[Japanese] These days of finding Sudou

Taniguchi, who was in the dark, vaguely remembered him when he was seventeen or eighteen a long time ago. At that time, when he heard Achi say that Sudou was not the son of a private school teacher, he seemed to have a feeling of being deceived.After that, the private school was closed, and he didn't see Sudou again.Although his body relaxed a lot, he didn't stop thinking about that Sudou.

Taniguchi was sitting on a chair in the room, propping his head with one hand and hitting the table with the other.Occasionally glance at the calendar hanging on the wall.Four days have passed since the date we agreed to go out to play.

During the private school's vacation, he had made an appointment with Sudou to go out to play.But right now, he doesn't want to go out, he just wants to stay at home in a daze.He didn't know how he felt about Sudou and where he put Sudou, and he couldn't explain why he kept thinking about Sudou.Generally speaking, Sudou is indeed very beautiful. This is a feeling that is different from boys and girls. The body is also slightly slender, which makes people have a desire to protect.However, it is a bit unbelievable that this has become the object of his constant attention.

Taniguchi stroked his hair a little irritably, and the voice of his mother calling him to go out to do something came from outside the room.He responded with his body, and when he left the room, he glanced at the calendar and felt even more irritable, so he took off the calendar and threw it aside, closed the door and went out.

The fifth day, the sixth day, this day has been gray since the early morning, and it started to rain lightly after a while.Taniguchi sat across the window rail, putting his hands in his pockets and watching the light rain.There was a potted plant right in front of him, and the raindrops from the eaves splashed onto the leaves, making it look lush and green.He pulled a piece casually, put it in his mouth and drank it, staring at the thin rain and mist in a daze.

I don't know if Sudou still remembers agreeing to hang out with him, it should be impossible, it's been six days.Besides, he just came here to play around here, maybe he had already gone out with his family to enjoy himself.But……

Taniguchi withdrew his hand from his pocket and touched his heart upwards, where it was beating faster irregularly just now.

Taniguchi blushed unconsciously.

He turned around and looked at the calendar that had been thrown aside, gritted his teeth suddenly, turned over and jumped out of the window, took the bamboo hat and ran outside.

"Mom, I'll go out for a while and I'll be right back!"

"Hey, what are you doing out in the rain?"

I heard my mother's puzzled question from inside the house, but Taniguchi didn't have time to answer, so he ran out.

Running all the way, looking around along the way.The rain fell down the edge of the hat, and the shoulders were already wet.

Taniguchi couldn't help laughing at his behavior as he ran, but he still ran all the way to the private school.When entering from the front, it was silent inside, there was no one there, and only the slight rustling of raindrops falling on the veins of leaves was heard.The gate of the private school has also been locked, and everything is immersed in the hazy rain and fog.

Taniguchi took a breath, his face turned pale from the cold rain.He stood still for a while before moving, feeling his knees were a little stiff.He walked up the long corridor of the private school and looked in through the paper window for a while, then walked around the private school along the long corridor.

There was no one, only the sound of my own heavy footsteps and breathing was heard from the beginning to the end.

Sure enough... Do I still think too much? !

Taniguchi couldn't help sneering.

"Sudou..." Frustration hit like a wave, one after another.Taniguchi felt as if he was involved in some inexplicable vortex.But he didn't expect that he would call out Sudou's name inexplicably, and then he did the same. Now he is running around in the private school, calling out Sudou's name.

The door of the private school yard was gently pushed open, Taniguchi turned his head abruptly, and saw Sudou standing by the door.

He was all wet and looked even thinner.His face was also pale, and the camel-colored hair was pressed against his cheeks, making his face look even smaller.

"Mr. Taniguchi." He smiled at him with curved eyes, but he seemed to have no strength.

Taniguchi immediately ran down from the corridor of the private school and ran to him: "Hey! Why are you all wet, didn't you have an umbrella?" Then he hurriedly took off the bamboo hat on his head and put it on his head.

Sudou narrowed his eyes, as if he was about to pass out at any moment.He smiled lightly: "I didn't expect to leave in such a hurry this morning, but Mr. Taniguchi, you are finally here. At first I wondered if you forgot to make an appointment with me. But it doesn't matter now, Mr. Taniguchi, we are going There?"

"You...have you been waiting for me for the past six days?" Taniguchi was surprised.

Sudou turned his head and looked around: "But it's raining today and I don't know where to go, why don't you accompany me around, Mr. Taniguchi. No no, Mr. Taniguchi, you are also wet, so you should come back and change your clothes. I'm sick. Illness is a painful thing, making people feel lonely and boring." Sudou muttered silently, turned and walked forward a few steps.

Looking at his slender and thin back, Taniguchi felt that he was even thinner than what he saw before.Taniguchi was at a loss for what to do with the guilt in his heart and his wanton speculation about Sudou before.Taniguchi clenched his fists tightly, and the tiny raindrops flowing down his hair into his mouth made him feel bitter.He stood behind Sudou, and it took a long time before he said intermittently: "Actually... I knew it, but I didn't come on purpose after knowing our agreement... because, I heard Achi say, you are not the teacher's son... ...so, who are you?"

