The sky is slightly blue, with occasional white clouds drifting by

On New Year's Eve, the sound of firecrackers and fireworks outside was louder than any day before, and I couldn't even sleep.

When the call rang, at exactly 58:[-], Qiu Yu touched the answer button directly.

"Hey?"

Rong Yu's gentle voice came from the phone: "Qiu Yu, let's watch the New Year together."

"Well, okay." Qiu Yu tried to keep his tone as calm as possible, as usual, not wanting Rong Yu to notice that something was wrong with him.

"Are you asleep? Did I disturb you to sleep?"

"No," Qiu Yu said, and then deliberately dissatisfied in his tone, "I lay on the bed all night, and the sound of firecrackers and fireworks outside was too loud, so I couldn't sleep at all."

"That's right, then go to bed later tomorrow to catch up on sleep."

邱俞听到手机里传出来的春晚主持人的声音“让我们一起倒计时——10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2-1……”

"Happy New Year! Qiu Yu" Rong Yu's voice sounded at the same time as the host's "Happy New Year!", "May you be happy and happy in Chang'an every year!"

Qiu Yu said with a smile: "Thank you, happy new year to you too!"

After more than ten seconds, Rong Yu's gentle and seductive voice sounded again: "Originally, I just came to watch the New Year and pay New Year's greetings, but since I have already made this call, let me ask by the way, what I said, Have you decided yet?"

Qiu Yu stared at the darkness in front of him with his eyes open, and did not answer for a long time, until Rong Yu cautiously called his name on the other end of the phone: "Qiu Yu?"

"I'm sorry... I don't like you, please don't bother me anymore." Qiu Yu almost used all his strength to finish the sentence, and then immediately pressed the end call button.

Seven past twelve.

Due to too much force when the thumb was pressed, the phone screen shattered, shattering from the middle of the screen to the surroundings, like a flower.

When did the tears flow out, Qiu Yu didn't feel it. When he knew it, the pillow was already wet.

Qiu Yu lay under the quilt with her eyes closed, her mind was always awake, and she couldn't fall asleep no matter what.

It seemed that Rong Yu's aura still remained in the room, what was Rong Yu's expression after he said that sentence, was Rong Yu very sad?

Qiu Yu, don't think about it, don't think about it anymore.

Go to sleep, you won't be sad when you fall asleep.

Go to sleep, your heart won't hurt so much when you fall asleep.

Go to sleep.

Go to sleep.

Go to sleep.

Go to sleep, do you hear me?

Qiu Yu, my mother told you to fall asleep, did you hear me?

sleepless nights.

He is like a fish out of water, suffocating and desolate.

During the time he spent with Rong Yu day and night, Rong Yu cared for him all the time, he had never experienced such sincere love in 21 years, and he couldn't help yearning for the tenderness Rong Yu gave him.

Qiu Yu thought, he is really bad, selfish and despicable.

If he had never met Rong Yu, he would have been able to live as he did in the past 21 years, without a real family member, always calm and alienated from others, and without anyone to whom he could tell everything without hesitation.

But it happened that he met Rong Yu, Rong Yu who was always gentle and considerate to him.

Just like a child who has just eaten sweets, he is immediately asked to drink bitter melon juice, and the bitter taste penetrates from the tip of the tongue to the whole body.

But the water without fish will only become clearer, Rong Yu should not be his water, and he is not Rong Yu's fish.

After the third day of the Lunar New Year, Qiu Yu began to look for various part-time jobs. On the sixth day of the Lunar New Year, he was doing a temporary promotion in a shopping mall in the city. As a result, he failed to catch the last bus after get off work, so he had to grit his teeth and call taxi.

