Xiu Erdai's daily essays

07292-mourning

If a world is suspected to be false from the outset, countless evidence of its falsehood can be found.One hundred pieces of true evidence cannot build a complete world, but one false piece of evidence can collapse a built world.It is always easier to destroy than to build.

If I insist on proving that the main world is false, I can also find many doubts: such as the regular destruction of catastrophes, when I first started to understand the main world more systematically, the level of technological development in the mortal world was exactly the same as before my death in the previous life, People in the main world cannot completely escape from this star. The language of the main world is similar to the world of my previous life. Some of the idioms that I also had in the world of my previous life were born in the main world, but they can be passed down for thousands of years and known to the whole world... …

I still can't even completely overthrow a hypothesis: the world in my life is a fantasy of my previous life before I died. In fact, I have been buried under the snow, my life is passing away, and I only have the strength to dream, so I made a long journey. The dream of being loved all the time.The so-called main world, cultivation world, and Yunxia sect are all the home courts I designed for myself in my dreams.

But I still have to say: even so, so what?

Even if all this is fake, even if the real me suddenly wakes up one day and can only face the death that cannot be struggled, I will be happy to have a good dream before I die.

False, true.If the world is regarded as idealistic, then I define the world as true, and it is true; if the world is regarded as materialistic, then when the world is objectively false, my small arms cannot twist my thighs and cannot change reality, so I let myself imagine If the world is true, it can provide a little more psychological comfort.

If I have neither the ability nor the corresponding courage to break the falsehood, why should I live soberly?

Pei Jianzhuo: "If you don't try, how do you know that you have no ability to break?"

Excuse for laziness?Compared to struggling in the cruelty of reality, I don't mind enjoying the beauty of falsehood, anyway...it will end.For better or worse, there is an end.

Pei Yue suddenly sighed.

Unfortunately, although my thoughts should only be passed on to my soul connectors, Pei Yue should also have sensed my mourning.Pei Yue is still in the treatment period, and she is particularly sensitive to mourning and easily affected.

Pei Yue sighed directly with his body, not just in his heart, so Bu Wuci heard Pei Yue's sigh and wondered: "Is there something wrong with what I said?" He was just explaining what his current technology can do. to things.

Pei Yue: "There is nothing wrong, but there is no doubt that we will have a very difficult year in the future."

Bu Wuci: "Of course starting a business is hard."

Ji Yun: "But generally it is not so difficult that we are enemies with the whole world. I have a feeling that we will sigh every day in the future."

07293 - 'I'

On the other hand, Pei Yue explained to us in the system group: "I don't mind feeling your depression, I think my ability to bear it is not bad. Maybe I can use my positive and optimistic attitude to save you."

Pei Kong: "Don't brag. Although Zero Zero Three's words are watery, it said that you once lost interest in life and were listless in doing everything. It is true. If you didn't lose your memory, you should still be like that now. You now Be positive because you're stupid."

Pei Yue: "Is amnesia the same as being stupid?"

Pei Kong: "Most of the so-called smartness of human beings refers to the reserve of old knowledge and the ability to learn new knowledge. After amnesia, even if your old knowledge reserve is not completely abolished, it will be severely damaged, and the learning of new knowledge usually has to be based on old knowledge. The basics—this foundation includes the knowledge points themselves, as well as the summary and optimization of the learning process—so once the foundation is abandoned, it will be difficult for you to learn new knowledge.”

Pei Yue: "Although I don't remember the process of learning old knowledge, I didn't forget the knowledge itself and the learning skills too much, so I was able to get started with Zeng Ren and Ji Yuan's skills quickly after reading the memories of Zeng Ren and Ji Yuan. In order to play them to the extent that those close to them cannot see the flaws."

Pei Yue: "In my two missions so far, no one I have come into contact with has ever said something like 'you have changed a lot' or 'it's not like you anymore'. I don't have a broken personality."

When it comes to character design, the puppet I use also has a character design, which can also be called 'identity position recognized by the world' or 'person with actual identity that can be found in human society'.

This identity positioning Pei Yue put forward an overview request when exchanging puppets, and then the exchange system was improved according to the specific conditions of the current world.

Now 'I' is the heir to a small restaurant.When I was very young, my mother disliked my father's poverty and bad temper, divorced and left the child.My father managed a small restaurant with great difficulty. He loved cooking, and his cooking skills were not bad, but he lacked management skills and had a really bad temper. Therefore, the small restaurant always seemed to be closed, and it was only supported by regular customers.

'I' was strictly required by my father to learn cooking since I was a child. Except for school time, I basically spent time in the kitchen.Under such high pressure, 'I' had no friends and hated cooking. Finally, on the day after the college entrance examination, when I filled out my application form, this disgust exploded.

My father asked 'I' to stay in the local area, go to school as before, and work in my own restaurant at the same time, and the major I study is either business-related or chef-related.

