The Queen's Secret

She carried a thick scripture and returned here with a smile all over her face.But I found out that everything was directed and acted by myself, a one-man show.

——Xuerou, I'm going home to see Xiaoyan.

"It's really stupid." She smiled, and the note in her hand floated to the ground. She gently put the heavy scriptures on the coffee table, as if nothing had happened, walked to the French window, and stared blankly. From a distance, looking at the sky.

"I was still thinking, I want to spend a good birthday for you. But it seems that there is no such opportunity." No matter how strong a person is, there will be weaknesses.What's more, it's just a young woman under 30 years old.A battered, battered woman.A poor woman disqualified from being a lover.

After all, I cried.

"Why did you leave, why do you still have to leave... why do you have to leave me alone every time..." Hot tears rolled down her cheeks, dripped onto her arms, and onto the cold floor.

She felt so alone.

The persistent fever and worsening cold gave her a splitting headache.But no matter how uncomfortable or painful, she survived it, because she felt that everything was worth it, as long as she could get these books, it was worth the hardship, and she was willing to do so.She is not afraid of suffering, but she doesn't understand why she has to face everything by herself every time.

All her sacrifices were not worth a single word from Huo Yuluo.All her love is not worth the brief reunion with A Yan.

She puts Bai in the most important position in her heart, but she is nothing to Bai.

She took out her mobile phone and looked through the address book. There were hundreds of numbers, but there was no one she could dial to talk to at this moment.She laughed, tears dripped into her mouth, she thought she must be ugly at the moment, and finally, the cursor stopped.Stand still on the number that no one will answer anymore.

"Why do you want to leave, you are the only one I can rely on..." Tears dripped onto the word Qin Liang on the screen, and that charming face that was always full of sunflower-like smiles reappeared in my mind.

In the past, every time she was sad, she would call Qin Liang.But now, she lost even her only support.

"You're gone. No one cares about me, and no one loves me...I don't want to be alone, I don't want to..." She threw the phone aside, hugged her legs tightly, and finally burst into tears .

What did she do wrong.

She didn't know how long she had been crying, her headache and heartache were intertwined, as if it was going to torture her to death.For a moment, she felt that it would be a relief to cry to death like this. She was too tired, really tired.

She had a dream.In the dream, there is a mother, a father, and a grandfather.

There is no Su family's mansion, nor Fengwu Lane, they are just like other people, living in the most ordinary and ordinary area in Beijing, living together as a family.My mother has always been so young and beautiful. She taught her to read and write, and occasionally showed her drawn designs to her who didn't understand anything.My father's health has always been very good. He has never been sick or depressed. Sometimes he would quarrel with his mother, but it didn't take long for him to reconcile.Grandpa is not a gangster, just an ordinary old man.

She did not enter the entertainment industry either, but was successfully admitted to university and became the most ordinary and happy person in this era who lived a happy life.

Without that snow, without that encounter, without that person.

In the dream, she and her family were always together.

"Xiaorou, Xiaorou..."

When she opened her eyes again, the woman was already sitting on the edge of the bed looking at herself.Still so familiar voice, still such a glamorous and peerless face.Nothing has changed, yet nothing is the same.

"Have you had a nightmare?"

"It's okay." Somehow, after this dream, Xue Rou felt that her headache was relieved a lot, and her body was not as uncomfortable as before. "It's just that I was too tired to work in Tibet a few days ago." She didn't look at her, just Sit up by yourself.

"Xiaorou, those scriptures..."

"Sister Anne gave it to me. I don't know why she gave it to me, but I will accept it if she gives it to me. If you are interested, you can take it and read it." Xuerou didn't even look at her, just started get dressed.

"Xiao Rou, what happened yesterday...Xiao Yan..."

"Okay." Xuerou interrupted her with a light smile, her eyes returned to the usual sharpness, "Where did you go yesterday, what did you do, these are not within the scope of my concern. But you should remember I once said, if you leave, don’t come back.”

"I can't worry about you."

Xuerou froze for a moment, and the acid water came up again.Since you can't worry about me, why do you have to leave me alone? Since you can't worry about me, why do you always make me sad.Since you can't worry about me, why do you always make me feel that I am a dispensable person?Bai, you always say that you worry about me, but the person who worries you the most is still not me.