.When he saw me, he could even nod to me. Although his expression was indifferent, not as calm and gentle as in Shuixi City, he seemed to really recognize me.

1703_ Abnormal Spirit Vein

Finally, I arrived at the core of the spirit vein, that is, here, I saw senior Xin Chuanlan.He was covered in wounds, and his sanity was running low, but occasionally he would wake up again. When he was awake, he saw me and was stunned.

Me: "Senior Xin."

"You..." Senior Xin just said a word, his eyes became cloudy again, and his uncontrollable desire to attack made him attack me.I dodged easily with my preparations, but there are many creatures gathered here, each of them is attacking other creatures, and each of them is also being attacked by other creatures. In order to maintain my spiritual power, I have stopped attacking and recovered. In order to dodge, while looking at the abnormal spiritual vein.

The environment in the Gu pool is generally very bad, with a lot of destruction, a large number of creatures that mutate in a bad direction, and the isolation of external light caused by the combination of the detection trap lock circle makes the inside of the Gu pool dark and depressing, but the abnormal spirit vein is an exception .

This is the fundamental factor that caused the current environment of the Gu pool, but it itself is bright, clean, tidy, and quiet.

This spiritual vein tends to be in a liquid state, and it contains luminous substances, like a small night lamp, emitting a soft light all the time.Flesh, dust, and even complete corpses and living things splashed in the spiritual veins will be swallowed by the spiritual veins. There is no unified statement about where they are swallowed in the information I have seen—it may be teleportation, or it may be decomposition. , more people think it is the latter - but after a moment of pollution, the exposed part of the spirit vein will be clean again.

Unlike the chaos and disorder caused by the continuous destruction of other places in the Gu Yang pool, the Lingmai here is very regular, and a clear boundary line can be seen.Outside the boundary, there is chaos; within the boundary, there is cleanliness.Outside the boundary line, dense creatures are fighting. When they are about to cross the boundary line, they should be irrational, but they will shift direction and stay away from the boundary line, but when they are too far away from the boundary line, they will move closer again. It seems that there is both terrifying and deep-seated attraction.

There should be sound-absorbing substances in the spiritual veins. I threw a sound collector into it. Before it was destroyed, through it, I heard a weakened version of the surrounding fighting sounds.

It may be because of my behavior of throwing things into the spiritual vein, or because I was standing too close to the boundary of the spiritual vein, I was attacked by the group again.At this time, my spiritual power reserve is [-]%, so I need to be very cautious, otherwise I won't be able to observe this abnormal spiritual vein for a long time, and I will have to leave.