Every day after the marriage, I prepare a funeral for my husband

He stares at him, wants to see him open his eyes, smile at him, talk to him.

But he just lay there motionless, with a perfect side face and shallow breathing, like a statue of a god, but he couldn't feel a trace of life.

He stared at him dazedly, and the tears that had accumulated in his eyelids welled up and fell down in big ones: "Last night I dreamed that you woke up, and when I walked out of the bedroom, I saw you sitting at the dining table feeding Jiaer." Fan, talking to Xing'er gently, looking at you at that time, the feeling of sore eyes and tears falling down is too real."

After finishing speaking, he pulled his hand over, gently closed his eyes, and whispered: "Then I'll go to bed first, and you will wake up tomorrow, it's a deal, okay..."

The moonlight was bleak, and the shadow of the candle danced, shining on the bed through the bead curtain. Under the dim light, their bodies were leaning against each other tightly, so warm, but so lonely.

When he woke up the next day, the hangover Nan Su had a headache, and his throat felt like it was on fire.

However, a heart gradually began to beat violently. He endured it for a long time before he began to silently count down: one, two, three...

The man faced him directly, with his arms lightly around his waist, still maintaining the posture from yesterday, nothing has changed.

Sudden sore nose, Nan Su quickly lowered his head, tears rolled back and forth in his eyes, but he still resisted not falling.

After a long time, he smiled disappointedly, and slowly put a kiss on Dianchen's lips, and whispered: "Forget it, you can go to sleep, anyway, you didn't just do the thing that made me cry once or twice."

After finishing speaking, he got up, took out the washing tools and hot water, and gently shaved off the green stubble on the man's chin.

As the king of Qingyuan, he didn't have much time for himself to grieve.

It has been a few years since the new emperor ascended the throne, but he has not made any solid political achievements so far. The flattening of Daxia is his first step in establishing his great achievements. As the main logistics force of the Yan army, Nansu not only has to manage the front line, but also It is necessary to lead the common people to open up wasteland and cultivate Taoism, open up trade and open markets, build water conservancy, build arsenals, open schools and businesses, and so on.

A series of trivial matters entangled him, but he had also cultivated a few confidantes over the years. Recently, he deliberately delegated power and spent more time with his two children.

Although Xing'er refused to study, she was actually a very smart child, and she could almost read all the characters that should be recognized. Nan Su felt that the time had come, so she took out a big box——opened it, and found that many of the letters inside were at the corners Turned yellow.

He hugged the child, sat under the cherry tree that had not yet bloomed, and fanned the child with a fan.

"Baby."

Xing'er took the letter and read it to herself one by one: "Today, Dad did something sorry for Boss Ling. The waiter who served the food took leave, so I went to the front to replace him. But there were really too many people that day, and the waiter also couldn't help it. I was too busy, so a customer stopped me, pointed at the menu and asked me, is this delicious? I smiled shyly, and when I turned around and saw that Boss Ling was not there, I whispered to him, "It's not delicious~"

After reading this, Nan Su was stunned: So he did such a thing before?

"Hehehe," Xing'er laughed so hard, she turned her head and said, "Daddy, why are you so sincere?"

Nan Su coughed softly, seized the opportunity and said: "To be a human being is to be honest. The Goddess Guanyin is watching your every word and deed above her head. Xing'er, many living beings can only be pigs or dogs. If you have the opportunity to be a human being, you have to Be honest and do what you should do, for example, if a child does not study hard, it is dishonest."

Xing'er said "Oh" and put her arms around his neck and said, "So, you are a prince, so you have to do what a prince should do?"

Nan Su felt that the child was enlightened, and quickly said: "Yes, yes, Dad is so busy every day, isn't it just for you and your brother?"

Unexpectedly, Xing'er immediately picked up another letter and read aloud: "Baby, Daddy met your sixth brother today. I was caught off guard. Daddy just ran away, didn't even do work, and went home crying for a long time." , lost seven catties—”

Nan Su was speechless for a while, and only listened to the child continue to read: "Oh, but think about it, most people are like this. Whoever falls in love doesn't want to be sad, sad, and then want to be separated. Don't work or eat for a few days What? What are you doing, you still want to be happy, is your impure wishful thinking?"

