Nashan Nahe

The new government was established, my father was reactivated, and he was temporarily transferred to the Ministry of Culture to take up the post. Soon, he will go to Nanjing to take up the post. All the children in the family are going to school, and I also want to apply for university, so we and my mother can only stay in Tianjin and return to Beijing. When I got home, at dinner, my father looked at me and asked why not

"You two, what are your plans for the future, have you thought about it?" Father asked in his usual elegant and gentle tone

"I... I plan to go to college, why not..." I ate and looked at why not, then looked down at the lettuce in the bowl, a little nervous, I don't know, how would she answer?What is she going to do?i want to know too

"I, I haven't figured it out yet." He held the chopsticks, supported the bowl with both hands, looked at his father, and whispered

"How can you not think about it? Your grades are not bad, but you are very partial. If you work hard, even if you embrace Buddhism temporarily, it should not be a big problem to get into a university. Unlike the old society, girls have to marry early People, now regardless of gender, if you don’t study, you will have no way out.” Father said very seriously, he was afraid why he wanted to give up studying

"Well, I know, I will make a decision as soon as possible" No one spoke anymore, and I was so preoccupied, it's not that she didn't think it over, I felt that she had thought it over, I just didn't know how to say it, I ate hastily, I went Washing the dishes, why not burn the bath water as usual, the weather is still a bit cold at the end of spring, I still stand at the door of the small kitchen, watching why not add firewood to the fire, I don’t know, what is my feeling Come here, there is no basis for it, but I just feel that if I want to see her boil bath water for the family like this, it may be... a long time to wait!I feel that we are about to separate. This feeling did not come suddenly. It came when I decided to apply for the university, but she did not tell me her decision for a long time. This feeling made me anxious and restless. That's why, because of a little thing, I think too much, and just get angry with her.

"Don't stand at the door, come in and warm up, you'll catch a cold later" She was still talking while adding firewood with a wooden stick, I looked at her, didn't go in, turned around and went back to the room, picked up the Brought back from school, she gave me the anthology of Jimenez, flipping through it boredly, after a long time, she came in and asked me to take a bath

"Do you want me to wash it for you?" She stood by the big wooden barrel without taking off her clothes, just looking at me like that, how should I answer?We usually wash together, she...maybe she saw that something was wrong with me today, so why not wash with me?I didn't speak, I stood still, lowered my head, bit my lower lip, and for a moment, I felt myself falling into a warm and thin embrace. helpless

"Jiayu, Jiayu..." She just whispered my name over and over again

She knows my anxiety? !What can I do if I know, from this tone, I not only heard her helplessness in parting, but also her steadfastness!

At night, I touched her chin. A year had passed, and there was still a light-colored scar. I hugged her waist tightly, put my ear on her heart, and listened to her drum-like heartbeat. , I have listened to it for three years, it makes me feel at ease...

I know she's not asleep, even if she doesn't open her eyes, I can still feel her burning eyes, which makes me even more scared, I always feel that she is really going to leave me, to the point where I can't see or grasp her. When I arrived at her place, my throat seemed to be choked by something, and the pain became more and more unbearable. I gritted my teeth, tried my best to hold back, and leaned tightly in her arms. This whole night, I dare not sleep, nor do I want to sleep !

When the sun was about to set, Qin Yuan came to look for Ling Ping, he cheered himself up, he wanted to speak clearly with Ling Ping, he wanted to know Ling Ping's mind, and let Ling Ping know his own mind

"Ling Ping, um... go for a walk in the yard?" Qin Yuan carefully asked Ling Ping in the corridor

"Okay," Ling Ping said with a sigh of impatience.

"Well... Ling Ping, now that the whole country is unified and we have graduated, do you have a favorite school?"

"Unification? That's just a formal unity. Zhang Zuolin in the Northeast didn't say he was a member of the Nationalist Government."

"This..." Qin Yuan was at a loss for words for a moment, why did the topic come here?Shouldn't you be answering the question of your choice of school?

"what happened?"

"Uh...no, nothing. I, I want to say that Wuhan is not bad. The Ministry of Education just took over Wuhan University. It was founded by Zhang Zhidong in the late Qing Dynasty. It is a very good university."

"That's right, you're going to Wuhan University? Well, I wish you success" Ling Ping glanced at Qin Yuan and said casually

"Do you like Wuhan?"

