Xiu Erdai's daily essays

04716 - part of the road

Me: "Everything we have accumulated is a ladder to 'survive'? But 'living' itself is not our goal? If life is painful, how can we have the motivation to live for thousands of years?"

Dad: "It's not the purpose, it's the basis for detection; it's the coordinates in time, and it's a strong by-product. However, it doesn't mean that living for a short time is equal to being weak. Also, living in the biological sense is not the only living."

Me: "Are monks still alive after death? Except becoming a ghost cultivator."

Dad: "Common sense is that after the death of a monk, the body can be refined into a utensil, and the soul will dissipate and become part of the aura. Do you think the utensils are alive? Is the aura considered alive?"

Me: "In most of the theories, the spiritual treasures in the utensils are classified as living things. Reiki...spiritual veins are also defined as living things by many theories."

Me: "Wait, wait, wait a minute, I seem to be a little confused about the concept of life and death, this is a bit dangerous, it makes me start to question my own living creature attributes, I... Hey."

At such a dangerous moment, Dad cut off my communication.

Kiss dad, kiss master, kiss elders.

Pei Bing: "Thinking on the bright side, if you regard this conversation as a discussion, then Elder Pei's interruption of communication means that he thinks he has obtained the insights he needs in this discussion, and he thinks that if he continues, he will Nothing more will be gained, so he withdrew from the forum."

But I'm not done yet.

Pei Bing: "But the direction of your topic, the next one seems to be moaning without illness, not discussing the truth."

So my role has changed from 'dao friend' to 'annoying son', and Dad's attitude has also changed from 'polite and friendly' to 'too lazy'?Also, is the topic before my father cut off my communication, is he discussing with me?It's not that I ask stupid questions every day and he deals with me?

Pei Bing: "Uh..."

Don't uh, I hear you thinking: Stupid problems are part of my way; after raising me, dealing with stupid problems may become part of Dad's way too.

Everyone we get along with will have an impact on our Tao, the closer we get along, the greater the impact.What exactly is Tao?Perhaps, is this person everything?

After Ji Zuo gave up controlling Tu Yang, he never fell in love again and is still single.Some people said with pity or malice that she was too emotionally hurt, and her response was: no time, busy chasing stars.

That star is me.

When I publicly appeared in the Suoxianzong fortune teller competition, the familiar face, the same name, and the cat in my arms caused a sensation in Jijia Village.People who met me asked each other:

"Is it the Pei Lin we know?"

"Is it the Pei Lin who traveled with Ji Zuo?"

"Is it that Pei Lin who often buys cat supplies at the pet store?"

04717 - it doesn't matter

Later, when I collected portrait fees, I disclosed my account in the mortal world to the mortal world, so the pet store employees, landlords and others who had money dealings with me affirmed: "It's her...he..."

When the neighbors were discussing, Ji Zuo didn't participate in the topic, but kept a mysterious smile.

Ji Zuo said to me: "Thank you, because they knew that after I broke up with Tu Yang and before you left here, I was very close to you, so when you attracted a lot of attention, they couldn't care less about pity me I'm so 'emotionally hurt', but feel that I'm a blessing in disguise, Tu Yang can't compare with you."

Ji Zuo: "However, after a long time, they have a new interpretation of my not having a boyfriend anymore. They think that I miss you, and then say that I am whimsical and that a toad wants to eat swan meat."

Me: "Do you mind?"

Ji Zuo: "Actually, no, if I really minded, I would have moved a long time ago. If I moved to a big city, there would be no such gossip. Talking about the people around you, big cities with busy, isolated people don’t have time for that sort of thing.”

Ji Zuo: "Actually, there are quite a lot of people who refuse to fall in love because of you, both men and women."

Me: "Just for a while."

Ji Zuo: "Not necessarily. Some of you have elevated your taste and refused to make do with the ordinary people around you. However, no matter what the reason is, it's fine to be single. What does it matter?"

Me: "It doesn't matter." Compared with the world of the previous life, the marriage urging atmosphere in the mortal world in this life is obviously weaker, which may be caused by the single rate of monks.If Ji Zuo hadn't broken up with her fiancé when she was about to get engaged, her subsequent singleness wouldn't be worth talking about for many years, so much so that she still needed me to block everyone's mouths.

Ji Zuo: "It's a fact that I like you, not just an excuse. Seeing you makes me much happier than looking at someone who wants to fall in love with me. Of course I don't want them."

Me: "Are you sure you know the difference between liking like an idol and liking like a lover?"

Ji Zuo: "That doesn't matter at all, because you are mainly just an excuse."

Me: "That being said, I'm also a little worried that you are too emotionally hurt."

Ji Zuo: "Even if I am, if there is someone who is suitable to be my next lover, shouldn't he be able to heal my emotional wounds or am I willing to heal my emotional wounds for him?"

Me: "It makes sense. If emotional hurt has become a part of you, then of course the person you are in love with at this time should be able to accept or change this inherent attribute of you."

