light lemongrass

It wasn't until Yun Xi's back completely disappeared into the final gap that Zi Yang looked away, and found that Chu Mu had been looking at him.Not intending to be watched by him like a radar, Mu Ziyang got up and walked to the French window, admiring the long-lost scenery in front of him.The corners of the mouth draw a touch of arc, elegant and delicate,

"From here, it's still so spectacular."

"Well, I remember you and I first discovered this place. The only office in the building with floor-to-ceiling windows." Chu Mu also walked to Ziyang at this time and looked at the crawling city under his feet.Recalling that when they were classmates, they almost ran all over the building in order to find a place with sufficient sunlight, so when they found this house, the two celebrated a little.Such days are sealed in the groove of the years, thought to be forgotten, but engraved in my heart.

"Yes. But later, you came less often. This place became the secret base for me and Yaqi." As for why Chu Mu gradually alienated him at that time, Mu Ziyang always thought it was because he also liked it. Because of Yaqi.

"Isn't it good? My withdrawal gave you more opportunities to be alone." Chu Mu said coldly, looking into the distance, he thought, originally, he had never walked between the two of them.

"Hehe, that's right. Yaqi and I do have a lot of memories here." Looking around, the smile in the corner of Ziyang's eyes became stronger, "The decoration here has not changed at all from that time. It’s just sitting on the same sofa and reading the same magazine, no one wants to think about anyone, but in the end it’s me who compromises.”

Looking at Ziyang who was caught in memories, Chu Mu thought, Ziyang still can't forget Yaqi, in his heart, Yaqi is not something anyone can easily replace, never before, never now.

"As long as there is no inspiration, Yaqi will ask me to count the buildings outside the window. You need to know how many high-rise buildings there are in Ningdu. It is strange to say that every time I count half of the inspiration, the inspiration will come to me by accident.... Countless nights, we It's like two tired children clinging to each other and staring at the glitz outside the window..." Then they hugged each other, kissed each other, and made endless promises to each other. At that time, Ziyang thought that he was the happiest person in the world .You can live forever with your lover by your side forever.Unexpectedly, life presented him with a difficult problem, which is more painful than life or death?

Mu Ziyang's moment of silence calmed down the small room. Chu Mu obviously wasn't used to such silence, and asked him,

"Why don't you go on?"

"Actually... I should have guessed that you would bring Yunxi here."

Chu Mu was taken aback for a moment, but soon returned to indifference, and moved the corner of his mouth, "I can't think of a better place for creation than here."

"Is it really just like that? Your secrecy is actually only aimed at me, isn't it?" Mu Ziyang said slowly in a gentle tone, sliding through the air between the two like flowing water.stay in someone's heart,

"But you also have a way to make such a secret disappear, and in a way I didn't expect." For example...stalking.

"Oh, yes."

Looking at the smiling Ziyang, Chu Mu walked to him and stopped.This was the first time he saw Mu Ziyang up close after two years.If at that time he was described as handsome and cold, then the current Mu Ziyang is so dazzling that no one can turn his attention. He is perfect and invincible in front of everyone.HERO on the screen, the cold and handsome face showing a faint smile from time to time is enough to turn all living beings upside down.If, as a designer, he more or less retains the innocence of a teenager, then HERO, who is now a star artist, exudes a maturity that surpasses his age.Looking at the chestnut hair that has been dyed, I remember that Yaqi said that Ziyang is most suitable for black hair. She always said that although she looks cold, she is very beautiful.Therefore, Mu Ziyang has never dyed his hair and kept his natural black hair.What made him dye the black hair reserved for Yaqi, and asked him curiously,

"What happened to your hair?"

"This..." Mu Ziyang patted his head and thought for a while, "It's only been dyed for a while, so how about it, it's not bad."

"Why dye it? Isn't it always black hair?" Chu Mu looked at Mu Ziyang and waited for his answer.

Why dye?Ziyang thought about why he wanted to abandon the black hair that had been with him for so long, it must have something to do with that little fool, he thought.Because once Xiao Chen suddenly told himself that someone thought black hair made him look like a vampire.For the sake of Yaqi, the black hair that he had never thought of changing, after being commented as a vampire, he found that he was not as angry as he imagined, but laughed easily.Turning his head to look at Chu Mu,

"Don't you think I look like a vampire with black hair?"

