The Queen's Secret

Bai Qingwan, who was not related to her, made Liao Xuerou, who had always prided herself on being strong, feel like shedding tears.

She thanked her, lowered her head and stopped talking, and closed her eyes hard to try to calm herself down as much as possible.

"Put it on."

Bai Qingwan took off the flaxen leather gloves, and handed them to Liao Xuerou, who was carrying a floral cloth bag and her hands were red from the cold.In fact, even Liao Xuerou couldn't remember clearly how long she hadn't worn a scarf or gloves. She was lazy since she was a child, and her mother took care of all the trivial things in life. When her mother was alive, she would always knit for herself. A beautiful flower scarf, and then wrap it around yourself before going out. At that time, in winter, my mother reminded her to apply hand cream every day, and then put the gloves on the shoe cabinet. She never got cold.

And for many days and nights after her mother left, she never touched scarves and gloves, and no one would care about her anyway.Even if she has chilblains, it's just that she feels sad, and no one will worry about her.

She seemed to be stupid, but she didn't take the gloves for so long, Bai Qingwan had no choice but to stop, hold her hands, and help her put them on herself: "Girl, you must take good care of your hands."

At that time, Bai Qingwan was 30 years old, and Liao Xuerou was 15 years old. This made her experience the care of her family for the first time after three years.

For the first time, Liao Xuerou knew that such a glamorous star was not as lofty as she thought in the past. She usually looked as dazzling as a pearl, but she had a more delicate mind than ordinary people.

She just led her away with her head down like that, neither looking at her nor talking to her, but her heart was in a turmoil.

Bai Qingwan was wearing black round-toed flat shoes, her body exuded a smell fresher than dew, like jasmine flowers blooming in the valley in late autumn.She is so beautiful, but she is so unassuming that people will like her inexplicably. This kind of beauty will fascinate the opposite sex, but it will not make the same sex jealous at all.

"Thanks, little girl."

Bai Qingwan gently stroked her head. At that time, Bai Qingwan was a whole head taller than Liao Xuerou. Liao Xuerou lowered her head, took off the gloves and handed them to her, then gave Bai Qingwan a smile.In her memory, she didn't seem to have smiled so comfortably for a long time.

In the past few days, it was difficult for her to find a reason to be happy.

When she turned to leave, hearing the knock on the door, she felt inexplicably depressed.Mr. Dai, it has been a long time since that door was opened for those who came to see a doctor.

When he got home, his father was sitting on the sofa smoking a cigarette. His father was not like this in the past. He used to be tall and handsome, and always had a smile on his face that made Xuerou feel at ease.But now, her fingers were blackened and yellowed by cigarette butts, and her lips were no longer red but light purple. Such a father not only made her heartache, but also worried her more.

Except for the working hours, as long as my father stays at home, it seems that he will never be happy.

Xuerou's academic performance is excellent, and she has never fallen out of the top three since the third grade of elementary school, especially in mathematics, most of the time it is close to full marks.Her excellence and intelligence are known to everyone in the neighborhood. From time to time, some aunts will bring their children to Liao's house to ask her for learning experience. Even the death of her mother did not stop her learning There was a slight drop in grades.

On the second day after that day, she heard that Mr. Dai had passed away. She was walking on the way to school, but when she heard the news, she immediately turned around and went to Mr. Dai's residence.

Seeing the empty space in front of the door, she couldn't figure out why she came here for a moment.

Finding troubles for myself for no reason is really mediocre.

She closed her eyes and shook her head, trying to get rid of the displeasure in her heart, as well as the worries and thoughts she shouldn't have.That kind of god-like person is not what she should think about.

So Liao Xuerou was late for the first time in her life, lost her mind in class for the first time, and couldn't answer the teacher's questions for the first time.Her grades have always been excellent, so she can only look up at her from a distance, but her eyes are fixed on the textbooks, but her mind is full of other things.

