Difficult to heal

When Xiu Qinjiang pushed the door open, he was still thinking about where to eat with Lu Shu after a while.

Today is New Year's Day, the first day of the new year, the school took half a day off, and there is a rare first snow outside, which is very suitable for going out and walking on the street.

"hello."

A young voice brought him back from his thoughts.

When Xiu Qinjiang came back to his senses, there was a stylishly dressed girl in the office who smiled at him: "Are you Aunt Han's son?"

Xiu Qinjiang nodded: "Hello."

"Sit," the girl pointed to the sofa, "I'll get you a drink."

She took out a cup of preheated milk tea from the microwave and put it in front of Chu Qinjiang: "Aunt Han said you like milk tea, so I prepared this for you. It's not bad, try it."

The other party's overly enthusiastic attitude made Xiu Qinjiang feel a little uncomfortable, so he said thank you, took a sip and put down the cup.

The girl sat opposite, with a decent smile: "I'm afraid you're too restrained, if you feel uncomfortable, you can tell me."

"Fortunately."

Xiu Qinjiang lightly raised the corner of his mouth, sitting upright with his upper body, obviously not very relaxed.

The girl took his expression into her eyes, didn't say much, and introduced herself: "My name is Qu Yao, and I'm almost four years older than you. If you don't mind, you can call me sister."

Xiu Qinjiang didn't respond, but nodded to show that he heard it.

Before coming here, Shen Han told him that Qu Yao is the daughter of a friend, who just graduated from university last year, majoring in medical psychology, and is currently studying for a master's degree at the University of London.

After learning about Xiu Qinjiang's case, he became very interested in it, so he proposed to meet and have a chat.

Originally, Qin Jiang refused. He actually knew that his mental state was not stable, and his anxiety disorder was good and bad. In severe cases, he even had difficulty breathing and could not speak.

During the days in the capital, he cooperated with the doctor to try some treatment methods, but all of them failed without exception, and the medicines he took had little effect.

I have been disappointed more times, and now I just let it go and don't want to care about it anymore.

But Shen Han said that many friends have many paths, and chatting should be regarded as making friends, at least there will be no harm.

After thinking about it for a few days, he finally agreed.

Qu Yao skipped the topic just now, and asked instead: "Do you usually like sweets?"

Xu Qinjiang hummed.

"Then is there anything else you like?" Qu Yao spread her hands and gestured, "You can talk about any aspect."

Xiu Qinjiang pondered for a while, and said, "There are quite a lot."

"Let me give you a few examples. I heard that your grades are very good. Do you have any favorite subjects?"

"Mathematics, physics and chemistry are all okay." Xiu Qinjiang answered concisely.

"You are very humble," Qu Yao joked, "You have already won the gold medal in the competition, so it's just okay?"

"There are a lot of great people," said Xiu Qinjiang without any unnecessary expression on his face, "It's nothing."

Qu Yao stared at him for a moment, then whispered softly: "Can you tell me why you are so guarded against me?"

Xiu Qinjiang said calmly: "I think everyone should be wary of strangers."

Qu Yao was stunned for a second, then laughed: "I didn't believe what Aunt Han said before, but you are really hard to get close to."

Before he could say anything, she changed her voice: "You're good at mathematics, physics and chemistry, but what about the ones you're not good at?"

"English." Xu Qinjiang responded quickly, "The language is also average."

Qu Yao said clearly: "The language is not very sensitive, why?"

Xiu Qinjiang said, "Maybe because of a fall."

"You think it's because of the injury," Qu Yao said again, "Have you thought about other reasons?"

Xiu Qinjiang paused for a moment and said, "No."

"You fell from a high place, did you have any aftereffects?"

Xiu Qinjiang raised his eyelids, looked straight at her, and said, "No."

"Are you afraid of heights?"

"Ah."

"You avoided the negative words, but you also denied the question," Qu Yao met his eyes, and calmly said sharply, "You are afraid."

"You are not afraid of heights, what you are afraid of is not heights," Qu Yao asked, "What are you afraid of?"

The continuous questioning made Xu Qinjiang completely silent.

After a while, he looked away.

..........

As we walked out of the building, dusk fell.

It gets dark quickly in winter, and the streets are already lit up.

Qu Yao's last words still ring in my ears.

——In fact, you are very clear about what you are thinking in your heart, but you are unwilling to face it, and I can't make you trust me for the time being. Today is just a small talk, which is very unprofessional to me. The content of the conversation will be kept confidential. If you need it in the future, you can always contact me privately.

Xiu Qinjiang's eyes were calm, looking at the night scene ahead.

Not far away is the pedestrian street, brightly lit and crowded with people, as if it hides the hustle and bustle of the whole world.

There is only a distance of more than ten meters, but there is boundless darkness behind it.

He was in a dark corner, lacking the colors that could make people happy, like a dilapidated and barren ruins, the noise that should have been taken away, only the silence was spreading ups and downs.

