Xiu Erdai's daily essays

07232 - Psychological problems

Of course, I can play back Pei Yue's experience in the amusement house in slow speed, which is a story of dozens or hundreds of years, but it feels very wrong.The most wrong thing is Pei Yue's mood, from laughing often to not seeming to be interested in anything, even in the face of things that he has never experienced in his life, he also has a sense of boredom or does not want to move feel.

It was an emotion I had experienced too, but Pei Yue's was longer and more severe than mine.

I asked Elder Yan Xingmen Baiqing who built the doll house if she had any dolls like this.

Elder Bai Qing: "Unless I deliberately set it up, the dolls I made will not be like this. In order to make every story in the dollhouse develop according to the logic I preset, when the story is performed once and starts again , the memory of the doll inside will be completely reset."

Elder Bai Qing: "If any one is not completely reset, it can only mean that I want to change the settings."

Elder Bai Qing: "The dolls in my dollhouse correspond to the dummy in your playhouse, and Pei Yue corresponds to the participants I invite, but I won't invite the same participant many times."

Elder Bai Qing: "You see, you were not interested in my doll house when you came to my doll house. If I forced you to play in it for a long time, you would definitely be world-weary, just like Pei Yue. You let Pei Yue get away from that doll house. Playground to try?"

I tried it, but because Xiaosui Space was also copied and became a play house, and Pei Yue had been there before, so when Pei Yue was taken out of the foster room to Xiaosui, he felt that he had arrived again. A deja vu playhouse where all living creatures are dummies.Even when we explained it to him, he only smiled and nodded, verbally acknowledging it, his expression clearly unshakable.

Or rather, he doesn't care if it's fake or real, the real world or an artificial playground, he's just... tired of everything.

I asked Fu Chunoak, who also had psychological problems due to experiencing many world scenes.

Fu Chunyu: "You let him practice? I feel that after practicing, I focused a lot on observing the changes in my body, spirit, energy, etc., and paid less attention to the outside world, so I don't care whether they are It’s not repetition. As for myself, although it seems that there is not much change every day, it just makes me feel less tired.”

This idea also doesn't work for the time being.Pei Kong's prophecy was right, and Pei Yue was flawed.Pei Yue tried to cultivate in the amusement houses of self-cultivation, but she couldn't get in.Including some cultivation methods that go off the beaten track, directly forcibly pouring spiritual power into the meridians in the early stage, without requiring spiritual roots, will not work. Pei Yue will just die directly after being forcibly poured, and the meridians cannot be formed.

07233-Got it

I asked my dad, "What should I do?"

Dad: "I don't know, I have never raised this type. This kind of mentality is similar to demons. Demons have always been a problem that monks need to overcome. Neither parents nor master can help."

Dad only raised monks, and monks don't need a psychiatrist.

I had no choice but to seek help from a mortal psychiatrist again.

Mortal psychiatrist: "This symptom is very typical. Regular medication and the company of relatives and friends are indispensable. The treatment process is very long."

Me: "Taking medicine is useless. His body structure is not normal, and the medicine can't regulate his physiology. I'm doing it with me, but I haven't seen the effect for the time being. Every time he resurrects after death, the symptoms seem to be more serious. Even if he loses most of his memories before death every time he resurrects."

Me: "He has seen a psychiatrist himself in some of the amusement house world, and sometimes the state is better, but it will turn serious again after a while. I am not sure whether the psychiatrists in the amusement house are professional, because in essence, those doctors The upper limit of ability is limited by my knowledge of psychiatrists."

Mortal psychiatrist: "If he wants, he can come and have a chat with me."

Pei Yue went there a few times cooperatively.

The mortal psychiatrist finally said: "Sorry, he may still be suitable for a monk to solve."

The monk's method... is to solve it by oneself.

Pei Yue comforted me: "Don't be so nervous. Although I don't have much interest in living, I don't pursue death, and I will come back to life after death. There is no loss. I also saved You Le with a life that I don't cherish The lives of many people in the house are called heroes, which is quite worthwhile."

Not so.

Xiao Sui went to beat Pei Sha: "It's all the playhouse you set up!"

Pei Sha responded with a hmm, ah ah, which made the atmosphere very serious.

After many times of life and death, Pei Yue can speak fluently and discuss profound academic monographs with professional psychologists, while Pei Sha can only skip words and short sentences.

Pei Yue already knew that she was created by Pei Sha, considered a refined product.But he seemed to really just 'know', like he just stamped a 'read' stamp, understood the meaning, but he didn't care about it, and it didn't matter whether he believed it or not.

Pei Yue: "It doesn't matter, no matter whether it is a human being or other living things or non-living things, they are all part of the world in essence. I don't think that a refined product is inferior to human beings, or even if it is inferior, it is also a part of the world." It's just the definition of human beings standing on the standpoint of maintaining their own status, and it is not taken seriously by the world."

Pei Yue: "When the world wants to carry out destructive activities, destroying refined products and destroying human beings are both the same operation, and very similar results will be obtained."

Pei Jianzhuo: "The result is: destroy the majority and leave a small part. That small part may develop a new group, or it may be completely finished after struggling for a period of time."