'I' agreed on the surface, but changed my choice behind the scenes, and chose a school far away from my hometown, a major that has nothing to do with chefs and restaurants.When the school started, he stole money from the family and reported it by himself. After the school started, he notified his father about it. After the notification, he changed his mobile phone number.

07294-As long as popularity

For the next four years, "I" studied hard and worked part-time for tuition and living expenses. When I was part-time, the biggest source of income was actually the cooking skills I had trained for a long time, and I received countless praises. 'I' gradually calmed down my resentment towards my father amidst the praise, and finally found out the old phone card in my junior year, dialed my father's phone number, and said: "Maybe I should find a way to talk to you instead of using such a radical way Run away. Even if I know you won't agree with me if I talk about it, I should talk about it first."

Father: "Stealing is illegal, and three thousand is enough to be punished. You should be glad that I am not strict enough, otherwise you will learn ass."

The conversation still broke up.

But since that day, 'my' old mobile phone number has been available 24 hours a day, and I will contact my father once or twice a week.Whether it is once or twice depends on whether it is a big fight or a small fight when you contact for the first time that week. If you have a big fight, you can only contact once, and if you have a small fight, you can contact again.Never contact three times, which is not conducive to the physical and mental health of both parties.

After more than a year, 'I' graduated and returned to my hometown. Looking at my father's lingering small restaurant, I decided to save it.

Father: "Based on your bird language major?"

'I' majored in a small language in college, and there were never any foreigners in my small restaurant—if it wasn't an old local resident, it was impossible to know that the dilapidated house was a restaurant.

'I': "With the face my mother inherited."

"My" face is definitely qualified to be in the entertainment industry, but I am too old to start now, and I don't really want to be a star, but just want to gather some popularity to support my restaurant.This is why 'I' is willing to cooperate with the notorious Ji Yuan.

I explained to Ji Yun and Bu Wuci: "I'm actually not interested in the entertainment industry, but even people like me who don't care about the entertainment industry have heard of the name of manager Ji Yuan. As a behind-the-scenes worker, his reputation surpasses that of many stars." , I think he is amazing and capable, and he will definitely help me realize my wish."

Ji Yun: "He is indeed very remarkable and capable, but have you heard of his recent fame?"

Me: "I don't want to spend too much time in the entertainment industry. My main job is a chef, and Ji Yuan said that he has a way to make me amass a lot of fame in a short period of time, and that's enough."

Ji Yun: "But that reputation might be bad."

Me: "As long as I don't break the law or violate my moral values, I don't care if my reputation is bad or not. I already have a bad reputation for stealing, being unfilial, and not being united with my classmates, and it's not bad. Add sensationalism and so on."

07295 - The anthropomorphization of the web

Me: "As for the chef in my restaurant, he was scolded every day, and was abandoned by his wife and son, and he didn't care about his reputation."

Ji Yun: "The chef of your restaurant...isn't that your father?"

Me: "I can't scream." From my heart and the setting of the puppet I use, I can't scream.The exchange system should have taken this into consideration before arranging such a father-son relationship for me.

Pei Yue said to this: "As an actor, you are really unprofessional. You can see that my name is Zeng's parents. It is easy to say. It is also acceptable to call Brother Zeng Ke when necessary."

I'm not here to be an actor.I suspect that if I hadn't used the puppet identity, the chef might not have a son to contact at all, and the family seemed to be living with only one person.Although the chef explained that he thought his son would not go back after leaving by going to college, but as long as there are still feelings left, how can he really erase all traces of life?

Ji Yun: "Between father and son... Since you are willing to go back to the small restaurant, and are willing to bet your reputation to make the small restaurant prosperous, then you should have no hard feelings towards your father, right?"

Me: "There is nothing wrong with it. Now I can talk to the chef calmly about the improvement of certain dishes, but I prefer to call him the chef."

Bu Wuci: "It's normal. I can't talk about enmity with my relatives, but we have almost cut off communication. Some people will have problems with their aura."

Ji Yun: "It's not just that you have cut off contact with your relatives, you are out of touch with normal human society. You say that your daily routine, even ordering takeaway... seems to be effortless."

Bu Wuci: "I don't think there is a problem with my work and rest. I am awake during the time period when the nearby human beings live the most selfishly; my sleeping time is in the period when the nearby human beings wear masks as tools for their livelihood. .”

Ji Yun: "Say it as if you've already left the realm of human beings."

Bu Wuci: "You can think of me as the humanoid of the Internet."

Pei Yue asked me in the system group: "Limited to this task world, how much higher is the network ability you can display than that given by Bu Wu?"

Me: "You at least have to wait until I have seen Bu Wuci's ability before asking me for this answer? I guess I should be stronger, because I still have self-protection related to the network but independent of the network Means. That is to say, in the most extreme case, Bu Wuci may be arrested, imprisoned, disconnected from the Internet, and beaten, while I can escape safely."

Me: "After exchanging another puppet identity, I can continue to be active in this mission world without burden."

Pei Yue: "This doesn't seem to be the same concept as the network capability I mentioned?"

Me: "How can the Internet be completely out of touch with reality?"