Green tea sick beauty just wants to be a salted fish

When Fu Cheng's first life was young, her parents brought her dead uncle's house to visit her for New Year's greetings.

Uncle Shi is younger than his father, but only 40 years old. He has a six-year-old son who is the same age as Fu Cheng and ten months older than Fu Cheng. He is loved like a jewel by the whole family.

Fu Cheng suffers from autism and doesn't like to talk.When his mother led him in to celebrate the new year, the child was throwing a temper tantrum and sitting on Uncle Shi's stomach "riding a horse". No matter how much he coaxed him, he refused to get off.

Afterwards, Uncle Shi reached out and grabbed his son, put him on his shoulders and sat down, let the child hold his head to sit firmly, and shook hands with his father.

The child laughed happily, shook his legs and yelled at Fu Cheng's father, asking for a hug.

The father also seemed to like the child very much. After sitting down, he quickly reached out to hug the child and put it on his lap for questioning.

Unexpectedly, the child was naughty. Seeing that his father was gentle, he climbed directly on his father's abdomen and sat down, stretched out his arms to hug his father's neck, and yelled "Uncle is thinner than Dad", which made the adults laugh.

After a while, several adults turned to Fu Cheng again, coaxing Fu Cheng carefully, asking him if he had any snacks he wanted to eat, and if he wanted to play with his brother.

It was just because of his illness that they didn't come to hug him at will.

Fu Cheng was diagnosed with autism at the age of three. He never communicated with others, but he was a little miraculously clever. At that time, he had almost no interest in anything except listening to his father's lectures and his mother's poems. He just sat on the thick woolen bed every day. Repeatedly counting his newly learned formulas on the carpet, lowering his head and building blocks tirelessly, without any response to the laughter from the outside world.

That was the first time he noticed that the way other peers and elders got along was very different from his own, and it was also the first time he saw his father showing a loving expression, even if it was just because he was a guest at someone else's house, and it was a kindness to him. Looking at the child, the bad has been expressionless.

Fu Cheng looked at the melon and fruit dessert placed in front of her, tilted her head for a while, and then grabbed the small plate of mango mille-feuille as usual.

Like other autistic children, he behaves rigidly, eats only fixed things, and only does fixed things every day, like a different kind.

Seeing this, the elders forced a smile, patted his head carefully, and continued to try to talk to him gently. Even the lively child seemed to have discovered something sensitively, and stopped laughing, just sitting in his father's arms. Li looked at him suspiciously.

Fu Cheng didn't know how to figure out other people's psychology at that time, but at the age of six, he could already understand some extremely obvious changes in the atmosphere.

For example, at this moment, the lively children of the same age are afraid to make trouble, and the laughing adults have become more cautious.

And it's because he's here, because he's different from that kid.

Many childhood behaviors are difficult to explain, just like when Fu Cheng grew up, she didn't know why she felt sad when she was young, and why she remembered every action of a child of the same age that she was not familiar with so much. clear.

"It doesn't matter, I want to sit on Dad's stomach! Ride a horse!"

"Uncle is thinner than Dad, I want to sit here!"

"Why doesn't my brother speak?"

"My brother is beautiful, but he can't laugh and ignores people. Is my brother unhappy?"

……

Then came the low reprimand of the adults.

"Don't talk nonsense, my brother is just quiet. It's not like you are like a ball. If you catch an adult, you will ride a horse. You are used to it!"

……

Fu Cheng actually can't remember many things at that time very clearly, and sometimes it's hard to recall them even if she tries to think about them.

But this incident seemed so special that Fu Cheng had no memory at all, but when Yu Hanzhou hugged him and sat him on his stomach, he suddenly remembered the whole day.

The gauze curtain hangs low, the fragrance lingers, and the warm autumn sun outside the window makes the house much brighter. It is an excellent weather, and it is easy to relax.

Fu Cheng was pressed on the man's crotch, and his whole body was pinched limply.

Yu Hanzhou seemed to be afraid that he would fall, so he held him tightly with his big hands on his lower back, holding him in his arms.

Fu Cheng was hugged and fell into the man's arms, but her hands still kept the shy posture just now, with her back behind her back.

As a result, the young boy's white and tender forehead hit Yu Hanzhou's hard shoulder bones.

Seeing this, Yu Hanzhou hurriedly sat up straight with his arms around him, stretched out his hand to carefully touch Fu Cheng's forehead, and asked anxiously: "Is it painful? Are you dizzy?"

