The Queen's Secret

Walking in the crowded streets and alleys, under the afterglow of the setting sun, the whole city is full of noisy loneliness.Xuerou was still holding Qingwan's arm, and she was stepping on the flat shoes she hadn't worn for a long time, so she could easily lean her head on her shoulder.From childhood to adolescence, from adolescence to youth, and then from youth to now she is going to marry a woman.But when I saw the picture of mother, loving son, filial piety, happiness, harmony and warmth, my heart was sour, but it was still inevitable.

Through the brightly polished window, she stared blankly at the happy mother and daughter sitting in the dessert shop. The daughter smiled sweetly and played with the plush toy in her hand, and the mother tenderly fed her daughter a cake.She couldn't hear the conversation between them, but the smiles engraved on their faces were more dazzling than the setting sun.No one knew that the family affection that many people took for granted was so out of reach for her.

"Want to eat dessert? Let's go in and sit down?" Qing Wan followed her gaze and looked in, knowing that she was missing her mother.

"No." Xue Rou shook her head, pretending to be relaxed and said, "Auntie, let's go to my house instead of going back to Chu's house, okay?" The Chu family has Aunt Shen, her servants, Ayan and Xijia.Let it be her selfishness, this time she doesn't want to think about the embarrassing status of mother-in-law and daughter-in-law between her and her, and for the time being, she doesn't want to think too much about the cause and effect of karma. Today, she just wants to be alone with her once.Just this one time.

At first Bai was unwilling, but she couldn't stand Xuerou's soft and hard arguments, so she insisted on being dragged to Fengwu Lane, a place that both of them are very familiar with.Ten years ago, the old woman who sold coke rings was still hawking in the same place, with a few white hairs in her blue hair, full of traces of time.In a materialistic society, only here seems to have a unique peace and quiet.Bai Qingwan felt that she seemed to have returned to ten years ago.

"Xuerou, do you live here?"

Xuerou nodded, she couldn't see her face clearly under the increasingly dim light: "Yes. But since I worked, I rented an apartment in the city center, and I seldom come back. But the apartment no longer Well, it’s still better than home.” Fengwu Lane not only has the traces and atmosphere of her mother’s existence, but also has the standing of her father, as well as the precious memories of her first meeting ten years ago.It's like a treasure, hidden in her heart.

"Ten years ago, I came here for medical treatment and met a little girl..." It turns out that she has never forgotten her for so many years.I always remember that ten years ago, it was in Fengwu Lane that she said the phrase "go inside", and it was in Fengwu Lane that she said the phrase "Girls should cherish their hands". Here, she lived in her heart and could never come out again.It's a pity that times have changed, people have changed, Xuerou is still the little girl she protected inside, and Bai, no longer recognizes her face.

"Auntie, we're here." She pretended to wipe her eyes casually in the dim light of the sky, and did not continue the topic just now.

My father was not at home, and the neighbor said he had gone out to play cards.Her little home has not changed in the past ten years.The dim light filled the living room, the breeze came in from the window, and the window screens hanging on both sides fluttered like wicker.The sofa in her house is not a leather sofa, but a very retro and simple fabric sofa. Xue Rou made her a cup of tea, and then the two of them sat side by side on the sofa, listening to the TV broadcast in their ears. What are the boring reports, each worry is heavier than the other.

In fact, what was the reason for calling her here, even Xue Rou couldn't figure it out.Was it because she was unwilling to become her daughter-in-law like this, or was there no way to dilute the feelings that shouldn't exist in the first place?

I vaguely remember when I was a child, my mother always walked in my bedroom with a high bun, looked through my bookshelf, sorted out the messy items on the desk, and lay on the bed holding a book while reading it. Glance at mother.In the blink of an eye, so many years have passed, and seeing Bai walking in her bedroom with a posture similar to her mother, Xuerou felt that her mother, who had been away for so many years, seemed to have suddenly returned.

"Xuerou really deserves to be a talented woman in the entertainment industry. I have opened my eyes today." Qing Wan couldn't help admiring as she flipped through stacks of awards and certificates on the bookshelf.There are three best students at the school level, three best students at the provincial level, champions in the Mathematical Olympiad, and No.1 in physics competitions, etc.She can't help but shine in the literature and history competitions, and even excels in science and engineering competitions.

"What happened in the past is no longer worth mentioning." It's not really polite.The fact is true, no matter how good she is, no matter how outstanding she is, it has evolved into the past after all.

"With such good grades, why didn't you try to take the Qingbei exam, but why did you choose Yi?"

"For one person." She turned her back and stopped looking at her, "Before I met that person, I did want to study with peace of mind, go to a prestigious school with peace of mind, and then follow the steps as my father and teacher said. Live a carefree life. But that person appeared and disrupted all my plans. I hesitated for half a year, and finally realized that compared with her, prestigious schools are not worth mentioning at all."

If she hadn't met Bai, she thought, she would have been married and had children.There will be a safe and stable job, and a not so rich but complete family just like everyone else.Live the ordinary days of firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea.No surprises, no frustration, and no despair.

"Is it someone Xuerou likes?"

"No."

Not the one you like, but the one you love.But this sentence was swallowed in my heart, and I didn't say it in the end.Since it is love, then bury it deep.

"Xuerou, this, this is..." Hearing Bai's trembling voice, she immediately turned her head, but unexpectedly, that alluring face had completely lost its calmness from the beautiful flower shining in the water just now, as if , the prelude to a raging storm.