The figure in front of him stopped for a moment, the rain became a little heavy at this moment, and the surroundings were surrounded by the rustling sound of leaves being beaten.Taniguchi raised his head, and the mist in front of his eyes became more blurred.Then, he saw the small figure in front of him turn around, Sudou's eyes became sharper and brighter because of the rain.

Sudou looked at him blankly, Taniguchi was not used to seeing this expression for the first time. "It's really uncomfortable for people who don't have a definite identity, Mr. Taniguchi." At the end, Sudou still laughed.

"No...nor..."

"Actually, I have often encountered this kind of treatment before. When I was young, I wanted to play with people, but I was isolated after I learned my identity. I am used to these, but I feel a little lonely alone. I want personal companionship. The time I go out is too short, and I know very few things. I am afraid to go outside alone, but I hope to go out to play. In this way, I grew up slowly, and then I met Mr. Taniguchi. This made me I feel very happy. So, Mr. Taniguchi, are you here to say goodbye to me today?"

"No... I'm just..." Taniguchi didn't dare to look into his eyes, and stared at the corner of the wall with his head tilted, speechless.

"Then what is it?" Sudou's voice paused, "My life experience, and the treatment I have suffered. In fact, I don't know if this is my fault. I just want to be with you." Living like a normal person, I can't choose my birth. I don't know... just because, just because my mother was a singing girl and she abandoned me, so I must be treated unequally?! Because she abandoned me and Sudou-sensei took in me who happened to be thrown in front of his house because of the pain of losing a child, so do I have to have such painful memories?!"

The voice he heard began to tremble, and the content he heard began to become more explosive, Taniguchi slowly turned his head to look at Sudou: "Sudou...why are you crying?"

Sudou froze for a moment, then lowered his head with a wry smile, and wiped the tears on his face with his hands. "I'm sorry, Mr. Taniguchi, it seems that I still haven't grown up and let you see bad things."

"No." Taniguchi walked over slowly.

"Today should be the last time we meet, I will return the bamboo hat to you sometime." Sudou turned around while talking.

"That's why I said... you should listen to what I have to say!" I wanted to control my voice, but finally yelled out.Taniguchi was not clear, watching the other party slowly disappear from his field of vision, although he said it was his fault, but his heart seemed to be burning with a source of fire, and he was so angry that he couldn't bear it.He grabbed Sudou's wrist, forcing him to look back at him. "Why is a person here talking to himself, why is a person waiting here, if someone doesn't come, it's okay for a day or two, aren't you an idiot if you are still waiting for so long?! With your personality , I don’t think it’s an exaggeration to be tricked thousands of times!”

"Taniguchi...sir..." Sudou looked at him blankly without reacting, and the tears flowed down his cheeks without wiping.

"We've been playing together for so long, shouldn't sincerity be the most basic criterion?! And, even if I misunderstood you... No, I can't say that, thinking in my heart that if the person I like is deceiving myself Can you understand the complicated and tangled feelings?"

"Like?" Sudou didn't respond, but just stared at him more blankly.

And Taniguchi also realized what he said, and his whole face turned red in an instant.Looking directly at the face in front of him that he had been thinking about for so long made him so nervous that he couldn't speak.

You idiot, why did you say it without using your brain?

Now he didn't dare to hold his hands anymore, Taniguchi ran aside as soon as he let go, shy and annoyed.

"It means, Mr. Taniguchi, do you like me? Do you like me who is not valued and humble?" Sudou couldn't help laughing, "Don't Mr. Taniguchi know that I am a man? Or, like others Want to play tricks on me."

Hearing the other party's reply, Taniguchi immediately turned around, with a more serious expression than before. After all, it would be very troublesome if Sudou misunderstood him.

"Whether it's a child of a geisha or a child of a poor man, your life is your own and should not be influenced by others. Even if you are rejected by others, you still have Mr. Sudou, and I will be by your side!"

Sudou chuckled, and wiped the water from his face: "Only people with a rich family background like Mr. Taniguchi can say such things."

The rain is getting lighter and lighter, and there is a faint fishy smell of soil in the air.The lead-colored clouds in the sky also receded slowly, and a few beams of white light were projected down to illuminate the puddles on the ground.

Taniguchi looked at Sudou, and unconsciously became more relaxed.He looked up at the gradually brightening scenery around him, lowered his head and bent his eyes towards Sudou and stretched out his hand: "I have never been in love, and I don't know if I like girls like others. But, are you willing to accompany me to the The time when I found a girl I like?"

I know you won't believe me just by talking about it, but someday you'll know that I mean it to you.As long as we are together for that long, I can get your definite answer.Are you right, Sudou?