Fu Cheng rubbed his forehead lightly, blinked in confusion when he heard the sound, subconsciously pursed his lips and gave a small smile.

This smile was so innocent and pitiful, apparently he didn't even know whether he was in pain or not.

Yu Hanzhou frowned for a while, held the boy's cheek and stroked it comfortingly, then seemed to feel that it wasn't enough, then bowed his head and kissed the boy's blushing brow pitifully, and coaxed him in a low voice: "Good boy, it doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt, It's the truth that didn't protect you..."

Fu Cheng was kissed several times in a row, and then rubbed so that his forehead became hot, and only then did he slowly wake up.

He looked at Yu Hanzhou in a daze, thought for a while, and whispered: "I'm fine, I don't hurt, I was just thinking about something."

"What are you thinking about?" Yu Hanzhou's eyes flickered slightly.

Obviously just a moment ago, the person in his arms was flushed by the teasing, and he hid his hands back in shame, but in the next moment, he seemed to be in a daze, and the whole person looked at him in a daze, as if he lost his soul.

What Yu Hanzhou hated the most was Fu Cheng's dazed look.

It seems that on the day when we first met, the teenager felt that he had no one to rely on and nowhere to go, and every frown and smile was fragile and thin.

This kind of Fu Orange always gives people a sense of emptiness that cannot be grasped, too light to be realized.

Yu Hanzhou's eyes were gloomy, so he hugged him tightly, and moved closer to coax Fu Cheng to speak.

"What are you thinking about so preoccupied? Tell the truth, maybe one or two things can be resolved."

Fu Cheng was hugged tightly, subconsciously stretched out her hand to press Yu Hanzhou's chest, and said honestly: "Thinking of things when I was a child."

"I went to a relative's house once, and the other children were very lively and had a very likable personality, but when I was a child, I was not talkative, and I was dumb, ignoring people, and not likable."

Fu Cheng shyly scratched her snowy white cheeks, and muttered: "I'm sick, my parents and others have to consider my feelings and treat me carefully. But I know that normal children are more annoying." Only when people like it can it bring comfort and happiness to the elders.”

"I am like this, it is the burden of the elders, worry."

"Dad said I was smart, maybe I was also his pride, in some aspects, such as academics. But as a son, I let him down."

"I could see that they wanted me to be healthy and lively."

After Fu Cheng finished speaking slowly, she lowered her head again, and lightly poked Yu Hanzhou's abdominal muscles through the clothes.

"When I was young, I saw other children sitting on adults' stomachs and shoulders. I was sick at the time and didn't understand it. Later, when I grew up and understood it, I felt a little envious."

In fact, it wasn't such a secret thing. When Fu Cheng remembered it, she just said it, and didn't expect to get anything from it.

Everyone has things that he can't let go of. He didn't know that he had mentioned this thing in his dream, so he naturally felt that it didn't matter to him when he grew up.

But Yu Hanzhou only heard his sleep talk last night.

But with just a few words, the man made a series of connections, and he knew what happened.

After Fu Cheng finished speaking, she raised her head to look at Yu Hanzhou, but all she could see was the approaching chest.

Yu Hanzhou silently pressed him into his arms, as if he wanted to wrap him up completely, and hide him in his burning chest cherishedly and densely, so as not to let him suffer even the slightest harm.

Fu Cheng didn't feel anything at first, but after being hugged so comfortingly, the corners of her mouth and eyebrows drooped slowly, revealing a childishness and grievance that she had never felt before, and silently buried her face in the man's heart.

Just like a child who fell to the ground, if the adults didn't make a sound to coax him, maybe he didn't take it seriously and patted the ashes to stand up, but once someone caressed someone and asked him how he was, the tears couldn't hold back completely.

He acted like a baby to Yu Hanzhou in a low voice.

"I don't think I'm bad, I'm honest and obedient, right?"

"But I'm just different from others."

It seems that from the moment he was diagnosed with autism, he became an outlier.

"Papa didn't say I was bad, but he would be very happy if I was like the other kids."

Especially Fucheng's father had high hopes for him, hoping that his son would become a dragon.

If it weren't for that illness and unwillingness to contact the outside world, the achievements of Fucheng's first life would be far more than this.

He will become what his father is really proud of and looks forward to, and his mother's sadness and tears will not become a vast ocean.

"When my parents left, my illness suddenly recovered."