Mu Ye quietly opened its tentacles, as if to swallow the whole person.

The phone vibrated in his pocket.

It took a long time to connect, and a familiar voice came out: "Where is the person, is it not over yet?"

In order not to make Lu Shu think too much, Xiu Qinjiang lied earlier, saying that he was going to school to submit materials.

"It's over," said Qin Qinjiang, "I'm here in the city center."

"Okay, you find a place to stay," Lu Shu hurriedly said, "Send me the location, I'll come here now."

After speaking, I hung up the phone.

Xiu Qinjiang put his hands in his pockets and walked slowly towards the crowded place.

—

Lu Shu came very quickly, the business of the milk tea shop was booming, and there were too many people to stand up, but he still caught sight of Xiu Qinjiang sitting by the glass window.

"Why do you come here?" Pulling the chair opposite, Lu Shu sat down and asked.

Xiu Qinjiang handed over a cup of milk tea: "You asked me to drink it last time, and the second cup will be half price."

"How can there be such an event today." Lu Shu laughed and glanced at his milk tea, "Is it delicious?"

"You try it."

Xiu Qinjiang brought the half cup of white peach mochi he had left to his mouth, with a used straw stuck in it.

Lu Shu glanced at the surrounding people coming and going, and lowered his voice: "You are very courageous."

Xiu Qinjiang bent slightly, lay down on the table, and then took a sip of Lu Shu's cup.

Under Lu Shu's slightly surprised and teasing eyes, he smiled triumphantly, and said in a low voice, "Could someone come over and ask, what's the relationship between you and a cup of milk tea?"

"Others won't ask, but they may look at you with strange eyes." Lu Shu bowed his head, took a sip of white peach mochi, and looked disgusted, "It's so sweet."

"Sweet tastes better." Chu Qinjiang sat back, the corners of his mouth curled up, "I don't know anyone else, I only know you."

Lu Shu let out a low snort, and also smiled: "Are you hungry, go eat?"

Hearing this, Xiu Qinjiang turned his head to look at the fine snow outside the window, all of which were tiny flakes floating down from mid-air.

"Not very hungry, I want to go out for a walk." He said.

"Well," Lu Shu took the milk tea and touched his toes, "Let's go."

The moment he pushed open the store door, Xiu Qinjiang shivered from the cold.

Lu looked at him, pulled off the black scarf around his neck, and wrapped it round and round around Xiu Qinjiang's neck, his tone was cold: "What's wrong with you? If you don't wear a sweater in the future, you'll just freeze to death."

Wearing Lu Shu's warm scarf to block the cold wind, Xiu Qinjiang arched his chin comfortably: "The sweater is too tight."

"Continue to make up," Lu Shu pinched the flesh on his face, "If your aunt finds out, you just wait to cry."

Xiu Qinjiang pulled his hand off and stuffed it into his pocket together with his own, and said to him from left to right: "Let's go."

Lu Shu squeezed over and bumped into him with his body: "Change the subject?"

Xiu Qinjiang was knocked sideways, couldn't hold back his joy, and bumped back: "Does your boyfriend know that you are so fierce?"

"I know what a fart," Lu Shu taunted, "He froze to death without a sweater on."

"It's so miserable," said Qin Qinjiang, "then will you be sad?"

Lu Shu said calmly, "I'll find the next one."

"..."

"Wear it," Chu Qinjiang lost expression, "I'll wear it when I get back."

Then he passed by again, worrying unnecessarily: "You don't really think so, do you?"

Lu Shu asked back, "Are you really going to freeze to death?"

Xiu Qinjiang laughed: "I have to crawl back even if I freeze to death."

On New Year's Day, even if it is snowing and freezing outside, there are still many young people who come out to hang out.

It was still early, just after six o'clock in the afternoon, and the streets were full of people who came out for the festival, and their heads were covered in darkness.

The two of them were caught in the sea of ​​people, they couldn't walk well, and bumped each other with their shoulders while talking and laughing.

This area is the most prosperous place in Yining, with all kinds of shops and gourmet shops, and the fragrance wafts over the entire long street.

There was even a street band singing in the center of the huge square, surrounded by a circle of people watching the filming, the singing was deafening and the enthusiasm was high.

Lu Shu and Xiu Qinjiang passed by, and the latter took out his mobile phone on a whim, turned on the camera and held it up, framing the upper bodies of the two of them and the crowd behind them into the screen.

"what?"

Lu Shu was still holding a string of candied haws with walnuts that he had just bought on the roadside, and was about to bite on them when he was caught off guard and put them in the photo album.

Because the eyes widened inadvertently upwards, the cheeks bulged slightly, and she looked a little ignorant and innocent.

After looking at the photo album, Xiu Qinjiang sighed: "So this is my boyfriend, so cute."

Lu Shu lowered his head to look, who knew that Xuan Qinjiang immediately switched to the camera, turned his face away as planned, and touched his forehead with his lips.

