The Queen's Secret

That sentence, neither long nor short, one is better, really well said.There were only four words, but they pierced her heart fiercely.She did something that even she herself felt dirty today, and just when she had already sneered at herself, Bai Qingwan, who had always been her dream and spiritual sustenance, showed how dirty she really was with even more intense words It's unbearable.

"Yeah. I'm dirty, I'm low. A woman like me cannot enter the noble threshold of your Chu family." She turned around, not wanting to face her, nor could she, "Isn't this Just right, so that you can see my face clearly, and prevent me from entering your house, and if I don't enter, I won't pollute the lintel of the Chu family." Xuerou's alcohol smell still lingered, she was beaten After palming, the grievance, resentment, and hatred in my heart surged out. She loves Bai Qingwan, she is strong, but no one has ever thought of it for her. No matter how strong she is, she is still a woman.

"Tell me, why are you doing this? Why are you playing with A Yan's feelings, why are you making fun of the Chu family's reputation?"

Xue Rou suddenly laughed out loud, even now, she still only has her son in her heart, and still only the damn Chu family, and she doesn't care for her at all, not at all.She couldn't see her despair, she couldn't see her pain, all she could see was Chu Junyan's sadness.After so many days, what did she get?

"Auntie, the reason is very simple. I don't love him, so why did I get engaged to him?" She laughed and burst into tears, but she still didn't look at Bai Qingwan.

"Then why did you agree? Why did you let an innocent child suffer so much? My son, he finally... finally..."

Bai Qingwan's voice behind her became weaker and weaker, and she was almost trembling when she spoke at the end.

Only at this moment can Xuerou truly understand what it means to be ashamed, not when she is surrounded by scandals, not when she is suppressed by Director Gu, and not alone When spending one long and cold night after another, but like now, when the person she loves the most is by her side, but uses the most hurtful words to hurt her to pieces.At this time, even tears become superfluous.

"You said you didn't love Xiao Yan? Who is that? The man who hugged you downstairs just now?" Bai Qingwan walked up to her, faced her face to face, held her shoulders, and forced her to look eyes.

But what Bai Qingwan didn't know was that at this moment, Liao Xuerou was easier to break than glass. Xuerou raised her head and looked at her, as if she was laughing at her, but also seemed to be laughing at herself. She was laughing, but that laugh was worse than crying. Person: "Who is the person I love, yes, who is the person I love... Who is the person I love?"

The two looked at each other like that, one frustrated and the other desperate.When she just went to Xiangshan, looking at the red leaves all over the mountain, Xuerou thought, she will stay by Bai's side for the rest of her life, never leave her life and death, when Bai is here, she will take good care of A Yan, guard Bai well, take good care of her After Bai left, she took care of her favorite son, A Yan, in place of Bai. In this life, her love was unspeakable, but it was worth it.But now, even simple companionship has become very difficult, and she, covered in dirt, can no longer enter the Chu family.She hated Bai so much, but she hated herself even more.Hate yourself even now, there is still no way not to love her.

"That's it. I hope you will go back and tell your precious son, auntie, and let him pretend that he has never met me before."

This time, Bai Qingwan didn't keep her, the moment the door closed, Xuerou's tears dripped down the corner of her smiling mouth, they, let's call it a day.

Lying on the big empty bed, staring straight at the stars in the dark night outside the window, she was so tired that she finally closed her eyes and murmured: "The one I love, she will never I will know who I love."

Tossing around four or five o'clock in the morning, her consciousness became more and more lucid, and she buried herself deeply in the quilt, why, why she just couldn't get completely drunk.These days, she is really tired, but God still refuses to give her even a little time to breathe. She wants to be confused, but she is sober.Taking the mobile phone on the bedside table, the light from the screen hit her face, flipped through the address book, and found that except Qin Liang, she didn't have a friend who could text and call.She has lived so long, she has no friends.

From dark to dawn, in just a few hours, she felt that she had already lived several lives.

"Doctor Qin, can you book a ticket to Bali for me. One-way."

Not long after the message was sent, the doorbell rang.When I opened the door, it turned out to be him.His eyes were a little swollen, and his face was haggard, but his face was still heroic: "Doctor Qin, you..." Did he stay overnight, or did he come to her apartment early in the morning?But no matter what it was, it made her feel a little sour.

"I don't worry about you." His tone was very calm, but he was still gentle enough to drown, "I was standing downstairs yesterday and saw her go."

She lowered her head, wanting to elicit a smile but never thought it was so difficult: "Come in and sit down."

"I'll book the air ticket for you. Go and relax. I'll wait for you to come back." He sat on the sofa, patted her on the shoulder beside him, and smiled softly.She said she wanted a one-way trip, made it clear that she didn't want to come back, and made it clear that she was tired of everything now, but he believed that she would always come back, and he would wait for her to come back.

"Thank you, Doctor Qin, really. You are the best man I have ever seen, but." She raised her head, met his eyes, and said in a firm and cold tone, "Don't wait for me anymore." She is not a fool , All along, he has treated her too well, and she likes to play dumb, for fear that if she punctures this layer of paper, she will lose her only support, but now, she can no longer be selfish.

"Whether you come back or not is your business, wait or not, it's my business." He shrugged and said it lightly.In fact, she should be the person in this world who can understand him best, because they are the same kind of people, and they have the same kind of love hidden in their hearts. They never want to tell the truth, but they can never let go.Even if you spend your whole life, you still have to be happy, "Is there anything else to worry about?"

She got up and made him a cup of coffee, and the aroma filled the living room: "My father is not in good health and likes to play cards all night. If you are free, go see him for me and apologize to him for me. All these years, I haven't fulfilled my responsibilities as a daughter." She bit her lip and held the coffee cup in her hand, "Also, if possible, I will leave Ayan's illness to you, that is her biggest concern, And the one I love the most."

"Then what about you?" He wanted to say, what about you, you think about all the people around you, you have done so many things for others but you are still full of guilt, you go to a strange country alone without a companion, and you are already struggling in the country Do you still have to be alone when you go abroad?Have you thought about it.But when the words came to my lips, there was only one sentence left, so what about you?

Before she could answer his question, her thoughts were interrupted by a ringtone. She looked at the caller ID and said sorry to him before going to the bedroom to answer the call.I don't know how long this phone call will haunt her, and this dirty past will haunt her for who knows how long.

She smiled self-deprecatingly and pressed the answer button.