The driver originally wanted to talk to Qiu Yu, but gave up after a few unsuccessful attempts, and started to listen to a song. A slow-paced and looping song sounded in the car. It was not a very festive happy new year or something.

no one shares wine with me

no one told me the night was late

No one asks me if porridge is warm

no one stands with me at dusk

……

He really misses you, thinks of you all the time

He really likes you so he holds you in his arms

……

someone treats me sincerely

Some people worry about me being silent

Someone knows I am cold and warm

someone to spend the rest of my life with me

At the beginning Qiu Yu's tears were still silent, but later she was trembling slightly and sobbing.

Shame on you, Qiu Yu.

"This song is "Floating Life" by Liu Lai, and many young people nowadays like it very much." The driver uncle said while looking at Qiu Yu through the rearview mirror, "Young man, why are you crying? Is it a broken relationship? You cry so sad, you must like that girl very much, right?"

Qiu Yu didn't say a word, tears kept streaming down, and a voice kept ringing in his ears.

Qiu Yu, I like you very much

I like you

like very much

like

Back in the rented house, Qiu Yu felt more sad and sad. Everything in the house lingered in the air of Rong Yu, always inadvertently thinking of Rong Yu, little by little it appeared that Rong Yu was still in this house The various appearances in Li: the silly and cute when feeding and teasing the cat, the focus and charming when singing, the handsome when playing, the gentle pampering when he massaged his feet, the affectionate when kissing him by the river...

Scenes with Rong Yu kept appearing in his mind, it turned out that he missed Rong Yu so much.

Separation is often the most torturous and painful thing, but without separation, Qiu Yu will never realize how deep his feelings for Rong Yu are. Only in every cold and lonely night does he know how much he loves Rong Yu. Rong Yu is needed.

Qiu Yu has become not like himself, not at all like the decisive him before. He has always been decisive in dealing with people and dealing with things. It is not too much to say that he is ruthless. If he decides to give up, he will never look back.

But is liking that can be controlled by oneself to give up still called liking?

When the school day started, Qiu Yu didn't move back to the dormitory, and Rong Yu didn't go back to the rented house, did he know that he lived here?

On the first Friday night after school started, Qiu Yu lay in bed and couldn't fall asleep, so he had to get up and drink a little wine, but he was not drunk yet.

It wasn't until after three o'clock in the afternoon the next day that Qiu Yu opened his eyes in a daze, touched his side with his hands, and when he was empty, he immediately became sober.

Rong Yu will not come back again.

After he hung up the phone on New Year's Eve, was Rong Yu sad?So you don't come back here anymore?Did you drink when you paid New Year's greetings to your relatives?Do you drink a lot?Have you eaten well in the past half a month?Did you go to bed on time? Is Y University starting school?Would he be too lazy to go to the cafeteria to eat instant noodles?

I was so distressed that I was almost out of breath, and my eyes were sore.

Depend on!When did he become a crying bag?It's all the fault of that brat Rong Yu, he still remembered that last night he called Rong Yu's name while crying, over and over again, tirelessly, until a little bit of light penetrated through the cracks in the curtains before falling asleep.

Didn't you say you like him?Turned him into this ghostly look, and that bastard ran away like this.

Qiu Yu jumped out of bed and quickly finished washing, Qiu Yu took a look in the mirror, his eyes were swollen unbelievably in the mirror, which really damaged his appearance.He boiled two eggs, peeled the shells and wrapped them in gauze. He held the eggs with both hands and rolled them on the eyelids. After more than 20 minutes of hot compress, the person in the mirror would not be so ugly and scary.

When going out, Fandi took a taxi to University Y. After getting off the bus, he went straight from the gate of University Y to the gymnasium of University Y. He didn't think about what to do if Rong Yu wasn't in the gymnasium at all, because he was with someone right now. Like a fool, his mind is full of thinking about what to say when he sees Rong Yu first, and then what to say, he can't think about anything else.

When he walked outside the basketball court, the voices of Fang Mu and the others came from inside, and the footsteps came from far to near. Qiu Yu subconsciously hid in the back bathroom, and went into a cubicle just in case.

After waiting for a while, Qiu Yu wondered if they went back to the dormitory directly, but Fang Mu and the others came in one after another, and immediately there was a sound of rushing water.