Xing'er shuddered so disgustingly, she turned her head and said in disgust, "Father, you have double standards."

Nan Su was a little embarrassed, and didn't know if he was crazy at that time, why he wrote everything up, and was about to defend himself, when Xing'er asked, "Father, where is Sixth Brother? I remember, he accompanied I played with windmills."

Strangely, at this moment, Nan Su didn't feel sad.

He just looked up at the cherry blossom tree on the top and said, "Your sixth brother has gone to another place."

"Why don't you come and see me?"

"You'll come when you grow up."

"Oh, how is he doing then?"

Nan Su raised the corner of his mouth slightly: "Of course, he doesn't have to worry about anything every day, isn't he having a good time?"

Xing'er obviously wanted to ask, but Nan Su immediately started to tickle him. The child giggled and struggled non-stop. Nan Su hugged him tightly and said, "The cherry blossoms are about to bloom. When the time comes, Daddy How about taking you and your brother to enjoy the flowers?"

Xing'er clenched her fists and said excitedly: "Then you won't be leaving for a while, right?"

In fact, there are business matters to be dealt with, but Nan Su thought about it, nodded and said: "Well, I'm not leaving."

That night, Xing'er ate a big bowl of rice, and after eating, she took the initiative to find her husband and said that she wanted to learn to recite poems. Nan Su sat with him in the study for a long time, holding Jia'er in one hand, and reviewing official documents with the other.

Tea was placed next to it, but it remained untouched.

Ping Shun just came over from Dian Chen, seeing this, he stretched out his hand to Jia'er and coaxed, "Second Highness, I'll hug you."

Nan Su was reluctant, shook his head, and asked, "How is it?"

Ping Shun knew what he was asking, so he said, "The medicine is good today, and Dr. Li's acupuncture is also going well."

"Ah."

"Daddy, I'm done reciting!"

At this time, Xing'er ran over, stood like a little adult with her hands behind her back, and recited the poem she had just learned to Nan Su.

After reciting it, he immediately poked Jiaer's cheek and said, "Jiajia, give brother a laugh."

When the little guy heard the words, he immediately gave him a bright smile regardless of whether he understood or not.Xing'er happily showed off to the gentleman next to her: "Look, how smart my brother is, he can understand me at such a young age."

The gentleman replied with a warm smile and then praised the two children.Only Pingshun, the idiot, frowned, and reminded thoughtfully: "The Second Highness always has a smiling face when he sees everyone, and he doesn't look at you alone."

Xing'er was taken aback for a moment, and immediately pursed her mouth.

"Okay, okay," Nan Su said with a smile, "Ping Shun, take them down to wash up."

The mansion was as usual, the days passed day by day, and the weather gradually warmed up.

There is already a faint fragrance of flowers in the air, and the thin mist in the morning is almost exhausted after being exposed to the sun, and it seems that there is a good scene everywhere.

With a soft "poof", Nan Su stepped over the threshold, wearing a belt, and strode out, but after a few steps, he suddenly stopped and looked up at the radiant cherry blossoms in the courtyard Tree.

The wind blows, and the pink petals flutter with the wind, like dancing butterflies, or like fairy flowers scattered by a goddess.

Another year of cherry blossoms.

Nan Su smiled slightly, and immediately turned around and walked in.

Beside the bed, he took the man's hand and said softly: "Brother, the cherry blossoms are blooming again. Tomorrow, Xinger, Jiaer, and I will go to see them together. It's a pity that I can't bring you, but don't worry, I will pick some at that time." placed by your side."

Afterwards, he went to the shogunate and has been busy with political affairs.

Now that Da Xia and Lin Dan are the meat on the chopping board, Qin Shize sent letters one after another, urging him to hurry over there.

There are a total of 28 treaties to be signed, and Qingyuan is adjacent to Lindan, and he is the owner of Qingyuan, so naturally he has to worry about these things, not to mention, Qin Shize is also giving him a chance to not give people the truth .

Although after Dianxu ascended the throne, no one mentioned Qingyuan's collusion with Lindan, but after the war, the stage of civil servants came, and the situation in the court changed, who can tell, if there is a conflict in the future, this matter It will definitely be taken out to make a fuss.