The eternal separation between man and nature is a future that Fu Cheng never imagined.

It was also from that time that his autism miraculously improved, but his physical condition deteriorated. Even though it took him just one year to surpass his father's achievements during his lifetime and attract worldwide attention, he was still irreversible in the face of death.

The elders around him kept looking at him, so they knew very well that Fu Cheng suddenly recovered and walked out of his own world just to fulfill his father's last wish.

But no one dared to stop him, as if he was afraid that if he breathed out, he would never be able to continue.

For some diseases, we can only hope for a miracle.

But Fu Cheng's miracle came a little later.

"Yu Hanzhou, am I very bad?"

Fu Cheng has always been proud, and it is easy to see the arrogance rooted in his bones in every move.

Yu Hanzhou never thought that the boy would ask this question.

The man gently followed Fu Cheng's back, and after a long silence he said, "Is being sick a person's fault?"

"As a human being, there are always things you can't do and don't want to do. If you don't want to laugh, you can stop smiling. If you don't want to be lively, you can be quiet. There is no absolute right or wrong."

Yu Hanzhou suddenly laughed hoarsely, and asked Fu Cheng's ear: "You see, you are like those old people who like to be noisy?"

"The dragon gave birth to nine sons, and they are all different. Bad habits must be changed, but temperament, who can say it is wrong?"

"The truth is that I don't want to comment on your father. I only want to talk about my mother. The only hope in life is that I can survive the troubled times. Most parents in the world think so."

"As for you, here in the truth, you are safe and happy, you are free and free every day, you are well-clothed and well-fed, and you are not wronged. This is a good thing that I can only get by burning high incense. Does this make you feel better?"

Hearing these words, Fu Cheng lay in the man's arms and raised his head to look at him hesitantly.

But seeing Yu Hanzhou smiling, he met his eyes, and kissed his eyelashes lingeringly.

Hot and humid.

The deep long eyes are full of obsession and love.

Fu Cheng tightened her grip on the other party's skirt, only then did she suddenly remember...

The miracle that came late in the first life, Yu Hanzhou had already given it to him in advance in this life.

There is no bondage of illness, no blood responsibility to take care of him, no expectation that he must become someone, and even if Yu Hanzhou is not willing, he can be ignored from the beginning.

But Yu Hanzhou could only see him.

"Elders always like lovable children, but the truth is not your elders. What do those lovable and troublesome children have to do with me? No matter how good other people's children are, they belong to others. If you don't raise them yourself, you don't have any Meaning, what kind of spring and autumn dream?"

Yu Hanzhou's eyes were sharp, even a little arrogant.

The man freed his hand to rub Fu Cheng's chin, and put his forehead against his forehead, coaxing him softly.

"We don't care about other people's preferences. Your father and Lingtang have already passed away. It is useless to think about it. Maybe you are wrong?"

"Even if it's right, that's not what you have to do. Now that you are in the arms of the truth and raised by me, you should only look at me, care about me, think of me, and only ask for warmth from me. "

Fu Cheng was a little confused, but her hips were supported, she stood up like holding a child, and turned around in the room.

Yu Hanzhou easily carried him away, smiled at him, and softly coaxed him: "Sit on your stomach like this? Or do you want me to lie down and sit for you?"

Fu Cheng's body is thin, and she doesn't even feel uncomfortable being held in her arms.

He blushed from being coaxed, and pointed to the chair embarrassingly.

"Sit down for me..."

"Okay." Yu Hanzhou hugged him and sat back in the imperial concubine chair, "So?"

"Yeah." Fu Cheng leaned on the man's shoulder with her eyes closed, and even climbed up.

Yu Hanzhou supported him carefully, and then whispered: "Sit on your shoulders, you are so thin, you can do it yourself. You can try it anytime you want."

"Let me think about it again." Fu Cheng suddenly felt extremely embarrassed, and hurriedly buried her head.

In fact, he doesn't realize what he wants, just like a child who can't get candy and is confused, but the wish of a child is usually very simple, the only difference is whether someone can find out and satisfy him.

But at this moment, Yu Hanzhou obviously found out, when Fu Cheng himself didn't realize it.

"One cannot always live in the expectations of others."

Yu Hanzhou patted Fu Cheng's back, and said slowly, "They want you to be a lively person, maybe they want you to be better, and I don't want to comment on the truth. But I only like you."

"In my eyes, you are the best."

The author says:

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!