"Huh?" Chu Mu was surprised by Mu Ziyang's joking question, and was taken aback. After what he said, Chu Mu compared the former Mu Ziyang with the vampire on TV in his mind, and they were really similar.Suddenly I wanted to laugh, but I had to maintain an indifferent expression.Chu Mu coughed twice.

"Hehe, you can laugh if you want to, why are you smiling like you're not smiling?"

Ignoring Mu Ziyang's venomous tongue, Chu Mu adjusted his mood and said again, "But, you have always grown black hair for Yaqi. Before, there were always people who asked you to dye your hair and you didn't agree with it. Why don't you tell me?" I said that you were infected on the spur of the moment."

Oh, he's still so unlikable.The character that gets to the bottom of it still cannot be changed.What a headache.Ziyang loosened his hair and looked at the tall building outside the window, "Even if I said it was impulsive, you wouldn't believe it, would you?"

"What do you think?" Chu Mu was ready to listen with his arms folded.

Ziyang paused, took a few steps back and leaned comfortably on the edge of the table, the smile on his cheek under the soft sunlight made Chu Mu feel a little trance-like.Looking at him, listening to the plain melody slowly floating in the quiet air like a wind chime,

"You know who said I look like a vampire?"

"..." There is already an answer, but Chu Mu hopes to hear it from him.

"That so-and-so person is Yun Xi. I'm afraid he doesn't know that Xiao Chen will tell me what he said." Otherwise, Yun Xi would have made a fuss and asked herself a hundred thousand reasons. Zi Yang continued, "Maybe you don't think so. It's very possible, but at that time I would often overlap Yunxi and Yaqi. I knew they were two unrelated individuals, but I saw Yaqi's face when I saw Yunxi for the first time. Shadow. So I brought him back to the apartment and made him my tenant, and even brought him into the company later, all of these were just out of my selfish desire to keep him like Yaqi by my side. At that time, all I had to do was see When Yun Xi smiles, she will think of Ya Qi, the two of them really have many similarities."

"You mean you take him as a substitute for Yaqi?" Chu Mu's expression changed slightly.

"Well... I think so, even though I never admit it." Ziyang's eyes were a little blurred. Although he was looking out the window, Chu Mu couldn't imagine what kind of scenery Ziyang would see at this time. He could only Listening quietly to his narration, "But when I heard Yunxi say that I look like a vampire, I suddenly realized that I had to separate the two of us again. Han Yunxi is Han Yunxi. He not only doesn't like my black hair, but also won't smoke because of me." And the allergic cough, he won’t tell me jokes when I’m angry, and he won’t make milk for me but make coffee for me when I stay up late writing songs... Even he always makes some silly in front of me Xiao Chen said that I was cruel because I always put Yaqi's shadow on him, so when I found out that he was completely different from Yaqi, I was also shocked."

"The result? You chose him and gave up Yaqi."

Ziyang shook his head, "No... When I found out that I could no longer coexist with two people, I did the worst thing."

"Is it worse than yesterday's?"

Uncompromising, nodded, "En..." The memory is like a swaying beam of light back to the day that Mu Ziyang will never forget, that afternoon full of humidity in Hokkaido, "You must have never imagined that I left him in a completely strange place."

Why?leave?strangeness?These words that shocked Chu Mu came out of Ziyang's mouth, which were plain and mixed with small pieces of sadness. After the sadness floated into the fresh sunlight and fermented, what Chu Mu thought of was Yun Xi's pure and sunny smiling face...

"So, you are sad and blame yourself for this, you feel that you are sorry for him, you want to..." "No!" Chu Mu was snatched away by Ziyang before he could finish speaking,

"It's not just self-blame, it's a kind of heartache, like the heartache of losing Yaqi. Chu Mu, you can't understand that feeling. After losing Yaqi, at least I still have memories to live on. But Yunxi, I have always been regarded as Yaqi's substitute, we have no memories, I once thought that once he left, I might soon forget him. However, after he left, in the apartment, on the bed, on the clothes, in the living room , the scent of lemongrass on his body is everywhere, no matter how much I spray perfume, I can't get rid of this smell, as long as I smell this smell, I will forget many things, forget Yaqi, forget memories, and even forget how to live, before How did you live and how will you live? You know? It's really that bad."

Listening to Mu Ziyang's words, Chu Mu was immersed in his own thoughts for a long time, and there was another silence between the two of them...