[Wen Ye] Hell changes

It wasn't that Akutagawa Ryunosuke didn't think about it at all during the years after he parted with Osamu Dazai.He was panting in a ward in Russia, and after the hospital was burned down, he fled to the outskirts of the city, hiding in a room that never saw the sun.He often mentioned Osamu Dazai, but he used such unremarkable and unremarkable descriptions.He said that there used to be a Mr.Before, before, before.He will not add any decorations to Osamu Dazai except before.No one can think of the past between the characters left in the memory of many years ago, and no one will talk too much about the previous stories, it is just a taste.So did Akutagawa Ryunosuke himself.

When he took the initiative to liquidate his relationship with Osamu Dazai, he knew that there would definitely be a moment of confrontation with Osamu Dazai.Years ago, when he and Osamu Dazai were walking together in Yokohama at dusk, he had recognized this fact and was ready to meet it.Therefore, when Osamu Dazai said such words, he was not surprised or puzzled, but rather felt that it finally came, as expected.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, forcefully and decisively interrupting the expression of fragile emotions.Instead of frowning, he smiled at Osamu Dazai, and calmly faced the muzzle of the gun that might fly out of the bullet at any time and take his life.This smile was natural and mixed with a painful aftertaste. The closed lips were quietly and beautifully drawn horizontally, and there were some deep smile lines in the pupils.His hand slowly moved up to the position of the left heart, and when he clearly received Dostoevsky's heartbeat, the fear and tension that still existed before disappeared.He was soothed by the message sent by the sensor, and the scorching deep feelings and gentle beating that made people feel distressed broke all the defenses of his body and mind.At the moment when the defenses collapsed, everything he had, what he had and what he didn't have, were directly taken away by the Russian man on the other side.

The sensor told Akutagawa that although Dostoevsky was taken away, he was safe and sound, and the heartbeat from Dostoevsky was still so affectionate.His breathing mingled with Dostoevsky's heartbeat, like a prison and a jailer, the two are always inseparable.So, at this moment, he gave a sincere answer without the slightest hesitation: "Even if I keep looking at you like this, my heart is full of Fei Jia, and I will never be able to pretend to be someone else in this life."

Dazai Osamu's pupils widened in disbelief, the hand holding the gun twitched unusually as if infected with leprosy, his face faded pale in an instant visible to the naked eye.He stared at Akutagawa Ryunosuke weakly, his body convulsed slightly, and he never said a word, as if he was waiting for Akutagawa Ryunosuke to change his words.But Akutagawa Ryunosuke did not.He still moved his lips, causing his vocal cords to rub hoarsely, and the cry hidden in his heart became a mist symbolizing irreversibility, before it could be conveyed in time, it was already scattered into ashes, or disappeared into the sky. cloud smoke.

In the shadow of his bedroom where Akutagawa Ryunosuke's photo had been placed, he looked for the long-forgotten footprints left by his black eyes many years ago.Before the door of memory and heart that will never be opened again for others, he searches for the figure whose black eyes have gone away.In the loneliness aroused late at night every day, he was encountering this person who was no longer his own.For this reason, he lost the photo and sealed the door of his heart. After that, he strictly prohibited the members of the detective agency from mentioning this person, but he still couldn't erase him from his mind or heart.The more he tried to distort and destroy Akutagawa's image in the smog of life, the more life drowned him with Akutagawa's beautiful and moving image.In the end, he gave up and had to admit a fact that was painful through the ages—he never stopped, never, not even for a moment, not even once...

"I never miss you for a moment, my black eyes..."

He also thought that there is no disdain and disgust for same-sex marriage, only a bouquet of flowers.He also thought that there is no so-called childhood and life experience, only the corners of the clothes and the red carpet that draw an arc.thought about it.Yes.He admitted it.The previous dream of marrying Akutagawa was not an accident caused by his mental state getting out of control, but that he had really thought about it.I thought so much about Akutagawa Ryunosuke and black eyes.He has thought about it, he has thought about it, he has thought about it!

"Sir, it's too selfish of you to say that." Akutagawa Ryunosuke showed him a miserable expression that was almost pitiful, "To be precise, I don't belong to anyone."

