Xiu Erdai's daily essays

08372 - love or die

Mori Shenren: "At that time, please run away, fight me, defeat me, and don't let me hurt you. I often think, if my mother could have realized my father's mental problems back then Divorce him firmly and move away from my dad, maybe my dad can restrain himself from bothering her."

Mori Shinba smiled bitterly: "However, the opposite may also be possible. When people who were originally defined by the law as their own family suddenly have nothing to do with him legally, maybe my father will go crazy immediately and die with my mother sooner. .”

Sen Shenren looked at Yao Guangzui with gentle eyes, but what he said was more like a threat: "Don't give me a chance to own you. Try not to let me put more possessives in front of your name. You are now My junior, my assistant, the person I like, don't add it as my boyfriend, my partner, or the person I killed with my own hands in the future."

Mori Shenren: "Yao Guangzui, this is not a joke, it's not a refusal, it's not a fun, it's not a symbolic twists and turns before a bright future, this is your only chance to get out. After talking about it today, if you If you continue to express your liking to me, I may assume by default that you are willing to accompany me to the end."

Sen Shenren: "I can accept killing you after owning you for a few years and then committing suicide. Are you willing to set a countdown to your life now? From my mother pursuing my father to the death of the two of them, a total of 12 years, they The pure love time is only about two years, and the rest is more and more rare love and more and more bone-deep torture."

Mori Shinken: "I... in the situation where I already regard the ending of my parents as the ending of me and my partner, when my lover's love for me fades and resists my control, I probably won't If I try to correct and recover like my dad, I might just give up and die quickly."

Mori Shinken: "If you decide to be with me, there may be at most one year's buffer between your resistance to me and your death."

Yao Guangzui: "Is it sure to die after the love fades? Can this disease be cured?"

Mori Shinken: "I asked many doctors, including those who treated my parents, and they told me that it can be relieved, but it cannot be cured. Try not to touch the source of stimulation, and it is not recommended to fall in love. There is also a privately more Tell me bluntly, if I have to fall in love, I must use my kidneys and not my heart. Can you accept a love that is purely based on your kidneys?"

Yao Guangzui: "No, I have a cleanliness in this regard, and I can't accept sex without love. How is that different from animals? I didn't mean to say that animals are bad, but as the top of the food chain, people should be a little less animal emotion?"

Mori Shinken: "I agree with you."

08373-hail

The two looked at each other, smiled, and fell silent together.After a while, Yao Guangzui spoke first: "This matter is too important. It is more important than choosing a major or finding a job. There is no way out. I need to think about it for a while."

Sen Shenren: "Okay. Don't worry, I think I can wait for a long time. After seeing the tragedy of my parents, I thought that I would not fall in love with anyone by suicide, but I am tempted by you. As long as you fall in If it is in my heart, it will be difficult to weaken or transfer this feeling, otherwise my father would not have dragged my mother to death."

Yao Guangzui: "You and your father are two people. Even if you have the same disease, you are still two people. Different people have different ways of dealing with the same problem. Maybe only a small change is needed. Tragic It can be a comedy."

Mori Shinken: "I hope so."

Yao Guangzui got up and was about to leave. Sen Shenren escorted him to the door and opened the door for him. The eyes of the two intertwined, as if they were parting from each other. Unexpectedly, the sky suddenly became dark, followed by pouring hail, and there were countless screams and screams from outside— ——At this time, walking on the street is undoubtedly courting death.

Yao Guangzui: "..."

Sen Shenren: "..."

The astonishment in my heart was no less than that of the two of them, because although I had predicted from the air half an hour ago that there would be a sudden weather change at this time, the rain should be heavy in my prediction.What surprised me even more was that with this unexpected hailstorm, the concentration of that energy in the air suddenly increased by an order of magnitude.

Let's call this energy high-active energy. Now Yaoli can clearly perceive the accumulation of high-active energy, but it doesn't seem to be increased by absorption. Instead, Yaoli seems to be the concentration of high-active energy in this world. projection.The higher the concentration of high active energy in this world, the higher the high active energy in Yaoli will increase proportionally; if the concentration of high active energy in the outside world does not increase, the value of high active energy in Yaoli will decrease no matter how long it stays in this world. will not rise.

If "Yao Li will be filled with high active energy and activate the transmission function" is regarded as inevitable, then how high is the concentration of high active energy that can fill Yao Li in Yao Guangzui's world?The concentration that makes me imperceptible can cause a sudden rainstorm, and the concentration that makes Yaoli have a clear response brings hail that makes my prediction wrong, so the concentration that allows Yaoli to start the transmission... still living things can survive the world?Will it be catastrophe-level turmoil?