"I have never been there, I don't know"

"Then go and have a look"

"Go again when you have time." After finishing speaking, Ling Ping looked at the sunset in the sky, followed a row of low earthen walls to the west, reflected in the flowers and trees in the courtyard, the steps, and the raised corners of the corridor, She was a little lost in thought, curled the corners of her lips, faced the sunset, smiled softly, turned around and walked towards the dormitory, Qin Yuan stood in place, looked at Ling Ping, without glasses, he was a little less polite than usual, A little more heroic spirit

"She seems to be waiting for something, isn't she?" Qin Yuan frowned slightly and said to himself

I just found out that Qin Yuan deliberately trained his eyesight, so he stopped wearing glasses since last year, so why did he deliberately train his eyesight?He is going to Wuhan, he is really going to Wuhan, but not Wuhan University, he is going to Wuhan to apply for the branch of the Whampoa Military Academy in Wuhan, when he first heard the news, Why not He Lingping didn’t seem surprised, why not Because I seem to have guessed it a long time ago, Ling Ping doesn't care, but I am really surprised. This scholar who usually wears a Chinese tunic suit and wears gold-rimmed glasses, only knows how to bury his head in reading, and occasionally gives a long speech. Going to apply for the military academy! ?

"Okay, it's almost done, and I have nothing to clean up, Jiayu, go back and tell Mother Han for me, thank her for taking care of me over the years, and Teacher Han, if it weren't for this public school, I'm afraid it would have been long ago Frozen to death on the street, but if I can enter the military academy and graduate successfully, maybe I can see Mr. Han in Nanjing in the future.” The three of us stood beside his bed, watching him pack the few clothes, And the luggage that is so simple that it can't be simpler, listen to him say goodbye to us in just a few words

The three of us left silently. When we left, Qin Yuan was still folding his clothes and didn't look up at us.Early the next morning, Qin Yuan left, and I leaned against the window, watching him carrying a black cloth bag, or the Chinese tunic suit that had been worn for several years and had been washed a little white, passing by the girls' dormitory, tall and thin His figure was shortened in the hazy morning light, but he followed his footsteps firmly until he walked out of the campus and disappeared from my sight. No one saw him off when he left, including the three of us, nor Go, I look back, Ling Ping and Why Buwei are still asleep...

I'm going to take the exam in a few days, Ling Ping still doesn't have any plans, but no one has asked her, now, whenever I go to the teacher's tuition, or read a book, why don't I just sit in the corridor in a daze until I see I will show a little look on my face.Like many senior high school students today, I frantically make up for various homework before the university exam.

"No reason?"

"Huh? What's the matter?" When I graduated from the third year of junior high school, the small slope in the courtyard was still there. I was a little tired in the afternoon and didn't want to read. Why Buwei and I sat here and chatted

"After you..." I said with some hesitation

"I'll tell you when you pass the college entrance examination," she said, stroking my head, the short hair that my mother had just trimmed for her, swaying gently and unruly in the wind

I successfully passed the exam, and got the admission quota, why didn't I go "crazy" for the first time, jumping up and down on several mounds in the school, shouting and laughing, I smiled and looked at her, She ran towards me suddenly, carried me around the big trees in the courtyard, and circled back and forth. She hadn’t carried me for a long time. What about telling her the decision?

Although Guo Songling's uprising failed back then, his idea of ​​supporting the people and planting the local land was recognized and supported by people. This year, in April, in order to truly unify the whole country, Chiang Kai-shek and Shi restarted the Northern Expeditionary Army and prepared to go north to crusade Zhang Zuolin, China at that time, although unified in name, but internal divisions still existed, first the Nanchang Uprising, the Communist Party of China established its own armed forces, and then Zhang Zuolin retreated to the Northeast due to defeat by the national army, and continued to dominate one side, and In order to prevent the national government from "inserting a foot" in the Northeast, Japan continues to put pressure on the government like Zhang Zuolin. Therefore, this island country that respects courtesy from the outside world does not hesitate to find all kinds of ridiculous excuses to support itself The brutal and despicable deeds. At that time, Zhang Zuolin's troops were stationed in Beiping and Tianjin. The Nationalist Army's turbulent approach made Zhang Zuolin uneasy. Japan seized this opportunity to create troubles under the pretext of protecting the overseas Chinese.