Instead of letting people wash the pot, it is better to pour out the water first.

Nan Su sat from early morning to evening, during which time he didn't even eat food. He raised his head when he suddenly felt that he couldn't read clearly, and asked, "Why is it so dark outside?"

The guard went out to have a look, and came back soon, saying: "Report to the lord, there are dark clouds outside, it seems to be raining."

"Oh,"

Nan Su rubbed his brows, got up and said: "Then go back to the house, it's inconvenient to go out for a while."

"Yes."

When the sedan chair landed at the gate of the palace, a dazzling flash of lightning suddenly flashed across the sky, and then a thunder that shook the earth exploded overhead, making people's hearts jump.

After a while, the wind began to roar, and the dark clouds above the head rolled and galloped, pressing down on the earth like a thousand troops.

At today's dinner table, Nan Wan also brought her two sons over, and when she saw Nan Su, she smiled and said: "Today we simply live in the mansion, and tomorrow we will go to enjoy the flowers together."

How did she know about viewing flowers?Nan Su was startled, then shook his head and smiled, "Xing'er has such a big mouth."

Nan Wan frowned, pretending to be angry and said: "It seems that you really don't want to enjoy the flowers with us."

"No."

Nan Su sat down at the table, took the towel handed by the servant to clean his hands, and asked, "What about the second sister? It's good to go together."

"She followed your second brother-in-law back to her husband's house," Nanwan said while calling the children over for dinner, "Your second brother-in-law's grandma is not in good health, maybe it's just a matter of these few days. Junior, you have to go back."

"Ah."

As they ate, they chatted about homely things, and the children chatted together, eating more than anyone else, while Mrs. Zeng looked at her grandchildren happily.

In fact, they are no different from any ordinary family in the world.

After a while, the rain fell from the eaves, and the downpour poured down.

Then, Nan Su suddenly realized something, put down his chopsticks, walked to the door, and looked outside solemnly, only to see that there was an extremely wide bead curtain hanging between the sky and the earth, and it was so misty that he couldn't see anything.

Nan Wan asked, "What's wrong?"

"It's raining too much."

After Nan Su answered, he summoned a guard and said, "Put on your coir raincoat and go to the cherry blossom forest outside the city."

Half an hour later, the guard came back, his clothes were wet and stuck to his calf, and he replied, "My lord, the rain is mixed with hail, and the cherry blossom forest outside the city has been completely knocked down."

"Ah!" Xing'er yelled, then lowered her head and said in frustration, "Then we won't be able to enjoy the flowers tomorrow."

The little guy seemed to have a kind of obsession with cherry blossoms, Nan Su couldn't bear it, so he comforted him: "It's okay, maybe the rain will pass in a while."

Nan Wan also came over and said, "That's right, Xing'er, shall we hang up the Sunny Sky Talisman with our brothers?"

However, it rained harder and harder.

A gust of wind rushed in, and the hailstones crackled on the steps, the small ones were like glass balls, and the big ones were like eggs, making the rockery outside the house jingle.

The three brothers Xing'er, Jun'er, and Zheng'er squatted at the door, each face uglier than the other.

"In this case, all the cherry blossoms in the city will wither..."

Hearing such a sad tone, Nan Su sighed, and could only walk over to them and say, "It's okay, let's watch together next year, shall we?"

Jun'er and Zheng'er were okay, after nodding, they followed Nan Wan to wash up.

Only Xing'er was still looking out of the window eagerly, refusing to take a step away, Nan Su touched his little head, and said: "Baby, go to bed, okay? My younger brother has already fallen asleep."

But Xing'er threw herself into his arms and cried, "No, if you can't see the cherry blossoms tomorrow, you have to leave in the morning."

In fact, it was indeed intended to be so.

Although Nan Su felt sorry for the child, he didn't want to spoil him all the time, so he purposely put on a straight face and said, "Little man, why are you crying all the time? It's not like he won't come back after he's gone. He will definitely bring you and your brother a gift in a few days." , okay?"

But Xing'er was stubborn: "I want to see the cherry blossoms, I want to see the cherry blossoms."