08374-group

Yao Guangzui and Sen Shenren walked to the window and watched the miserable scene on the street.Many vehicles, stalls, street lamps, etc. were smashed, and many people crowded under the eaves on the side of the road to hide. Nearby shops and residents threw band-aids, iodine, alcohol, gauze, bandages and other therapeutic items to the wounded. , some frail or particularly unlucky ones were stunned by the hailstones in unsheltered places, and nearby people also held relatively strong umbrellas or other movable shelters to move them up the street as soon as possible.

Xiao Suizhong, Yao Guangzui gave me a mobile phone signal.

I didn't use Yao Guangzui's phone, but I used my own spiritual power method to create a group, and pulled Yao Guangzui and Sen Shenren into the group, and let their phones vibrate as a reminder.

The two were still staring at the chaos on the street. After feeling the vibration of the phone, Mori Shenren glanced at the phone first. After noticing Mori Shenren's movements, Yao Guangzui also took out his own phone, and then the two Everyone has seen this "highly active energy group".

I greeted them both in the group: "I am Pei Lin. Now I will introduce the situation to you. See the group name for the core issue. With the current level of energy activity, the official organization must have noticed and became vigilant, but in a short time I am pessimistic about whether they can come up with a solution. So you better prepare yourself. For example, store water, grain and quilts.”

Me: "I can send information to the outside world now. It is estimated that when the concentration of high active energy increases again next time, I should be able to move the things in my space out of the space. That is to say, you can use me as a warehouse. Now put a large amount of supplies into my space, and then I will return them to you when you need them."

Sen Shenren: "What if you withhold the supplies and don't return them?"

Me: "Student Mori Shinken, are you sure you want to question the first sentence of the first direct communication?"

Yao Guangzui: "I'll help Pei Lin. Answer: Pei Lin doesn't like materials from the mortal world. What he needs is spirit energy, or high activity energy... energy, so if one day he doesn't want to help us, at most It is to throw the things back to us, and play with them by ourselves, so as not to run away with the things. This little thing is not worthy of the name of a thief on his back."

Mori Shinken: "Will the environment continue to be bad? The climate will become more and more violent and erratic, seriously affecting life, production...life?"

Me: "Now it seems that the speed of deterioration may be much faster and more violent than I thought before. Or, give me all the things in your rented house first? You don't need to give me the money. Money, exchange it for supplies and give it to me as soon as possible.”

08375 - If seen as self

Yao Guangzui: "This seems to be to loot the property of the senior, so that the senior loses the material conditions to imprison me?"

Me: "This idea is also good. No matter how sick Mori Shenren is, as long as Yao Guangzui has the power to crush Mori Shenren—including force, financial resources, rights, social attention, etc.—then Mori Shenren is very It's hard to really hurt Yao Guangzui."

Mori Shinken: "Not necessarily. Celebrities' illegitimate meals can also hurt celebrities, but illegitimate meals are generally crushed by celebrities in all aspects."

Me: "I don't think you will degenerate to the point of being a bastard."

Sen Shenren: "But I don't have that confidence in myself. I don't think my rationality will always overwhelm my instinct. When I am controlled by instinct, I will not be surprised by any beastly things."

Yao Guangzui: "Senior feels that if your mother has always loved your father as much as she did when she was in love, and readily accepts all his constraints on her, not only will she not make any resistance, but she will encourage your father to do it more thoroughly. Is the chance happy? Or, even if your mother accepts it, your father will still make more and more excessive demands as if he can't be satisfied?"

Mori Shenren: "It's even more excessive... For example, it's not enough to tie my mother to him all the time, so why not just kill my mother and eat her body? Maybe it will. People's desires are always satisfied after the first level And open a higher level, endless. But they have no chance to verify this conjecture, and you'd better not pay yourself for this curiosity."

Yao Guangzui: "It's not out of curiosity, I'm just thinking, if I'm confident enough in my relationship, is it possible for us to have a happy ending."

Mori Shinken: "It's not a matter of self-confidence. No relationship can burn vigorously for a lifetime. Even if it's for myself, I still have thoughts like 'I'm a waste' and 'I just don't want to live'. How can one person never get annoyed by another person when we are in love together? But my dad's seamless stare keeps my mother from breathing when she is annoyed, so a small annoyance can easily expand into an extreme Deep cracks, and then quickly spread to the point of being out of control."

Me: "If you regard the person staring at you as yourself, and regard the cracks that are easy to spread as the demons that you must solve, then even if such two people occasionally torture each other, they may not necessarily come to a dead end. The demons It can be overcome, as long as I don’t die, I can eventually become a more acceptable version of myself.”

Me: "There is a relationship in our cultivation world called a Taoist couple. It is the combination of two Taos into one, and it is also the merger of two lives from irrelevant to complete. There is no privacy between Taoist couples. Two people who become Taoist couples can see Zuo possesses another self, so naturally he cannot escape from himself, nor can he hide himself."