Recently, the constant sound of guns and guns in the streets and alleys made me afraid and dare not go out. Most of the time, I spent most of my time at school with Ling Ping and Why Buwei, two "cool" young people who are silent about the future. , I was reading a book in the corridor, why didn't you lean on my shoulder, and dozed off in a daze, I saw her staggering from time to time, and was about to tell her to go back to the dormitory to sleep, but before I could speak, Ling Ping yelled, The school gate ran in, and Lao Yang was smoking a pipe at the door, looking puzzled at Ling Ping who was rushing in all the way.

"Jiayu! No!" She shouted while running, why not wake up for a jerk, rubbed her eyes, just like me, looking suspiciously at the sweaty head in front of her, with disheveled hair, panting heavily Angry Ling Ping

"what's wrong?" i asked

"That, that, that, today..." She hadn't recovered yet

"Don't worry, I'll get you a glass of water." Why didn't you get up, Ling Ping grabbed him

"No, no need, Jinan, Jinan..." As I spoke, I saw tears in her eyes, as if she was about to cry, Jinan?What happened to Jinan?Ling Ping and Lao Yang are fellow villagers and from Shandong.

"Speak slowly, don't worry, what's wrong with Jinan?" Why didn't you frowned, stood up straight, and said a step forward

"There are dead people in Jinan. It's the Japanese. The Japanese did it. Yes, dead. There are more than 5000 dead..." She didn't know whether it was panting from running just now, or choked up. I bent my knees, buried my head, and burst into tears. I stood up and stood there in a daze. The book in my hand fell to my feet.

Why not stare at her with tears in her eyes, clenched her fists, and looked forward. Suddenly, she ran forward. While running, she untied the Zhongshan coat she was wearing and threw it far away. Just like that, she ran out of the school gate , ran out of my pursuing eyes, ran out of the early summer afternoon with gunshots, Lao Yang at the door anxiously called her from behind, but she didn't turn her head back, I knew she wouldn't turn her head for anyone, Including me, I know, she doesn't want to be a gentle scholar anymore, she is not a "gentle" scholar in the first place, I know, she is fed up with such a seemingly comfortable life!her decision?This is her decision not to speak to me all this time!I didn't chase her, didn't call her, just stood in the corridor like that, watching her disappearing back, with Lingping's wailing in my ears, and Ximenez's anthology at my feet...

This day, May 1928, 5

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☆、Chapter Eleven

Why not? After leaving for a few days, Ling Ping packed a few books and a winter padded gown. She wore a straight cheongsam like mine and went to Peking. She wanted Peking to apply for Yenching University. The situation is tense now. I don't advocate that she is a girl. She is going to Beiping alone at this time. Her character, now that she has decided, I'm afraid it's useless to say it. Give her the embroidered cloth shoes. I hope that these thin cloth shoes, with my full blessings, will send her to the far place she wants to reach, safe and sound!Since then, the four of them have parted ways, and the future is uncertain. I look forward to the day when we will meet again, but after just a few years, I am afraid of seeing each other again!

After the May 1928rd massacre, Zhang Zuolin seemed to have realized his conscience and withdrew his troops, but the Japanese still refused to forgive him. Although Zhang Zuolin was a reckless man, he had the blood of a reckless hero of that era!Because of their reluctance to cooperate with the Japanese, in June 6, the Huanggutun Station of the South Manchuria Railway was ambushed and killed by Japanese troops ambushing there. Japan built the South Manchuria Railway at the beginning of the 20th century, almost running through half of the Northeast. , The wolf's ambition has already been clearly revealed!After Zhang Zuolin's death, he left behind a huge Northeast, a huge Fengjun, and a son who was neither capable nor courageous. Unification, but a disaster is slowly approaching!

In the autumn of this year, I entered the university. At that time, no one in the university considered work or employment in the future. Entering the university was to study, or learn a skill, and serve the motherland in the future. Now China is in a booming period , the government is eager to seek talents, and university teachers are doing their best to attract and educate talents for the country!In fact, until 1937, these ten years were also the golden decade of modern China. People rushed to catch up with the time, but after all, this is a country that has been sick and weak for a hundred years. Ten years...is not enough!