"Now that the cherry blossoms are all over the city, where are the cherry blossoms for you to see? Be good, baby, let's see them next year, okay? By then, my brother will be able to walk steadily. You take him by the hand, and Dad will take you there."

"Don't!" The child pushed him away and ran out the door: "You always talk too much! I don't know what to do next year!"

"Star!"

Nan Su chased to the door, and saw the child running into the bedroom along the corridor, Ping Shun hurriedly chased after him, but was blocked outside the door.

Ugh……

Nan Su suddenly felt tired, waved his hands, and didn't say anything else, but after giving Ping Shun a few words, he went back to the study to pack up the official documents he had prepared.

The heavy rain didn't subside until midnight. Nan Su opened the window and saw that the plants outside were all wilted, not to mention the delicate flowers, even the small potted welcoming pine trees were knocked down. Many branches and leaves.

With a sigh, he found an umbrella and headed for the bedroom.

The whole Qingyuan seemed to have fallen asleep, he stepped over the puddle, breathed the fresh coldness in the air, and unconsciously tightened his outer robe.

"Tick tock-"

The sound of rain falling on the paper umbrella came from a distance, Nan Su stopped and frowned.

A strict foot-restriction order was imposed around his bedroom. Except for Dr. Li and Shun Shun, everyone else would be dragged out and punished even if they approached the courtyard wall!

At this moment, Ping Shun is with Xing'er, Dr. Li also went out to buy medicinal materials two days ago, who is in his hospital?

For some reason, Nan Su's heart tightened suddenly, he unconsciously quickened his pace, and pushed the door open with a "bang"——

Then, he froze in place.

On the day he returned to Qingyuan, he planted a cherry blossom tree in the courtyard. The flowers bloomed and withered for several years, and he stood alone under the tree like this all the time, looking up at the beautiful and sweet...

"..."

Hearing the sound, the man standing on the ladder turned his head, a white shirt was wetly stuck to his body, his black hair was shawl, his eyes were like a cold lake, just a quiet glance, he had already taken away thousands of brilliance in Nansu's world .

The rain was still falling, shadows blocking their sight.

Dianchen looked at him quietly, holding a paper umbrella in his hand like him, but it covered a branch of cherry blossoms.The courtyard was full of fallen petals, but the cherry blossoms under the umbrella were decorated in clusters, and they were not disturbed by the wind and rain at all, and they were still lush and moving.

"Tomorrow...you... enjoy the flowers."

The man hadn't spoken for a long time, and his voice was a little unclear, but to Nan Su's ears, every word seemed to knock on his heart, making him tremble.

It turned out that he heard it.

he heard...

Nan Su looked at the man, his eyes were like a traveler on the desert looking up at a mirage, like an abandoned child looking at his hometown in his sleep, like an unbelievable illusion, but he was reluctant to look away, longing, but Know that you can't get it anyway.

It was the expectation of more than a thousand nights, but the hope was completely shattered at the moment of daylight.

Nan Su half opened his lips, wanting to say something, but his throat seemed to be choked.His vermilion lips were trembling, and he lifted the corners of his mouth little by little, almost shattered, but finally condensed into a curved smile, before the smile lines reached the bottom of his eyes, two lines of clear tears had already fallen, rolling down his face and eyebrows line by line There are joys and sorrows of relief and vicissitudes of life.

Dianchen still looked at him, his eyes were quiet, and there was a trace of hidden pity in the intertwined eyes.

Suddenly Nan Su was so afraid, different from death, different from being exiled. Over the years, he was only so afraid twice.The first time, the moment he dug him out, and the second time, right now.

Is this a dream?

He ran over recklessly, grabbed Dianchen's clothes hem, and looked up at him.

These are the eyebrows, slender, slightly raised, but never really the eyes are higher than the top. This is the eye, cold and quiet, but never let him go without looking back. This is the mouth, a little thin Sharp, but never as heartless as the world says.

The answer he had been looking for was right in front of him, but Nan Su felt his knees were sore and his whole body was weak, and he could no longer bear the cry he suppressed for a long time, and finally let out his lips: "Why did you wake up! I thought you wouldn't wake up again— —”

He choked up and cried, his body trembling slightly, and said over and over again: "I thought you wouldn't wake up—"