The Queen's Secret

She looked at his dim eyes, and the pumpkin pendant on the bedside table, and couldn't help feeling pity in her heart.Pumpkin, she remembers that when her mother was alive, every July 27th, she would fry pumpkin cakes for her to eat. There was always a pumpkin sculpture that had faded in color by her bedside.She asked her mother why, but her mother only touched her head every time but did not speak. Over time, she stopped asking, but gradually developed the habit of eating pumpkin pie every year.

Seeing the pumpkin pendant in front of Chu Junyan's bed, his eyes suddenly swelled, and he remembered every detail of his mother's life.

Liao Xuerou is not a person who is easy to soften her heart, and compassion has never been her character trait.Her life was already struggling, and she no longer had the extra thought to feel compassion for other people's lives.Chu Junyan was the first person besides Bai Qingwan who she felt pity for from the bottom of her heart after going through so many things. She knew very well that this kind of pity was not only due to his blood relationship with Bai. Say, it's an instinct.Her Liao Xuerou's inexplicable pity for Chu Junyan came from the instinct in her bones.

Where this instinct comes from, no one knows.

Not long after, Xijia came up from downstairs, followed by three other people.Xijia just stood beside her brother without saying a word.Xu Nan was very enthusiastic. She was obviously the one who was humiliated, but she was very eager to greet Chu Junyan.

"Go away." Chu Junyan raised his head and looked directly at Xu Nan, his eyes full of hostility and disgust.Xu Nan trembled for a moment, then removed the hand on his shoulder.Xu Nan didn't know whether he should be happy or worried. It was the first time he had spoken to her in three years, but the content of his words was not satisfactory.

Chu Junyan is naturally Bai Qingwan's darling, but even if she spoils her son again, she still can't understand why her son makes every effort to make things difficult and humiliate such an infatuated girl.Xu Nan has known him for three years, and has been with him from the age of 17 to the age of 20. During this period, no matter what kind of cold violence she suffered, she never complained to her family. She just cared about him silently and took care of him. Affectionate, even Bai Qingwan and Chu Xijia were moved by it, but Chu Junyan was the only one.

Xu Nan seemed to be in tears, her eyes were red, but she stood on the side without moving.Zhao Lanfen grabbed her daughter's shoulders and left without saying a word.In the end, Bai Qingwan was still asked to be a peacemaker.

"Qingwan, my Nannan likes Junyan. We all know this. Although I persuaded her at first, after so many years, I no longer object. And Junyan's actions... As a mother, I really don't like her." May my daughter be bullied all day long, my daughter, no matter how bad the situation is, she doesn’t have to be stepped on like this.” After all, she loves her daughter eagerly, and there is no mother in the world who does not feel sorry for her child, especially when she sees it with her own eyes. The child is humiliated over and over again.Even if she and Bai Qingwan are close friends, she can't continue to give her face.

"Lanfen. Even if you're doing me a favor, stay a little longer and let me talk to Xiaoyan, okay?"

Seeing her begging for perfection, Liao Xuerou felt the most uncomfortable, how much suffering she had endured for this son.

"Xiao Yan, Nan Nan is a good girl."

She stroked his head lightly, her eyes full of love.

Over the years, only Chu Xijia knows how much Bai Qingwan loves Chu Junyan. No matter how crazy his brother's actions are, his mother never blames him. From the mother's embrace and comfort.Mother may not be the gentlest person in the world, but from her mother's care for her brother, she has seen the greatest and most delicate love in the world.

Chu Junyan was not unaware of this love.

He turned his head sideways and looked at Liao Xuerou who was standing beside Chu Xijia, with stars shining in his eyes, as if there were still some tears.

Liao Xuerou is not a fool, Bai Qingwan is not a fool, and everyone here is not a fool.Just such a glance is enough to explain everything.This is the first time Bai Qingwan sees tenderness and compromise in her son's eyes.He just kept looking at her like that, without saying a word.She walked to his side and smiled the sweetest smile at him. Chu Junyan, who hadn't shed tears for more than ten years, shed tears at that moment.It hit the floor and dripped into everyone's hearts, echoing.

She reached out to help him wipe away the tears, but he held her hand instead.

At this moment, there is no need to repeat.Zhao Lanfen dragged her crying daughter downstairs, no one stopped her.

After Liao Xuerou came to the house that day, Chu Xijia told Bai Qingwan that her brother spoke today.Bai Qingwan knew that the woman who could make her son speak must be unusual, and seeing this scene today, she really had mixed feelings. After 20 years of suffering, her son finally found a woman who was willing to open his heart to her. people.

Chu Junyan remembered that when he was four years old, his father had a car accident, but his mother did not cry like the others at the funeral.He asked his mother why he didn't cry, and his mother just patted his head and said, "Xiao Yan. People can be disappointed and frustrated, but they can't be cowardly. Tears can't represent anything but cowardice."

In Chu Junyan's memory, his mother never seemed to cry, and always faced everything in life with the attitude of an invincible iron man.He doesn't know when he has been haunted and tormented by a demon in his life since. He also had a brief moment of sobriety. He also told himself at the most sober moment that he could no longer add to his mother and sister. trouble.But every time he got mad, every time he wanted to commit suicide, he was so strong that he couldn't resist it.