Qin Yuan sent me a letter. He didn't know my new address, so he sent it to my home. He told me that he had successfully entered the Whampoa Military Academy and became a student of the seventh period. I was really happy for him and replied to the letter Give it to him, tell him my new address, and tell him that Ling Ping went to Beiping and was at Yenching University. I thought that such a seemingly unintentional disclosure might still create opportunities for him and Ling Ping?I didn't mention why in the letter, because I don't know where she is now, and I don't want to recall the day she left, and I don't want to remind myself that she left me, and so far, there is no news... …

I am studying in the Department of Literature. I like to write poems and lyrics. I am good at articles on weekdays, and I am often favored by teachers and classmates. With my personality, at the beginning, being so concerned by people made me feel a little embarrassed and uncomfortable, but I gradually got used to it, but I... still read books all day long like before, and I don't want to participate in any school clubs or social activities. This makes me more or less out of place among a group of classmates.

At night, when everything is quiet, accompanied by the breathing of my roommate who has fallen asleep, I will let myself under the cover of darkness and miss that person. On the day she left, I picked up her Zhongshan coat that was still on the dirt road. I didn’t wash it. After this dusty coat, it has a faint scent of cotton oil soap. When I go to sleep at night, like her, I fold the coat into a square and put it under the pillow. Wenji, I don't dare to think, where is she now, is she doing well, because... I don't even know whether she is dead or alive, I can only let myself recall, recalling her life in those best times. Every frown and smile!

During the lunch break that day, I was in the dormitory with some classmates to endorse. There was a girl named Mu Ying in the next class who was standing at the door, looking at me. At first, I thought she was looking for other classmates, but then I felt, Are you here to find me?

"Excuse me, are you..." I put down the book and said hesitantly

"I'm here to look for you, are you Han Jiayu?" The other party was wearing the same school uniform as me, not as tall as me, with delicate features, but his eyes showed confidence and firmness

"I am, what's the matter?"

"Can you come out with me?"

I thought about it, and went with her to the other end of the corridor, in a quieter corner. She seemed to be looking at me carefully. Such impolite behavior made me feel very uncomfortable.

"I want to ask you, what do you think of the current domestic situation?" The other party stopped me in one sentence. I am a book girl, so I can be said to be the kind of person who keeps my ears off the window and only reads classics and history collections.As for the situation, I am the same as before, listen.

"I, I don't have an opinion" I'm just telling the truth

"No opinion? How could there be a young man like you? Are you unwilling to tell me? I don't mean anything else, I just want to talk to you." Hearing my answer, she seemed a little surprised, talk?Talk to me about this?And, so suddenly?

"I'm not unwilling to say, I really have no opinion"

"...well, okay" she said, she turned and left

Going home on the weekend, my eldest sister, Jiaqi, is already a sophomore in high school. Next year, she should apply for university, but I can see that she doesn’t seem to be doing much in her studies. My father was transferred to the Ministry of Foreign Affairs a while ago, and his work is more complicated. It was much more busy before. In the first half of the year, when he first went to the Ministry of Culture, he could come back once a month to visit the school and stay at home for a few days, but now he hasn’t come back for two consecutive months. My mother has an old problem of asthma, and she will get sick every winter, so every rest day, I must come home. Although I can’t do much, at least I can help my younger siblings wash their clothes. Occasionally, I also learn from my mother. to cook.

"Jiayu, is it because there is news?" My mother was chopping vegetables and chatting with me.

"Well...not yet" I said very quietly, I didn't want to hear these three words myself

"Hey... I don't know what happened to the child, a girl, it's so chaotic outside, hey..." The mother hesitated to speak, and sighed heavily, like... a heavy weight, hitting my head heavily In my heart, yeah, how are you doing?I squatted on the ground, picked vegetables, and buried my head lower, but the bangs on my forehead stuck to my eyes, with a little sparkle.

I have lived in this small courtyard for many years. At the beginning of the year, when my father was leaving, he found the owner and bought this courtyard. Now, my mother has repaired it again, and it looks much more spacious. The youngest brother is six years old, just lively and mischievous. At this age, my mother is not very comfortable. I don’t want her to pester my mother anymore, hug him, and play hide-and-seek with Jiaqi and her in the yard. Jiaqi hides behind the door of the hut. At this time, I had no choice but to make a sound on purpose to let her find me, which was a bit of comfort. He immediately broke into a smile, I picked him up, wiped his nose, he sucked his nose, and said to me

"I haven't seen my eldest sister for a long time." The eldest sister she said, why not do it, these years, the family has long regarded her as their own family, and my parents also let my younger brothers and sisters call her eldest sister, except me, only me, I can call her No!