Not anyone's?Osamu Dazai seemed to be epileptic, with tears in his eyes while pulling the corners of his mouth, showing a wry smile that could be called deformed.How could it not belong to anyone, how could it be.Isn't Akutagawa his? From the moment he found Akutagawa, adopted Akutagawa, and fell in love with Akutagawa, Akutagawa was his from head to toe, whether it was body or life.

Yes, he is his black eye, the black eye that will never leave by his side... that Ryunosuke who will always stay before separation, that Ryunosuke who will never grow up and will never fly out of his arms between.The little black eyes that couldn't resist him back then won't grow up and won't leave.Just as this memory is immortal in his heart and soul, the black eyes will never grow up and never leave his side.If there is a time machine, if he goes back to that time, he will declare his ownership to Akutagawa without hesitation, and express his state of mind to Akutagawa, instead of wandering around the beach alone every day, feeling distressed for Akutagawa's wound, At the same time, he continued to tear Okutagawa's wounds, and his life in a golden age lasted like this.

A whole life, my dark eyes.Since I lost you, I feel dull to the fragrance of flowers and birdsong, lonely and empty to everything, and deeply lonely to the years themselves.I grieve over the loss of you, the one I love the most.But it is even more sad that I have lost a heart to fall in love with others again. You have taken away my ability to love others again. That ability has already flown away with your black eyes that no longer look at me. Also won't be coming back.Is this suddenly regrettable memory and questioning the contemplation before the battle, or the nostalgia after the loss?It doesn't matter anymore.

Osamu Dazai took a deep breath, and turned the astonishing fire of resentment into bleak water vapor from his mouth: "As long as you are nice to you, will your heart be moved? As long as this is the case, it will make your heart move, and you will be willing." Give yourself?! If everyone in the world treats you well and everyone protects you, then you...do you intend to love everyone again? You also told me a few years ago that you wanted to be with Zhongyuanzhong Also together, now you say that you pretend to be another person in your heart, is your love so cheap? You..."

"Whether it's cheap or not," Akutagawa Ryunosuke admitted without expression, "at least the rights are not open to you."

Osamu Dazai stopped.At that moment, at that moment just now, he lost everything and was robbed of everything.He didn't understand why Akutagawa Ryunosuke treated him like this, and why he had to go this far to be satisfied.He once stood alone and leaned on a horse in the place where the dust and sand rolled with swords and swords, and faced it without any hope of survival. Follow the crowd enjoying peace and joy, and taste the loneliness of being without a home.At that time, he could only drift with the tide with his scarred body.Only when he thinks of Akutagawa Ryunosuke, he will feel that he still has something important to get, and he can't stop there.

Walking in the bustling city, he heard all kinds of praise and criticism of Akutagawa from all kinds of men and women around him, and he wanted to see Akutagawa every moment and went crazy.How he wished... How much he wished that his Akutagawa could always be waiting for him at the door of his house!Not in another country across the sea, not in the mouth of others, not in the arms of the devil, but in the palm of my own hand, waiting for me at the door of my house, and no one except myself Akutagawa will wait... …how he wished so, so wished so, so wished so.

The picture of the memories began to tremble and blur, or maybe it was just Osamu Dazai crying himself.Tears danced between the eyelashes, and when they dripped, various mottled patterns were brewed in the eyelids.After layer after layer of love and worrying about gains and losses again and again, it seems that Akutagawa Ryunosuke's black jade garland that looks like grinding ink can be seen, and then he throws the last sigh through tears, and then Akutagawa Ryunosuke's face could be clearly seen.Indifferent complexion, black eyes.

He stabilized his arm again, aimed the gun at Akutagawa again, and without hesitation, pressed the trigger forcefully with his fingers: "See you on the Naihe Bridge." Saying so, he closed his eyes.

Before the words fell, Osamu Dazai vaguely heard a cry.It wasn't from himself, nor from Akutagawa, nor from anyone in the Supernatural Secret Service Division present, but from a woman's hoarse cry.However, it is a pity that Osamu Dazai pressed the trigger almost at the same time he heard it, so when he opened his eyes because he heard the content of the shout, it was already irreversible.That cry, the cry is...

