The Queen's Secret

"Xiaoxue, don't worry, Dr. Dikang is my stepfather's loyal lackey. If he can't cure you, he won't be able to mess with you." The little girl Tian Xin said something to make Xuerou feel at ease, and put the chicken wings into her bowl. , "You are not in good health now, you need to eat more meat. When I get home, I will ask my aunt who is in charge of making soup to make a nutritious soup for you to drink."

Tian Xin loved her very much since he was a child, and he loved her as much as his own sister. He let her do everything, blocked bad things for her, and always thought of her when good things happened. Unfortunately, she only stayed with her for three years. Leave her with memories and nostalgia.

While drinking the porridge, he heard the crisp sound of the spoon falling to the ground.

"What's the matter, did you get burned somewhere?" Bai Qingwan asked anxiously as she wiped the soup spilled on her body with a towel.

And Tian Xin gently helped her press her left hand that had a sudden cramp just now: "I used to have hand cramps occasionally, and my mother would help me press it like this. Does it feel much more comfortable?"

Xuerou nodded heavily, and smiled at her playfully and warmly.

"Xiaoxue, why don't you go and stay at our house for a few days, our house is more spacious than here, and there are three private doctors and eight aunts, and the aunts are all Chinese, they will take good care of you. I also feel relieved. "

Xuerou shook her head gently, and looked at Bai Qingwan beside her: "Tiantian, thank you for your kindness, but I..."

"Auntie can also go together. Anyway, my house is big, even if there are more than a dozen people living there, it's fine."

"No." Bai Qingwan was taken aback for a moment, and then she pretended to be calm and said, "Xiaorou, you can go if you want. You can live more comfortably at a friend's house." She gently stroked her hair, His hands were trembling slightly.

"Tada, let me think about it."

After dinner, Tian Xin left, Bai Qingwan cleaned up the dining table, and Liao Xuerou sat on the sofa and read a book.In fact, Bai Qingwan still couldn't figure out why they suddenly became like this, and there was less and less to say, except for greetings and politeness, Xuerou's mood became much more stable, and she laughed, but this smile was not right She is no longer happy because of her.

Thinking of this, she couldn't help laughing at herself.Xuerou, there is indeed no reason to have expectations of herself anymore.He once told her personally that he would not let Yuluo bully her again.But apart from saying a few cruel words, he didn't do a single cruel thing.For her sake, Xue Rou fell to where she is today, but she couldn't give her an explanation.

"I just thought about it carefully." Xuerou closed the book in her hand, looked at Bai Qingwan beside her, "I want to live with Tiantian for a while."

Bai Qingwan clenched her palms tightly, feeling pain in her heart, but she still smiled slightly: "Well, don't worry, go live."

"Maybe I will stay there until I return home."

"it is good."

No one spoke anymore, both of them were surprisingly calm, only the sound of the TV remained in the huge room.

until.

Until the sound of the book being thrown to the ground broke Bai Qingwan's heart, Xuerou stood up suddenly, her eyes looked straight at her, then turned red, and finally shed hot tears.

"To you, what am I? Bai Qingwan." Tears dripped down her cheeks onto the carpet, she choked her throat, and slowly talked about her suffering, "I thought, even if you don't love me, In your heart, at least you should have me, I am not as good as Huo Yuluo, I admit it, but you are not even willing to keep me."

Bai Qingwan got up slowly, and reached out to wipe her tears, but she threw her hand away: "Don't touch me! Put away your compassion. Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva who saves the suffering. By the way, there is something, I I don’t know when to tell you, should I tell you, I’ll tell you now. I’m not crazy, I haven’t been crazy all this time, I lied to you, I just want to see if Bai, whom I love so much, is still alive Care about me, whether you have me in your heart, maybe you really have me, but... it's far away, it's far away..."

"On the plane, when you said sorry to me, I felt like I was stabbed." She suddenly laughed, with tears mixed in, "Whether you say I'm hypocritical or hypocritical, I clearly said, As long as you feel embarrassed, don't do it, but after you really don't do it, I feel so heartbroken and sad...I thought about it ten thousand times, why am I so unimportant, why is this..."

Xuerou slowly collapsed on the ground, crying more and more wantonly and sadly, her left hand was grabbing her hair fiercely, as if she was going to be like this forever, crying until the end of the day, and the pain until the end of life.These days, she was too tired to bear it, too tired.

"Xiao Rou..."

"Since you don't love me, why didn't you push me away when I kissed you by the river? Since you don't love me, why did you kiss me when I was in Fengwu Lane? Since you don't love me, why did you leave Chu Come to Paris with me..." She shook her head desperately, crying desperately, crying desperately and hysterically.

But Bai Qingwan, why not, doesn't care about her.

Today they met Tian Xin, this little girl who could bring Xuerou a smile, Xuerou who hadn't smiled sincerely for so many days finally smiled from the bottom of her heart, she should be happy, but no one knows, her Lonely is far greater than happiness.

Only at that time can she truly realize that there is a kind of happiness called not brought to her by you.

But she didn't say anything.Say nothing.

"Bai Qingwan." She wiped her tears indiscriminately, stood up and looked at her straight, and asked her, "I want to ask you one last time, am I a daughter, or Xuerou?"

Through the window, she could clearly see the tall buildings standing in the distance and the dark night sky. The night in Paris was full of excitement, but also a kind of loneliness.The weather was not too cold, but it froze Liao Xuerou's broken heart.

After 3 minutes of silence, she smiled, freely and heartbreakingly: "I understand."

Looking at the closed door, the leaving figure, and the suddenly empty room, Bai Qingwan finally cried.