"Well... Eldest sister, I went to school in another place, and I have to go on vacation before I can come back."

"Well, yes, big sister, I haven't been back for a long time, where does big sister go to school?" My big brother, who was doing homework, also ran out

"This..." Seeing them continue to ask endlessly, Jiaqi came to coax them, my consciousness gradually drifted away, I couldn't hear what they were saying, I could only see those little faces looking up at me, those Lips, opening and closing, I really want to shout at them, don't mention that person to me again, don't ask me again, I don't know anything!But I didn't. When I came back to my senses, I went back to the small room full of books and had a faint musty smell. Why didn't I come back home after I left, and I was alone. I didn't dare to sleep here. It was all Jiaqi. Sleep with me, because there are too many, too many...

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Ling Ping didn't care about the bombardment outside, or the flames of war, she didn't care about the Northern Expedition or the Southern Expedition, she was just waiting, waiting for why not to make a decision, why not go wherever, she went there, but she didn't wait, or waited. , but failed to keep up with why not.

That day, when she raised her head, she saw Han Jiayu who was holding a collection of poems and a coat in a daze, but why not, she had already left, she asked Han Jiayu, why not where did she go, Han Jiayu replied that she didn't know, and then lost her mind Gu walked into the dormitory, but she knew from Han Jiayu's expression, why not come back again!

Maybe it was disheartened, or maybe there was still some expectation. She came to Peiping and entered Yenching University. Although her grades were not high, she was admitted. She knew why she was from Hebei, and it was close to Hebei. Why not Because it might be here.

Qin Yuan said in the letter that it was Han Jiayu who told him his address, and that he had been admitted to Whampoa as he wished. He was very nervous about military training and political studies on weekdays, so he could not write letters often. He hoped that Lingping would take good care of himself. He was looking forward to seeing them again. One day, since then, every once in a while, I can receive a letter from Qin Yuan. Lingping always glances at it for a while, and then throws it into an iron box. This is Lingping, the person and person she doesn't care about. For her, it's always just a gust of wind, blowing away without leaving any traces. When she left, Han Jiayu gave her a pair of cloth shoes. She knew that it was made by Han's mother, and she also knew the meaning of Han Jiayu's shoes , she thanked that mother Han who had never met, and also thanked Han Jiayu for her sincere blessings, but she didn't know how far, how close, or where she wanted to go!

She doesn't know what she's doing now, maybe she's just holding on to the slim chances, waiting for something that will appear in front of her one day, maybe, she just wants to find a place to stay...

The author has something to say: Why can't I open my column since yesterday? !What to smoke!

☆、Chapter Twelve

There was a lot of crying in the classroom. There were many students from Northeast China in the class. The gray-haired teacher stood on the podium with tears in his eyes, looked at the students who couldn't control themselves, took a deep breath, and said loudly

"Don't cry! Now is not the time to cry! Crying is useless. The Japanese army is trampling on the Northeast with iron hooves. The national crisis is at stake. We should strive to survive!!!" After that, he picked up the chalk and wrote on the blackboard, Nine, One , Eight, don't forget the national humiliation!The exclamation point at the end broke the chalk because of too much force

I don't know exactly what happened, but I know that the Northeast is not ours anymore! ! !On the street, marching, protesting, protesting, and students and youths distributing leaflets, holding flags, shouting loudly, "Down with Japan, Japan, imperialism, and give me back the rivers and mountains." Shouting from the sky, hurried to the dormitory

"Han Jiayu" someone called me from behind, I looked back and it was Mu Ying

"Oh, Hello"

"There will be a speech later, let's go together" Mu Ying

"I, I still have homework" I don't know how to lie, I'm so tall, I either choose not to tell, or tell the truth, so at this time, I feel a little cramped

"What? Going to listen to the speech with your classmates, isn't it okay?"