"elder brother!"

Whether it was Ryunosuke Akutagawa, Osamu Dazai, or the members of the Supernatural Secret Service headed by Ango Sakaguchi, they were all so surprised that they forgot to breathe.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke had already accepted this ending, and was ready to die under the gun of Dazai Osamu, but he never expected Akutagawa Ginkai to suddenly appear at the door, and did not hesitate a second before Dazai Osamu pressed the trigger. He hesitated in front of himself.Akutagawa Gin, who often performs assassination missions, has extraordinary skills. As long as she wants to, she can cross such a short distance from the gate to Akutagawa Ryunosuke in one second, but no one expected that such excellent skills will Used to protect Ryunosuke Akutagawa.

When she first found this place, she saw the back of Osamu Dazai raising his gun to Ryunosuke Akutagawa.She found the trigger slightly bent by Osamu Dazai's finger, and thought about it logically. She thought, if Osamu Dazai pressed harder, her brother would be killed by a bullet through the heart... So, At that moment, without any hesitation, without even thinking about anything else, she directly chose to rush up and block in front of Akutagawa Ryunosuke.Even Dazai Osamu did not guess her appearance, did not expect her to make such a choice.

The hot and powerful bullet pierced her from the ribs in the front of her chest to the back of the heart, mercilessly piercing the weak atrium membrane and the invisible blood vessels.First, there was a cracking sound from the second rib in the left chest, and then a hole was gouged out in the heart muscle by a bullet. The blood burst into bloom in the atrium, and quickly sprayed and penetrated into the organs involved in the whole body circulation. The gesture filled all her heart and lungs, and announced the coldest fact of the end of life.

No one in the room spoke, not even a single sound was made.Only Akutagawa Ryunosuke mechanically lowered his head when Akutagawa Gin fell into his arms and looked at her.The turbulent blood flow from the bullet hole in his sister's left chest dyed his entire palm red.He kept his lips slightly open, and the expression of surprise and grief seemed to be directly engraved on his face, so that he didn't have any expression changes, and even his pupils seemed to stop beating.

He really wanted to call her name softly, even if it was just one.But he couldn't make any sound anymore.He felt as if he had swallowed a mouthful of glass slag that had been baked to the point that it was almost turned into liquid. The hot glass glue burned his windpipe, and the cold shards cut his vocal cords. It was blood and his throat was full of broken bones, but he could only get stuck and spit out his mouth.

He held Akutagawa Gin's body that was completely immobile, feeling the trembling of her body due to the approach of death.Akutagawa Gin was pierced through his body, but he smiled suddenly, as if he didn't feel any pain at all.Her mask slipped off slowly, her blood-stained lips opened and closed, and her voice was almost so small that she didn't make it at all.

"Brother, Xiaoyin will always love you..."

What constitutes this cry is a kind of relief like relief and moving truth.Her voice was already as soft as a mosquito, but it still entered Akutagawa Ryunosuke's ears overwhelmingly.Her gentle smile and sincere voice reminded him of the white dove that died forever.Akutagawa Gin's gentle smile and sincere voice flew out like a white dove, soaring upwards in the crowd, as if piercing through a maze, and then flew upwards, upwards, and then to high places, jumping up from the ground , Like a beautiful white cloud, passing by the blue heart of the sky, embedded in every inch of the sky.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke's loudly reverberating call was mercilessly pressed down deep into the ground, and every drop of tear and blood called his sister's name in the suffocating place tens of thousands of miles below.However, no matter how much he cries and shouts, it can't stop Akutagawa Yin from passing away.

In the future, before we can wait for Akutagawa Ryunosuke's reply, this girl with a pure heart, this girl with a gentle smile, who was only willing to call him honorifics before, and who never confessed that she misses him and loves him, is already in his heart. All heartbeat and breathing stopped in the arms, like a curling smoke, like an elegant and flawless little white dove, disappeared in this world, and went to the other world to find comfort.