The camera captured the poses of the two clearly.

"Damn?" Lu Shu laughed, and quickly glanced to the side, "Is it necessary for you?"

Xuan Qinjiang turned around, walked back towards him, raised his mobile phone, and smiled narrowly in his eyes: "This is the handle."

Lu Shu followed him and walked forward slowly: "What do you want?"

"I won't change anything," said Chu Qinjiang, "I'll keep it for myself."

"Then it won't be called a handle."

"It's a handle."

"What handle?"

"I saved your photo." The surrounding light fell into his eyes and turned into small spots, and Xiu Qinjiang said, "You must always remember me."

The white snowflakes grew bigger silently, sweeping away the hustle and bustle left by the end of autumn.

The snow scene and night scene are intertwined, adding a touch of charm unique to this city.

Pedestrians passed by non-stop, people's shadows overlapped under the colorful lights, and the sudden snow dampened the treetops on the street.

They passed by all the sights of the night without haste or slowness.

.........

When we walked to Changle Street, the snow fell even more heavily. The winter snow in the south was mixed with ice edges, and most of the falling snow turned into water.

Lu Shu originally wanted to take Xiu Qinjiang to the counterfeit to hide from the snow for a while, but the boss didn't care if he would go bankrupt and closed the door early, so the two could only choose a store at will.

The shopping guide came up and asked enthusiastically, "What do you two want to buy?"

Just as Lu Shu wanted to say casually, he caught a glimpse of the counter behind the shopping guide in the next second.

There are a variety of jewelry on the counter, the most of which are rings.

Lu Shu: "...uh."

It's not good to go, if you don't go... Isn't this progress a little too fast?

In a dilemma, Xiu Qinjiang stepped forward to the counter first, seeming very interested.

The shopping guide was very winking, and introduced attentively: "Does the handsome guy want to buy rings, necklaces, or bracelets? We have a lot of products here, which are specially suitable for young people like you, and if you don't like them, you can also customize them." .”

Xiu Qinjiang picked and picked, and finally settled on a pair of plain rings.

One silver ring was carved with antlers, the other with thorns.

Lu Shu stood beside him, and Xiu Qinjiang pointed to the ring and asked him, "Do you like it?"

Lu Shu gritted his teeth secretly, and said in a low voice, "Are you afraid that others won't see it?"

Xuan Qinjiang turned to ask the shopping guide: "Will any of you friends come to buy rings?"

"Yes, yes," the other party nodded quickly, "friends, girlfriends, brothers, and so on, both boys and girls."

Xiu Qinjiang looked at Lu Shu again, the meaning was obvious - what are you worried about?

"..." Lu Shu was speechless.

"Do you like it?" Xu Qinjiang asked again.

Lu Shu gave up struggling and nodded indiscriminately.

Xiu Qinjiang smiled contentedly, and said to the shopping guide, "Hi, I bought that pair of antlers and thorns."

The shopping guide made a sound, and said embarrassedly: "I'm very sorry, this pair of rings was customized by another customer. If you want to buy it, we can make another pair for you, but it will take some time."

"How long?" Lucy asked.

"About half a month."

"Let's customize it," said Xiu Qinjiang.

Shopping guide: "Okay, then take your ID card and go to the front desk with me to register."

Lu Shu frowned: "Do you still need an ID card?"

"Yes, customized models are different. We will send them to the main store for authorization. If you need after-sales in the future, you must bring your ID card."

Of course, the two of them will not carry their ID cards with them when they go out to play, and it is inconvenient to rush back to get them now, so the matter of customizing the ring can only be put aside for the time being.

After leaving the shop, Xiu Qinjiang still had a disappointed expression.

Lu Shu laughed and said, "You can't wear it even if you buy it."

Let's not talk about the two of them falling in love together, whether the family and friends around them can accept it, just the puppy love in high school, it is not fun to be noticed by the school.

"I hang it around my neck with a rope." Chu Qinjiang said, "I can touch it if I want to."

The other party looked really disappointed, Lu Shu rubbed his head: "Come again when I have a chance."

"Actually, I would rather buy a diamond ring." Xiu Qinjiang said again.

Lu Shu raised his eyebrows: "Men wear diamond rings?"

Chu Qinjiang wondered, "Why can't men wear diamond rings?"

"Okay," Lu Shu grabbed his hand and put it in his pocket, "I'll buy it for you if I make money."

"Twenty carats?"

Lu choked for a moment: "You bought it for offering?"

Xiu Qinjiang sighed: "It's only been half a month since I fell in love."

Lu Shu was happy: "Buy it! Is it okay to buy it? Buy it and hang it on your body."

"Wow," Chu Qinjiang laughed, "The boyfriend is super nice."

After a while, he squeezed his hand in his pocket and said, "Just kidding, I want to buy it for you."

"Can you afford it?" Lu Shu teased.

"You can always buy it," Xiu Qinjiang repeated, "I'll buy it for you."