"No, no, I..." I didn't know what to say for a while, and she stood opposite me, looking at me like that

"Okay, okay" After I finished speaking, I looked at her, she smiled at me, and I turned around and walked in the same direction as when I was with her

This is a small theater in a school, just an idle classroom, with a stage set up for small poetry gatherings or program rehearsals. In the afternoon, the golden autumn sun shines through the door, pulling My long shadow, I stood where I was, looking at the old bench, sitting on a few people, all of whom I didn't know, I was a little scared, wasn't it a speech?Why are there so few people?Before I had time to think about it, Mu Ying signaled me to go over. We sat on a bench in front of me. A tall, thin boy walked up to the stage. I thought, he is the one who will give a speech today. a few people, loudly said

"I think you all have seen the current situation and are well aware of it, but at this moment, when Japan occupied Shenyang overnight with only a few thousand people, our Jiang, committee members, leaders, and us Zhang Xueliang, the commander of the Northeast Army, actually abandoned tens of thousands of innocent lives in the Northeast with a gesture of non-resistance and inaction, and allowed the country to be trampled, trampled, ravaged, and ravaged by the Japanese. The cannon was aimed at our own people, wantonly arresting, killing, persecuting, and persecuting people from the Communist Party of China. Only a few years have passed since April [-], comrades..."

The boys on the stage were impassioned and filled with righteous indignation, but this sentence of comrades made my heart tighten. From my understanding, the person who talks about comrades should be the Communist Party, Communist Party, and I am against the Party, faction, government, I have no interest in governance, but I know that the country and the Communist Party are incompatible, and the Communist Party is very dangerous!So Mu Ying, too?I looked at her quietly, her cheeks were slightly bulging, her face was sullen, and she was still listening to the speech on the stage seriously, but I was only concerned with guessing in my heart, as for what was said later, I didn't listen at all.

"Resolutely oppose, divide, split, and defeat Xiao, Japan, Ben!!!"

The boy on the stage suddenly roared loudly, startled me, and brought my thoughts back. I saw a few people applauding enthusiastically, including Mu Ying, so I had no choice but to applaud too.The boy came down from the stage, everyone got up and followed him, Mu Ying led me, we walked out of the campus, walked around two streets, and at the entrance of a small alley, we met a group of students wearing Chinese tunic suits and cheongsams. , Maybe it was a different team at first, and then they walked together and came together, so there were high school students and college students in it. When the crowd passed us like a wave, we joined in. It was Mu Ying who led me to join in. They followed the crowd and shouted slogans. I only felt the stinging pain in my ears because of the loud waves, which made me very uncomfortable. People passing by me from time to time bumped into my shoulders, making me a little unstable. , a young high school student shouted and ran forward, nearly knocked me down, Mu Ying stretched out her hand and grabbed me, and I stopped. She didn't look at me, and continued walking, shouting, I I couldn't help frowning, and wanted to go back, but looking back, the road was not wide at all, and now it was packed tightly!

After thinking about it, I had no choice but to give up and continue walking with the crowd. I don't know how long I walked. When I reached a relatively wide road, Mu Ying took my hand and led me away from the parade. When I arrived at school, I let go of Mu Ying's hand. She looked at me with a smile, which made me very puzzled and unhappy.

"Han Jiayu, do you know why I brought you to our event?" Mu Ying asked me, I didn't answer, but I was thinking, our event?us?what is this about?an organization?Or simply referring to that group of classmates?Seeing that I didn't answer, she continued

"Because, I think, you are a very talented person, and you should use your talent to do something practical. That's why... I'll take you to listen to speeches and swim, okay, do you understand?"

I don't think I'm talented. As for practical matters, I think I should study hard!I took a group of young people to swim, travel, joke about other people’s lives, take risks, and when I saw this, I felt a little resentful in my heart. I even wanted to rush to the front and say to the group of people that we should go back and study hard. Instead of wasting time here!But I didn't do that, I thought, if I did that, I would definitely be shot to death on the spot, and then step on countless feet, making me unable to turn over forever, and she asked me if I understood?I really don't know, what should I understand, should I understand to join various parties and organizations, should I understand to go to protest in the streets? !I really do not understand.

