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The alarm clock kept ringing beside the bed, Jiang Nanhui opened his eyes, staring at a little spider on the ceiling.The screen of the mobile phone turned on, it was a memo reminder, in fact, there was no need to remind, Jiang Nanhui could not forget this day.

Last month, Shen Xike called and said that she would go home this afternoon.As for whether this is his home or not, Jiang Nanhui didn't want to think about it. He was too exhausted by this feeling of alienation. He couldn't cheer up anything, and his consciousness was muddled, like a walking dead.

He had a dream last night. The scene in the dream was like a revolving lantern. The scenes from acquaintance to cohabitation with Shen Xike flashed before his eyes. Jiang Nanhui couldn't help reaching out to grab nothing, but he couldn't catch anything.

Sitting at the same table at the age of 16, and selecting essays together at the age of 17, they were admitted to the same city. Even though the schools were different, Jiang Nanhui did not hesitate to save money and rent a one-bedroom apartment outside the school. The two went in and out together every day.

How much does Jiang Nanhui love Shen Xike?

Jiang Nanhui is good at science, but Shen Xike wanted him to be in the same class as him in the second and third grades of high school, so he resolutely chose arts; Pennsylvania Media: On the day he received the admission notice, Jiang Nanhui broke up because of Shen Xike's blatant coming out of the closet, and broke up with his family since then.

The two boys fell in love with each other vigorously, and Jiang Nanhui had no reservations about Shen Xike.But with the passage of time, Shen Xike's feelings for Jiang Nanhui became dull day by day, and his thoughts and attention were devoted to his own development, while Jiang Nanhui became more and more deeply involved. His deep love made Shen Xike feel confident.

Since when did he start to quarrel over trivial matters, and why did he gradually lose patience with his relationship? Jiang Nanhui couldn't find the root cause of Shen Xike's change.In this regard, Jiang Nanhui backed down again and again and lost his principles. All the quarrels and conflicts ended with his apology. Even so, he still failed to keep Shen Xike's heart.

Next to the group photo on the bedside table was the gift that Jiang Nanhui was going to give to Shen Xike today, a pair of platinum rings that he bought after saving half a year's living expenses, with their names engraved on the inner circle.

Jiang Nanhui supported his tired body, planning to tidy up the house before Shen Xike came back, and put the cakes and roses bought in advance on the dining table.After taking a hot bath and shaving cleanly, Jiang Nanhui looked at himself in the mirror through a layer of mist, and seemed to have lost a lot of weight.

Ever since Shen Xike was discovered by a scout last year and signed a contract with a brokerage company to become a trainee, the two of them get together less often and stay away more often. Every time they meet, they become strangers than the last time.Jiang Nanhui was afraid of the future. He was afraid of losing Shen Xike. For so many years, Shen Xike had been the center and center of his world. He didn't know if he could bear Shen Xike's departure.

Supporting the sink with both hands, Jiang Nanhui lowered his head and sighed weakly.Although it was very hard to maintain the relationship, he was still full of expectations for this meeting.

At this moment, the door panel slammed, followed by the sound of keys being smashed on the shoe cabinet. Jiang Nanhui trembled slightly, and quickly stepped out of the bathroom. He was surprised to see Shen Xike taking off his coat, changing his shoes, and carrying a huge suitcase in his hand.

"Didn't you come back in the afternoon?" Jiang Nanhui asked hoarsely, "It's only eleven o'clock now."

Shen Xike didn't answer, glanced at the ashtray on the coffee table, and asked, "You smoke so much again, your throat is gone?"

An ordinary sentence of concern made Jiang Nanhui uncontrollably happy. It's a pity that this mood didn't last for two seconds, and then sank extremely quickly, reaching the bottom in an instant.

"I will not be by your side in the future, no one cares about you, you must know how to cherish your body."

Breathing stagnant, Jiang Nanhui stabilized his figure and asked, "What do you mean by 'not by my side anymore'? "

Shen Xike pointed to the suitcase: "I came back today to take my things."

Usually seeing no one, at least there are clothes as comfort, now even the traces of living together have to be erased, Jiang Nanhui finally doesn't have to be frightened, Shen Xike came home this time because she wanted to say goodbye to him.

Shen Xike's voice was calm and calm, and Jiang Nanhui couldn't feel any reluctance from him.Five years of deep love, how could it be so indifferent, Jiang Nanhui was very aggrieved and dissatisfied, but no matter how wronged he was, he still wanted to try his best to restore Shen Xike and redeem their relationship.

Because he never stopped loving him.

"Xiaoxi, I support your career and will not become a stumbling block for you." Jiang Nanhui really refused to humble himself, but he had no choice but to ask, "Please don't leave me, okay?"

Shen Xike folded her clothes, put them neatly into the suitcase, paused for a few seconds, and replied, "Nan Hui, I don't feel anything about this relationship anymore."

His heart was in severe pain, and Jiang Nanhui was about to suffocate: "Why, how can I not feel it anymore?"

"I'm probably too used to your existence." Shen Xike pursed her lips and looked at Jiang Nanhui, then looked away, "You are like the clothes I wear, the air I breathe every moment, I know you are always there by my side."

Jiang Nanhui spoke incoherently: "I'm here...I'm here."

Shen Xike asked: "Do you feel clothes and air?"

Jiang Nanhui was dumbfounded.

Shen Xike in front of her was too calm and calm, not to mention ending a relationship, even if she had an argument with ordinary friends, she would not be as calm as him.Jiang Nanhui had to face the reality. This kind of result was not unexpected, in fact, he had been deceiving himself and others.

"Are you in love with someone else?"

Shen Xike squatted on the ground to arrange her luggage, silent.

Jiang Nanhui understood, slumped his shoulders and said with a wry smile: "You are so good-looking, even if you have already dated me, there are always people who are trying to trick you. You get along with your teammates every day...is it one of your teammates? , so you are tempted this time, right?"

Shen Xike said: "I won't promise anyone before I break up with you. This is a matter of principle. I'm not that kind of person."

Jiang Nanhui's expression was extremely painful, this sentence already showed Shen Xike's determination.

"The rest of the way, you can't go with me."

"The relationship between two people can't be replaced by someone else just because they just can't stay with each other every day." Jiang Nanhui suddenly raised his voice, "Isn't this too unfair to me?"

"But I think so." Shen Xike said, "Our circles of life have not intersected for a long time. What I need most now is someone who can walk side by side with me."

Jiang Nanhui closed his eyes, he still didn't give up, he was still trying: "Xiaoxi, I assure you, as long as we are together, I will never change my mind, I will stand behind you, you can see it when you turn around."

Shen Xike shook her head, but Jiang Nanhui's humble desire was met with a sentence: "Nanhui, let's break up."

Jiang Nanhui's world fell apart.

"If this continues, I will only bring you more harm."

"I never regret falling in love with you, thank you for taking care of me these five years."

After closing the suitcase and pulling out the lever, Shen Xike walked back to the entrance again. It only took him 5 minutes from entering to leaving.

In 5 minutes, the five-year relationship was brought to an end.Jiang Nanhui was hit by the word "break up" and couldn't move, his mind was buzzing.

The door was opened, and Shen Xike's last voice in this room was: "Nan Hui, you have to be well."

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