"Boss, you don't play ball all day long, you're out of your mind, and your face has lost weight several times, just like being sucked by a female ghost." Li Fan's voice was very clear in the small bathroom, "You Are you broken in love?"

The whole bathroom fell silent.

After several seconds, "Are you looking for death?" It was Rong Yu's voice, deep and hoarse.

Qiu Yu's heart suddenly hurt, what happened to Rong Yu's throat?

"Ahhh, Mu Mu and Ling Chen, help me, the boss's eyes are about to kill me, please help me."

"You owe it, kid." Fang Mu said with a smile.

"Chuan Fan, didn't you say that you are treating guests today? Do you still invite me?" Ling Chen said.

"Please, please. My brother just sent me a few thousand dollars, let's go, my brother will take you to roam." Li Fan said.

"Let's go, Boss, I'll make amends for you as Xiaofanzi." Fang Mu said.

"I won't go, I'm not in the mood." Rong Yu said, his voice still deep.

"Okay, then we'll go by ourselves." Ling Chen said.

"En." Rong Yu responded.

After everything quieted down outside, Qiu Yu came out, but Ling Chen was still there.

"Why do you hide?" Ling Chen stood by the sink and stared at Qiu Yu, "Didn't you come to find Rong Yu?"

Qiu Yu opened his mouth and didn't make a sound, not knowing what to say.

"Rong Yu is back in the dormitory. If you want to find him, I can take you there." Ling Chen turned around and left without waiting for his reply.

Qiu Yu hurriedly followed, still thinking in his mind, he was the one who refused, and now he is the one who wants to reconcile, it seems to be something, what if Rong Yu gets angry with him?Sure enough, impulsiveness is the devil, and he ran here eagerly without even thinking about it.

Ling Chen walked out of the gate and walked up the hill outside the gymnasium.A row of slate stairs was laid on the small slope, and Ling Chen was three steps away from him. Ling Chen opened his mouth first: "I have been in the same class with Rong Yu for three years in high school, and because of this, I know exactly what Rong Yu is. Look, in fact, he didn't care about people very much before, but after meeting you, many things have changed. I also can't imagine that he would care about someone and love someone to such an extent. You should know that Rong Yu was in junior high school Will you be smoking from now on?"

Qiu Yu's heart twitched.Yes, he knew that Rong Yu could smoke, but Rong Yu hadn't smoked in front of him very much before, not once in the last semester.

"I'm not addicted, but I don't smoke too little. I quit suddenly in the second semester of the third year of high school. I asked him why, and he only said that there is one person who doesn't like the smell of cigarettes. I wanted to laugh at him at the time, but when he said this The expression is very gentle, it was the first time I saw such an expression on Rong Yu's face, at that time I was very curious, and I really wanted to meet the person he mentioned."

So did Rong Yu start to like him so early?Qiu Yu was so shocked that he couldn't speak, his mind was like a paste.

"Rong Yu's test scores in the past have not been very good, but I have also seen that Rong Yu is not stupid, he did it on purpose, and he often uses it for painting in culture classes. The score line for Y major is quite high. Rong Yu's grades at that time were still a bit difficult for this school. Fortunately, Rong Yu changed his usual sloppy attitude and was willing to seriously review and prepare for the college entrance examination. I guess he suddenly changed his temperament because of the person he said."

Ling Chen stopped and turned his head, with a worried look on his face: "It may not be appropriate for me to say these words, but although Rong Yu used to have a hot temper, he was still very righteous, and I have long regarded him as a Brother, Rong Yu's state is a bit bad recently, I'm a little worried about him, and I know it's because of you that he is like this."

Ling Chen took Qiu Yu downstairs to the dormitory, told the floor and room number, turned and left.

Hearing Ling Chen say so much, Qiu Yu couldn't tell what it was like, but tortured himself several times, how could he bear to hurt Rong Yu?