Seeing that I have been silent, Mu Ying smiled, "I know, your father is in the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, and it is not easy for you to participate in many things. If you think I am too busy, then just ignore what happened today." After she finished speaking, she turned and left, pretending she didn't see it?Is she really...? !She is afraid that I will talk nonsense?Not good to participate?What's wrong with getting involved?Even if I don’t participate, it’s because I don’t want to participate. I don’t want to delve into this anymore. I hurried to the dormitory. There is only one classmate in the dormitory. Everyone else has gone. Sighing in my heart, I went back to the bed and lay on my side , Smelling the faint scent of cotton oil soap under the pillow, three years have passed, the smell has faded a lot, but I can still smell it clearly, just like that person, who has not contacted me for three years, her impression has not faded, On the contrary, it is more clear, how many times I dreamed back at midnight, I saw her smile, and woke up happily in the morning!But sometimes I also get angry, why is she so cruel?Really not even a letter?But in the next second, I will have a more terrifying thought, has she already... Because of this, I force myself not to think of her, so that I won't guess and scare myself, but I can't...

Ling Ping and Qin Yuan occasionally wrote me letters. Qin Yuan talked about the current situation, as well as his training and study at school. He graduated from the military academy in 1929 and became a platoon leader in the army. Since then, he has been I hope that no matter where he is, he will be safe and sound. Ling Ping is also good at liberal arts, so after going to Yanjing and entering the Department of Journalism, every time she writes, she always says that Watching her daily life, never mentioning her health and grades, but these are enough, as long as I know they are all good, as long as we are still in touch.

My father came back suddenly at this time, which puzzled me. He came back in a hurry more than a month ago, stayed for two days and then went back to work. Now that September [-] has not passed, why is he free to come back?After dinner, my father was reading the newspaper in the room, and I was teaching homework to my younger siblings in the main room

"Jiayu, look at this article, it's written every word." Hearing what my father said, I stood up and read the newspaper. Indeed, at this time, it is amazing to dare to write such an article critical of the government, but a few seconds later, I What interests me is no longer the article, but the words under the photo of the battlefield attached to the article, photography, why not

Why not? !is her?Is it really her?This is a photo she took?She is in the northeast?According to this photo and the article, she should be near Sanjianfang, where Zhang Haipeng and Yu Zhishan surrendered without a fight, and Jilin and Liaoning almost surrendered, then Sanjianfang is Ma Zhanshan’s department?Only Ma Zhanshan is still resisting the Japanese army, God!What is that situation? !How dangerous is that? !I can no longer bother to find out whether this person is the reason why, but when I see these three words and think about the battle situation in Heilongjiang, I already feel terrified, because of this name!

"Dad, have you ever asked someone to look for you in Nanjing?" I stared at the newspaper for a long time, then suddenly turned back and asked my father

"I have inquired about it, but there is no clue at all. China is so big, and the current situation... hey..."

"Dad, look, why not do this?" My father looked in the direction of my finger, a little surprised, grabbed the newspaper and read it again.

"I didn't pay attention to it just now. In this case, I have to go out to do errands tomorrow. I will go to the newspaper office and ask how this photo came about."

"Okay, you must ask"

"Um"

Carefully put away the newspaper and went back to the room. I was looking forward to it and afraid at the same time throughout the night. I expected that the person was really her, but I was also afraid that it was just an empty rejoicing. I tossed and turned on the bed.

"Sister, what are you doing? Can't sleep?" Jiaqi turned over and looked at me in a daze

"Hmm... kind of, did I wake you up?" I apologized

"Well, why can't you sleep? It's because of the eldest sister." Jiaqi propped her head on one hand and looked at me

"...Yes" I replied in a low voice

"Hey, you, when he is here, you don't stay with him, and when he leaves, you can't sleep at night, and you don't want to eat." Jiaqi said a bit jokingly, but she was right, but listening to this...how do you feel? ?She knows my relationship with Why Buwei?

"I don't have"

"No? No, you're always calling the eldest sister's name in your dreams." This was startling, dreaming?I admit that I like dreaming more and more, because I can see her in the dream, but I didn't expect that I would say it?

"...Uh...Really?" I was a little surprised, a little shy, and I didn't know what to say for a while.

"Hey... let's go to bed early." Jiaqi didn't reply, sighed, turned over and fell asleep again. Since He Buwei left, everyone in the family always sighed when they mentioned her, but I didn't, because I never took the initiative mention her...

close your eyes and think why not