After falling out of her online dating, she was targeted by vinegar and school grass

Give me a reason and let you go

Yu Xian suffered from insomnia that night.

Right after sending that text message.

As soon as he closed his eyes, he was filled with the scenes of getting along with Jiang Jinnian in the past. It was like a movie was being played, and the time was fleeting. Some events seemed to happen just yesterday.

Yu Xian turned over on the bed, pressed his elbows under his head, bent his knees and nestled under the quilt and opened his eyes.

The pounding heartbeat was particularly obvious in the silence of the night.

I don't know when I fell asleep, but I always feel that I am still awake in my subconscious. In my sleep, there seems to be a hazy figure passing by infinitely, and I can't get rid of it like a shadow.

Then that hazy figure flashed mist-like sharp claws and grabbed his neck suddenly, pain and suffocation hit him head-on.

Yu Xian was awakened by fright, his back felt chilly, even a few drops of cold sweat came out from the corner of his forehead, and the pain in his neck seemed to be still there.

After throwing back the quilt and turning on the light, the room became brighter. It was almost one o'clock in the morning on the clock hanging on the wall.

Yu Xian sat on the bed in a daze for a while, and after recovering, he looked for the mobile phone that was charging on the bedside table.

As soon as it was unlocked, there were several unread messages, but they were all from He Zhijun.

—[Friend Verification Message] He Zhijun: Pass quickly, you must be very interested in this matter.

The time display is one hour ago.

Yu Xian rubbed the center of his brows, he didn't understand that He Zhijun was so weird, he added him several times in a row, and this time he simply clicked through.

Unexpectedly, this time He Zhijun sent him a message in seconds.

—He Zhijun: I know you are gay, and I know who you like.

When Yu Xian saw these keywords, his brain went blank, as if an old-fashioned TV suddenly lost its signal.

The things buried in the bottom of my heart were suddenly revealed, and the feeling of suffocation and despair in the nightmare swept over again. I even lost the strength to type for a while, and my knuckles trembled slightly involuntarily.

He read the news from He Zhijun again in disbelief, and his first reaction was how did He Zhijun know about it.

It took Yu Xian a long time to type and reply.

—Happy Little Fish: Don't make rumors, it's against the law to spread rumors.

—He Zhijun: I have all the evidence and I even took photos, so don’t be stubborn.

—Happy Little Fish: Oh.

This time, Yu Xian directly typed a tone word in a bad mood, and after blackmailing and deleting friends again, he collapsed on the bed and felt a headache, and his heart was a little flustered.

After deleting the friend, the message box will disappear automatically.

His news list doesn't have a single page, only two at the top, one is Ye Juanli and the other is Jiang Jinnian.

Jiang Jinnian's profile picture used to be blank, but now it is replaced with a photo of himself standing under a street lamp looking sideways at the distant scenery.

Even the circle of friends has started to operate, and it is not like before that there is nothing.

"Hey."

Yu Xian looked at Jiang Jinnian's name and sighed.

...

the following afternoon.

There was no sound in the room, and fell into a weird silence. Zhou Haoxu sat on the sofa and threw a candy to Yu Xian, and said, "I guess he was just joking, you and Who doesn't have any intimate behavior at school..."

Yu Xian squeezed the candy and didn't feel like eating it, so he put it back.

Zhou Haoxu couldn't think of any ideas when he saw that people were restless, as if the sky was about to fall.

"He Zhijun's grandson, I'm really convinced. I'm afraid of talking nonsense now. If this gets out, it will really be over."

"I was also afraid that he would talk nonsense." Yu Xian said wearily.

Zhou Haoxu patted Yu Xian on the shoulder in relief and said, "It's okay, don't think too much, anyway, I will accompany you."

"it is good."

After sending Zhou Haoxu away, Yu Xian sat alone in the living room looking at the small ornamental fish tank placed on the coffee table.

The algae at the bottom of the fish tank floated slowly with the current, and the fine sand floated up and then slowly floated down. Two knuckle-sized goldfish happily swung their tails and shuttled inside the artificial stone.

Looking at the fish, Yu Xian lost his mind again.

He didn't know what to do with himself now.

Maybe you can fight bravely like Zhou Haoxu said, and take the initiative to confess, but you are afraid that if you are rejected, you will not even be able to be friends and you will be disgusted by the other party.

And he is a person who is not good at words. If such a day really comes, he will definitely stutter to the point where he cannot speak a complete sentence.

For a moment, Yu Xian was a little envious of the free-swimming fish in the fish tank, at least they didn't have to feel emotional distress.

It wasn't until Ye Juanli came back that she could see that Yu Xian was unhappy, but she didn't want to ask more, so she could only order more food for her son.

I endured the emotions for a day and finally collapsed after seeing a stack of envelopes I wrote when I was in junior high school.

Yu Xian was sitting in front of the desk, pinching a photo with his hands, stroking the edge of the photo with his fingers, and after a while, big teardrops fell on the center of the photo.

He raised his hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of his eyes, but it was difficult to control his emotions once he got emotional, the tears gradually blurred his eyes, and he felt aggrieved and uncomfortable in his heart.

The first drawer of the desk contained all of Yu Xian's worries, and there was a special photo inside.

He cut out the graduation photo at the beginning, and then pasted himself and Jiang Jinnian together. Now that he saw it, he found it inexplicably annoying, and scolded himself for being naive in his heart, feeling that all of this was his own beautiful fantasy.

There was no way he and Jiang Jinnian could be together.

Ye Juanli was still knitting a sweater in the living room, Yu Xian didn't even dare to cry too loudly, and could only watch everything spread out on the table with silent tears.