For middle school students, answering the teacher's questions in silence is commonplace, but for top students like Liao Xuerou, who rarely even gets No.The teacher in charge touched her hair softly and asked her if something had happened in recent days, she just shook her head blindly and said that she was just restless and not as good as others.

The windows, which had been in disrepair for a long time, were whistling by the cold wind, and it felt like they were about to be blown apart at any time.Liao Xuerou tightly clutched the corner of her clothes, her palms were sweating non-stop.

The teacher couldn't bear to blame her. Every school is the same. Anyone who plays the role of a teacher always prefers students with good grades and good temperament.

The days were so uneventful, perhaps because of the growing longing for her mother, she began to pay attention to Bai Qingwan's new songs, and began to buy some entertainment weekly magazines from the newsstands on the roadside.Thinking about what Bai Qingwan said to her that day, she slowly learned to take care of herself.She thought that she really shouldn't live so casually.

She has been sensible since she was a child. When her mother was there, she shared her mother's worries. She was really the most caring little padded jacket for her mother. She was never self-willed or arrogant. To pick up the complicated chores at home.

She has always been obedient, except in the second year of high school.

When my father heard her say that she was going to study acting, he was so angry that he almost threw up the table. She was his only hope, his only sustenance and concern.Everyone said that he was blessed to have such a worry-free daughter, and all his father's expectations were placed on her.

Father asked her why.

She only replied: "I just feel that I am already unable to do what I want to study, and if I continue, it will be futile."

She turned her back and stopped looking at him, tears streaming down her face.It took her more than half a year to make this decision. Others don't know it, but she knows it all too well. Ever since she met Bai Qingwan that day, she will never forget her again. Those pair of peach blossoms that are as crystal as jade Eyes, those warm hands like a mother, and that caring word that made her always want to cry.

She thought, she must go to her.

That day, her father dragged her sick body to her school, and she stood in front of the class teacher and her father with her head down, her hands interlaced and folded, and her father's coughing and sighing could be heard in her ears.In fact, she doesn't know how crazy her decision is, but she has followed the rules for too long, if she can, she wants to try to rebel.

"Xuerou, tell the teacher, what's the matter with you recently?" The report card on the teacher's desk was blown to pieces by the wind, and the head teacher tapped lightly with his fingers, "The you before, never fell out of the top three. ah."

Liao Xuerou suddenly found it funny, in the hearts of others, she should be a learning machine, never allowed to make mistakes, the machine can slow down and lose parts, but she can't.

She admitted that the sudden drop from No.1 to No. [-] this time was indeed her intention.She did not deny that she still had the ability to take the first place in the exam, but the teacher's words made her feel chilled.In the teacher's heart, her good grades have always been taken for granted.

"I want to learn acting."

She was still hesitant, but finally made up her mind.She is also very clear that many excellent art students have already started training in elementary school, and she is much later than others.But what does that matter, as long as she does her best, she will definitely be admitted to the Chinese opera.As long as she can get involved in the entertainment industry, she will definitely see her again in time.

A star, piercing the sky, will disappear, and a river will return to the sea when it flows to the end.At this moment, Liao Xuerou is like a moth eager to burn, overturning half of her life for the sake of a short fire.

The world is impermanent, she should stand closest to her when she is most affectionate.Even if they return in vain, at least there will be no regrets.

"Xuerou, Dad knows that you have grown up and have your own ideas. But after all, this is related to your whole life. Dad hopes that you can seriously think about it."

She always knew that her father was her last and only relative in this world.She loves him and wants the best life for him.She also vowed that she would be a promising person so that her father could hold his head high and stand tall, instead of coming to Fengwu Lane in hiding like now.

When she saw the bloodshot eyes in her father's eyes and his white hair, she felt indescribably sad.

"Father, Teacher Guo. I think clearly, please believe me."

Whether it is thorns or a sea of ​​flowers.She has followed the rules for too long, and she doesn't want to spend her whole life in such a plain land that obliterates any miracles.If she is a moth overwhelmed, she is willing to spend the rest of her life in the flames.

She would rise to the top, but not in the way my father thought.