Ji Zuo: "So, I don't fall in love simply because I haven't met someone who is suitable for me now. If you are willing to fall in love with me, I will definitely be willing to get out of the hurt."

04718 - Fantasy

Me: "If you keep taking me as the standard for you to choose your next lover, I'm afraid you'll have to stay single forever, not because I'm unique, and you don't really understand what kind of person I am, but you will beautify me in your heart Image, according to your preferences, complement a large number of my characteristics that you don't understand, and then love the me in your fantasy more and more deeply. That 'I' is your perfect lover, and it is almost impossible to appear like this in reality A real person who perfectly fits your fantasy."

Me: "I don't even fit your fantasy template."

Ji Zuo: "Almost impossible to appear? Almost?"

Me: "It's really good to grasp the key points. Ignore all the parts I am not used to, no matter how long it is; only listen to the part I like, no matter how short it is."

Ji Zuo: "So, what does 'almost' mean? Can you extend this very short part that I like to hear?"

Me: "If you really want to expand, it's not just longer. You can try to study the topic of 'Why Elder Pei Ji of Yunxia Sect and Elder Jiang Lin of Hehuan Sect, his second Taoist partner, can become Taoist couples'. The mortal world can check The information obtained is very little, but it must be much more than the content of one of our conversations."

Ji Zuo paused for a few seconds, wondering: "Elder Pei Ji and Elder Jiang Lin, aren't they your parents?"

Me: "That's right. If it weren't for the fact that they are closely related to me, the mortal world probably wouldn't be able to find any information about the causes and consequences of their becoming a Taoist couple. This information is actually relatively high-end even in the cultivation world. Many monks who are not low in cultivation don’t know much about it, but in recent years, the live barrage and the unrestrained revelations of Shazhuan have broken the barrier of information a lot.”

Me: "On the positive side, this kind of breakthrough may have promoted the flow of information, allowing some information that should not have regional divisions to be known to more people, making the information more valuable, and allowing more capable Those who study the data are involved; and on the downside, some of the data may be seen by the wrong people, leading those people astray or using the data to do evil things that hurt others.”

Me: "Whether the benefits outweigh the harms or the harms outweigh the benefits in the end, it's hard to say now, and it's already hard to stop. I can only watch the effect of data dissipation slowly appear."

Ji Zuo: "...you are indeed different from what I imagined. The you in my imagination would not ignore my comprehension and talk on your own."

Me: "Your fantasy is really divorced from reality. 'I don't care about the listener, I talk to myself' is my basic characteristic. You have even removed this from your fantasy dummy. The me in your imagination is roughly the same as the real me. Only the face is the same."

04719- Feeling inaccurate

Ji Zuo: "Maybe even the face is very different. The you in my fantasy is not as good as the one I see now... It's hard for me to look directly at you, but you are much more beautiful and approachable."

Me: "So, after seeing me for real again today, can you continue to fantasize?"

Ji Zuo: "Well...maybe it's still possible? And fantasize about something better?"

Me: "If that makes you happy, come on."

Ji Zuo smiled and said, "Of course it will make me happy. Of course it's a pleasure to see you."

Me: "You didn't seem to think so when we first met?"

Ji Zuo: "Really? I'm old, I don't remember. I just remember that in my fantasy world, you always made me happy."

Me: "Isn't bitter love bitter?"

Ji Zuo: "Because this love is not the other."

Me: "What kind of love is this love? What kind of love is that love?"

Ji Zuo: "This is the old girl's secret."

I went back to Yunxiazong, went to my elder brother's peak, and while watching his apprentice and my nephew Zeng practice swordsmanship, I asked him about my cultivation base that seemed to be stuck.

——Although Zeng Qi often wanders around Qixiu Peak and has great enthusiasm for the phantom array, his sword moves are still decent.

Brother: "Calculate how many years it has been since you entered the middle stage of the golden elixir, and then look at the average, shortest, and highest durations from the middle stage of the golden elixir to the late stage of the golden elixir, and finally say that your cultivation is stuck."

Me: "No card? Why do I suddenly feel stuck?"

The elder brother disdains: "Feeling? You sometimes feel that you can become a fairy, can you be sure?"

Me: "My ability to predict is now recognized by the public."

Brother: "It's limited to the public who are willing to make noise in public. Do you think Dad will express a lot of opinions in Shazhuan? Do you think that other Huashen Mahayana period people have occasional whims and incoherent remarks? , can you still see them in the desert?"

Brother: "Shazhuan, as well as your live barrage, the average cultivation level and upper limit cultivation level are much higher than most of the groups who speak publicly, but they are definitely not high enough to be your guide now. If To guide you, you need to have an average cultivation base, [-]% or more of the speakers are at least one level higher than you, that is, the Nascent Soul Stage, even if it is the bottom line requirement, it must be the Nascent Soul Stage. Do you think Sha Zhuan has this level? ?"