The first envelope was written by him at the sports meeting in the first volume of the second year of junior high school. In it, he talked about his daily life and congratulated the other party for winning No.1 in long-distance running and high jump.

At that time, I hid the envelope in the wide sleeve of my school uniform and stood at the door of the opposite class, thinking that if I could meet him, I would quickly hand it to Jiang Jinnian and then run away.

In the end, I didn't send it out because I was too cowardly.

The same goes for every subsequent envelope.

I wrote about [-] letters back and forth in two years, and I wrote as soon as I thought of it.

But I never sent it out, so I can only keep it for myself.

These envelopes have been kept by Yu Xian for five years, and some of the handwriting has faded, but the mood at that time is still the same as it is now, and has not changed at all.

...

Jiang Jinnian recently felt that he was rejected again, being avoided every day.

In the morning between classes, he saw Yu Xian walking in the middle of the line, and before he walked in, he saw that Yu Xian quickly lowered his head and slipped away like a frightened rabbit.

This situation continued for several days.

Yu Xian clutched the cup filled with hot water and warmed his hands and sat back in his seat. He was so guilty these days that he didn't even dare to look at Jiang Jinnian.

I usually can't see it when I want to see it, but now when I don't want to see it, the other party dangles in front of me every day, and often bumps into it head-on.

Chen Su put on his own clothes over the school uniform today. The hat and a pair of bear ears looked very cute. After sitting back in his seat, he looked out of the window and asked, "The little girl who used to play with you a while ago Where's the handsome guy? Why don't you come?"

Yu Xian was stunned for a moment before realizing that Chen Su was referring to Meng Zhou.

It was true that he hadn't seen Meng Zhou for quite a while. Meng Zhou used to come to him often, but he hadn't seen him since that day when the other party said a lot of inexplicable and difficult things.

"By the way, he seemed to have something for you that day. When you weren't here, he put it in your drawer and said it was very important for me to let you know. But I was too busy and forgot." Chen Su said embarrassingly. .

"When did it happen?"

"Just before the holiday."

Yu Xian went to find Meng Zhou before evening self-study, and went to the door of the other class to find someone. Meng Zhou happened to be in the classroom at the moment.

"Why are you here?" Meng Zhou immediately stood up from his seat and waved to Yu Xian to let him in, with a hint of surprise in his tone.

Yu Xian sat down in the empty seat next to Meng Zhou, not knowing what to say for a while.

"I thought you never wanted to see me again," Meng Zhou said.

Yu Xian was a little confused and didn't understand what the other party meant, and before he could answer Meng Zhou started a new topic.

He was not used to sitting in other people's classes for a while and then said that he was going back.

Meng Zhou sent him all the way to the teaching building of Building B before leaving.

It was pitch black outside, and for some reason, even the street lights were not turned on tonight, and the evening wind blew on my face, making my cheeks sore, and I felt warmer when I walked into the stairwell without the wind.

When he reached the corner of the third floor, Yu Xian kept walking with his head buried, but was suddenly blocked by an arm.

Just about to ask who is it? He looked up and saw that it was Jiang Jinnian, but when the question came to his lips, he swallowed it instantly.

The temperature was already cold tonight, but now that I met Jiang Jinnian, I somehow felt that the surrounding air was a little colder.

Jiang Jinnian didn't dare to look at him when he saw that the other party's eyes were dodging. Perhaps it was because of the cold. The tip of the other party's nose was flushed, and even his cheeks were flushed. His entire lower face was buried in a soft scarf, and his long and curly eyelashes It is more obvious after the other party lowers his eyes.

Seeing the cowardly look of the other party, he couldn't say anything harsh.

"Who is that man?" Jiang Jinnian's tone was very flat.

It was the first time Yu Xian saw Jiang Jinnian looking at him with such an expression. Usually, his tone was very calm, as if he was accommodating himself. He had never been like this before.

Due to the oppressive feeling of height, the distance between the two of them was so close that he was a little apprehensive.

"One... a sophomore in high school, just ordinary friends." Yu Xian swallowed his saliva and whispered.

"Then why did you avoid me in the past few days? Give me a reason and let you go." Jiang Jinnian took the other's wrist and held it firmly in the palm of his hand with a light smile.

Yu Xian felt that Jiang Jinnian's warm palm pressed against his cold wrist, and his brain was empty and he was stupid.

"I…"

Yu Xian struggled slightly, but unexpectedly the other party's grip tightened even more.

Jiang Jinnian couldn't bear to hurt Yu Xian, but he didn't expect red marks to appear on his skin and tender flesh, and he almost couldn't bear to let go and let him go.

Yu Xian really didn't know how to answer, thinking in his mind whether he should just take this time to confess his love, after all, he really couldn't make up a suitable reason for a while.

But he was also afraid that Jiang Jinnian would hate him if he failed to confess.

"I... because I..."

Looking directly at Jiang Jinnian's handsome face, Yu Xian felt that his legs were a little soft and wanted to lower his head and look away, but was forced to raise his head again, and the words of confession were ready to come out.

Jiang Jinnian was frightened like a little rabbit meeting a big bad wolf in a fairy tale, the corners of Jiang Jinnian's eyes turned red and trembled. In the end, he couldn't bear to press the other party, and felt that his behavior exceeded the limit of friends.

Helplessly smiled and said: "I'm sorry about today's matter, if you really don't want to see me, you can tell me, don't hide from me, I won't come to you again."

The author says:

I can only say that the characters of both of them are not perfect. Yu Xian's character is just like this. If he is asked to change it, he probably won't be able to change it for a while. After the two of them know each other's feelings, they will be able to be sweet. In order to prevent it from ending in the future Being scolded, let me say orz in advance