Pei Yue smiled and nodded.

07234-Passing Garden

Xiao Gun sat beside Pei Yue, put his paw on Pei Yue's shoulder: "Your name is 'Yue', be happy."

Pei Yue smiled and nodded again: "Okay."

Xiao Gun put the half-dead Xiao Lian in front of Pei Yue, and generously said, "Let me play with you."

Pei Yue touched Xiao Lian's ear, Xiao Lian numbly glanced at Pei Yue, and continued to pretend to be dead.

Fuqiu: "Xiao Lian and Pei Yue were originally created on the same day. Xiao Lian was completely reduced to a panda toy, and his body was miserable every day, but he still ran away vigorously whenever he had the chance; Pei Yue your body I haven’t been abused, but my heart is tired. I don’t know who is worse, you or Xiao Lian. Anyway, both of them have problems, so it’s probably not suitable to have a baby that day.”

Pei Yue: "It's probably worse for Xiao Lian. I am my own problem, and Xiao Lian has encountered the malice of the world."

Pei Kong: "Pei Yue, do you know that your expression is very hypocritical? You treat us as dummies, so when you talk to us, you have a feeling of coping and playing with toys."

Pei Yue: "I'm sorry, but I can't convince myself otherwise. I feel like a fake even when I think about my own position, how can I take other people seriously? Oh, wrong, I was made by you, so I was a dummy."

Me: "Sometimes true and false are not distinguished in this way. The living people in the main world can be regarded as the creation of the main world. Creation does not equal falsehood, nor does it mean inanimate."

Pei Yue: "You compare yourself to the world?"

Me: "That's my pursuit. Maybe, it's getting closer."

Pei Sha: "Mmmmm."

Pei Yue looked at her foster child's room.The exterior of the house looks like a big castle, but the inner structure has nothing to do with the exterior.If the appearance is determined according to the inner layout, it may be more suitable to make a cylindrical shape.

Pei Yue: "Give it another name."

Me: "It's up to you."

Pei Yue: "It's mainly used by me, but it doesn't belong to me. Let's call it 'Guo Ke Yuan'."

After Pei Yue's voice fell, the shape of the castle changed into a cylindrical shape, the overall color was sunset red, and there was a white piece in the middle, which looked like a label, and the words 'Passing Guest Garden' appeared on the label.

Like a tea caddy.

Pei Sha: "Huh..."

Xiao Sui threw a dictionary into Pei Sha: "Study hard."

Pei Yue smiled and walked to the tea pot, oh no, walked to the front of the guest garden, touched the pot wall with her hand, melted into the pot, and returned to the area he was most familiar with.

It's like a canned man.

Pei Kong: "Are you really trying to treat him?"

I also need to know which direction to work hard first.

07235-Sense of Security

Although I have fallen into that state and come out of that state several times, every time I come out, I am lucky to encounter something that makes me interested. I don't know how to rationally find that interest. Expect to 'happen' to come across.

My luck lies in the fact that there are many people around me who are willing and able to help me, but I have not been able to become that kind of person to Pei Yue.

Now let's sort it out from the beginning, Pei Yue will change from being so fond of laughing to what he is now. The biggest problem is that his initial experience of communicating with people took place in the amusement house, which is full of fake people, so when he realized this, he Doubt everything in the world.

I have Yunxiazong and Dad as my stable coordinates. No matter how confused I am, I still have a place where I can rest in peace, but Pei Yue doesn't have this sense of security. He knows that the things in the amusement house are all fake. And he is the only one living in the Guke Garden, which looks more real than the amusement house.

Moreover, this passing garden also puts the mortuary and the baby room together, and every other room has a clear purpose, as if everything is just following the procedure, without any warmth at all.

It was me who screwed things up.I didn't build up a sense of security for Pei Yue, and I wore his natural love of laughter into fatigue.

Master: "It's not that serious. Don't forget that Pei Yue started to be active in the guest garden after he died once. His first life, the real beginning, was completely carried out in Xiaosui. There was still a long period of time in which Pei Ji also participated in the exchange."

Master: "If Pei Yue needs to build up a sense of security, this period of time is enough."

Me: "But he doesn't remember this part."

Master: "Impossible. Pei Ji forwarded the live broadcast you showed him to me. I am sure that Pei Yue has laid the foundation in that life. His activities in the passing garden are based on this foundation. Even if he Rationally, I don’t remember it, but deep down, at the root, I must still know it.”

Master: "Do you know what is the most important value of this root and foundation? It's the bottom line. That is, Pei Yue can't really collapse in the face of falsehood. When he hits the bottom, he will definitely rebound."

Master: "Don't worry, Pei Yue's smile will come back. Give him some time, it's normal for a period of puberty to hurt spring and autumn, and minor problems will pass. Parents should not interfere too much during this period, it is easy to cause rebellion. Let him ferry."

Grandmaster: "It's okay, I won't commit suicide. Besides, even if he commits suicide, he won't be able to die completely. That behavior is meaningless. He knows this very well, and he won't do useless work."