Many times, he wanted to ask Bai Qingwan why he had never been happy since he could remember.

The chance of congenital depression is almost equal to the chance of winning the jackpot. People suffering from this disease are doomed to struggle with demons for a lifetime, and eventually die of resentment.Many times, Bai Qingwan wished that she could suffer for her son and suffer for her son. The most painful thing in the world is to see her beloved suffer but be helpless.

The older he gets, the more painful his heart becomes, and he hates everything around him. He doesn't know when he can no longer feel the kindness of this world, and distorts all the love and care for him from the people around him.He hates Xu Nan, hates Xu Nan's mother, hates being alive.

He wants nothing but death.

Only after death can he be liberated, and his mother and sister can be liberated, and then everything will gradually get better.

Then he met Liao Xuerou, she was someone he didn't feel disgusted at all when he met, not only didn't hate him, but even liked him a little bit.

He didn't know why, but he just wanted to get close to her, or to get close to her. She has a pair of gentle eyes, which are different from Xijia's beauty and Xu Nan's quietness. warm look.In the dark, he always felt that there was something like blood between them, and he felt that Liao Xuerou was his family just like his mother and sister.

He hated Xu Nan's touch, and Xu Nan's greetings.However, he hoped that Xue Rou would do these things to him.

Looking at her son in Liao Xuerou's arms, Bai Qingwan felt her eyes were a little sore, but more joyful.

My son, after all, is still favored by God.

"Ayan, don't hurt yourself anymore." Xue Rou patted the back of his head, comforting him like a sister.

Chu Junyan didn't make a sound, but lowered his head even more. He was really, really in pain.

Everyone knew Chu Junyan's thoughts on Liao Xuerou.Especially Bai Qingwan, who has the most thorough insight, but her son is a person with serious mental illness after all. No matter how much she loves her son, she can't be selfish enough not to think about girls.

It was getting late, and after coaxing Chu Junyan to sleep, the three of them sat in Chu Xijia's bedroom and talked.No one was in the mood to eat the desserts on the glass table, and the tea had turned cold.

"Xuerou. If you can, come and see Xiao Yan more often, as long as you can."

Her tone made Liao Xuerou feel distressed. Her husband passed away early, and she did not choose to remarry at an age when she needed the most care and attention. Instead, she struggled alone until now.She is a strong woman, but as long as her son is involved, her fragility will always be exposed.

Liao Xuerou dreamed of meeting Bai, seeing that she was not living happily now, how could she stand by and watch.

"Sister Bai, Ah Yan is a good boy, I really, really want to take care of him."

Bai Qingwan smiled faintly, that smile was fully seen by Liao Xuerou, she was so beautiful, she gave birth to a beautiful face that could not be stolen even by the years, the movement of her eyes was full of amazement that overwhelmed all living beings.Just one glance is enough for everyone to go through fire and water for her. "Xue Rou, don't meet outsiders. There are no reporters here. Just call me Auntie." This is the rule of life in the entertainment circle. Even if a young girl meets someone in her 50s or [-]s, she will just call me Auntie. Sister Sheng, it's nothing more than a false move.And Bai Qingwan has quit the entertainment industry for a long time, and Xuerou is a lovely girl, she doesn't treat her as an outsider.

Xue Rou nodded, her heart felt warm.Did she take another step closer to Bai?

Xijia next to her just sat in front of the window sill and held her right cheek without saying a word. Sister Liao is a star-studded person who lives under the spotlight of the entertainment industry every day, fumbling in commercials and movies. She is rich, famous and more educated.And my brother is just a mentally ill patient who can't even control his emotions.Following her brother is nothing more than completely blocking her development in the entertainment industry.She loves her brother, but that doesn't mean she wants to watch Xue Rou ruin her bright future.

The ringtone of the incoming call interrupted everyone's thoughts.

Unsurprisingly, it was him.Standing outside the door, hearing him calling her name in a clear and warm voice from the other end of the phone, Xue Rou felt very warm in her heart.Just like a father.

The communication between them never needs to be elaborated, he just said lightly, I will pick you up, and she also lightly replied hello.

For so many years, Qin Liang is like her personal bodyguard, protecting her well.

Sitting in the car and listening to Qin Liang's favorite fashion rock music, all I could think about was A Yan's lonely eyes and Bai's desperate look. At the age of 15, it was Bai who gave her the courage and energy to live on, but now that Bai is living in such a difficult situation, can she really ignore it?

"Doctor Qin." She called him, her eyes still looking at the colorful world outside the car window, "I've made up my mind."

For a while, there was no response at all.The atmosphere in the car became increasingly tense.

Until he said: "Have you thought about it?"

"Think about it."

"No regrets?"

"No regrets."

He didn't even have to ask her what her final decision was.He has been with her for so many years, and in this world, he is the only one who knows her secret.He knew that Liao Xuerou lived for love.

Since he won't regret it, then let her go. He should let her go after guarding her so far.